merrrrrryyyy little christmas!

our wishes for 09!

oh wow.. im actually blogging again. 3rd time this week i think, what a miracle. probably people are gonna strike 4d liao..

0319hrs. am rather awake still despite walking arnd the whole day and not napping! today was quite a good day spent with jy and sl... haha. was supposed to showoff our superb voices to the world at some ktv place in chinatown, but the rooms are fully booked till jan 5th can you believe it. tho it's not really surprising la since school kids (assuming they form the majority of ktv people) are back to their very own hellhole once more so they'll empty up the place abit.

anw, town was flooded with people as expected. no idea why we chose to go there in the first place, maybe squeezing with people was fun or sth. but we left orchard after awhile anw.

hmmm, dont really celebrate christmas, but i feel this year has been pretty quiet. quiet CNY, quiet holidays, quiet birthday, quiet christmas, quiet new year most probably. quiet not as in boring, just.... ______ (blank). probably the lack of big groups of people celebrating ba. last year there was 1606, ajnb... pity my marketing group didnt organise anything. hmm. and come to think of it i've never gotten the chance to go around and bai4 nian2 like everyone else cus most of the relatives are in msia. seeing how things are now it might never happen. oh well, this year's been abit disappointing if you ask me, really hated 2008. zzz. haha. nvm, it will end in a matter of days..!

so yeah, was walking around with two 'bai2 ka1's the whole day at marina square but i still dragged them all around without any mercy. hehe. they were pretty amazed that my legs werent aching like theirs were. endurance training owing to my dental job..! shopped, crapped, ate, arcade-ed....simply catching up. it's nice. =D and the pics are nice too... gotta steal them from shuling's blog!

and the stupid flu was really irritating throughout the day. blew my nose like nobody's business and im sure thats why my head's hurting now.. haha. maybe the brain will explode from the huge pressure. kinda sounds like grey's anatomy with the blown artery case. was suddenly watching it again on starworld cus the medical cases are always quite interesting tho exaggerating. kinda makes up for the fact that meredith is just oh-so-annoying being her whiny self.

sian, its 0400 already. heard some strange noises again just now so i switched on my fan so that it wont be so quiet. am paranoid that once i turn arnd i would see things.. lol. zzz that reminded me of the nightmare i had the other day. i can still remember that sound. freaking creepy. exactly like that of..... oh no better stop thinking.. scared stiff. shall go now!

nites world... congrats for getting thru the entry, hence some pics for ya!

ill

zzz. im ill AGAIN, suffering from running nose and i think i need a breathing aid or sth. come to think of it i believe i've fallen sick at least 10 times this year. guess im getting weaker by the day. haha.. sian, im seeing the effects of ageing. bahh.

anw, went over to my aunt's house (without sis... AGAIN) for dinner ytd. had so much to eat..! and man was it crowded. it's like a mini gathering for my mom's side relatives. i thought i would die of boredom being the only teenager there but it turned out quite alright ba. altho there was not much for me to do except to play with the dog or my baby cousin. hahah. she's hilarious.. amused by everything, and screaming at everything. chasing the dog around (if i were a dog i'll be scared of her), squealing with joy when she sees the MRT. haha..

blissful childhood moments. i didnt understand most of her words though.. LOL. i suppose shes talking in her own baby lingo.... while her p6 bro is busy slanging away while playing his psp. haha. cute! and im not good at bomberman... rahhh.

anw, they started discussing the issue again, like what to do about the whole thing. dont think they came to a conclusion since the problems have become more serious now. didnt really need to eavesdrop cus they were talking so loudly, and i had to translate all that cantonese on my own.. heh. i understood okay.. ohwell..... just pray that everything will be fine!

hrmss. i feel like watching YESman. sometimes i think i should say yes a little more to liven up my life. probably the biggest regret is to keep hiding and backing away and watching my life pass me by. zzz. courage is what we all need.

alright it's getting late, mom cant wait for me to go to sleep so i can start saving electricity by switching off the laptop and lights. what to do, times are getting real hard, must save this, save that. electricity, water, everything. zzz. nowadays im also walking around without any cash on me... haha.

nights!

and yet, im still wondering...

tyra banks should stop making a fool outta herself

the title speaks for itself... i wanted to watch antm just now but i forgot how irritating tyra banks was and almost got a shock of my life when i saw her doing downright stupid things... and then i remembered, oh ya thats just tyra.

i think she should keep her sanity in check. why did she become flabby and uncool?!! and i cant stand the way the contestants cheered at every single thing she says, or just at the sight of her. i mean, what is there to cheer about?!!! it sorta reminds me of this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xgZKjJt-TkU

MadTv rocks my socks!! i love their parodies of popular tv series and reality shows.. go browse thru if ya'll have the time, its just pure entertainment.

anyhoos, check this out too.....drumline! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a-ONW4hUpMs

really, go watch!! gosh, it's awesome, makes me wanna learn the snares. and maybe teach the aspiring drummer in my estate to start learning RHYTHM. my god, u guys should come stay at my house and observe all the weird people.. :S we have drummers, parade commanders (yeah, weirdd huh) and loud sneezers, coughers... etc.

zzz. hmm anw, my boring blog, i didnt know if people were reading, so i was like, heck it, maybe if i left it alone to rot, new entries might magically appear. i was gonna make it more interesting by putting up a new blogskin, but well... the process is just so tedious and daunting. and the new blogskins.com isnt exactly very user friendly, i prefer the old one. so anw, i got bored after looking at the first ten skins. then i decided that designing stuff (or rather, cutting and pasting html) just wasnt my forte and i went to watch tv instead.

anybody with strong interest in blogskins wanna help me out? =D

so anw, turns out im not going overseas at all this holiday. not as if visiting relatives without sis (she's going phuket!!!) was gonna be real fun or what, but at least it would be.....something. ohwell.

hmmm, long story short, apparently something happened back home in msia. so yeah... sigh. we may not be real close but it still tugs my heart to hear of such happenings. things i thought would never, ever happen to us eventually did, blowing way outta proportion. zzz.

anw, woke up with not only a scratchy sore throat, but also sore ABS and TRICEPS. whahaha.yeah, back to gymming ytd, and boy was it crowded. i forgot its the freaking school holidays and probably everyone's rushing to build up their body for the upcoming christmas and new year. as usual people hogged the abs machine again.. rahh.

okay last event. haha. i found out something really jing4 bao4 ytd and i do think i make a great spy. haha.. i duno why but i am feeling all wooozy and sian-ed by it. is it cus it's him..?

ohwells!!!

december the seven

december the seventh. one word for it.... SHAGGED.

the main gist is that i really appreciated the runners who thanked us for trying our best to meet their drinking demands.. its really quite pressurizing for us as well when the drinks depleted and the never ending flow of runners kept crowding around the drinks table. for a very very long time, all i could see were hands.

as for the runners (and very sadly, mostly singaporeans) who scoffed at us when we were furiously scooping the 100plus from the tub using the cups instead of pouring it from the jugs.. SHAME ON YOU. i cant believe a physically drained person could actually utter comments like "ehhhhh your hands clean or not?!" when he is in need of some energy source. are they freaking kidding me... honestly we would be better off if they had gone ahead and continue another few kilometres in their thirst. maybe we could then be more hygenic without the unappreciative people.

seriously, people who dont appreciate really IRKS me.

and therefore i am still hoping you wont be one of them, but you are.. no different. does the one who loves more really inevitably suffer more? forgeddit, i just hoped you had chosen to leave things differently. and u could start off by not giving me the impression that u find it a freaking chore to talk to me.

haiyaaaaaaaa whatever.... on another note, should i ask?!!!!! hahaha. i think the idea of doing so would be quite weird and uh, desperate? but if i dont then i doubt i'll be seeing him anytime soon... haha. zzzzz. damn you exchange prog! LOL..

alright. shall go. maybe things will turn out okay.

overrrrrrrr

exams over wooohooo. finally man.

was hoping that i could finally spend some time with several groups of people... welll... all i can say is, hopefully so.

5 more days. i seriously pray and wish that maybe, just maybe, something will happen. whatever else, i guess it's just gonna be disappointing.

oh welllllll!

and oh my, sunday is marathon day! tho im not participating, im equally important for the event ok! imagine if the runners have noone to give them drinks.. how to sustain 42km! lol... i dont think i can ever manage 40 over km. maybe human race la. 10km is more realistic for me.

rashes are finally clearing. not as itchy anymore. thank god man. please be gone completely before sunday!!! so that i wont die under the sun. just in time for sentosa outing on the 9th too! hmmm gonna be meeting so many new people. scares me a little (HAHA) but i believe it'll be fun :D cheers to a more interesting uni life!

random thoughts.

its so weird that while my brain's saturated with all the stats and econs knowledge, i can still afford to have other thoughts.

about people. about injustice.

like how everyone else is celebrating the end of their exams without me... haha.. kidding, that, i can understand.

but what i dont get is how on earth can one be THAT thick skinned.

pretentious.. whatever.

i mean if youre indebted to us then the least you could do is to be subtle and try to spare a thought for everyone right..... im sure anyone else would have felt so weird and uneasy by this time already, but nooooo. you just take advantage of the situation. strutting around, using stuff that is not yours, for a longggggg time, not thinking about how we have everything to lose and nothing to gain.. like WTHHH i must say. WTH. i've never seen anyone with such.... a thick skin. maybe you have extra protection i guess..

although u do help us out at times.. seriously, its something we can all live without. so yeah....

and you know how everytime you exclaim "wahhhh this person damn buay paiseh..." and i laugh, its not cus its funny. well maybe it is, i duno. but its probably only cus what i picture in my head is this HUGEEE thought bubble with the words "LOOK WHO'S TALKING"

everytime some bigshot people says in their knowledgeable voice that theres no free lunch in this world, i'm thinking, really? cus if so then why do i feel like some of us are all year round santa clause.

and whyyyyy are you allowing everything to happen. i think youre the only one who's enjoying it. whatever happened to utilitarianism?!!!! i'm so sick of giving things up, especially if theres nothing in it for me. it seems like all people ever do is to take others for granted. human nature..?

oh wellllll just ranting, i'll get over it. or forced to anw.

haha.. im probably as neutral as i can be... besides i shouldnt be feeling anything but panicky for my exams. how come the exam questions are so different from the tutorial....!

sucks and im like having rashes (my friend reckons im allergic to studying LOL) and my foot's hurting. whyyyyy! oh and meow meow has been meowing two days straight... i dont think it's just hungry, if you know what i mean. hahaha.

omg pls bless me with lots of statistical abilities come wed, cus i'll be needing it.. for now, i shall go to bed. work tmr. siannnnn.

intense dieting and working out needed

looking at the pictures from a year and a half ago, i realised that i've not only become fairer (tho im not a dark person to begin with), but way way way way way FATTER.

i should do something about it.... yet i'm lazy.

tell me what i should do to get back in shape? go for jiaolian's training and complete all physical activities with as much intensity as the juniors... HAHAHA. i think that takes courage and sheer determination man...

ok fine i shall figure it out. i need an exercising buddy.

sleep deprived

greetings...! haha. blogging seems so foreign to me now, i've been interacting only with books lately so technology is abit of a no-no for me now. yawns.. damn tired!

had OB exam today, finally cleared one information heavy module (more to go) so im here to de-stress. anw, first exam in NTU.... had quite a sucky seat if you ask me, it's no.10! zz.. its too much to the side man! i prefer the feeling of being surrounded. HAHA and the stupid person pasted the seating arrangement upside down so i headed to the wrong direction and got laughed at by my friend.. hurrss..

anw, i seriously think im losing quite alot of my hair. it seems as tho the area around my study area is permanantly filled with hair.. i feel like a cleaner everyday having to pick em up.. zzz. im intending to have a HAIR MAKEOVER after exams!! hahaha. not sure if i should dye/highlight, but considering!! and and... watch out you stupid curly roots (yes they are making their presence felt yet again)..

BURP. back from lunch at macs. seriously theres nothing to eat in yew tee. all inedible overpriced junk. damn sad, now i feel super fat. shall run tonight!

and yes yes, something i have always wanted to rant when it comes to jogging.. have u ever felt like youre damn exhausted from your run and yet there's an excessive ringing from a bicycle? i swear its the most annoying experience ever. cyclists should not use the walkways... they are called sideWALKS for a reason. seriously, they have no right to ring their stupid bells at us (and worse, rudely and excessively) to get out of the way. if anything, they should be the ones doing so.

and they shouldnt go onto roads either, cus it's just dangerous. basically unless the cyclist is like some super zai tour de france winner they are considered traffic hazards, therefore they should only appear in parks or sth, and go gather their jingly pals (i think its their culture) and STAY OFF MY BACK.

they'd better not ring at me later.. or i might just give them a push when they pass me.

oh and since we're on the ranting mood, i cant stand stupid drivers with no empathy!!! seriously, especially on rainy days when u have no umbrella and you wanna cross the stupid road (mostly jay walk) and there u have this ANNOYING driver taking his own sweet time to move out of the way. what the hell right. he's already in a frigging car... why cant he be abit nicer and let poor people like us cross first. or even if they cant stand jaywalkers they can at least have the decency to move abit faster right.. sigh.

tsk. lol.. that was some verbal dirrhoea. now i feel sleepy. havent been sleeping at proper hours lately. many more sleepless nights to go tho.... zzzz. ohwell.

anw, anyone reading who's yet to finish your exams, GO STUDY!!!! no time no time.. and all the best yar, very soon we can partay. haha.. weird. i hope december will be packed with fun and games. i feel like travelling.

ok i am going abit mad (quoted from sis) so i should go sleep.. hopes i'll wake up in time for my jog.

team POPEYE with PICTURESSS :D

hey all. i just happened to trespass some rather heartwarming blogs about people declaring their love for their bunch of people so i decided i wanna do the same too! LOL. sigh, all that just reminded me of how much i miss AJ, the teachers, 1606 and the team. school just isnt the same without them being an integral part of my life.

i swear, the other time on the train, the air smelt like the container classroom's aircon. those from aj would know that it's a....unique smell that's abit musty. haha. so i was like woahhhh.

okay anw! it's nearing the end of semester, with all the projects clearing one by one. so i think it's apt to show some appreciation for my groupmates too, especially my favourite group from OB&D... popeye! haha. i know it's a lame name but we were assigned the name so it wasnt our fault.

we just had our final presentation on monday, and that was the last group component we had for the module. im sure we all felt quite relieved to some extent after that (some of them have no more presentations left!!!!! *fumes* haha), but it just felt so empty. the few weeks of hardwork had paid off, but it transpired only to the 30 minutes we had.

awwww. so much more to prove.

i'm really glad to have been part of this wonderful team, having fun at the same time working hard. all that slogging is worth it, and also the weight i put on because we kept eating!!! haha. we sure can eat! looking forward to our post-exams celebrations man.

and i'll certainly miss laughing at the econs lecturer or rather, any of the lecturers, with darius. haha. hilarious. wasnt sitting with him today but then when the econs lecturer started going on with her wonderful pronounciation (basically adding an 's' behind everyword and replacing 'l's with 'r's and 'v's with 'w's), i just smsed him:

"so unemployment is inwwwwersely related to inflation?"

his reply almost made me laugh out loud. "no la! is unemploymentsss is inwwwersely related to inflationssss". HAHA.

cheers. enjoy our OB pics. once again, it's us darius, jieyu, jocelyn, homer and kit. :D

without you

morning glory! haha. shucks i REALLY shouldnt be blogging now cus i have tonnes of work waiting to be done.but im so bored. blah.

been drowning in work lately, yet i dont seem to have accomplished anything productive. most of my time was spent on doing silly projects or reports, leaving me no time to study properly. ahha tho i must say, i did manage to slack alot every now and then. like now... i feel like sleeping already.

ANW, i've been trying to follow the Wall Street news these couple of weeks and i must say it's really interesting stuff. it's really complicated but somehow i just want to find out more about subprime and all. and strangely, it was my dentist who got me interested in all these. i think i'll become quite a knowledgeable person with time, cus he's always feeding us with general knowledge.

and i swear he's the best story teller ever. HAHA. i think his life is super dramatic, probably cus he is the type of person who doesnt take nonsense from nobody and isnt afraid to lose his image in public. i wont wanna cross him man...

so, life's been pretty empty these days, hence the lack of entries. the only highlights recently were the f1 qualifying which i went for, and the near completion of my OB project. haha. can u believe it, after presenting soooooo many times, only 2 of them are graded? i still have 4 more to go.. blah. wish me luck.

but before that, i should go back to stats. or should i sleep. dilemma. hahaha. cant wait for nov 27 when exams end. gosh thats 1.5 more months!! so long. but in another perspective, theres only this amount of time i can cram all the info into my brain. i seriously dont get why they wanna have such complicated theories to explain things that are actually so common sensical. sigh.

okok thats 30mins of my life wasted. toodles all.

im here without you baby, but youre still on my lonely mind.
i think about you baby, and i dream about you all the time.

heartache

0504hrs. good morning.

my mom has already woken up and i have yet to go to bed. man.. tired, from all that slogging. i'm barely 50% done with my OB report as of now, after 3 days and nights of slogging. so slow...! haha. oh well. i smell fried fillet now. in the wee hours of the morning.

man...... i should stop listening to secondhand serenade. it keeps taking me back to the past. not good for my plans of moving forward! i thought im okay already from what im feeling these days - indifference - but i guess the heart pangs a lil when i start thinking. how to forget...

sigh. damn sian.

hmmm wonders when u'll return from ur trip. haha. i'd bet it's damn fun huh.. ((:

sleepy. shall go off i guess. feeling way bored. nights.. or morning.

song from a secret garden

omg, i'm sweating and sweating cus of the really bad weather. it's so weird that i only sweat at times i dun want to. i just bathed not long ago!! it's so annoying.. daaaaaamn hot. *melts like butter*

been listening to emo songs all night. haha.. i dun feel anything tho some songs did bring back tonnes of memories. hmmm, ohwell, it's over anw. and and. someone introduced me to secret garden and i have officially found my favourite instrumental piece. i must have heard it somewhere before cus it sounds really familiar. i wanna learn how to play piano! LOL...

anw. class outing ytd was kinda cool tho at any one time there are less than 10 people. haha. but it was fun seeing em again and chilling out at balcony. haha.. i bought this super old school card game "happy family" at only 50cents!! bought it to get rid of my coins, haiya, should have gotten snap and old maid also. hilarious. and can u believe it, the six of us just started playing that in the bar. lol.. it was quite amusing but i had fun. actually its quite a tactical game okay.

stayed till around 1130pm just in time to catch the last train back and there was some drama on the train. actually not really, just that some china man (i think he's drunk) left his puke on the train floor. zzz. gross. should force him to clean up the mess, maybe eat it back. HAHAHA kidding. hmmmm. ohwell. anws, so much gossip going on uh. makes me feel so sad bout my boring life. hehe.

0046hrs. should probably go sleep soon. tmr onwards i shall start to chiong all my assignments. hopefully. man, they're all graded so i have no choice but to care. zz. haha. im hungry but im fat. rahhh random. goodnight.

aimless

good morning all.

0043hrs. i should probably get to work soon. i'm supposed to have done some catching up over the weekends but obviously i havent been doing conscientious revision. lol. been working/playing/sleeping, basically wasting my life away. HAHA. gosh... but it's been fun.

tennis-ed with sis and her friends on fri. i felt rather dumb walking all the way to the stadium TWICE to book the courts. long story. haha. it was rather expensive... 13bucks for 2 hrs. partly because of the peak hr rate from 6 to 7pm. ahhhh. but it's ok, we all absorbed the cost. hahaha.

it was uber fun, i "won" in the little "match" we had! haha. notice the excessive use of inverted commas. ohwell, thats cus i seriously think shouwen let me win. lol. hilarious. he's from aj too!!! cool huh, and he's a friend of yeeyan's bro! its always nice to meet aj people in school. we are good at tennis :P HAHA, my sis got suaned like mad but i couldnt help laugh a lil too.. at her unique style.

so yeah that was the highlight of my week i guess, so u can imagine the boring life i lead now. zzz. had work on sat and then went over to zihui's house to watch meteor garden omg. i noticed the bad acting skills of F4... HAHA. and i realised my hair is kinda long.. feel like layering it more and highlight it!! but im too lazy to do so.. gahhhh. lol.

hmm, anw i just signed up for the standard chartered marathon..... as a volunteer. haha. woulda prefered to be a participant instead, but the impresario com decided that the programmers both subcom and maincom should sign up for canvassing (widely used word) purposes. well its alright with me, am prepared to have a blast alr, considering its on such an important day.... 7th dec. im under the impression that everyone will be celebrating the birth of a super important person. LOL. but anws, got free tshirt somemore!! *beams* realised im highly receptive towards free shirts, no idea why. haha. i'll be down from 1am to 2pm+++ i think, good...! can skip work. hahah.

ok anw i should better get going. i wasted another 1hr of my life typing this entry when i should be studying marketing or sth. stupid.. i hate marketing proj!!!!! altho it's supposedly the most interesting module i am taking but I HATE IT. :S

pics time!!!!









dont u find it very intimidating to have sooooo many GLS/seniors eavesdropping on you while u are having a nice chat with your sp? HAHA. i personally think the smack butt pic is damn hilarious.. ((: and not forgetting our group's muscle man.. notice how im not in most pics. hahaha. shall put em up when i feel like it (to attract readers to stay tuned... is lun going to laugh at this again?), im not about to spoil my image yet.. haha..

nights all. long week ahead!!!

somehow, i just need you to be here. but i guess youre not.

it's been awhile

hola.. back to weekends. im loving it. lol

this past week's been really boring with all the presentations going on, at least they're over now. but more to come. ugh. i think i really suck at presenting. im so unbelievably boring i dun feel like looking at the audience. lol. what if i catch them snoozing? zzz, maybe i'll throw something at em. *chuckles*

anw, ive managed to spread the love for squash among the netballers! the latest victim is lowyilun, who is pretty good at it i must say! strong hits and all. good!! ((: next up: tennis!! hmmm and apeaking of which, ive gotten myself a tennis racket. haha. only 43 bucks! quite a bargain for a babolat racket. tho sadly it isnt the same model as what nadal's using. lol. donkz, that one will prolly cost a bomb. hmm nvm, maybe if i strike lottery i'll get that. then again, there are so many things i wanna buy.

oh oh anw ive also caught wall E last week and ive been recommeding it to everyone. hees. it's awesome! very very cute and rather sweet, tho the main dialogues actually consist of "wall EEEE and evaaaaaaaa". hahah. go catch it! i had fun watching it. =D

hmm anw rather lazy to blog. i shall leave u all with some OVERDUED pics from my cac camp. not all. i'll just post some in every post then, to keep readers coming in hahah.












SP night pics another day!! bye all.

i missssssss......U! (:

when ure gone

if, for one day, i choose to give up and get the hell outta your life, it is through no fault of mine.

seriously, appreciate. before it's too late.

on totally different note.... i hope something good will come outta this! ((: hehe. lalala!

ok gotta go prepare somemore for my presentation tmr. hopes we'll do well.

one six zero six

one six zero six. )):

morning. just returned home after visiting aj and the teachers, so im feelin abit complicated now. a mixture of nostalgia and i duno what. haha. everyone looks and sounds the same, but the sad thing is noone i asked could make it back to aj! AHHH.. stupid school and army. maybe i should organise an outing.. i think im the only class leader who hasnt done so.

anw i almost couldnt find anyone to go back with me, so i almost didnt go back. but good thing yuanting could come along! yay.. although, she's super drained from clubbing. hahha. and oh yes, thankfully i woke up in time. still cant fathom why my phone mysteriously ran out of batt tho i charged it last night!!! omg. and to think i was about to boast to mr zhuang bout my phone's good batt life. seriously, i have no idea why it went flat. maybe its time for a new phone. ((:

uhhh so anw, bought ferrero rocher for ms ma. HAHA. wanted to get her merci but cheers was too... ahem. lol. almost didnt get anything, but i think that would be quite donkz. she's still the same. super hilarious. brought us to the staffroom and i found out she received MANY chocolates. haha! then i told her not to zhuan3 song4 the gift to others cus yt commented bout the choc wrappers in her bin and she said it wasnt her who ate it. hees. should have told her not to share as well. oops. oh oh and then very randomly, she fished out our class photo!! haha, she seems so happy tho. and my hair in j1 was really............ haha. i think tash would be laughing again.

and then we met mr toh and mr lau. haha. think ive exchanged more words with toh today compared to my entire year in jc luh. i miss his class, esp when he just starts chatting with us. but i still feel quite bad stoning in his lessons all the time tho. hees. and mr lau.. still the same. he thought we were from the 04 batch. LOL. but he says he still rmb us. yay..

hmmm so after that went for lunch with yt. so fun!! its been really long since i had a chat with anyone from sixteen. so yup. we had a feast. haha. was supposed to eat something healthy but ended up eating oily stuff like prata. and the ovatine godzilla thing is damn cheat money. rahhh. yupyup. so i caught up with her busy and happening life and i realised that everyone is leading such fun filled lives except for me! hmph. nvm... slow and steady. heh.

yawns.. omg i think this entry sounds so grammatically wrong. but im too tired to edit or think of better sounding phrases. another time ba. sleep deprived. thinks i shall go take a nap or sth. hopes to meet up with more people soon.. oh yeah i got the pics for the cac camp alr. quite awhile back actually. but really lazy to post those pics. hang in there ya, i'll find the energy to put life back to my blog someday..

nigghttts all. i miss aj!

olympics 08

haha. omg i survived the hectic week! gosh, actually it wasnt so bad in the end. expected to just die flat due to overwhelming workload and seemingly unprogressive projects, but everything just fell into place somehow. am really thankful for that. cant believe i managed to slack quite alot. so right now im feeling kinda happy. but really sleepy on the other hand. PSASD at work. hahaha.

worked on my ob&d proj early in the mornin at ps today.. hahha. im really really impressed! ive never gotten so much done within 2h before luh, kudos to my teammates. hees. very very glad. mm, and found out that its the fireworks festival ytd and today. didnt manage to go somehow.

anw, been enjoying the final few events of olympics these few days. super entertaining!! had a supposed study session ytd but halfway thru zk suggested watching olympics. hahaha, guess he's been studying real hard these days, prelims is next week. haha. pretty confident about gp aye?? jiayou all! tsktsk, i seriously think he is easily distracted by the tv. maybe next time we should go back to macs or sth to study. hmm.

but anw, we ended up camping in front of the tv for about 3hrs watching the track and field events and basketball. it was super hilarious cus the athlete's name was seriously unbelieveable. we were watching this guy called hooker (omg, heng he's not a girl, but it's still quite unfortunate..) jumping the pole vault thingy. he was really good, but i supported the other guy who lost, so sad. zk supported hooker.. not surprisingly. haha! and we watched usain bolt being such an arrogant guy once again. zzz. but he's super fast. and tall.

today there was another guy with a rather debate-able name - Jesus Espana from spain. hee. he even has his country incoporated into his name. too bad his name did not give him any god-ly powers cus he ended up 2nd last. lol.. tmr i should watch again. tho it's the last day alr.. sad. damn jealous of jiao lian who went to watch the olympics!! gahh.. i shall aspire to earn enough to catch london 2012. (:

okok i'd better sleep soon, gotta work in the morn again. zz. nights.

hehe. hopes to keep the sms-es going. interesting!! ((:

blogging from toshiba

hola all.. finally had the time to visit this blog of mine. hmm, ok actually im not as busy as i sound but yeah, it's been quite a hectic week. realised its so difficult to juggle work and school. so im giving up my weekday p2 class. abit sad cus of the income loss and all, but well, opportunity costs! yawns..

oh oh, almost forgot, well im sure ive boasted to many people alr, but.... *drumrolls* i got me a new laptop! hahah.. well the design's awesome and it's my first time owning one, so it's quite exciting. yeah, so sua ku, but haiya, it feels darn nice to work with a functional computer. my desktop is really CMI luh. slowly on its way to hell alr. *kicks it repeatedly* hmm, i shall shower love to this new laptop here tho i forsee it wouldnt last.. hahaha. it'd better not give me probs man, considering it's close to 2000bucks.

so anw, just popping by to announce that im still alive (maybe to some's disappointment lol). dun really have any exciting stuff to say cus i havent gotten any opportunities to go out except that one fri afternoon with zk. uhh, actually more like studied out. haha. so sad i can no longer solve jc math qsns ): watched money no enough which i found quite exaggerating, but still rather intriguing. esp the part where they had to choose between mother and daughter. how can anyone bring themselves to make this kinda decision..

hmm, thinks i'll have to get back to work soon. tutorials and projects are really piling up, and it doesnt help that i dun understand a single concept covered in lectures. gahhh, gotta waste time reading the stupid notes which are so brief.. ugh. uni is such a chore.. hmm anw my purpose of blogging today is truly to say that i reaaaaally miss my pw group. we may not be the best group ability wise but i would think that we are arguably the group with the best teamwork. still rmb how we tried our best to help one another in order to produce top quality results. hees. sound so proud. but i certainly learnt alot from them, dun think i would have managed my presentation if not for their patience and feedbacks. ahhhh... how i wish uni pw groupmates are like that too, but i guess its quite alot to ask for...

okay shall go back to stats now, i have no idea what the textbook is saying. this week's gonna be quite packed again! with last min studying and tutorial doing as well as interviews to go for.. gahhh. monday blues. nights all

breathing

I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be
--

shoulder's still aching a little despite me going to the chi medicine place for treatment today. tho i'd have to say the massage made it abit better.. hmm, what i need is a good shoulder rub. but well, guess we'll just have to wait and see how the medicine holds up.

well, anw, this week has been quite bad, the only cheerful thing that's happened is probably the fact that i've finally had the opportunity to chat with sis. albeit mostly on the topic of school. it's been so long since i've exchanged so many words with her. it's part of growing up i suppose, as we age, our time will inevitably be devoted to different people. but in any case, am still really glad to have spoken with her.

sigh so bored. im beginning to question why on earth i started this post. okay shall go soon. tmr's ayden's gathering! hopes it'll be fun.. tho ktv-ing isnt really my cup of tea. lol, i think i'll just go "huh" and start stoning while everyone else sings the latest chi songs. what a surprise kit doesnt listen to chi songs... or any songs that are recent for that matter. i can only manage oldies.. guess zk is right when he said im auntie. lol. cant imagine myself singing in front of people either. heh! what to do, such a nice voice like mine (ahem) is only meant for my ears, and perhaps the things in the bathroom. ok we shall see how it goes tmr.. for all you know i might get high. haha..

yawns, i know im not producing the most interesting blog entries of late but heaven isnt helping me, what to do.. school is a total bore. i lost count on the number of times i drifted off to my own little world during the lectures. especially econs and stats. it's so.. challenging to stay focused with them droning on in such monotonous voices. kinda sad that the only time the econs lecturer managed to get any attention was when she made stupid comments about the microphone. haha but the seats are quite comfy.. (:

anw, just wanted to say that i miss all of my jc friends whom i cant seem to meet up with. netballers, 1606 (and my pw group!!!)... everyone. mm, and also not forgetting the lil ones who are still preparing for their As. zk and of coursee TASH! haha. anw, not sure if u'll be reading.. hmmm.. do tag if u are k. aaand take care of urself yea! gosh, saying these out loud makes me miss em all even more.): and oops, realised i dont really know many juniors. tsktsk. bet someone will think im hostile again..

ohwell, reminisce another day. shall go now. nights all.

last day of vacation

(edited)

i have no idea why im feelin so terrible now. mood's going down exponentially. shouldnt have worked so much today i guess... come to think of it i worked 9 to 5 today. came home feelin so damn grouchy. so sorry to anyone who msged me today and got curt replies. i really am not feeling the best.

welllllllll 've had better days.

if only i could pour everything out like i am so tempted to. but knowing that you might chance upon this makes it so difficult to do so. i wish i dun have to always feel like i'm the only one who cares, and being so desperate to make things right.

i need reassurance. because now, it just feels like everything ended the moment this year started. call me sensitive or needy if you must........... but thats how it seems to me. and whats so hurtful is that it almost seems as though you prioritise everything and everyone else way before me. considering everything i've done, putting myself on the line like that and then feeling like a fool. i duno, it's not the best feeling yeah?

sometimes, i'd need you to listen. and to care. cus a lil bit of concern once in awhile wont take too much outta ya, would it?

tiger lily.

why dont we hit restart, and pause it at our favourite parts.
we'll skip the goodbyes.
--

good morning, it's 0136 hrs and im still up. not very energetic tho. am supposed to be sleeping but due to last min cancellation on the welcome ceremony i just thought i'd stay up abit longer. i have no idea why i chose staying up over sleeping tho, afterall i really am quite tired.

haha oh yes i ran the whole of yew tee today. ok maybe not everything but the basic outline of yewtee. lol, so happy. it must have taken me about 45mins or so. not a bad achievement. i miss exercising.

hmmm, anw, had a self-scaring session with shan just now, in which we explored our ntu accounts like edventure and all.. LOL gosh we have to print our own notes now. and trust me when i say it's ALOT. that's so sad. flashes of jc memories (with the ivle thingy) are coming back now, but it is much simpler last time i think. ivle to me, is not something i'd explore very often. haha. i really dun look forward to the studying part in uni. if only it's all play and no work. that's every lil kid's dream, no? but then again... that's if only.

sigh.. i realise it's so hard to keep this blog going, i find myself typing and then backspacing my thoughts repeatedly and it's back to square one. it's so personal i cant bring myself to say it out loud. maybe someone should blog on my behalf. lol. my password's still the same...for those who know. *winks*. lol. self amusement. perhaps i should just do daily recounts or something. less work on the brain, considering how boring my days are.

random random, but im missing so many people right now. tho im starting to get used to a solitary life (HAHA omg, i really shouldnt... time to socialise), i still wish there were someone to go crazy with.. hopefully i'll find someone soon. ok that sounded quite desperate. hehs. goodnight all.

castovia 08.

hola. am finally back from ntu cac foc. haha, what a mouthful. whoa, what can i say, it's been a long and tiring event-filled 5.5 days and yet at the same time, fun and memorable too. im glad i joined the camp. the seniors were really cool and funny.. very sporting!!

well... its good to let loose once in awhile. and do things that i normally would not for fear of being unglam. esp that SP night where we played dirty games. i'd bet the seniors had fun watching us humiliate ourselves.. haha! cant really rmb what we did, but there were lots of singing. lol. thank god we were blindfolded.

and ya i think i am super zai to have been spared from all that forfeits during 5.5 days of games. HAHA. i rock at those games. :D

but now it still feels a tad weird that orientation's over. no more late night queues to use the bathroom, nor are there any games to play in the wee hours of the morning. no more rah rah people cheering while my group's slacking around. it's just.... weird. haha. ohwells, my group ayden is the best and the most relaxed group around i must say. and yet we win all the time. HAHAHA. oops. i guess it really is true that slow and steady wins the game. it's fun to see others rushing like mad during the amazing race while we are slowly taking pictures and sightseeing, and still not get last. HAHA. plus we won the skit without any proper rehearsals. hilarious.. ((:

ok fine i sounded so proud. lallaala. cant wait for an ayden outing! loves.

mmms, one more week till school starts. im quite excited over it actually. i welcome some changes in my life. sigh.. i think it will help me get my mind off certain things quite effectively. hopefully it does yea?

zzzz i cant seem to download sweet child o' mine by guns n roses. heard it in the club the other night and i just felt like listening to it over again. it's really a classic man, awesome. if anyone has it please send it to me!

i still feel quite exhausted. i think i need a break. from everything.

away.

and in this crazy life, and through this crazy times.
it's you, it's you, you make me sing
youre every line, youre every word, youre everything.
--

morning. 0111hrs and im wide awake. dun think i'll be able to fall asleep anytime soon cus of my stupid afternoon nap. knew it was a big mistake to sleep and a bigger one to forgo my evening jog cus i was too lazy. rahhh.. i suppose it'll be back to haunt me. i should be more motivated to shed some of this annoying holiday weight.

and there's work tmr. hopefully i'll be able to get off abit earlier so i wont have to rush to boon lay. sigh.. gonna be a long week ahead. just finished packing for the camp. it definitely feels like im moving house or sth. there's so many things to bring!!! i prolly overpacked but in the words of mythbusters, if its something worth doing, it's worth overdoing.

my shoulder is killing me la... not just the burns from the blazing sun the other day at sentosa (which i realised i din really mention).. but yeah, the normal aches. i hate it.

ok shall go will be back in a week's time.

bored

hola~ am so bored now ive decided to come back to the com. lol. i really hope i wont lose my eyes tho.. been drama-ing all week, i'd say it certainly spells abit of trouble for my eyesight? so sad

mmm.. finished up with liar game. it's a good show.. very smart. in fact i find it so complicated i had to go great lengths to understanding their strategies. maybe it's just me.. i duno. haha. but in any case, i didnt really like the ending cus it seemed so politically correct to me. and seriously, the honest/very nice lead girl annoys me to no end. WHY SO SILLY?!! yes it is good to be honest but i dont think anyone is THAT noble. i want to strangle her and scream "WHY SO SILLY" in her face everytime she makes a dumb move.

haha.. but it's just a show so i shant get too serious. just enjoy the show and trust me, i was really impressed by the guy's intelligence!!!! SO SMART and way cool. ((: omg.. we have same personalities. HAHA. dun faint please.

lala.. anws, tmr's the nbs camp alr.. rahhh alllllmost managed to get in luh. but too bad, luck was not on my side again. was damn elated upon receiving the call ytd frm whom i'll now call, mr zhuang. hahaha. hilarious guy. he totally entertained me with his accent. but after all that hassle it was still not meant to be. haiya, nvm luh, would have ranted a lil bout the protocol the management chose to follow but what good does it do? shant dwell on it anymore, hopes that the campers will have fun! and that the rest of us (more than 50% of the nbs students) will get to make friends in time to come/enjoy in our own way! on the bright side, at least i wont have to go for back to back camps now. heh..

and oh anw i earned a lunch from the ogl.. lol, i think he felt and sounded really guilty that he couldnt get me that place that was literally within our grasp and staring in my face. but honestly, i dun see why he should feel bad, considering how he tried to help me and it wasnt his fault anw to begin with.. hees. hmmm, tho they would never chance upon this, i'd REALLY wanna thank him and esssssppeccccially mr zhuang (lol he still cracks me up) for everything. i look forward to my lunch when school starts!!

yawnss.. am so bored. ah yea.. wanted to say im really not feeling all that great bout my tuition job now. sigh. for now, i'll just have to decide if i should be an irresponsible person to leave my boss at this time where the centre is quite short-handed as it is, or continue to be an irresponsible teacher who can't provide the best for the students. either way, i'll be in the bad light. i need help. rahhh..

wish i could talk to you bout this. or for that matter, somebody.. anybody. but i dun really like to do so cus it's either i'd just get reassuring answers that is not what i need, or i'd get none at all. where's my pillar of support!

feeling artistic again

lol. haha, yes, back to piano-ing again, whats new huh.. lol. i am currently trying to learn the final fantasy song on my lousy keyboard (as usual, not enough keys) but it's kinda choppy. cant play it continuously cus i have to keep adjusting, it's annoying really. anw my progress isnt too bad i must say! prolly cus i havent reached the ultra-coordination-madness part yet. zz. ok that sounded weird, i think my standard of english is deteriorating HELP!

but anws i realised that i havent been really focused in the stuff i do. since young i guess, it's a really bad habit. i dun like to do repetitive things so that's why i dun like to practise in things that i'm learning, or whatever. more often that not, i'll be very enthusiastic for the first few days and then abandon the whole idea altogether after awhile cus im so sick of it.

haha, that explains the increasingly evident lack of entries in my blog eh? lol.. ok fine, it's partly cus of my extraordinarily boring life i lead... nvm. hmm, i know it's a little early (or late) to say this, but for my new year resolution, i aim to have SUSTAINABLE interest. lol.. tho i must say, "it (the thought) comes and goes i wouldnt trust it", as quoted from joey. HAHA. loves friends still!!!

okay so im kinda happy today, not very sure why. probably cus things havent been too well for me these couple of weeks but i can feel that it has taken a turn for the better. hopefully i wont jinx myself by saying it out loud tho. or maybe it's cus i did something nice today! helped an old lady (ok actually not very old, but she had difficulties walking i guess) off the bus! tho at first i was quite annoyed cus i was in abit of a rush and she was directly in front of me , blocking the whole door while trying very hard to get off the bus. yeah i know, so mean right. i should be kinder ):

but anws she finally gave up and let me get off first and so i did. woulda walked off alr but i decided i should help. i just asked if she needed help and extended my arm to help support her. she kept thanking me (: yeah i know it's just a small gesture but still it felt kinda nice, havent done any good deeds in awhile.

and oh ya something i've been meaning to say for quite a long time after watching this show about religion awhile back. the stuff they say is kinda different to what im gonna say because if i were to state my opinion on it, i'd probably get sued or sth. it is afterall, a very sensitive issue. mmm, but back to the point, i was thinking on the train today about how i dun really believe i have a religion although i declare that im a buddhist. well, i've never come off as a religious person and i dun think i'll ever be one.

but despite that, i think i finally understand why there are people who devote their lives to religion. i finally believe in the points that i had written for my gp essays (LOL) that it does provide comfort and solace to people in trying times. cus when there's nth much u can do to improve the situation, pray, cus there's nothing to lose in doing so. sigh i duno la, it's really complex... i do pray sometimes and it helped... but at the end of the day, it's kinda all in the mind, no?

okay not sure why i droned on bout the topic.. was kinda random. hmmm. what else, oh ya anw there was this super donkz promoter at guardian who tried to promote this facial cleanser stuff to me. being nice, i just listened to her while trying to find an appropriate time to stop her. but she didnt... for quite awhile. when she stopped talking finally she helped me pick a bunch of stuff which would very likely come up to at least 100 bucks. she wanted me to buy, but i was like "no.. another day la probably, i dun have enough cash". haha. so mean again.

but what i didnt like was her comment: "huh... u dunwanna buy ah, then i shouldnt have said so much". like WTH. first of all, it's really not professional for this kinda statement to come out of a promoter's mouth. and secondly, i didnt go looking for her, i was at this corner wayyyyy outta her section looking for some other stuff and she pulled me away to look at her products. so really... did she really expect i was gonna buy em on the spot without knowing if it's a trustworthy product. crazy. and she sorta kept forcing me to buy cus she found out i was meeting someone. "ask ur friend to lend you some money first la...", she said. -_-

seriously, if the products were as effective and fast-selling as she described then why the desperate attempt at getting me to buy? stupid woman, really.

woahhh, this looks like a long entry. havent had so much to say in a long time. and i havent done recounting entries in so long.. ohwell, it's all good. hmmmm anw school's starting reaaaally soon and i've yet to accomplish some stuff i had intended to. hopefully i will in time. and oh, will be going for the cac camp.. haha. kinda bummed that i didnt make it to the NBS one but i heard that it was really maxed out, even my sis's friend couldnt help me (almost did tho). but i really appreciate his help. ((: in any case, hopes it'll be fun!

yawns.. think i shall stop here for now and maybe watch "liar game" as recommended by joyce. lol. seeya'll in abit.

sleeping child

Oh my sleeping child, the world's so wild
But you've build your own paradise
That's one reason why I'll cover you sleeping child
--

listening to this song brought back quite abit of memories from primary school. i can still remember how my vice principal taught us this song during morning assembly, and going through the lyrics, which i found really meaningful. i especially liked the part where it says, "if all the people around the world, they had a mind like yours. there'd be no fighting, and no wars, there'll be lasting peace on earth." so true eh, there's no innocence like that of a child's.

anw, im feeling abit better and at peace at this moment so i am aiming for a longer, and hopefully livelier post. but still, i think i'll be needing more squash sessions to take out my frustrations. tho seriously, im aching all over now. and quite bruised. let's count the number of blue-blacks i incurred during the past 2 days : 1 big one on left thigh, 2 on the left knee, 1 on shin, 1 on hip, 1 on the back of my left hand (coupled with a few scratches). haha. all thanks to my very powerful racket and bad aiming, with the exception of the hip injury which was caused by a knock against the stupid doorknob. RAH.

yawns.. kinda tired. been watchin dramas today. finally managed to catch up on episodes of absolute boyfriend. HAHA. interesting. and caught some random hk drama too. a lil weird but i like hk dramas alot. and it turns out that im not very good at cantonese actually, cus i had to rely heavily on the subtitles. well... maybe i should brush up on my language then.

man my shoulder is really killing me. i need to get it fixed pronto. looks like the trusty sinseh din help the other time.. gahhh. so uncomfortable. ok i just found out actually i had nothing much to say. should get going soon. tired... been losing quite a fair bit of sleep lately. rahhhhh. tas~.

(edit 7.22pm 3/7)

am here to take a breather after drama-ing for almost 6hours. haha, it seems that it's a very popular activity for quite a number of us these days. only difference is that im indulging in jap dramas instead of taiwanese. in a few minutes time i would have completed "absolute boyfriend". a very cute show, somewhat draggy in the middle... BUT nothing a hottie cant cure. hees. interesting.

tho i'd have to say im a lil overwhelmed with unexplanable sadness towards the end. LOL. weird. ohwells.. shall just go on to complete it now then. and think of new ones to watch. ciaos..

the difference in you and i

i need reassurance. i guess i'd need a long chat with you, i really do.

been playing squash for 2 consecutive days and im starting to ache. am not very good at it currently cus i kept getting thrashed.. RAHH. needs to work on my drives and strokes. basically hitting the spots i intend.

ok, finally a break from work (again). school's gonna start soon. am i getting the pre-school jitters again? i duno... but i really hope it's gonna be fun. should i stay in hostel???? i guess i shouldnt miss this opportunity but it's kinda troublesome. in any case, i gotta come up with a decision soon cus application's closing.

okay, gonna be taking over the p2s and sec4s soon. wish me luck! but i think they're quite likeable and not-so-havoc. hopes i wont mess things up.

im not really sure what to say now. i just need time to think.

tired of...?

is it just me... or is talking to you such an impossible task now.

if you are really that bent on snubbing people, i'll just let you be. let you be.

they say that absence make the heart grow fonder. i really wanna believe in that make-believe crap statement but honestly it is hard to do so. i am starting to be convinced that the only thing it does is to make the heart forget. live and let live i shall. what lingers will dissipate in time, albeit slowly.

yawns

everyone loves this car. everyone wants to take photo with this car. everyone looks at this car in awe. but none of them had bought this car.

pretty much sums up my promoters job. boring.. and really, some of the guys, err nope, UNCLES, are just so..... zzzz! nothing to say. like pls, take a look in the mirror luh. act ur age, it aint getting younger just cus you try to be. ((:

seriously~ but i think its a scary world out there. lol. i dun think i'll ever enjoy working. :X and somehow i think we're still wrapped up in our own little world although most of us had been exposed to the working environment since the long vacation started. sure... u may have witnessed all the politics. but it isnt as good as it gets, there is always more. haha. oh no i dun make sense. must be all the sleep i've lost these days.... rahh, im so tiredddddd. zzz.

abit lazy to blog. just wrote this crappy one out of boredom and well, to announce that im still alive. shall get going soon..

hmm oh ya i wanted to comment tht my boss is really nice! HAHA. he gave me his limited edition ghost deck (playing cards) which i had intended to buy from him. LOL. it's really cool. hehs. okok shall watch some tv for now. zz. ciaos~

free ad.

ok not exactly the latest renault f1 car design but i prefer the old version. which is not only better aesthetically but in all aspects.

hola. mmm, it's been awhile. feelin pretty sleepy now and there's tuition later. ultra zzz. but ohwells, least it'll just be for 2 hrs. hurray to that.

oh right, this week's gonna be pretty packed with work for me. just got a promotor's job for renault roadshow at vivo startin thurs, with big thanks to amery for recommending me. ((: was supposed to be a five day job but i can only make it for three. am kinda surprised they still want me.. considering i couldnt go during weekends. rahh maybe i should skip my tuition job on sat.. HAHA. tho that'll be wrong... good, but wrong.. haha.

but it sounds like quite a saigang job actually :X from what they're saying i am in charge of blowing balloons (HAHA), distributing stuff.. making sure brochures are enough.. selling merchandises occasionally. hmm but but.. im in charge of THE KEY. the keys of all keys one might say. ok lame. tho i really wonder why they would trust me with that. but yea hopefully it'll be fun.. and it'll be awesome if the balloon pumps are helium filled so i can bring back some to play!

lala. bored.. lookin forward to the event filled week (hopefully) ahead. oh yea drop by vivo if u are free! i'll be there on the 19th, 20th, 23rd june. ok maybe not for me but for the cars. haha. donkz. gonna catch some shuteye for now. tmr's pretty hectic too i think. dental in the morning, followed by a trip to renault showroom to get some stuff... maybe even teaching in the evening (tho i sincerely hope not) rahh nvm. yawnns.

and oh i really need to stop eating. faaaaaaaat.

friends

i'll be there for you, when the rain starts to fall
i'll be there for you, like ive been there before.
i'll be there for you, cus youre there for me too..
--

g'day mate. hmm, i just watched the final episode of friends (again) on youtube.. rahh, it never fails to make me feel so bittersweet, especially at the last scene where each of them handed their keys to the apartment back. it's almost like a perfect closure.

hmm.. i think that the scriptwriters are geniuses, from how they manage to link everything so well together... like there's meaning to every detail and every joke they put in. its really the best sitcom ever - witty and funny, unlike many of the comedies which are just downright lame.

the way they weave all the storylines together, it just paints a big picture of how strong the friendship was between the six of em... and how friendships should be like. i mean in the show, they are always covering for one another (tho unwillingly sometimes), no matter how embarrassing the situation is. haha. sometimes i wonder, would there be anyone willing to risk their reputation to help out a friend. somehow i dun really think so... but yeah... it's just a show huh?

yeah i know people come and go - they would have different priorities set out for them at some point in their lives and thus no matter how close you are or had been, things are bound to change sooner or later.

ok i'd better stop myself from saying things i might probably regret, let's leave it as that. i dun deny having my fair share of disappointments but at the end of the day, if it doesnt matter to you, it doesnt matter to me. take it one day at a time.

ok on to other matters... hmmm, played tennis ytd!! HAHA. hilarioussss. i think i looked pretty stupid next to my dad's colleagues, whom contrary to my initial impressions, are all young and sporty! oh my.. haha. 3 of them should be around 20+, malaysians... the other one maybe early 30s? haha. dad was the most senior there. but honestly i think he's still young at heart. (:

anw, two of them were really good at tennis and were teaching dad how to play and all. haha. i think dad's not bad seriously, at least he seems to have good control of his hits. unlike me. i looked so stupid initially cus the ball flew everywhere. zz i hadn't played in a long while. but thankfully after awhile it got better. but it was so tiring.. i chased practically every ball in attempt to SWEAT... and i did! haha.. happy. yeah so just imagine me sprinting from side to side trying to get to the ball before it bounced twice.. it's good training.

soooo.. anyone up for tennis wimme sometime? i dun mind squash also. but i wanna work on my strokes for tennis. yeah i can get it across the net but it's almost always floaty and uh, without power. even when i hit it with more strength, there is still no speed. it just flies out of court. it looks stupid. i did not intend for it to be a lob that's gone haywire. lol. i need the uuhhhmp. haha.

ho wells.. really hopes to learn more things within this two months. arms are aching slightly now. haha. i feel fat still.

rahhhh. oh anw, mom's gone to batam alr and im like home alone now. so sad. hmmm.. lun's going overseas too to sydney. hope they both have fun!



just found this pic randomly on my com. taken at a "studying session" during the pre-A levels period. or was it prelims. so unglam... and look at the drawings on my wrist. it's supposed to be a "tattoo" drawn by tash. haha. crazy woman. cant wait to catch up with her again tho (:

music for the soul.

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
you ought to know by now how much I love you
one thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
--

lol, such a mushy song with mushy lyrics. hmmm. just suddenly thought of this oldie by air supply. very sweet.

ok anw im bored typing my science worksheets, but i gotta admit some questions really kinda cracked me up a lil, and let's face it, the setter doesnt possess the best linguistic ability. haha.. let me show you what they ask.

Q1: Susan finds the hairs in her nose very ugly and decided to remove them. Is her action advisable?

lol.. i duno why im tickled by this question, but.. it's kinda bimbotic i feel. LOL. but that aside, i actually remember the concept of this question! hurss.. god i miss bio. rahhhh. i prefer jc bio tho.. hmm..

oh right, and in another question, one of the options was : A person picking up an ice with an ice THONG. omg.. hahaha. no wonder kids these days are getting more and more dirty minded.. donkz.

;P hmmm, anw. im pretty excited bout wed, cus im gonna play tennis with dad and his colleagues! HEHE. ok im prolly gonna be so extra there and i'll most likely look so amateur but i dun really care, cus i miss playing it so much. it's been soooooo long. rahh, rmb setting up this "tennis club" with some of em class guys. wonders if they can still recall not. LOL. arhh i miss em. ho wells.. hope they're doing great in army. cant wait for a gathering man.. oh ya, so tennis. hopes i can do reasonably well and at least get it across the net and hit the desired spot if not it'll be so paiseh. *beams* oh btw, federer speaks sexy french. HEHE. yuan, if ure reading, im sure gwen too right? haha. he's cute.

ok what else. oh... still tryin to do some "at-home-self-improvement-courses". i.e. learnin some songs on my stupid keyboard and so far it's been frustrating. i wanna get a piano man.. haha.. or at least a proper keyboard with MORE KEYS. donkz.. and im getting better at my card tricks.
LOL. actually i think i just need a gullible/not-observant audience luh. HAHA. yay!

ok i'd better get back to typing my worksheets. been bout 45 mins and i only typed 5 questions! oh no...

i miss you i miss you i miss you.. i could go on forever.

(edit. 5.27pm)
i've been listening to old songs for the entire afternoon, and i guess i am still a rock fan afterall. i miss hearing all those songs that are so much better than today's songs but are sadly forgotten. hmm, well... the memory lives on.

i think im starting to fall in love with the oldies!! HAHA. air supply is AWESOME. hooked on songs by michael bolton, richard marx, elton john, ben e king.. etc! oh no.. i think all these point to the obvious fact that i am an aunty. LOL.

oh ya i initially wanted to post some random pics but blogger was being an ass as usual when it comes to uploading images - the allignment goes all cuckoo. zz. much hate. and i wonder why my blog is so.. pic-less. rahhh nvm. next time maybe. i wanna play tennis or squash right now!!

a couple of things have been weighing on my mind recently, and i realised it revolves around the fact that people lack initiative. at least these particular people im referring to fall into this category.

i duno if i have owed people alot of stuff in my past life, that i have to be repaying them now, but i really feel that it is so unjust for me. i mean, i am sacrificing so much for one whom quite frankly, i really dun care about. and doing so much for another who wont care about me. just what on earth have i done them wrong to deserve this.

i mean, wont you feel embarrassed freeloading off another person AT ALL? i cant stand the way u strut here thinking its perfectly alright to be staying and that you belong. well i have news for you, YOU DONT. ahhhhhhhh. im so irritated. do u have any initiative to leave at all.. we dont owe u, and i damn sure dun want you here all the time. so bugger offfffff! its so disrespectful that u even changed ur address... like hello.

i dun think i can say this without revealing all the details so im not gonna. i just needed to rant.

ahhh i duno, my mind is so clouded now, cant really think. zzzzz. 've read two entries that say they dunwanna be burdened by technology (i.e handphones and such), and i think i might wanna join the list. for totally different reasons tho. at this point having a handphone sucks.

i feel so stupid. i wish i can take both of them outta my life right now, which will feel a tad weird but definitely, better.

i think i should go for more runs, tho it doesnt really burn any steam off cus i dun sweat. lol. hmm. which reminds me bout the night run with yilun round yishun. hehe.. was nice, cus i managed to sustain for 35-40 mins tho my lungs were hurting and leg was cramping. but yes, still no sweat. *burns the sweat glands alive* haha, good day spent.

rahhh i think its time for mythbusters. oh yes im going back to work on sat. siannnnnnn. dun really feel like teaching but i guess i'll have to go if i want my may pay. haha. rhymes...

ok shall go now. bbye.

i guess u'll never hear me when i say i miss u. u dun listen anymore.

i am cheerful!!!

Lying close to you, feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever
--

ahhhh. best song from aerosmith yet. and i dun think david cook's version is impressive at all. honestly. haha. noone can match up to steven tyler's amazing vocals luh..

lala, this past week's been great. met up with people (joyce, liting (!!!), shirong... and hung out with tash and nic briefly today). oh ya, and for the first time ever, i movie-marathoned!! liting are you reading.. can u hear me when i hum the indiana jones tune?! LOL. haha. ooh ohh, just wanna say that i love being a student luh (or at least looking like one), can enjoy so many concession rates!!! it sucks being an adult really. haha.

but anyhoos, my dentist said that im a very cheerful person! LOL. are you guys shocked? hilarious, because for people who know me, or rather, those who dont, will observe that i hardly speak. or that i like to appear calm and aloof. or that i am pure autistic, or whatever. i think he's the first one to continuously insist that im cheerful. *laughs in satisfaction*

heh heh, yeah sure i can come up with lotsa nonsense and be totally relaxed when im with people im comfortable with, but who doesnt? the true test comes when one is with people they have never met, and i know that i will be awkward and most probably mute when i hang out with strangers, as proven all to many times. haha. no kidding, deep down im extremely introverted. HAHAHAH. but its kinda nice to know that i can still appear friendly when need be. (:

so i think the word to use is not cheerful, but nice, or polite, or whatever. lol. can u see that im still beaming? =p but yeh, i think i've grown through all this working experience. and im glad to have made a decision to at least try and be nice to everyone instead of putting on a glum face like how many of the people in the service industry do. so everyone, forget about the emo-trend, be like me, a CHEERFUL dental assistant. HAHAHA. hilarious.

i feel so good these days. like the weight thats been on my shoulders for so long has been lifted. im glad ive finally decided to let the bitterness go. it still feels abit complicated but i am better!! ((:
--

(edit)

i hope ur conscience will prick and preferbly eat you alive. oh wait, what am i saying.. do you even have one to begin with. sheeshhh...

im tired.. i lost sleep for nothing. and the worst thing is i cant get back to sleep.

always be my baby

We were as one, babe for a moment in time.
And it seemed everlasting, that you would always be mine.
Now you want to be free, so I'll let you fly,
'cause I know in my heart, babe, our love will never die.

You'll always be a part of me, I'm part of you indefinitely.
Boy, don't you know you can't escape me.
Ooh darling, cause you'll always be my baby.
And we'll linger on, time can't erase a feeling this strong.
No way you're ever gonna shake me.
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby.
--

ok i know im like slow or sth. but i cant believe that david cook's always be my baby is actually his rendition of mariah carey's. oh man. i feel so embarrassed. but in my defence, they sound NOTHING alike ok. i mean really, from a popppp-ish cheery song to a soothing, slow rock song... geez.

ok you guys compare: http://youtube.com/watch?v=_Js9mQw5nQ4 and http://youtube.com/watch?v=3QapwJpAe7w. would u have noticed!! ok maybe ardent fans of mariah carey will luh... hahah. hilarious. wouldnt say which is better, cus both of em have their own beautiful styles.

but anws.. din really catch all the episodes of american idol 7 but i can safely say it's one of the best since the first one, and mayyyybe the second season with clay aiken. but yeah.. he's got no news alr lol. but back to the point, i dun think david cook will disappear in the face of the music scene anytime soon like the rest of the idols did. yeah he won ai7, but like how some people say (kinda harsh tho), that he didnt really have to win the competition cus with his superb skills in music arrangement, tonnes of companies would wanna sign him on.. lol.. personally i feel....... they can say whatever they want, fact is david cook's the winner.

but that said, i think that archuleta should have won based on the performance in the finals. cook's choice of songs were not very good i think.. plus all he sings are rock songs! haha... but ohwell. archuleta's made a name for himself too, and he;s still so young. it's almost definite that he'll do just as well in the future if he keeps this passion going.

ok ok am blogging about reality shows AGAIN. a very delayed one somemore. haha. cant help it, there's not much to do around here. lalas~ been watching some gaming competition on starsports ytd and today. i wonder why cybergaming is considered a sport. lol. anw, it's managed to keep me entertained for awhile. quite thrilling too. HAHA. donkz..

rah. so bored. shall watch somemore vids then. till my boring life transforms into an exciting one, take care.. LOL

the end is near

I never thought that i had any more to give
Pushing me so far here i am without you
Drink to all that we have lost, mistakes that we have made
Everything will change, love remains the same
--

been doing lotsa self-learnin stuff these days.. aint excelling at it but well, beats knowing nth huh. can play some pathetic tunes on my kiddy keyboard (hehe). but sad to say i wont be a pianist anytime soon.. haha. i need some coordination!! spent like 2 whole days trying to get a stupid intro correct.

zz. oh and i learnt a few card tricks too.. bout 4 of em. not very good at em either but hey, i managed to wow mom and sis with at least one of the tricks.. lol. tho inevitably they busted some of my acts also la. so observant for what!!! haha.. donkz. but who knows, maybe i can perform next time when im up to standard. it'll be fun. haha. but for now.. practise practise practise..!

hmm, approx 1 more week till work starts again. dun really look forward to it. am kinda enjoying all these time to myself. tho i'd prefer something more thrilling and all.. but ya. anything beats work. oh ya, was so bored that i went to check the calendar just now. realised my birthday's on a sunday. that means i gotta work. HAHA. donkz.. ): nvm, it means cash.. haha

mmmm. i think i am not practising things that i preach. now i finally know why i get shit thrown at me all the time. cus i do the same to others. im sorry. i know exactly how it feels. i will be a better person.

ohwell.. back to learning! HAHA. hilarious. do humour me if i suck at "magic" tricks ok.. but as quoted from someone, "there's no magic, only logic". VERY true.

i really wanna not get mad but i dun think ur behaviour is justifiable. just when things are starting to feel alright shit happens.

(edited) stand by me. AJC.

When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we'll see
No, I won't be afraid
No, I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand, Stand by me
--

greetings. it's friday already. i hate it that days are zooming by so quickly and yet seconds tick by slowly. how is that even remotely possible? i duno, it's just amazing that may 08 is coming to an end real soon but i feel that ive accomplished nothing. god i wasted 5 months of my life. and i dont like this feeling.

anw, i dropped by the sports hall to support AJ bballers in their finals in the afternoon. although they didnt win, i must say that it was really some good effort displayed and what can i say... some really entertaining stunts had been showcased as well. LOL. would have been awesome if aj had won and avenged their 2006 loss but i guess not everything will go our way. it was just a pity that they didnt hang on long enough to stay close. in the end the gap just widened and there was nothing we could do to bridge that.

yawns. so boreddddddddddddddddddddddd. i cant think of anything to say. zz hate my boring entries. i think this is more of a 'typing for the sake of it' sorta entry. *pouts* and i got bored of watching PS i love you. hahah. im sure it was a good movie, but either the low quality online vid compromised everything or it's just not my type of movie. mmm. i think i'll appreciate the book more. who knows.

ok i think i wanna go. am tired of waiting. and oh yes before that. LOWYILUN pls get well soon!! it's so worrying luh. wish you speedy recovery! ((:

phone calls are love :D

edit`2.22am sat 24/5

adding words again. blue fonts to attract attention, and also to remind myself of AJC (blue font, yellow background in case it isnt apparent enough). :D

nth much but i am just way bored so i decided to pop by and rant a lil. was looking at some piano pieces on youtube and i decided (or rather discovered) that i really really really wanna learn the piano, or at least something instrumental. i forsee alot of problems (think: very uncoordinated fingers and ignorance of anything that is remotely related to music), but i guess it will be kinda cool to master some art. zz, am too old for all these arent i?

sometimes i dun like it when i tell people that i duno how to play any musical instruments, they stare at me in disbelief, or make stupid comments like "HUH!!!!". spoilt brats, really. i mean come on la, not every parent has the financial capabilities to send their children for music lessons on top of everything else they have to support right. maybe now it's still not too bad. but back in those days, you have extra money you pay for food, not for pleasure. so yeah. it was just too bad my family wasnt that well off, and the only thing i had the opportunity to learn was the recorder.

weird, wonders how watching a simple video can escalate to such annoyance. haha. ohwell.. sian. oh geez i just realised i havent replied a mail. dangss.. will do so soon then. haha. wish there was more content for me to work on tho. nah, nvm.. ((:

mika's song is stuck in my head.. grace kelly. go listen!! haha. so nice and cheery. *laughs* i wanna sing so badly but it is most unfortunate that his voice is so damn high it's reaching ultrasound. nvm.. let it remain my earworm.. *goes crazy in my head* oh and secondhand serenade too.. zzzz. somehow i keep remembering his songs although i dun really want to. his voice reminds me of so much. and with the tune a whirlwind of emotions tag along. unexplainable. rahh. nvm.

okok. guess ive said enough. shall go. nightssss.

cant wait to talk again. ((:

il divo.

Follow your heart
Let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe in you

Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you can not do
I believe, I believe, I believe in you.
--

il divo and celine dion - i believe in you. can't stop listenin to it, it's really beautiful. sigh.. you know how some songs can bring tears to your eyes. this is one of em. not in an emo uncool way, but.. it's just so touching. beyond what words can describe. ((:

haha, awesome. mmm. thinks i'm currently experiencing a change in music preference, not that i no longer like my depressing ballads or soft rock songs (because they are really good for the ears hehe), but i guess it doesnt hurt to explore other genres of songs. and well, so far it's been good - i'm liking what i hear. i really enjoy songs that are uplifting and motivating. one that will push you on to achieve something better. something that one can only dream of. it's nice.

been tuning in to the radio stations too recently, am trying to catch up with the times.. HAHA. well, the only complaint i have is that they keep repeating the songs! which is kinda annoying really.. ohwell. and i must say, shan wee has improved in his dj-ing skills, quite a far cry from his previously awkward monologues.

so anw, my hands are shaking from my squash session today. rahh.. weak arms. i really hope i wont end up having parkinson's disease when im old. (choy.. touch wood tho) lol. tho i joke about it sometimes but it is still quite worrying, no? ohwells. shake shake shake it off.

so anw, i wanted to complain bout the rudeness of singaporean foodstall vendors, ESP aunties. and maybe uncles. sometimes, i wanna take a knife and just stab them mercilessly. i really dun understand why it is so difficult for them to practise some form of courtesy. why, is menopause weighing them down, along with their smiles?!!! honestly..

i think if you wanna be in a profession that includes interaction with people, you gotta at least have the decency to be a little bit friendly right? dun have to be over the top and engage in small talks all the time, but a simple smile or 'thank you's would be nice. zz. nvm. talk about being top notch in the service industry? we still have a long way to go. hopefully the young ones that are taking over will have some sophistication. this isnt ageism... it's just the sad truth.

lala~ so tired. yet awake at the same time. zz. 1.5 week of my break had passed. tho im kinda suffering from the boredom, i dun wanna go back to work. hahas. i wanna do something meaningful. perhaps some volunteer work! (: i should.. to rid myself of all that bad karma.. LOL. tsk, kidding. it's not for selfish reasons luh.

i wonder why my posts always look so much wordier than others. i think there's a problem with my paragraphing. ohwells.. will typing in point form will make the content less heavy? i duno. it does seem to work on some blogs.

gah.. so bored. maybe i should get back to watching PS i love you. heard it'll leave one sobbing like crazy. we'll see. haha. ciaos~

tho you'll not see this, every part of the song is for you. take care

the sound of music.

No Importa La Distancia

Una vez sone Que en algun lugar
Yo podria ser alguien
lograse amar Y tambien sone
Que si he de triunfar Mi orgullo aferrado
Tendre que superar

Un dia llegare No importa la distancia
El rumbo encontrare Y tendre valor
Paso a paso ire Y persistire
A cualquier distancia Yo el amor alcanzare

Una vez te vi Era todo irreal Y aunque fuese un sueno
Te sentia junto a mi
Se que estas ahi Que te encontrare
Aunque tarde una vida Yo jamas renunciare

Mas alla de toda gloria
Del orgullo y el valor
El poder de un heroe
en su corazon
--

awesome or what?

ajchoir-ed ytd. loved their dances (yes dances) and especially the broadway songs! of course.. their theme song no importa la distancia, which was stuck in my head for a looong time, well, now still actually. haha. zk kicked butt with his solo. (:

but i was sitting too high up and was straining my eyes most of the time, head hurt after that. oh well, least i could see the formation clearly.. and what annoyed me the most were the people behind me, who seemed to have no concert ettiqute at all. i duno what they were doing there honestly, they seemed more interested in talking and laughing. donkz. thankfully i managed to block em out. haha.

mmmm. on another note, i think chilli/spicy stuff really gives me the tummy upsets. rahhh. but that wont stop me from eating them! LOL. zzzz. another week is here. hope i wont be rotting so much, tho i have a feeling i will. ): im so sad.. wants to go out and have some fun! ROAR. oops. shall get back to my feasting.

toods~

go the distance

I have often dreamed of a far off place,
Where a heros welcome would be waiting for me.
Where the crowds would cheer, when they see my face,
And a voice keeps saying this is where I'm meant to be

I'll be there someday, I can go the distance.
I will find my way if I can be strong.
I know every mile would be worth my while,
When I go the distance, I'll be right where I belong.

Down an unknown road to embrace my fate,
Though that road may wander, it will lead me to you.
And a thousand years would be worth the wait.
It might take a lifetime but somehow I'll see it through
--

for anyone who needs motivation, read the lyrics, or better yet listen to the song!! it is good stuff. i know.. a super oldie, but it truly is wonderful and inspiring. nuff said, let the words speak for emself.

anw, am so happy i finally found someone to go to choir concert with! lol.. apparently it's soldout, and they had to get esplanade to release more seats. tho i doubt those will have any hint of a good view. :S but yeh, zk managed to get some tix for me from people who were selling the tix (still cant figure out why they bought and then sell em without hiking price. LOL not complaining), and according to him it's still not too bad. so yay. haha.. and and, he told me HE IS the encore performance. i think he was pretty offended when i told him i couldn't tell if he was joking.. lol.. oops. tsk, least i didn't laugh in his face, and i guess it shows some level of belief in him, no? we'll see we'll see. can't wait. lol.

mmm, 1 week of my break has passed... and i dun think i've spent them very fruitfully. gahh. basically my day revolves around tv, sleep, youtube, typing worksheets, occasional phonecalls, and very surprisingly, EXERCISE!!! hahha. am so proud of myself for attempting to get back in shape, well i dun see the effects yet but soon i will if i keep going! beams.

zz. so bored. it's a saturday afternoon and noone's online. and i realise there is a drastic decrease in my msn contacts on weekdays since the guys went to army. man, the transition stage is really apparent now huh. we are moving on to a new phase of our lives. and i cant wait for mine to begin (i.e. university). so far my life's been really stagnant and im not so much a fan of it now.

man, but what next after university? i think it's pretty scary to be totally independent and not have ur parents fend for you, especially after 18 years of em doing so. ok fine maybe it's not to everyone, but it is for me. lol. i know it's so loser but then increasingly im receiving government letters (cpf etc) and sometimes i have no idea what to do with them. do i reply or what? it turns out i have to but i didnt. hahaha. then i imagine, next time i'll have bills coming my way, on top of all the work i gotta handle, and what about family life? it sure is daunting. *shudders*

well.. i guess i'll figure that out in time to come, but for now, i still have another 3 or 4 years of studying to go through. so yeah. lol. approximately 2.5 months more of vacation to go, i'd better start living my life now. but it's so hard to do so when noone's here to enjoy with me. ): ah well.. nvm.

on another note, caught the finale of survivor ytd. mm, it was somehow a lil... lacklustre? as in i think the crafty women ran out of brilliant ideas to stab each other. haha. or did they honestly not wanna do so, i wouldnt know. there was a lack of drama, even during the final tribal council with the jury. but i guess overall it was still a good season. it's definitely put survivor back to the must-watch list of shows. hopefully the next season will be just as dramatic and scheming, cus i wanna learn a few tricks of being cunning and ruthless. HAHA.

bored. wordy. it's time to par-tay!