so where do you get your motivation?

it's funny that i still type in the wrong password (because usually philly_sixers is associated with another password for my mails and stuff) whenever i try to access my blog. happens without fail everytime. blame it on the naughty password that i have *stares at joyce*. ;-)

alright, so how's everyone? surviving this crazy semester? im doing great! lol. okay i'm not exactly having alot of fun and am massively behind in terms of academic progress, but i find that im relaxing alot! that's good, right?

i'm looking to get my blackberry soon. slurps. haha. although it's probably just a want rather than a need at this point in time..... but things like this still get me excited.

hmmm, lately i'm feeling so zoned out all the time. i don't really know why, is it due to the fact that i'm always tired? it's a sickness man. haha. probably need to exercise more =) but yeah, it's strange. sometimes i'll just get this out-of-the-world feeling all of a sudden. and i'll be like, "hey, i'm alive! how strange.". as if i'm teleported to this world from...nowhere. it's really difficult to explain, but i'm feeling more and more of it these days. are these signs of ageing? disillusionment? am i approaching closer to death?

i remember eons ago during higher chinese lessons where my teacher was going through some liang shan bo stuff (or was it), and he posed a question that what if dreams, were in fact, reality? and what we think of as reality is nothing more than a dream. haha if so, i gotta say, i have a really boring dream. =p

well, that was really random. i think im reading too much of yamashita's diary on facebook thats why. he's really adorable with all that randomness!! it's just his style... his aura =) oh no, am i going to like every single entry from him? i believe so!!! haha. i just liked another one! it's so funny the way he says it..

lol. madness.

hmmm, sometimes i feel, i'm really not driven enough. and i feel quite guilty whenever i hear my dentist tell me about the achievements of his son, being a councillor, topping the cohort/class, participating in and winning school events, etc etc etc. why has he, at a tender age of 16, been able to achieve so much more than me? i guess we can attribute it to the upbringing. but ultimately, it's nothing more than an excuse.

just where do you get your motivation? and how? i'd really want to know - it's something for me and everyone to think about.

ohiyo!

haha, despite the really crazy school week i am having now, im still slacking around!

like now, totally enjoying code blue (and yamapi). haha. i just realized, season 2 is really good. better than season one as of now (ep 3). they're following the footsteps of desperate housewives hehe. with narration and a central theme. that somehow makes it quite artistically well done. so yeah! looking forward to more!

but my heart is still made of stone, didnt find any scene particularly touching.. i mean it is. but just not enough to move me to tears.

anw, am taking a rather interesting elective in school now. basically we go there to watch some movies that are seemingly based on science, and then we discuss about the theories behind it - whether its accurate or total bull. haha.

we watched GATTACCA yesterday (by ethan hawke and jude law). quite an old movie.. it is a really good show. havent watched anything like this in awhile. GO WATCH (esp yanling hehe bio student)! it was quite hilarious really... some people OHHHHHHH-ed until so loud when the teacher gave an interesting insight that the title of the movie is made up of CGTA (the nucleotide bases of our DNA).

man, i really really miss biology. I have forgotten most of the concepts actually. gotta dig out my jc notes omg...! the lecturer goes so fast like a choo choo train. she takes one lecture to finish what we would have done in a month. haha. i'm finding it really difficult to understand MEIOSIS omg. but well, it wasnt easy for me during JC either.. haha