i am cheerful!!!

Lying close to you, feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever
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ahhhh. best song from aerosmith yet. and i dun think david cook's version is impressive at all. honestly. haha. noone can match up to steven tyler's amazing vocals luh..

lala, this past week's been great. met up with people (joyce, liting (!!!), shirong... and hung out with tash and nic briefly today). oh ya, and for the first time ever, i movie-marathoned!! liting are you reading.. can u hear me when i hum the indiana jones tune?! LOL. haha. ooh ohh, just wanna say that i love being a student luh (or at least looking like one), can enjoy so many concession rates!!! it sucks being an adult really. haha.

but anyhoos, my dentist said that im a very cheerful person! LOL. are you guys shocked? hilarious, because for people who know me, or rather, those who dont, will observe that i hardly speak. or that i like to appear calm and aloof. or that i am pure autistic, or whatever. i think he's the first one to continuously insist that im cheerful. *laughs in satisfaction*

heh heh, yeah sure i can come up with lotsa nonsense and be totally relaxed when im with people im comfortable with, but who doesnt? the true test comes when one is with people they have never met, and i know that i will be awkward and most probably mute when i hang out with strangers, as proven all to many times. haha. no kidding, deep down im extremely introverted. HAHAHAH. but its kinda nice to know that i can still appear friendly when need be. (:

so i think the word to use is not cheerful, but nice, or polite, or whatever. lol. can u see that im still beaming? =p but yeh, i think i've grown through all this working experience. and im glad to have made a decision to at least try and be nice to everyone instead of putting on a glum face like how many of the people in the service industry do. so everyone, forget about the emo-trend, be like me, a CHEERFUL dental assistant. HAHAHA. hilarious.

i feel so good these days. like the weight thats been on my shoulders for so long has been lifted. im glad ive finally decided to let the bitterness go. it still feels abit complicated but i am better!! ((:
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i hope ur conscience will prick and preferbly eat you alive. oh wait, what am i saying.. do you even have one to begin with. sheeshhh...

im tired.. i lost sleep for nothing. and the worst thing is i cant get back to sleep.