split split split. you get fucking shit work.

i am ready to die for my report already.

fucking hell.

i said we needed to meet and discuss at least a little bit but everyone just wanted to leave and whatnot. as if i didnt have better things to do than this stupid subject. as if i wasnt as busy (or as hungry -snorts-) as you all were.

right now i just hope that everything will link. if not who's gonna clear the mess again? who;s gonna do the compiling? who's gonna make it right?

seeing red.

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sigh.... sometimes its not so good to have references. limits your thinking. what's with all the lifting man..... whats more quite frankly, its not a good job. bleah. cant wait for wednesday to be over.

grumpy

I just can't bring myself to treat you as family. Altho maybe i should. But seeing how you have no sense of shame at all justifies all my rage. Stupid negative feelings. Can't wait for my work to be done.

funny videos are distracting :S

good morning, its 4am. im tired again after my 4 hr nap. cant stop slacking!!! tho i have mountains of work to do. oh wells.. i seem so distracted this sem i have no idea why.

mirroring shine's blogpost, i think that nbs is really trying to test our limits. projects stretching all the way to the end of the semester, (mine till week 14 mind you) WITHOUT study breaks at all and booms (hehe) it's exams.... thats crazy. dont they know that projects and studies are actually mutually exclusive? you do one, you dont do the other, as simple as that.

i'd be happy even if there's only 1 week of study break like everywhere else... heck they dont even wanna give us a proper recess week, the profs really think that time stands still during recess week or something, happily drowning us with assignments and reports like theres no tomorrow. and as a consolation prize, quizzes right after that!!!! how to study i ask you. not our fault that we screw up in our quizzes (stupid aa202)

but anw i still think if i didnt slack so much i could actually manage this kind of workload. but i get tired very easily... i think it's the lack of running = lack of adrenaline. sigh im getting fat. everytime i chance upon my JC photos i feel damn sad. the golden times are over man. muscles replaced by fats, topping off with additional flabs all around. i need to exercise but im tired...... vicious cycle

okay what a boring entry. i shall get back to my project/attempt my case study report (really sian diao) or just go to sleep. :D

morbid dreams

what is the significance, if one dreams about death? and in such a crude way. still a little shaken up.

i think i had the most morbid dream ever that has somehow been etched in my mind. normally i cant recall any dreams so why cant this be part of that pile? the image of a child jumping off from the ledge is not something i want to remember. and whats more the characters are actually some people i can relate to (meaning they exist and are sort of 2nd degree friends), though ive never met them before. what the hell.. i think im too stressed up these days, with report deadlines literally breathing down my neck. the fact that it's not going so well just adds on the pressure. a little bit like my dream, tried stopping, but cant do it.

i wanna escape.

on a lighter note i think that flash mobs are way cool. haha im sure those who saw the oprah 24th season kickoff party clip would agree - 21000 people synchronising the dance to the beat of "I gotta feelin'" by BEP. i used to hate that song but now it's cool. haha. next time if theres gonna be a flashmob please invite me along, altho i cant seem to find other gimmicks other than people freeze and dancing. :) oh, and my photocard license has finally arrived, after 3 weeks!! looking forward to buying a car..... hahahah.

okay back to companies law. long long long week ahead.

Don't Speak

You and me
We used to be together
Every day together always

I really feel that I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe this could be the end

It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real, Well I don't want to know

Don't speak, I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak, I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

Our memories, They can be inviting
But some are altogether mighty frightening

As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands I sit and cry

It's all ending I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying ... are we?

Familiarity

Note to self: don't fall back into the trap I've worked so hard to get out of. Don't ever. It was silly enough to be in it once. Noone is worth that kind of heartwrenching pain anyway. Your response ytd just served as a reminder and gave me renewed persistence to keep this gap we've formed over the year - the distance i've grown used to. In words of tang xin feng bao, just another friend:) nothing else. don't let me be blinded again please.

huhuahuahua... this is supposed to be an evil laugh

i like driving where there's hardly any traffic. makes lane changing MUCH easier and you can forgo all your safety checks too =)

i've actually set out very strict rules on which conditions to drive... which my sister always laughs at. haha.
1) LIGHT traffic. very important
2) not too fast. expressway is out for now...
3) perfect weather condition
4) preferbly in the day

HAHAHAH. so that leaves me only with yewtee huh. :D and also bukit batok lah since im quite used to it there already. lol. funny story, spent a bomb learning just to drive only at these areas. mmmm.

so anw amery let me drive his car today after our weekly (we try) L4D session with the usuals... at 4 in the morning. haha. first time doing so legally and without an instructor beside me. and speaking of instructors i feel so grossed out by one of them in view of recent revelations from a friend. to think that i had quite a good impression on him. oh well, should have known better that uncles are all like that. YUCKS.

anyway it feels damn different. first of all, mitsubishi lancer instead of honda city which im used to. secondly, extremely heavy steering. thirdly, tinted windows and small mirrrors. HAHA not a good combi. very very difficult to judge the location of approaching vehicles, couldnt make out the body of those cars, only the headlights. but i got amery to check all my blindspots for me :D so basically it was quite easy driving on a straight and empty road (highway) at 100km/h back home muaha. the only real challenge was going up my narrow carpark. bleahhhhhhh

just watched the interview video of miss singapore world 2009, Ris Low. uber funny. its really a challenge trying to follow her train of thoughts, they dont make much sense. haha.

i especially liked the part where the interviewer asks:
"So, what do you wear when you are feeling naughty?"

Ris Low: If I'm naughty, then I will wear something red and loud. Something you know, BOOMS. Something that shouts ME!

?????????? hahahaha what on earth is booms?!! boomer ah? *burps* i got boomed so many times by darren while l4d-ing today man. sigh.........

LOL. at first i thought this whole thing was a joke. apparently not. mmmmm, what an entertaining video. go see go see! i shall sleep now it's already 7am. one more week to recess week! :D

haiya i dont now how to post youtube videos here. why not i provide the link instead.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5F74FZfdSJY

nites all!