always be my baby

We were as one, babe for a moment in time.
And it seemed everlasting, that you would always be mine.
Now you want to be free, so I'll let you fly,
'cause I know in my heart, babe, our love will never die.

You'll always be a part of me, I'm part of you indefinitely.
Boy, don't you know you can't escape me.
Ooh darling, cause you'll always be my baby.
And we'll linger on, time can't erase a feeling this strong.
No way you're ever gonna shake me.
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby.
--

ok i know im like slow or sth. but i cant believe that david cook's always be my baby is actually his rendition of mariah carey's. oh man. i feel so embarrassed. but in my defence, they sound NOTHING alike ok. i mean really, from a popppp-ish cheery song to a soothing, slow rock song... geez.

ok you guys compare: http://youtube.com/watch?v=_Js9mQw5nQ4 and http://youtube.com/watch?v=3QapwJpAe7w. would u have noticed!! ok maybe ardent fans of mariah carey will luh... hahah. hilarious. wouldnt say which is better, cus both of em have their own beautiful styles.

but anws.. din really catch all the episodes of american idol 7 but i can safely say it's one of the best since the first one, and mayyyybe the second season with clay aiken. but yeah.. he's got no news alr lol. but back to the point, i dun think david cook will disappear in the face of the music scene anytime soon like the rest of the idols did. yeah he won ai7, but like how some people say (kinda harsh tho), that he didnt really have to win the competition cus with his superb skills in music arrangement, tonnes of companies would wanna sign him on.. lol.. personally i feel....... they can say whatever they want, fact is david cook's the winner.

but that said, i think that archuleta should have won based on the performance in the finals. cook's choice of songs were not very good i think.. plus all he sings are rock songs! haha... but ohwell. archuleta's made a name for himself too, and he;s still so young. it's almost definite that he'll do just as well in the future if he keeps this passion going.

ok ok am blogging about reality shows AGAIN. a very delayed one somemore. haha. cant help it, there's not much to do around here. lalas~ been watching some gaming competition on starsports ytd and today. i wonder why cybergaming is considered a sport. lol. anw, it's managed to keep me entertained for awhile. quite thrilling too. HAHA. donkz..

rah. so bored. shall watch somemore vids then. till my boring life transforms into an exciting one, take care.. LOL

the end is near

I never thought that i had any more to give
Pushing me so far here i am without you
Drink to all that we have lost, mistakes that we have made
Everything will change, love remains the same
--

been doing lotsa self-learnin stuff these days.. aint excelling at it but well, beats knowing nth huh. can play some pathetic tunes on my kiddy keyboard (hehe). but sad to say i wont be a pianist anytime soon.. haha. i need some coordination!! spent like 2 whole days trying to get a stupid intro correct.

zz. oh and i learnt a few card tricks too.. bout 4 of em. not very good at em either but hey, i managed to wow mom and sis with at least one of the tricks.. lol. tho inevitably they busted some of my acts also la. so observant for what!!! haha.. donkz. but who knows, maybe i can perform next time when im up to standard. it'll be fun. haha. but for now.. practise practise practise..!

hmm, approx 1 more week till work starts again. dun really look forward to it. am kinda enjoying all these time to myself. tho i'd prefer something more thrilling and all.. but ya. anything beats work. oh ya, was so bored that i went to check the calendar just now. realised my birthday's on a sunday. that means i gotta work. HAHA. donkz.. ): nvm, it means cash.. haha

mmmm. i think i am not practising things that i preach. now i finally know why i get shit thrown at me all the time. cus i do the same to others. im sorry. i know exactly how it feels. i will be a better person.

ohwell.. back to learning! HAHA. hilarious. do humour me if i suck at "magic" tricks ok.. but as quoted from someone, "there's no magic, only logic". VERY true.

i really wanna not get mad but i dun think ur behaviour is justifiable. just when things are starting to feel alright shit happens.

(edited) stand by me. AJC.

When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we'll see
No, I won't be afraid
No, I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand, Stand by me
--

greetings. it's friday already. i hate it that days are zooming by so quickly and yet seconds tick by slowly. how is that even remotely possible? i duno, it's just amazing that may 08 is coming to an end real soon but i feel that ive accomplished nothing. god i wasted 5 months of my life. and i dont like this feeling.

anw, i dropped by the sports hall to support AJ bballers in their finals in the afternoon. although they didnt win, i must say that it was really some good effort displayed and what can i say... some really entertaining stunts had been showcased as well. LOL. would have been awesome if aj had won and avenged their 2006 loss but i guess not everything will go our way. it was just a pity that they didnt hang on long enough to stay close. in the end the gap just widened and there was nothing we could do to bridge that.

yawns. so boreddddddddddddddddddddddd. i cant think of anything to say. zz hate my boring entries. i think this is more of a 'typing for the sake of it' sorta entry. *pouts* and i got bored of watching PS i love you. hahah. im sure it was a good movie, but either the low quality online vid compromised everything or it's just not my type of movie. mmm. i think i'll appreciate the book more. who knows.

ok i think i wanna go. am tired of waiting. and oh yes before that. LOWYILUN pls get well soon!! it's so worrying luh. wish you speedy recovery! ((:

phone calls are love :D

edit`2.22am sat 24/5

adding words again. blue fonts to attract attention, and also to remind myself of AJC (blue font, yellow background in case it isnt apparent enough). :D

nth much but i am just way bored so i decided to pop by and rant a lil. was looking at some piano pieces on youtube and i decided (or rather discovered) that i really really really wanna learn the piano, or at least something instrumental. i forsee alot of problems (think: very uncoordinated fingers and ignorance of anything that is remotely related to music), but i guess it will be kinda cool to master some art. zz, am too old for all these arent i?

sometimes i dun like it when i tell people that i duno how to play any musical instruments, they stare at me in disbelief, or make stupid comments like "HUH!!!!". spoilt brats, really. i mean come on la, not every parent has the financial capabilities to send their children for music lessons on top of everything else they have to support right. maybe now it's still not too bad. but back in those days, you have extra money you pay for food, not for pleasure. so yeah. it was just too bad my family wasnt that well off, and the only thing i had the opportunity to learn was the recorder.

weird, wonders how watching a simple video can escalate to such annoyance. haha. ohwell.. sian. oh geez i just realised i havent replied a mail. dangss.. will do so soon then. haha. wish there was more content for me to work on tho. nah, nvm.. ((:

mika's song is stuck in my head.. grace kelly. go listen!! haha. so nice and cheery. *laughs* i wanna sing so badly but it is most unfortunate that his voice is so damn high it's reaching ultrasound. nvm.. let it remain my earworm.. *goes crazy in my head* oh and secondhand serenade too.. zzzz. somehow i keep remembering his songs although i dun really want to. his voice reminds me of so much. and with the tune a whirlwind of emotions tag along. unexplainable. rahh. nvm.

okok. guess ive said enough. shall go. nightssss.

cant wait to talk again. ((:

il divo.

Follow your heart
Let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe in you

Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you can not do
I believe, I believe, I believe in you.
--

il divo and celine dion - i believe in you. can't stop listenin to it, it's really beautiful. sigh.. you know how some songs can bring tears to your eyes. this is one of em. not in an emo uncool way, but.. it's just so touching. beyond what words can describe. ((:

haha, awesome. mmm. thinks i'm currently experiencing a change in music preference, not that i no longer like my depressing ballads or soft rock songs (because they are really good for the ears hehe), but i guess it doesnt hurt to explore other genres of songs. and well, so far it's been good - i'm liking what i hear. i really enjoy songs that are uplifting and motivating. one that will push you on to achieve something better. something that one can only dream of. it's nice.

been tuning in to the radio stations too recently, am trying to catch up with the times.. HAHA. well, the only complaint i have is that they keep repeating the songs! which is kinda annoying really.. ohwell. and i must say, shan wee has improved in his dj-ing skills, quite a far cry from his previously awkward monologues.

so anw, my hands are shaking from my squash session today. rahh.. weak arms. i really hope i wont end up having parkinson's disease when im old. (choy.. touch wood tho) lol. tho i joke about it sometimes but it is still quite worrying, no? ohwells. shake shake shake it off.

so anw, i wanted to complain bout the rudeness of singaporean foodstall vendors, ESP aunties. and maybe uncles. sometimes, i wanna take a knife and just stab them mercilessly. i really dun understand why it is so difficult for them to practise some form of courtesy. why, is menopause weighing them down, along with their smiles?!!! honestly..

i think if you wanna be in a profession that includes interaction with people, you gotta at least have the decency to be a little bit friendly right? dun have to be over the top and engage in small talks all the time, but a simple smile or 'thank you's would be nice. zz. nvm. talk about being top notch in the service industry? we still have a long way to go. hopefully the young ones that are taking over will have some sophistication. this isnt ageism... it's just the sad truth.

lala~ so tired. yet awake at the same time. zz. 1.5 week of my break had passed. tho im kinda suffering from the boredom, i dun wanna go back to work. hahas. i wanna do something meaningful. perhaps some volunteer work! (: i should.. to rid myself of all that bad karma.. LOL. tsk, kidding. it's not for selfish reasons luh.

i wonder why my posts always look so much wordier than others. i think there's a problem with my paragraphing. ohwells.. will typing in point form will make the content less heavy? i duno. it does seem to work on some blogs.

gah.. so bored. maybe i should get back to watching PS i love you. heard it'll leave one sobbing like crazy. we'll see. haha. ciaos~

tho you'll not see this, every part of the song is for you. take care

the sound of music.

No Importa La Distancia

Una vez sone Que en algun lugar
Yo podria ser alguien
lograse amar Y tambien sone
Que si he de triunfar Mi orgullo aferrado
Tendre que superar

Un dia llegare No importa la distancia
El rumbo encontrare Y tendre valor
Paso a paso ire Y persistire
A cualquier distancia Yo el amor alcanzare

Una vez te vi Era todo irreal Y aunque fuese un sueno
Te sentia junto a mi
Se que estas ahi Que te encontrare
Aunque tarde una vida Yo jamas renunciare

Mas alla de toda gloria
Del orgullo y el valor
El poder de un heroe
en su corazon
--

awesome or what?

ajchoir-ed ytd. loved their dances (yes dances) and especially the broadway songs! of course.. their theme song no importa la distancia, which was stuck in my head for a looong time, well, now still actually. haha. zk kicked butt with his solo. (:

but i was sitting too high up and was straining my eyes most of the time, head hurt after that. oh well, least i could see the formation clearly.. and what annoyed me the most were the people behind me, who seemed to have no concert ettiqute at all. i duno what they were doing there honestly, they seemed more interested in talking and laughing. donkz. thankfully i managed to block em out. haha.

mmmm. on another note, i think chilli/spicy stuff really gives me the tummy upsets. rahhh. but that wont stop me from eating them! LOL. zzzz. another week is here. hope i wont be rotting so much, tho i have a feeling i will. ): im so sad.. wants to go out and have some fun! ROAR. oops. shall get back to my feasting.

toods~

go the distance

I have often dreamed of a far off place,
Where a heros welcome would be waiting for me.
Where the crowds would cheer, when they see my face,
And a voice keeps saying this is where I'm meant to be

I'll be there someday, I can go the distance.
I will find my way if I can be strong.
I know every mile would be worth my while,
When I go the distance, I'll be right where I belong.

Down an unknown road to embrace my fate,
Though that road may wander, it will lead me to you.
And a thousand years would be worth the wait.
It might take a lifetime but somehow I'll see it through
--

for anyone who needs motivation, read the lyrics, or better yet listen to the song!! it is good stuff. i know.. a super oldie, but it truly is wonderful and inspiring. nuff said, let the words speak for emself.

anw, am so happy i finally found someone to go to choir concert with! lol.. apparently it's soldout, and they had to get esplanade to release more seats. tho i doubt those will have any hint of a good view. :S but yeh, zk managed to get some tix for me from people who were selling the tix (still cant figure out why they bought and then sell em without hiking price. LOL not complaining), and according to him it's still not too bad. so yay. haha.. and and, he told me HE IS the encore performance. i think he was pretty offended when i told him i couldn't tell if he was joking.. lol.. oops. tsk, least i didn't laugh in his face, and i guess it shows some level of belief in him, no? we'll see we'll see. can't wait. lol.

mmm, 1 week of my break has passed... and i dun think i've spent them very fruitfully. gahh. basically my day revolves around tv, sleep, youtube, typing worksheets, occasional phonecalls, and very surprisingly, EXERCISE!!! hahha. am so proud of myself for attempting to get back in shape, well i dun see the effects yet but soon i will if i keep going! beams.

zz. so bored. it's a saturday afternoon and noone's online. and i realise there is a drastic decrease in my msn contacts on weekdays since the guys went to army. man, the transition stage is really apparent now huh. we are moving on to a new phase of our lives. and i cant wait for mine to begin (i.e. university). so far my life's been really stagnant and im not so much a fan of it now.

man, but what next after university? i think it's pretty scary to be totally independent and not have ur parents fend for you, especially after 18 years of em doing so. ok fine maybe it's not to everyone, but it is for me. lol. i know it's so loser but then increasingly im receiving government letters (cpf etc) and sometimes i have no idea what to do with them. do i reply or what? it turns out i have to but i didnt. hahaha. then i imagine, next time i'll have bills coming my way, on top of all the work i gotta handle, and what about family life? it sure is daunting. *shudders*

well.. i guess i'll figure that out in time to come, but for now, i still have another 3 or 4 years of studying to go through. so yeah. lol. approximately 2.5 months more of vacation to go, i'd better start living my life now. but it's so hard to do so when noone's here to enjoy with me. ): ah well.. nvm.

on another note, caught the finale of survivor ytd. mm, it was somehow a lil... lacklustre? as in i think the crafty women ran out of brilliant ideas to stab each other. haha. or did they honestly not wanna do so, i wouldnt know. there was a lack of drama, even during the final tribal council with the jury. but i guess overall it was still a good season. it's definitely put survivor back to the must-watch list of shows. hopefully the next season will be just as dramatic and scheming, cus i wanna learn a few tricks of being cunning and ruthless. HAHA.

bored. wordy. it's time to par-tay!

dreaming out loud.

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do u see what I see...
--

the days without work are boring as hell.. but im not complaining. lol. least i dun have to use my voice so much. am finally recovering from my sore-throat-turned-flu illness, thank god. lol. nth much is going on. been working on my science worksheets all day. hope i dont go blind from all that computer staring.

and know what? kids at PRIMARY 5 are actually learning about dominant and recessive genes! GAWD. it's crazy... i only started learning that when i was sec 3 or 4 luh. and then further in jc. now it's pushed down to primary school syllabus?!! well, i'd guess it isnt too difficult to understand but still... it may be a tad complicated for a poor pschool kid. i feel for you all, little ones.. hehe.

so what next, will MOE be bombing little kids with trigo and maybe dna replication in no time? lol.. i guess i wouldnt be surprised if that really happens. cus kids these days are smart. with that level of literacy singapore has.... u gotta drill them with really mind boggling topics to sift the As from the Bs. im just thankful i wont be reading something that is way outta my league at such young age. beams....

that said, i really really really miss biology, and i dunno why. HAHA. its shocking, i thought i'll miss math and chem more. cus i was never really good at bio. but with all that sciencey tv programmes i watch.. and the stupid worksheets i have to type (there is like no chemistry involved in pri sch science i duno why), i cant help reminiscing bout bacteria, viruses, genetics and all that DNA stuff! HAHA. weird weird weird. im so nerdy... mmm.

maybe one of these days i'll dig the notes and read em just for fun. hahaha. abit crazy but.. ohwell. i lead an extraordinarily boring life. :S i miss JC life! never thought i'd say this but i should know better. (:

anw, for the first time in my life, i fell aslp in the theatre. watchin ironman. LOL. gosh... can't believe it. and it's not as if the show is boring or sth. but i was so tired from work (long story, OT for almost 3 hours cus of this long operation on the guy with a stubborn root lol) that sunday i just couldnt keep my eyes open. dun think i missed alot tho, felt pretty awake after my 10 to 15 min shuteye. hehe. power nap.

mmmmmm. guess i should go now.. tho i duno where to. and what to do. zz. but i gotta rest em eyes i guess.

HMMM. hope i get to dine with u sometime soon. 's been so long..

toodles.

feelin like crap.

i had a really great day ytd havin buffet and going for mother's day shoppin with lun which i was so gonna blog about....

but i woke up feelin like crap so im not gonna. prolly another day. sorry lun ): u can have the honours okie...

so the highlights of the first half of today:

1. i have the worst sore throat ever and im feelin weak from the meds.
2. i feel like the world had just fallen on me.

stupid. am i THAT dispensable. so ure gonna treat me like rubbish . ahhhhhhh fine. u're the world's biggest ass. and im the world's biggest idiot. why do i always choose to be the latter when i can be the former. i dun even know why im still trying after all this time. PISSED OFF. and dissapointed at the same time.

gahhhh. so this is what death feels like. i need my strepsils. i need my sleep.

somewhere over the rainbow.

so where do you go?

Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high.

There's a land that I heard of Once in a lullaby.

Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue.

And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.

--

i predict that this will be a really long entry.. hopefully not a dry one tho. *crosses fingers*

i guess there'd be a thunderstorm coming a lil later.. awesome stuff. i love the rain when im not out. LOL. but i think my mood will be somewhat affected by the looming storm (haha).. well, let's hope not for the worse yeah. am feelin a lil weird now.. and a throbbing headache does not compliment this sorta weird mood.

but i had a great day today.. played squash with shirong in the afternoon today. donkz, my boss loaned us a REALLY oldschool racket. the face of the racket is like half the size of current ones.. and it's so ugly.. HAHA. we kept laughing at it.. tho he said that only those who have standard will use it. hurhur. indeed. it was quite hard to hit. u guys should check it out.. it's really ANCIENT.

well, i just returned home from a buffet at Ritz Carlton Hotel. boss' treat for the tutors.. yeah i know, he's really generous right?! but anw, it's non-stop-laughter with him around.. cus the comments he makes are really hilarious and i would say, something we could relate to, i.e uniquely singaporean. haha. i guess that's another story for another day, no? but the part he mentioned about foreigners not being able to understand the singaporean slang is something that really stands out. he was telling us a story that goes sth like:

foreigner: so what is the brand of the car that you drive?

boss: mercedes (pronounced the typical singaporean way, mer-ser-dis)

foreigner: ????? oh? what's that?

boss: huh?! u dont know mercedes? *goes on to describe the logo of mercedes* (there.. the circle with triangles that one!! OMG LOL)

foreigner: oooohhhhh. mercedes (pronounced mer-seh-diz) eh?

and another situation,

singaporean: do you sell bananas? (ba-nah-nahs)

foreigner: ????? ohhhhh, u mean bananas? (ba-neh-nahs)

****

boss: imagine slanging in the non-singaporean way to a singaporean fruit seller.

shirong and i: *burst out laughing*

HAHA.. the way he said it was a hundred times more amusing than this.. and tho it might seem like a light-hearted joke, in the midst of all that humour, there's something worth noting - that is, you can never be complacent with your language. maybe it isnt very obvious in the singaporean context - sure, u may have the ability blow people's mind away with your bombastic words or your accent. but dont forget, more often than not, you are conversing with people who have been exposed to your culture for at least half, if not all of their lifetime. they are used to such intonation. so, as long as you do not use excessive singlish, or have near perfect grammar.. or even merely talking in a pleasant way, u will pass off as someone being above the average.

however, it's a totally different ball game when you try to communicate with people who have no idea what singaporean culture is like. for me, i can honestly say that i've never really doubted my standard of english, cus it's a medium for conversation since school started, and even more so in my last 2 years of jc. so i was kinda shocked when the aussies had to get me to repeat my sentence 2 or 3 times to catch what i was saying..

so in my opinion, while it is perfectly fine to engage ur daily chats with the use of singlish, one must learn how to switch back to standard english if need be. keep the 'lors' and the 'lahs' to yourself, it does not add meaning to the statement. to some, speaking perfect english might be an attempt in trying to act classy or being pretentious. but for me, it's just a lifeskill one ought to learn - both for communicative purposes and simply cus you should speak a language it's meant to be used.

hmm. then throughout the course of our dinner, my boss brought up some other issues which were really thought provoking, while others just drop dead funny. HAHA. he should be a comedian. honestly. lol. then he told us that he encourages us to go for fortune telling.. cus it's really accurate. i guess it would be kinda interesting, and in a way, it would probably give us a sense of control or security to have some knowledge of your future. but what if u find out that ur odds are less than favourable. would it depress you so much that it takes away ur confidence, causing everything to spiral into nothingness? would the failures then be considered a result of a self fufilling prophecy?

so anw anw, realised i havent commented anything on the food and ambience. well, of course the ambience is fantastic, it's a six star hotel.. everything is really grand, even the washrooms! oh my.. haha. but then i think the variety of food isnt really there. they're nice, but i want more! HAHA. oops. but it was an eyeopener for me to say the least.. haha.

yawns.. am feelin pretty tired now. an hour has passed but the weather is still.. non-rainy. gahh. guess i wont be able to sleep in paradise tonight. HAHA. 's alright ba.. it's just as well. mmmm.. shall go off now i guess. bored.. haha. yawnnss.. ciao~

it sucks that i'm finding it so hard to talk to you these days. just what on earth happened?

long distance melody

where did i go wrong, i lost a friend.
somewhere along in the bitterness and
i wouldve stayed up, with you all night.
had i known, how to save a life.
--

im not sure who's actually reading (by reading i mean getting thru every word however lengthy the post is. not read the first line, tag, and go.) this boring blog of mine, but whoever does, i thank you for hearing what i have to say about.. nothing at all. HAHA. very often i tend to make a mountain out of a molehill, but i dun like to say superficial things so ya.. i mean, recounting daily happenings is not my style unless something outta the ordinary happens, cus it's really dull to me - i'll prolly bore the wits outa myself and then the readers. it takes skill to make such entries lively and entertaining. so i'll leave that to the experts. haha. for me.. i prefer to just speak my mind, verbalise em thoughts. that's how my blog url came about anws.

but of late i cant seem to find anything to say.. my mind's abit disoriented. lol. i guess when one writes with an audience in mind, it's that much harder. in words of ross, "it must be the pressure of entertainment". LOL. but well, i'll try..

i think im officially showing outward signs of favouritism. LOL. i scolded the class of girls today.. and i kinda caught myself by surprise too to say the least. haha, if the boys were there i might not have snapped.. cus i laugh at their sillyness and their booming voices would have drowned my voice anw.

well, i suppose i've yet to master the art of being a good teacher. i mean, i believe i am nice and all... which is why im having such a hard time controlling the class. being a good teacher doesnt mean having the ability to teach very well per se. afterall, whats the use of teaching when noone's listening, the only thing you'll come close to educating is the air, but very sadly not so much either. you gotta be able to win the respect of students and also discipline them at the correct times.. sigh.. it's time for me to unleash the fury.. haha. sounds scary.. but i havent scolded anyone in awhile.. ;p

so thinking back now, i feel quite guilty for being an ass to some of my teachers. i guess i've never really put myself in their positions. but this only goes to show how selfish people are - the first thing you think about is ur own benefits. as a student, you feel outraged that an incompetent teacher might potentially ruin ur studies, you want a better teacher. similarly, as a teacher, you want better students. what a silly cycle. lol.

so anw, last day of work tmr and then i have my 3 week break from tuition. chuckles. i guess it would be kinda nice to slack for awhile, tho things might get pretty dry, and even more boring than now.. zz. faints. i guess i could deal with that.. please go out with me! HAHA.

not anymore

It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you love me you'd say it's okay
--

empty apartment by yellowcard. realise all im listening to are the really oldschool songs. lol. but somehow, i think the older songs have more meaning. it's quite evident really, if you compare the trashy songs these days and the soothing songs from the past. or even works of the same artistes over the years - you'll find that their standards deteriorate. not a pretty sight. and very bad for the ears.. haha.

so im feelin pretty silly now. looks like ive been waiting for nth all this time. congratulations, the topic has been averted oh-so-skilfully. the indifference. i didnt get any answer at all. but ohwell, the absence of evidence is not an implication of evidence of absence, perhaps the lack of answer IS an answer in itself. and it speaks so much louder. sigh. forget it. there wont be anything anymore. let's go back to being superficial.

hmm, nth much to blog about. cept for the meetup with the clique (joyce jiayi and yanling) ytd. was fun.. had a really sumptuous dinner. tho it's never enough for me.. haha. am horrified by my appetite. ohwell. anw, i sorta regretted not eating the ramen. hmph. i forgot how good it tasted. ramen at ajisen, or ajitei in our case, is ZE BEST. the soup is finger lickin good.. chucks my unagi thingy away. lol. but yeah, that aside, it was good catchin up a lil with em after sooo long. pics on joyce's or yl's blog. abit lazy to steal em. haha.

am currently struggling to think of what to blog right now. zz. i really think i have some form of memory disfunction. just a moment ago i had stuff to say, but the next, they're all gone. haha. boo. and anw i think my entries sound so repetitive.. but my life is as such. soo... yawns. haha. i am very hungry now.. it's late in the night but i wont let it bother me. LOL. gonna go food hunting later.. tho i think my house has nothing for me to feast on. so sad.

yawns.. i think i shall watch some friends. again. haha. the best sitcom ever. loves em witty jokes. ((:

driving at 3am

You used to talk to me like I was the only one around
You used to lean on me, the only other choice was falling down
You used to walk with me like we had no where we needed to go
Nice and slow, to no place in particular.

We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
The nights were clearer for the first time that I'd see
We used to have this under control
We never thought we used to know
At least there's you, and at least there's me
Can we get this back? Can we get this back?
To how it used to be
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i can so relate to this song now.. but thats not really the point. yawns.. mornin glory~ it's 5.11am and i just got home from supper with sis and amery.

was pretty fun..! had no dinner tonight (oh actually technically last night) cus of work. rahhh is it justifiable to work on a public holiday and most likely being paid the usuals?! lol.. my mom actually wanted me to ask for 1.5x pay.. but its kinda embarrassing. ohwell. it doesnt really matter cus it was quite slack for me. din even have to head a class ytd.. and especially no sec 1 class. lol. well i was happy. hmmm. but so sad i din get to teach p5B!! i wanna see my fav smart kid.. hahaah.

so anw i kinda digressed a lil. zz. hmm. point was we went out for supper at some hong kong dim sum place near ecp.. we ordered quite alot.. it was a spread luh.. siew mai, chee cheong fun (3 different fillings), xiao long bao, ha1 gao2, some tze chuan soup thingy, chicken feet etc.. lol. so yeah.. really late night binging for me.. at around 1++ or 2am. looks at bulging tummy.. *shakes head* shall do sth bout it tmr.. or maybe next time.. haha.

but anw thats not the main part.. the best part was..

*drumrolls*

i took the wheel on some deserted (main) road after that!! HAHA. *SSHHHHHHHHHHHHH* madness luh.. cus amery was like "why not we teach the small one driving once everyone is full..." lol. hilarious. i was darn scared.. actually i wasnt very nervous.. but still, im sure amery and sis felt like they were on a death cab or sth.. lol. so donkz.. plus i suck at easing on the throttle/brakes and turning the wheel. zzz. its really not as simple as it looks! ok fine maybe i dun have the talent for driving.. i think if i ever start on my practical lessons i'd really need the roads to be BLOCKED. haha. cus i kinda drive into oncoming lanes.. *hides face* thank god there were no cars in the wee hours of the mornin.

anw, we were like driving this straight road which actually turns into the main road.. lol. i wasnt prepared for that luh.. zzz. and the first time i really went full pedal on the brake and the car sorta just well.. jerked to a stop violently. haha. oopsay~ din know it was that sensitive. then amery was imitating puke sounds. haha. hilarious.

then we went to this carpark to practise my turning (which really sucks cus i cant quite decide when to brake or accelerate and how much to turn the wheel). this part was hands down the scariest.. cus there were really fierce stray dogs there! and they always choose to come barking after the car right where i wanna turn. zz. amery was going "dont care bout the dogs, just turn.. they'll know how to siam4. or u just bang them lor". lol.. but how to disregard them.. now i know how the fear factor contestants feel when they have dogs running after them. it IS scary. hmmm. shudders.

anw as i was driving i kept panicking when i saw cars approaching me.. lol.. and stupid cyclists should stay off road! even people waiting at the busstops bother me.. i was going.. "ahhh got people". then my sis laughed her head off and said innocent people by the road not knowing what's coming.. gahh..

then second part was just more driving on narrow roads.. a lil scary. esp on roundabouts. yikes.. u guys should try.. and teach me..! cus i cant seem to get it right.

so anw im getting kinda sleepy now. hmmm. in any case, i have decided that i will be more patient towards learner drivers i see everyday on way to work from now on. and not curse at em in my heart for looking like an idiot driving so slowly.. haha. tho i still think that i would not drive at that snail pace when my turn eventually comes. but driving in daylight scares me a lil.. the traffic..! HAHA. madness. ohwell..

hmmm, watch out yilun.. we should go drive together.. i think we'll own the roads. HAHA.

rahh.. tired tired.. adrenaline's kinda gone i guess. mmm. 5.43am alr. time for bed.. yawns.. work again tmr, but thankfully quite slack. *beams*

oh ya before i forget, ANYONE WANNA GO FOR AJCHOIR CONCERT ON 18th MAY? i feel like going but i dun have company. dang, shoulda asked nic a lil earlier.. hmmss. anyone wanna go?