professionalism or just plain rude...it's a fine line.

today, i was happily peeping at strangers' smsing on the train again. it's really a joy trust me, especially if they're conversing with their bfs or gfs. :D strange things people say...

anyway, this victim of privacy invasion by me was this guy.... actually i didnt even get a clear look at the msges but im quite sure his friend sent something like "very pek chek (i.e. frustrating)..." there was more but i couldnt read in such a flash. i suppose his friend was complaining about something that he/she could not manage and was most likely looking for some words of encouragement. logically and instinctively, one would just give him/her the satisfaction of some sort of reassurance the person is fishing for. anyway, guess what the guy's reply was?

"Learn to manage." In exact phrasing. i remembered, cos the msg was just this short.

wtf. wtf. -_-"" if i were his friend, i'd beat him into pulp the next time i see him. oooohkay fine it might be a good thing that he's not pretentious or whatever (since i personally do not like people to say things they dont believe in just to make me feel better as well). but at least, have a heart and not be so curt in the delivery.

if there's one thing i cannot stand more, it would be curt replies. thats no doubt one of my biggest pet peeve. seriously, i would rather you have not replied at all. sure beats trying to tolerate your bad moods please. however i know of many many many people who cannot seem to bring over any form of emotion into their texts (wont you agree with me that this happens mostly with guys?), but in real life they're not like that. so its quite strange to me.. haha. so please.... be lively if you ever sms me ok. i will reciprocate i promise!!! seeeeeeeee exclaimation marks! because i've had it with people who acts like i owe them my life or something and i know it doesnt feel great!:D

okay it's raining again.

honestly what is wrong with putting emotions into text messages or emails???? dont you want your smses to shout you? lol. i think i will really struggle to contain my emotions when i try to email at work in the future. haha, i heard from my sis that she stopped trying to be tactful and friendly (she's one of the best people to msg btw) cos noone bothers to do the same. so she hopped on to the "Best Regards" bus and apparently things get done better cos the agenda's set out. sounds bossy, but effective. sighhhh..

what's up with best regards man. why do people even use it. it's the single most pretentious phrase to end off an email with. i could settle for a Thanks!, or cheers... better than this stupid act formal phrase. best regards is literally, a slap to the face. you know what i read when i see that everytime? it practically means heck you can die for all i care.

its just sad that formality is how we judge professionalism to be. come on, its important in the corporate world to establish good relationships and networks. so it's time to introduce some smileys and exclaimations marks and CAPS LOCK if necessary. i will start the trend!:D

ooooh christmas celebration tmr at the finance department. i hope im invited LOL. i wanna win the upapa!!!

random thoughts from work

in case you guys dont know that im back in the working world.. well, i am. haha. back to the data entry days and the nostalgic feeling of dreading every work day, not wanting to go to bed cos you know when u wake up its time for work again.

oh well, everything is a new learning experience. a good exposure. 4 days in, here are some random stuff to share, in point form so as to be abit more light hearted and not too lengthy

1. i reaaaaally dont wanna lose my eyes to the computer

2. i might develop an accent soon.... with prolonged exposure to all the expats in the firm. would be better if i could talk to them... but i dont. lol

3. it's impossible for HR to be strategic... at least not right now. what was BH226 about again?

4. why are old ladies in a particular department especially (guess which one!!) grumpy?

5. i eavesdrop on every conversation that reaches my ears, big and small. they entertain me.

6. it feels weird typing on my nice keyboard after using the laupok compaq laptop for a week

7. it sucks to be part of the morning rush. AND evening peak hour period.

8. i've renewed, actually no... more like intensified my hobby of peeping at strangers smsing on the train. especially appreciative of sony ericsson phone users. *likes* not much to do on the train....

9. i have a favourite toilet in the office. there are only 2 cubicles, but somehow i always have to go to that particular cubicle because the other one is occupied. i guess it likes me too :)

10. some office people are really quite pretentious.

11. they speak to measley employees (i dont mean myself cos im just too harmless) in the tone that will kill, but a totally opposite behaviour towards the boss or other expats. they are like puppies. tsktsk. barks.

shit im feeling so bitchy/gossippy today. spent over an hour talking bad about celebrities :( thanks to mr shawn ng HF. tsktsk. he's a gossip boy (who watches gossip girls) lah seriously. and YAY i found a potential buddy at work! woohoo. so happie.

hopefully tomorrow iluma wont be packed! altho most likely yes according to mervin. session tomorrow with him muaha. omg turning into a gaming addict or some sort. haiyo.

And the good thing about exam is.....

A simple 'jiayou for your exams' turned fun and hilarious outing. I like...:D one of the best days in recent hair pulling extravaganza. Looking forward to more of such spontaneous sessions! It's good talking to you again:) haha. But anyway it's back to reality. HR exams on monday, seriously what is there to learn? Ugh I miss Spanish lessons, at least they were actually useful. And fun. Oh well, certificate speaks. Back to my books. Does anyone know how to press enter on iPod touch rah!!!

Hmmm. You know right, some 'friends' are really damn thick skin. Always coming to you when they need help and leaving you to die when they have better things going on in their lives is not cool man. I tell myself, let's not be too calculative here. But it's just too sick. Strangely enough, they are aplenty. I hope I'm not like that. Am I?

The other day I saw how he takes such good care of his bros, and I saw his younger brother holding the youngest brother hand. Omg that scene is simply heartwarming. Good thing my sis treats me well too! Haha :)

split split split. you get fucking shit work.

i am ready to die for my report already.

fucking hell.

i said we needed to meet and discuss at least a little bit but everyone just wanted to leave and whatnot. as if i didnt have better things to do than this stupid subject. as if i wasnt as busy (or as hungry -snorts-) as you all were.

right now i just hope that everything will link. if not who's gonna clear the mess again? who;s gonna do the compiling? who's gonna make it right?

seeing red.

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sigh.... sometimes its not so good to have references. limits your thinking. what's with all the lifting man..... whats more quite frankly, its not a good job. bleah. cant wait for wednesday to be over.

grumpy

I just can't bring myself to treat you as family. Altho maybe i should. But seeing how you have no sense of shame at all justifies all my rage. Stupid negative feelings. Can't wait for my work to be done.

funny videos are distracting :S

good morning, its 4am. im tired again after my 4 hr nap. cant stop slacking!!! tho i have mountains of work to do. oh wells.. i seem so distracted this sem i have no idea why.

mirroring shine's blogpost, i think that nbs is really trying to test our limits. projects stretching all the way to the end of the semester, (mine till week 14 mind you) WITHOUT study breaks at all and booms (hehe) it's exams.... thats crazy. dont they know that projects and studies are actually mutually exclusive? you do one, you dont do the other, as simple as that.

i'd be happy even if there's only 1 week of study break like everywhere else... heck they dont even wanna give us a proper recess week, the profs really think that time stands still during recess week or something, happily drowning us with assignments and reports like theres no tomorrow. and as a consolation prize, quizzes right after that!!!! how to study i ask you. not our fault that we screw up in our quizzes (stupid aa202)

but anw i still think if i didnt slack so much i could actually manage this kind of workload. but i get tired very easily... i think it's the lack of running = lack of adrenaline. sigh im getting fat. everytime i chance upon my JC photos i feel damn sad. the golden times are over man. muscles replaced by fats, topping off with additional flabs all around. i need to exercise but im tired...... vicious cycle

okay what a boring entry. i shall get back to my project/attempt my case study report (really sian diao) or just go to sleep. :D

morbid dreams

what is the significance, if one dreams about death? and in such a crude way. still a little shaken up.

i think i had the most morbid dream ever that has somehow been etched in my mind. normally i cant recall any dreams so why cant this be part of that pile? the image of a child jumping off from the ledge is not something i want to remember. and whats more the characters are actually some people i can relate to (meaning they exist and are sort of 2nd degree friends), though ive never met them before. what the hell.. i think im too stressed up these days, with report deadlines literally breathing down my neck. the fact that it's not going so well just adds on the pressure. a little bit like my dream, tried stopping, but cant do it.

i wanna escape.

on a lighter note i think that flash mobs are way cool. haha im sure those who saw the oprah 24th season kickoff party clip would agree - 21000 people synchronising the dance to the beat of "I gotta feelin'" by BEP. i used to hate that song but now it's cool. haha. next time if theres gonna be a flashmob please invite me along, altho i cant seem to find other gimmicks other than people freeze and dancing. :) oh, and my photocard license has finally arrived, after 3 weeks!! looking forward to buying a car..... hahahah.

okay back to companies law. long long long week ahead.

Don't Speak

You and me
We used to be together
Every day together always

I really feel that I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe this could be the end

It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real, Well I don't want to know

Don't speak, I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak, I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

Our memories, They can be inviting
But some are altogether mighty frightening

As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands I sit and cry

It's all ending I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying ... are we?

Familiarity

Note to self: don't fall back into the trap I've worked so hard to get out of. Don't ever. It was silly enough to be in it once. Noone is worth that kind of heartwrenching pain anyway. Your response ytd just served as a reminder and gave me renewed persistence to keep this gap we've formed over the year - the distance i've grown used to. In words of tang xin feng bao, just another friend:) nothing else. don't let me be blinded again please.

huhuahuahua... this is supposed to be an evil laugh

i like driving where there's hardly any traffic. makes lane changing MUCH easier and you can forgo all your safety checks too =)

i've actually set out very strict rules on which conditions to drive... which my sister always laughs at. haha.
1) LIGHT traffic. very important
2) not too fast. expressway is out for now...
3) perfect weather condition
4) preferbly in the day

HAHAHAH. so that leaves me only with yewtee huh. :D and also bukit batok lah since im quite used to it there already. lol. funny story, spent a bomb learning just to drive only at these areas. mmmm.

so anw amery let me drive his car today after our weekly (we try) L4D session with the usuals... at 4 in the morning. haha. first time doing so legally and without an instructor beside me. and speaking of instructors i feel so grossed out by one of them in view of recent revelations from a friend. to think that i had quite a good impression on him. oh well, should have known better that uncles are all like that. YUCKS.

anyway it feels damn different. first of all, mitsubishi lancer instead of honda city which im used to. secondly, extremely heavy steering. thirdly, tinted windows and small mirrrors. HAHA not a good combi. very very difficult to judge the location of approaching vehicles, couldnt make out the body of those cars, only the headlights. but i got amery to check all my blindspots for me :D so basically it was quite easy driving on a straight and empty road (highway) at 100km/h back home muaha. the only real challenge was going up my narrow carpark. bleahhhhhhh

just watched the interview video of miss singapore world 2009, Ris Low. uber funny. its really a challenge trying to follow her train of thoughts, they dont make much sense. haha.

i especially liked the part where the interviewer asks:
"So, what do you wear when you are feeling naughty?"

Ris Low: If I'm naughty, then I will wear something red and loud. Something you know, BOOMS. Something that shouts ME!

?????????? hahahaha what on earth is booms?!! boomer ah? *burps* i got boomed so many times by darren while l4d-ing today man. sigh.........

LOL. at first i thought this whole thing was a joke. apparently not. mmmmm, what an entertaining video. go see go see! i shall sleep now it's already 7am. one more week to recess week! :D

haiya i dont now how to post youtube videos here. why not i provide the link instead.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5F74FZfdSJY

nites all!

really doesnt and probably would never get the uni lingo

i dont know why uni people like to talk weird. i really dont. haha. sometimes, its really super irritating, but i dont say anything much cos some of my friends use them. haha. oops. i hope they will never find their way over here. -chuckles-

i guess i dont hear so many people say cui, it's dying down already. i suppose it really has cui-ed :D good good. keep it up. but now we have tonnes others.

1. UPZ. (as in the opposite of down)
eg. you are already mugging at week 1? upz leh you.

2. ji3 _________ (use hanyu pinyin)
eg. wah this is ji3 lamezzzz. i am ji confused. wow this is ji expensive!

wow. speechless.

okay anw, on to better news... ive finally passed my TP today! HAHA. shytes la i almost failed tho, chalked up so many demerit points but seriously, those 8 points of failure to check safety during BOTH parkings was uncalled for. i did turn and check lo. but whatever the case, i should be contented, and to be honest the tester was pretty okay. aww man im gonna miss things at bbdc, hate it that i would disappear just like that, without saying a proper thank you to my instructors. oh well, i guess i can go and stalk them or something. LOL. just kiddding.

sigh, what an unproductive day. shall go and look at some annual reports then. seeya.

pray it gets better.

this has got to be one of the worst weeks ever. everything doesnt seem to be going too smoothly. bleah

overslept on friday on the day of some graded ethics essay. rushed out of my house and couldnt catch a cab - took the public transport instead. -_- ran for 179, and missed it. got to class, late for half an hour, wrote rubbish for ethics essay. day dreamed the whole damn day. man....

presentation tmr, got into an argument (well sorta) with my groupmate last night. he said he was kidding.. uh ok. feeling pissed at some guy who doesnt contribute at all despite it being his presentation week this time around. seriously, reading the slides we created just before class and presenting it ain't contribution. bleah hope we dont screw it up again man

just my luck. just my luck.

oh and i got scolded today at work too not just once, which seriously sucks. just what i needed to end off this terrible week.....

anw it's just a ranting episode. may every tomorrow be a better day.

errors everywhere.

oh man, i'm seriously experiencing computer troubles lately. i suspect it's windows vi*t*'s problem (to protect myself from slandering).. but whatever it is, just begone!

rahhh, so much to do, yet i'm not picking up the pace. the four hour breaks are seriously killing me. i can't get any proper rest nor can i concentrate in my work. i found out that my optimum time to work (like enzymes) is during the wee hours of the morning. it's cooling, quiet and good to study. SIGH! but now i am just not motivated to do anything.. the way i had been this past 2 weeks.

i don't know why im so half hearted all the time, towards everything. where's that drive?!! sometimes i really hate my attitude, it's a liability man. last lesson of career foundations module made me realise i cant be so reserved all the time. somehow ive been dismissing this issue but i think the sense of awkwardness in me has got to be corrected somehow, someday. anyway there was this girl who did so many things which made me wonder, what have i done in my life exactly? i bet interview questions like "what are your life achievements" would stump me. i've always wanted to do volunteer work too, perhaps it's time to act on it and not just think.

haha my neighbourhood's pretty interesting. i guess i've mentioned about the parade commander and drummer in my estate. now there's this situation where a dog will sometimes bark at around this time (just did so actually), quite cutesy-ly i think it might be a small dog. and anw this pissed off ah lian will always scream "SHUT UP LAH" uber loudly. not sure if she's the owner but if she's not it would be weird. guess this is not a peaceful retreat around here.

ohhhhhhhhhhkay. weekends are drawing near again FINALLY =) which explains why im still slacking around and blogging cos of the false impression of limitless time. but it's not since i have a presentation coming up on monday and test on friday and report due two weeks later. phew... here it goes. i'd bet it'll be over real soon but i feel like playing L4D. again. hahaha. sucks. addiction problems already man. haha but it;s fun, im like the lousiest out of the four but hey, at least im careful =) maybe darren will suggest going again this week muaha. good to have him around to shoot all the zombies and witch!!!

shag ahhh...

2 weeks in.. shag ah..

oh and stressful too. had so much to think about, what to drop, what not to drop. and till now i still have no conclusion! gahhhh. i really have this overpowering urge to drop my double major cos it just seems so xiong. it feels impossible to clear all modules in 3 freaking years without crushing under the workload each and every semester (20 or more AUs every sem ok). im already dying right now when there are only lectures and tutorials (can u imagine the hell it would raise when the 5 written assignments/projects kicks in??)

looking back i really wish i werent offered this choice, so i wont feel obliged to accept. now i just have to live with it. and decide.. if its better to kill myself with AUs in 2nd year or 3rd year? people say it's better to keep cool and maintain gpa in 2nd year so as to secure a good internship which may end up being ur job.. but i dont wanna feel stressed during the 3rd. options options options.

i realised im finding it very hard to write my resume OHMAN no ccasssssssssssssssssss so howwwwww.

rahhhhhh pardon me for the boring bits. haha. verbal dirrhoea (physical dirrhoea too these days ahhaha). duno why too but im very prone to LS-ing as known by my JC friends. haha. i wonder why we were so unglam last time? totally unlike my extremely glam *ahems* personality now. lol.

sigh i remember i have tonnes of things to blog about, but i duno why everytime i do it's almost always inevitably about boring school. perhaps i procrastinate too much that i forget about stuff. or perhaps this is what life is all about. hahaha sounds miserable.

OMG. jing bao things never fail to shock me.. and in some ways make me feel abit depressed. hahaha. aiya i will get over it lah. it had never been anything anyway. =)

man i am tired. shall go on to decide what to drop again. yawns.

FOC fever 2

back from CAC camp with unimaginable soreness on the back from all that sitting and lack of sleep. not to mention i have a new tone of tan emerging on my skin. wahhhh.. torture.

but it's still not bad lah i guess. not much for me to do most of the time but whats most important is that the freshies have fun! i think they did... they seem more enthu and creative than our batch, judging from their cheers. but some of them did pull out on one of the most important segments of the whole camp, which is just plain weird.

oh well.. anw, this year's intake for the guys are from the dragon year. so naturally we seem to have tonnes of guys around, and some are quite outstanding i would say. perhaps shan and lun would be interested to know this: one of them seriously. looks. like. elvin ng. im not kidding. hahah.

and dont tell anybody, but im massively charmed by one of them. HAHA. he's not one whom you'll refer to as super hot or shuai on the first impression, but he just has this good vibes. lol. plus he seems quite gentlemanly when i overheard his conversation (actually more like eavesdropped, but in my defence all the programmers were crowding around the blindfolded couples) with his SP during initiation night. he played at my station YAY so i got to talk to him somemore..... hahaha. and in zouk i noticed (by chance ok) that he can dance super well. awww man! hahah

gosh i sound like some stalker. nvm... i think next year if i do go back i'll def join as GL or SA. hmph. i wanna be in charge of welfare cos seriously, seeing the freshies going through the initiation night exhausted, wet and cold from the sea breeze and all the tekaning by us really made me super heartpain for them lah.

oh man damn tired i am in need of SERIOUS back therapy. i think my spine is gonna break soon. sigh anw speaking of pain im actually quite upset that my dad did not go to the dental clinic despite having pain. and i cant believe my mum asked him not to go cos "it would be weird". like wth!

he doesnt have to go to where i work right. i guess deep down his fear for dental treatment trumps my ominous warnings to have him so easily swayed. ugh ive heard and seen so much of such pain-resulting-in-minor-operations for extractions to know that immediate treatment is still the best practice. sometimes i really dont get why the older generation behaves this way. bleah major irritations.

FOC fever.

oh my gosh, sometimes i really think my sis sorta knows about.......to randomly drop me updates on u know. LOL had i been obvious? but well maybe im just too paranoid since he is our mutual friend anyway so it's normal to do that? hmmmm.

anyway, it's day 2 of CAC FOC right now as we speak and im at home slacking away! haha. okay first of all it's only for today. and since im actually rather superstitious (just found out about that), i should be excused for opting outta fright night. i dont think im scared of what i'll see at the cemetry. but who knows what'll happen after that right, u know what i mean? hmm. anw, will be down all the way till friday so i hope i dont miss my bed too much. but it's cool cos i've gotten to know quite alot of funny people =)

being a programmer is definitely alota hardwork man. besides the fact that u really dont get much time with the freshies. ytd's RPG game saw many of us rotting away for 8hrs waiting for the OGs to come. gosh.. but i loved my character Toto-Chan and the literal costume stuck on with the toto paper thingy. LOL. in short its sorta a makeup station over here and we had fun watching the blindfolded girls putting on makeup for the guys. and guess what some of the freshies remembered me!!! ableit as toto-chan haha. :D:D:D so happy...

next time if i do join back i'll make sure i'll come as SA. or GL. hahah... sorta regretting not joining jieyu's OG for nbs foc, looks fun from all the pics im seeing.

OOOOOOOKAY. so whats up lately. nothing actually besides the kobe bryant asia tour which i suppose i had over publicised on such that shine thinks i'll update on it. actually it was really not much for me cos i totally could not see him well from THAT kinda distance. but it's still cool and i shall renew my vow to catch a real live nba game someday. and guess what i saw JIAOLIAN just as i was leaving the stadium. coincidence? :)

what else what else. even more way back was sixteen oh six gathering #2. i dont even know how to describe it other than it being awwwwesome. the absence of the 'clique-y' feeling was great, and it's the first time everyone present sat together to talk since the first week of JAE days. hope we'll have more of these in time to come! and even more surprising we have a table for the homecoming thingy! HAHA. pls come pls come altho the price is indeed a little steep :S

alrights... i'd better take my midnight bath now (oops), it's gonna be an early and long day tomorrow. cant wait for initiation night!! hopes it'll get dirty ahhahaha.

the obvious lack of brain utility

hola que tal?

hmmm, after 2+ months of not doing anything slightly academic, i feel like my brain is rusting away at a shocking rate. for example i find it extremely difficult to understand long paragraphs of words without reading it more than once. so most of the time i just give up and form my own summary without bothering to decipher them.

and it is especially trying when it comes to reading forums. singapore forums. omg it's hell for the brain man i swear... some punks would literally type in a whole new language unknown to people but themselves. im not anal about this actually since we all should have our freedom of expression (like how im totally bitching away right now). and it doesnt have to be perfect english but at least, comprehensible! im sure all of us have gone through some level of education to be able to write in correctly structured sentences.

im sure i can rattle on about this all day but i shall not. school is starting in less than a month *deep breaths people*. and im gonna book my TP soon.. hopefully i'll pass man and may i be consistent! the erratic skills im having is seriously driving me up the wall. low speed control sucks. but i think i found my favourite instructor the other day.. he's super friendly and nice which made driving a little less stressful. =) too bad i cant seem to book his slots... mmm.

lastly... picked up L4D recently under the influence of my sister. HAHA. tried it only once so im understandably bad at it. maybe interested parties can have a session together.. haha.

may money fall from the sky..

for awhile now, my parents' solution to everything... resolution to buy anything, would be that if they had won the lottery.

feels like getting a car.. okay after getting 1st price. wanna buy a new tv to replace the dying one (which goes mute when it feels like it).. okay after striking 4d. wanna replace all the old stuff that doesnt work quite as well anymore.. air con, washing machine etc etc.. 4d 4d 4d 4d 4d 4d.

hmmm, they've been saying for a long time now, and never have i wished in such desperation that it would really happen soon man. HAHA. okay although, who doesnt right. was just doing a mental checklist of what i wanna do from now until graduation, and even after graduation... im overwhelmed!!! it just works out to so much... granted, alot of them are considered non-necessities, or in other words, luxury. bleahhhhh to that. just cos i dont actually need them doesnt mean i cant go for them right...

for example the international exchange programme. it can be counted as a once in a lifetime experience that, i too, wanna enjoy in my short university life. i know im not making full use of the seriously numerous opportunities from the school. so now im thinking, i dont wanna just let 3 years go by and graduate with a question mark in my head, wondering how exactly have i spent that 3years. already im not participating in any of the hostel activities, i dont want my uni life to simply be of projects, exams, and more exams.

so if given a chance (and the cash), i'd really be keen in going for the exchange programme. will be fun to break out of the monotony of singapore education system im so used to. and the plus point would also be to make some international friends too!

also, i believe that im an enthusiastic learner, albeit not exactly skewed towards the academics. there are tonnes of skills that i wanna pick up: rollerblading, swimming ---> sea sports, musical instruments like piano, guitar, drums.... languages.. and things i cant even begin to say off the top of my head. but yeah u get the drift.

lastly, grad trip (and any other forms of travelling) is also in my agenda! sigh i've said this so many times already so i shall not drone on and on about it. just wish that money god can bestow some luck upon my family and my friends!!

maybe i should try buying 4d and toto. they say beginners are often blessed with more luck anyway.

one six zero six and more.

okay updates.. hmmm...

to start off, i was quite disappointed with ytd's episode of 国记交意所 due to the presence of guest celebrities in the show. i mean come on, if i wanted to listen to them talk, i would have watched other variety shows. and horrors of horrors they invited irritating chatty people like li3 teng2 and pornsak (im sorry but i dont like them one bit). cant stand the way pornsak speaks, can he BE any squeakier?! and they totally snatched all the tv time from mr cutie justin!!!!!!

man am i pissed. i am really not interested in their stories which arent funny at all. somemore their mandarin is like superb so i bet the international students have no idea what they are talking about. where is the fun in that?!!!!!! sighhhhh... oh well, no more american guy and fabio, but still looking forward to the next episode! hurhur :)

okay with those grievances out of the way, i shall comment that prisonbreak 4 rocks. haha. michael scofield is sizzling.

oh yah last but not least 1606 had a gathering last sunday. only one description for it: LOL. haha, was real fun playing the legendary mrt-thigh-slapping game thingy. violent joyce decided to give me blue-blacks as souvenir on my thighs. can u imagine how bad it would be if i had not been wearing jeans?

below is my favourite picture out of the lot. i really like it cos there are no ugly gaps and everyone looks so nice!

give me my time back!

found out yesterday that (for school members at least) you dont have to pass your BTT to start practical lessons. !!!!!! cos you will be able to start driving on the circuit. whereas for private students, you would most likely want to start on the public roads (that means btt, then pdl) rather than wasting money on circuit training on the get go.

so i felt so sian diao learning about the fact yesterday. that means i've WASTED one whole month rotting away during the wait for my BTT date and now it's so damn difficult to get continuous slots (as in maybe at least twice a week) which is important for beginning stages, no? any more technical issues i should know of before i get surprised like that again...

okay that aside, lessons are going slow and steady. spent my second lesson going round and round the circuit (which i could have done while waiting for btt UGHHH) for the whole 100mins, im having fun but i feel bored for the instructor. HAHA. although i think he's quite zai in teaching. thumbs up! am at 2nd gear now hopefully soon i can get out of the circuit and start terrorizing people on the roads!!!

hmmmm oh yeah last week i tried rollerblading for the first time in my life! HAHA. looks like i have affinity with wheels these days. well it was damn scary and i believe ive made a spectacle outta myself - falling on my butt on my very first step, in front of quite a no. of people. LOL. and the rest was just whoaaaaaaaaa-ing all the way. what a sight. but at least i can blade without assistance!!! although it's really unpredictable. one moment im actually gliding effortlessly and the next im on the grass patch with my butt facing everyone. haha. at least i tried!

and mom's carrying out my dieting plans very seriously. not that im actually trying to go on a diet cus thats just not my style.. why stop urself from enjoying the one of the best luxuries in life!!! but it just so happens that im waking up abit later these days, eating abit less and exercising abit more. so mom totally plan her cooking so that i will skip a meal a day. like go for brunch instead of having breakfast and lunch.. combine lunch and dinner (just when i thought my dunching days are over) if we could help it.. sigh..... i want food you know!!!!

anyway the channel 8 variety show 国记交意所 is seriously drop dead funny. you guys should catch it if u are free.. 8pm every tuesday. ROCKS. plus the scottish guy (actually i like everyone) is really cute hurhurhurh.


ain't he the cutest!!!!! :D

US guy and korean girl!

ang mo kio in chinese became cat hair!

xiao an an..

hahaha oh no i might seem too free doing this so i shall stop! happy happy


someone commented he looks like david archuleta.. abit! but cuter.. LOL. fabio on the background is my sis's fav btw. :D

passion vs practicality - which would you choose?

when it comes to education in singapore (maybe not just in singapore but i wouldnt know), competitiveness beats everything hands down. that's why im in the course im in now anyway: just pick the one that would get you the furthest. nevermind that you aren't interested in it, the remuneration in the future will remind you that all the sacrifices are worth it.

not that im strongly against this method of decision, afterall i am suckered into this sad way of life myself, although im pretty sure ive made the correct choice. but still.... wouldnt it be great to be pursue the Bachelor of Travelling? ok fine aside from the fact that it does not exist. if given a real choice, i would have stopped schooling years ago and be on my way to becoming a tour guide or something. or you would see me being a mascot in some theme parks. LOL. i wanna be a travel host!!! but yeah, who doesnt right.

that's why i honestly respect those who followed their hearts all the way and chose the path unchartered. sure, it may be a tough road and probably a less mainstream one, but it will get you where you want, cos the determination is already there. knowing me, i'll never be able to have the courage to do this..

19june09, 0018hrs:

so second major results just in.. i didnt get b&f which is a bummer and quite a shock to say the least. not that i think im too zai or whatever but i guess im too used to getting satisfactory responses in my uni life thus far. technically speaking, not getting my first choice should make me more adamant in following my heart (for frigging once) and just reject the stupid 2nd spec and go ahead with my plans in conquering at least 2 languages with my UEs.

but well well easier said than done. it is still more conventional and hence better to have an edge over other accountancy students right? esp for people like me, can be counted as having no CCA, not much leadership testimonies... results arent that outstanding... no job experience.. you jolly well accept this rare opportunity!

but who is to say that mastering languages wont give you the same competitive edge, if not more? what if the job im after next time will require me to converse with all the important foreign partners (although i reaaaaaaally doubt so unless they send me overseas WHEEEE)? and as proven, passion really makes the grades come so much easier, and vice versa. not being able to SU my electives upon acceptance of the possibly boring specialisation will definitely pose a great liability to the ever important GPA.

hai so how? i also duno... maybe it's time for me to step up and go with my interest, for once in my life.. but if i dont please understand that society has pushed me into making that ill decision.

dont get all anti-nadal and i wont hate you

congrats federer for his win in frenchie. :) personally i think he's a legend in this sport and i love popping by his facebook page cus he always updates!! haha. well, he's one of the most graceful players ever, so im tilting my tennis style towards his.. and so far im successful HAHAHA. seriously, if i knew how to serve properly i would be a national player already :P

no doubt i would rather nadal win the crown instead - actually the only other reason keeping me from supporting fed all the way after nadal's loss was in part due to his annoying fans who wont shut up when it comes to criticising nadal. strangely its always his fans doing this kinda things, granted i may be over-generalising. and poor nadal has to bear the brunt of all kinds of trashtalk just cos he's a major rival of fed, like wth?? so it is with increasing displeasure that im even bothering to bring this up.

you can be your diehard federer fan all you want, but you dont have to go around dissing other players who may be better than your idol right? i know for sure i dont do this, the most i would just announce that i dont like so-and-so (for eg soderling) and he can go to hell. hehe. i wont like conjure things out of nowhere and criticise the player. so i find comments that doubt the ability of nadal especially irritating and contradicting - if he doesnt have any talent whatsoever then how did he beat fed in so many situations? not only on clay, but grass as well?!

okay wimbledon is coming up real soon, hopefully nadal will retain his title and silence those fans. but of course im sure they'll come up with illogical issues to talk about again. like if there's nothing to say really, nadal will become a steroid eating guy out of the blue.

.................seriously??? thats the best you got? jealous of his muscles is it? sigh, this is getting so old, have better comebacks leh!!! critique on useful things man.

okay lah disclaimer: i know not all his fans are like that :) so please dont hound me if u happen to be one giant federer fan, in which case this entry has got nothing to do with you lah!!! i still love you all as long as you dont get all anti-nadal on me.

moral of the story? be a humble fan like i am. HAHAHAHA. vamosssssss!

i miss learning spanish :(

marley and me the book and random LONG thoughts

a miracle. 3 entries in 4 days. hahah.. so as u can see my life has been extremely meaningful this past couple of weeks.

but anyway i have an extremely important question that i need ur reponses to. anyone reading (including secretive people) plsplspls activate my tagboard on this cos i need some opinions and erm, assurance (wth i almost typed assurement gosh!) i guess? LOL here goes...

should i get me an ipod touch!

hahaha. okay it isnt really important but i have been very tempted since uh, ytd, when i played with the iphone. but of course i dont want an iphone since

1. i have a functioning phone
2. rumour has it iphone is not all that great anw and
3 (prob the most impt reason). i think it's a blood sucking investment - not on the phone, but on the freaking data plan. i'd rather stick to my trusty STARHUB plan thanks so yeah.. haha.

anw the only thing that's holding me back from just going straight and buying the touch is of course the cost issue. i mean i dont print money and apparently i dont earn alot from my job too, so this is definitely an act of extravagance, a big no-no in such daunting economic times (HAHA). i just checked, 8GB costs $388 now. $388 is abit too much for a (pretty) desk decoration if i chuck aside yet another impulse buy, is it not? but realistically, i dont think it'll be left unused cos sis can help share the goodies too.

another thing is that im pretty much going mainly for the internet and apps function. i dont care about the phone functions, i dont care about the camera (nothing beats the real camera, period). of course ipod = music DUH. but i dont know what im gonna do with the songs part cos i dont usually download and i'm not about to become a full time pirate (although i dont mind being the leech off my sis' songs) if i get the touch. well, i really cant be bothered to do all the downloading but nt a willing paying customer of cds either. so it'll be essentially wasting the functions of the touch! as phoebe wonderfully puts it: i'll be ruining its christmas destiny HAHAH.


sigh so how. all odds are against buying. hmmm maybe if i do get the ntu bursary it'll be a different story. you all will know where it's gonna be spent on...very productively. hehe. shhhhhh dont tell them. no lah, will definitely spend it on education and self improvement courses! HAHAHA. ahems.

alright, guess that was an earful. here comes more! HAHA but u dont have to read it la actually, it's just for my sake. seldom have flow like this. anw i realised for my entire blog, i have been criticising and never praising. well mostly cos as singaporeans, we complain. and after reading stomp i believed it even more so.

sure, the topics ARE juvenile, but they're entertaining in a warped way. i especially enjoyed the ah beng styled comments about the post itself, questioning the people why they are complaining at something so trivial. i hardly see any posts that arent slammed by the ahbengs, even tho the people have all the right to be unhappy. if the complaint is on inconsiderate uncles/aunties/wadever giving their bags a seat on a crowded bus even tho humans probably tire out more than bags, the ahbengs will scoff mercilessly at the stomper and say "wa ur mouth got gold is it. so unhappy then open ur golden mouth and ask for the seat la. dont dare to ask then come to stomp and complain."

and dont ever end ur post saying: "i hope that the relevant authorities will....." or "i hope the students will not....", even though it sounds reasonable, somehow or other they still get slammed by comments that went roughly like "eh u want to get things done go straight to the person lah. u post on stomp and hope here hope there (exact phrasing) also no use". that threw me off the seat. HAHA couldnt stop laughing. but that leads me to wonder if they are so annoyed by the complaints by fellow stompers then what on earth are they doing even reading it, and horrors, even having a stomp account.

oh wow super off track. but i just completed reading marley and me the novel and i absolutely loved it! i finished it within a day so u can imagine how focused i was. to put things in perspective, i started reading the very thin child-like magician's nephew two years ago and im still barely halfway through.

anyhooos, i knew i'd love the book, i fell in love with the story when i caught the movie last time - it was one of the few movies i actually bothered to wait for the release on vcd/dvd. people say the book's better than the movie, actually most often so hands down. but i think this is different, cos both book and movie (by the way they follow slightly different storylines) have their own special points which can be appreciated.

so if u thought the movie was a tearjerker, wait till u get to the book. im sure it will be kinda a tough read for dog owners who have had their beloved canines passed on, but when you get to the end you know you'll have to move on. forgetting them in the mind but not in the heart. it's still very sweet anyway. go borrow it!!! :)

so those who read till this point, well done and i really appreciate it! hope i didnt bore you in the process tho. alright i shall just share with you all one of my favourite quotes from the book(tonnes more in the book):

"A dog has no use for fancy cars or big homes or designer clothes. Status symbol means nothing to him. A waterlogged stick will do just fine. A dog judges others not by their color or creed or class but by who they are inside. A dog doesn't care if you are rich or poor, educated or illiterate, clever or dull. Give him your heart and he will give you his. It was really quite simple, and yet we humans, so much wiser and more sophisticated, have always had trouble figuring out what really counts and what does not. As I wrote that farewell column to Marley, I realized it was all right there in front of us, if only we opened our eyes. Sometimes it took a dog with bad breath, worse manners, and pure intentions to help us see." — John Grogan

a bonus.

erhems entries on consecutive days.. that almost never happens. lol. but it feels like a good day to blog so i shall!

was looking thru the cursed ntu email yet again and i found that important mails are still getting stuffed to the last page. uhh is it trying to test my hide and seek skill? grr. anyone knows how to fix that? anw, that mail came with the notification of double major choices. im wondering if i should sign up for it, and if so, what? somemore that means more AUs for me too, which sucks cos im still worried bout nt being able to clear my electives in time!

nothing interests me seriously... like b&f is seriously want me to die? i struggled all the way throughout the sem with hellish FM, altho the examination was quite easy (not trying to be a smartass, i didnt ace it anw) in my opinion. marketing.... nahh, i dont think marketing is a learned subject, it's more of a talent kinda thing - either you have those creative juices or not. econs? or IT (HAHAHA omg shine are u laughing at this.)?? my toes are laughing too. IT... bleah. i think maybe HR ba. either HR or b&f.

ohwell i shall busy myself thinking bout this while leading my oh-so-meaningful holiday then. lol.

anw, my sis is looking to sign up for a gym membership at california fitness! lol. nt sure if she's come to a decision yet, afterall u gotta commit 12mths which is only for those as free as i am! and those fees albeit reasonable in my opinion, isnt exactly cheap. but im also very interested, not so much in california fitness per se.... i just wanna sign up for any kind of effective gym classes that would help shape things up a lil. anything to work those love handles away! somehow it's just very difficult to be determined and exercise regularly without someone breathing down my neck. hmmm.

the laziness in me is probably building up due to excessive tv-watching. haha. have been equipping myself with new knowledge everyday from discovery chn and of course, virtual travelling with discovery travel and living! ahhh.. its practically urging me to go visit europe. too bad i have no financial backing and the H1N1 virus is still going strong. stupid. pls leave singapore out of the loop but too bad we have our first infection already.

so apparently used vegetable oil can be used (what a pun) to run ur diesel vehicle with about the same fuel efficiency, altho u would need some converter. cool eh! and think of the fuel we can save! most people do not know but im a very pro-environmentalism person and i get very irked when i see wastages among the people. admittedly im guilty of many of those acts but i'm trying to change too. so the point im trying to drive across is for us to save the earth!

it's not like we can go shopping somewhere else.

hmmm.

dont really have any motivation to put anything down into words these days, hence the lack of entries! whatever i typed literally gets erased so i feel like ive wasted one hour not accomplishing anything at all.

anw, today a bird flew into my house (cus i sorta lured it in lol) and scared the wits out of me and sis. the scene of two giants (relative to the bird) freaking out and running away from a little cutesy animal is just damn hilarious. what a sight man.. haha and not to mention sis totally delegated the mission of luring it away entirely to me by hiding in the toilet. like wow, thanks for the help! lol.

its seriously damn scary when its lunging towards you. it's like a giant bug lah, only much cuter. but EQUALLY SCARY. plus it's bright green in colour! hahah. i seriously think its damn smart and crafty. but i feel kinda bad for trying to get it out of my house when it's being so uh, friendly! haha. was so sweaty and tired after fighting it off with my only source of shield - the sofa cushion! lol. my gosh, words dont do justice to how adrenaline filled this encounter was.

HAHA. and coincidentally i was trying to watch Man vs Wild 3 on discovery channel (but missed half of it due to this uninvited guest). its a very nice show btw, u guys should catch it if u have the chance..

okay one last thing. im starting to get increasingly annoyed by ur attitude.. it is seriously damn irritating trying to initiate something with the majesties or whatsoever. you really think u're the heavenly god ah. good grief.

and for the last time, if you treat what's golden as dirt, i will not do anything anymore and wash my hands off everything. may you live in regret then, thanks.

why there good morning

buenos dias. its close to 4am and im still awake. gotta turn that clock (or the globe) around soon right.

okay so i have been getting complaints that i do not update often or that i write too much or that my blog is pictureless(i'm with you on that!)..... haha well what can i say, many entries with few words against few entries with many words, i'll pick the latter. let my thoughts accumulate! makes me seem a little more deep.

but not very intellectual huh if im watching youtube videos for what, 4 straight hours? but check out jeff dunham the velintriliquist(however you spell it!). seriously, search his videos on youtube - he's AWESOMELY funny. hahaha. those that involve walter are the best! it's downright hilarious, and darkly witty LOL. love it when walter complains about his wife and well, almost everything in his "shut the hell up" voice.

some of my favourites:

jeff: well they say women ages like fine wine
walter: she (his wife) ages like milk.

jeff: how long have you been married?
walter: so whats it now.... 46 years
jeff: ah so what is the happiest moment of your life?
walter: 47 years ago

walter: remember when you said till death do us part?
jeff: yeah
walter: later you realise that youre actually setting a goal.

jeff: youre not too old, i do know that i have grandparents well over their 80s who are still havin fun.
walter: they're 80? good god.. what kinda sex is that?
"was it good for you?"
"ohh i cant remember"
"WE JUST FINISHED"
"who are you...?!!"

HAHHAAHAHA, grumpy old men are funny.... tho i'll hate to meet them. and so now im watching russell peters and his racial jokes too. man it does not get old..

haha whoops 12 hrs have passed since the above paragraph and i shall continue on this entry. hmmm actually nothing interesting for me to update on. unless you wanna hear about the fact that results are coming out next fri CHEERS. lol. exciting isnt it. and i cant wait for me to pass my BTT (yep finally im attempting to learn driving) so i can start being a hazard on the road once again. decided to just enrol as a school member rather than private since im so lazy to source for an instructor that isnt from ubi(my goodness its so far...). if i dont do it now i probably never will. SO yeah.. but that just means money out of my pocket which sucks.

kinda excited bout my pulau ubin trip tmr. LOL.. the only trouble is waking up early and all that travelling. zzz. i suppose next week will be fun too. tentative meetup plans with so many long-lost friends i havent heard from literally, in YEARS. hopefully no awkward silences haha. plus i just talked to my sem2 classmate and found out that he's doing relief teaching too. seems like a very popular job amongst many but it's such a no-no for me after that stint in my tuition centre last year. wow time really flies man that was more than a year ago, cant believe i survived work!sometimes i still feel like im living in 2007 where life was still nice and rosy and nothing seems to matter. budden as with all good things, they just stop living.

and i think i am really okay with it but i really have the habit of reminiscing. and i hate the way things are left between us. sometimes i cant help but being pissed thinking about it but then i realise, ive honestly done all i can and if thats the way its gonna be, so be it la. i really have no intention of wasting any of my braincells further. a new life without all that crap is what i aspire to achieve =D

alrights. time for more videos. shall sign off with some pics, do i hear a resounding FINALLY. yeh they're on facebook but so what, i wana liven my blog. goodbye for now






darius multitasking driving and phototaking. hahaha. (IM KIDDING!)



jieyu pangseh!!!!



i am forever number one but why on earth is my trophy the ntu water bottle from goodie bags. and not to mention the podium is beside some vending machine.

OH YES i just realised the little nyonya shit at the indoor stadium is tomorrow and that means no more of that ABSOLUTE NONSENSE CRAP SONG on advert anymore. yay to that!!

stupid people i encounter at work.

whining alert:

i can finally relate to michelle's comment bout patients driving her blood pressure high. i managed to encounter a whole bunch of self righteous people, all in one day.

first of all, i cant stand those who complain and complain bout the long wait and pulling a long face at me, and when they come in for their treatment and the doctor asks them if they had been waiting long (sometimes apologizing), they give a very noble reply of "aiya no la..(sometimes in all smiles)". stupid. probably cus they know the nurses cant do a thing to them while the doctor can decide to charge them more or smth.

and today... someone by the name of "Mrs Lee (she refused to tell me her full name - like ohhhhkay im sooooo gonna perform some black magic using her magical name -_-)" actually faked-british-accent me!!! OMG i wanted to slap her. if only i could staple her mouth and knock sense into her over the telephone. i guess she's those kinda well educated person who had to downgrade herself due to the current economic crisis. my god. cant stand these forced-to-downgrade people. to think they can still remain snobbish and think the world is under their control. not anymore my dears!

im usually very very nice...or at least i try to be when i talk to people at work (haha not self praise), which is probably why some assholes will try to walk all over me. ohwell i can be mean if i wanted to... i was this close to faking a british accent back just to make fun of her, but confrontations are just not my style..... and doc would not appreciate me wasting precious time on her. hahaha. =) anw i took the opportunity to hang up on her, that felt kinda shiok. hehe.

good thing i didnt request for full time at the clinic... dont feel like facing people like these everyday. altho i guess, we shouldnt be so picky when the economy is so bad.. budden, it seems that people arent that desperate for jobs anw considering how many people came and went in my clinic (most of whom i didnt even get to see).

i agree with what my dentist says, people are all working for the sake of money. passion... i dont know man. unless u're working in a really fun and exciting job (eg. those related to travelling!!! or the best job in the world which currently people are competing for), i believe that it'll die off eventually. so the only motivation that keeps u going would be the remuneration. so yeah i dont deny im working for the money too, in a way im also glad i chose accountancy since the remuneration factor should be not so bad? hopefully it would be so when i go out to work next time.

anw on another (equally bad) note, this swine flu thingy is really a big buster to many of our plans huh. so troublesome to travel because of it and of course theres the issue of fear yada yada. hopes it blows off soon before our 3 mth break ends so i can at least get to enjoy for awhile. gahhh.

so anw, been eating alot these days, for example last week where me jo and darius' dinner plans became one whole night of eating.. we were still munching away the stingray and lala at 1plus am luh.. how not to get fat? but it was a good night of chilling and chatting, i think D is full of insights about life and all.. LOL. so hmm until now i havent found the time to exercise since im so tired by evening.

maybe i should take up some self improvement courses. always eager to learn new things =) any recommendations?

aiyo. am i the only one who thinks that confessions of a shopaholic is so lame. especially the part where all the financial people seems to embrace rebecca's work and honesty. for real...

cheated all this while!

WTH!!!! irritated! i just spent..no, wasted probably one hour of my life trying to clear my ntu email. lol i swear..... its a job i wouldnt wanna repeat man. i shall uhm, delete after i read and not let it collate next time. altho, i guess thats what any normal person would do right.. sigh.

should have noticed something wrong already. my unread mail number is increasing everyday, yet i dont see any new mails. and being me, of course i didnt bother to check right. haha.. and to think i still kept commenting bout how its the exam period and they didnt wanna bother us with any emails.

how wrong was i. turns out all my new mails had been directed to god-knows-where...the freaking 2nd last page of my inbox. which is crazy.. who will browse to the 2nd last page?!! and guess what they had been sending me?

countless mails every other day that my mailbox is closed because the size had been exceeded. omg.. they could have saved the little remaining space i have on real emails right.. gahhh. check these out man:




okay no idea why im droning on and on about this email fuss when i had just spent the past hr trying to clear it. haha. ok shall stop whining.

anw tis the season to be jolly because it's time for MEETUPS. gosh... so happy. had so many impromptu lunches this week luh.. and dinner tmr with my happy3friends.. still have not decided where to eat. hopefully wont really go back to ntu to eat macs. LOL. oh yay and another lunch on fri too. so as u can see i probably wont be starting on my exercise plan anytime soon. technically im already behind schedule by 1week. another week wont kill la hor. i need a trainer......

oh yeah, been using so much com these days, seriously pray that i wont go blind! eyes are getting blur-ier and more tired by the day. CANNOT, especially when i keep thrashtalking others about how i have perfect eyesight. heees. okay better sleep earlier tonight.

hmmms. actually a part of me doesnt want the day to come although its really what i'd been hoping for. cus i know, it'll probably be the last time, or at least, for the time being. i guess it just feels better eagerly waiting for the day to come - knowing it eventually will and theres still something to look forward to, rather than it having passed. i really have to learn how to deal with departures man..

so cute!

i have renewed my love for my nadal!!!! HAHAHA

was (and still am) checking out his interviews and i realised he's incredibly funny. omg.... charming!

he does not merely look good and all. he has a wonderful heart too (and i would know because.....). it really shows in the videos: how he treated everyone, especially kids (DAMN SWEET). omg omg melts. i am in my own world now lol

i wanna be mrs nadal. but we all know how it'll turn out right. haiya his gf is so lucky. ZZZZ. LOL but still, no harm dreaming. :D

and on another note it is really HOT IN HERE. literally burning. and its so stuffy!!! sigh, damn the weird freakish weather. make me sweat after i had taken a bath. seriously this spells trouble man, earth is dying! save the environment leh...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HYjjnfBg-LM ----> this is the best. it's freaking hilarious :D i bet i'd dream of nadal tonight. hahaha sigh i also wanna get hit by the tennis ball if thats what it takes to take a photo with him! RAH random ahahha.

bored

latest:

muahahhahaha just one word: celebramos!!!!! :D:D:D:D es una fiesta!

oh my.. tres meses de vacacciones. okay la actually the excitement sorta died down already la. now its just 3 months of dunno doing what.

and its just so weird. i dont think that im ever gonna feel the same with you anymore. ohwell.

gonna go learn my spanish song liao. hmmmm suddenly duno what to do with my free time. HAHA.

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i thought i would really enjoy 1000000% studying for spanish.....

but i guess i was wrong. it's so difficult to stay still and plant ur butt on the chair to study with full concentration when u know there are so many other more interesting things for u to do... it being the last paper doesnt help elevate its importance much either!! really cant stand the dull motion of studying. zz.

NO i cant just relax... cant cant cant especially if every single subject makes a difference to my gpa now. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

plus i have 3 months of break after today.

yeah i should keep cool and go study. go study go study go study!!!!

AAAAAHHHHHHH :D

do you feel the heat?

wahhhh no time no time no time. i can chant this forever and it still wouldnt change. maybe i shouldnt be blogging then. HAHA.

gosh.. i regret slacking last week away. :( plus i study at the speed of snail probably. think i studied for about than 10 hrs and yet ive only done like 2 lectures. OMG. die. at least im done with financial acct.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh this sucks.

-edits-

haha lazy to start another entry. gahhhh.. cant stop slacking. gotta really pick the pace up already seeing how tough the week is ahead of me. two of my feared papers almost squeezed together. still damn irritated with the schedule.

and as crazy as it sounds, i do miss my lessons man. mainly due to the fact that i managed to get rather interesting profs this sem that really make classes fun. especially so for bizlaw. prof valerie is the best! shes really super (x100000) nice and funny despite being so zai. and altho she's the associate dean of nbs, she displays no airs at all. hopes our class will do well with her insights! :D and marc low for IT. haha. never fails to make us laugh.. profesora cristina too. HAHA :D

so ya whats new... well, accounting let me down..i guess i will have to depend on bizlaw and fm and espanol already... jiu ming ah.

anw the weirdest thing me and sis talk about:
the scene begins with my heartfelt declaration of love for acct when i was still busy mugging for it.

me: i love mr accounting..... but does accounting love me? (but we all know how it turned out)
sis: -_-. eh how you know aa101 is a guy?
me: dont know leh, just feels like it lor.
me: but i think Biz law is a lady.
sis: AHAHA. then OB leh?
me: OB is definitely a man. =D
sis: i think you're too stressed.

you dont agree meh?! hahah.. some non living things just appears masculine or feminine. no wonder they came up with this concept for espanol and french etc anw... haha.

anw to add on to yanling's point about how much we both (high 5) hate the word 'cui'. for full effect pls read her entry (eh are u gonna pay me for advertising ahah), its hilarious!

anw what is the true meaning of cui?!! i really dont know esp when its used in every single context u can possibly find. i think it roughly means like "to be in a pathetic state" or smth to this effect right. but now no more. anything can be and will be cui. its meaning is reduced to a mere "any negative situation". overheard a conv today and the guy kept using it like its the only word in his vocab bank. i wonder why cus he looks quite english educated aniway.

him: yeah the cab fare frm ______ to _______ is about $____ (blanks cus i forgot the details)
him: cui!

..............

in what sense is it cui? it is simply EXPENSIVE. not to slam anyone who likes to use this word, i dont mind it every now and then but it definitely irks me if it is used for every single frigging thing. like ur com is cui, the light is cui, the air is cui, the ceiling is cui, ur imaginery friend is cui, everything under the sun, on top of the sun, things not in existence, they are all cui!!!!

omg hurhur. what an emotional entry.. must be the stress.

was talking to Z this morning. =D gahhhh, anw one thing to do before i die: go watch a live NBA game!!! hai so many things that i wanna do man.. and makes me think about going for exchange to experience all these too.... shall psycho people again to apply with me

phew what a long entry. ok no time to waste, bizlaw and dreadful FM here i come!

so do you think you are very funny?

strong personalities are damn hard to take, even harder to swallow.

please learn the proper etiquette of being around humans. stop edging the line because if you cross it, there's gonna be some hell to pay.

reminds me of friends: "u're so far past the line, you cant even see the line, the line is like a dot to you." LOL. random. that was a good line.. hahah pun.

exam fever man.. gotta stop slacking. cant wait for it to be over... tho it prob will before i even know it. 2 weeks is just too rush man. how to study when the following tuesday after our last tutorial week is exams. ok i can deal with the fact that there's no study break...but every paper being packed like sardines is just too irritating. cant even understand why ntu wanna chase us away so fast aniway.

oh ya f1 2009 has started.. previously sucky teams are now rising to the top, and ferrari is like scoring zero points? bummer.. i believe it's actually very interesting if not for the fact that my whole family supports raikonnen. ahha. looks like another tough season for him. and hamilton still sucks!!!!!! i really dont know how he can feel good winning points by lying.. glory is not forever boy!

anti-PDA

have mountains of work to do (including a test tmr GASP) and yet im doing the least productive of all - blogging. lol.. this is too boring already man. facebook fails to entertain me also. but what's with the personality tests or the gazillion quizzes (which f4 star are u... when will you die.. which greek goddess are u..) that everyone is doing on fb these days? i wanna try it too but i'm too lazy to...

so anw, just wanted to share my 1000 bu shuangs on some increasing trend in schools these days, PDA. it's seriously..............gross. i used to be of the opinion that well, if a couple is gorgeous and they have something to flaunt about (maybe their equally hot significant other) then i guess their lovey dovey actions wouldnt be so irritating. but im seeing too many of all these shit in lectures so im against this!!! ahhhhhh.. and worse if the couple is gross (actually they account for like 99% of all the PDAs i see.. seriously no idea how they can be that oblivious..) today my eyes almost bled to death seeing this weird guy trying to take advantage of his gf while his gf seemingly enjoyed it.. my god... YUCKS. ahha..

seriously, if you're gross and u know it, pls dont do shit like this to make people even more grossed out! and what more in lecture where people's learning could be impeded (LOL). i mean people are minding their own business and there you are, in the view of everyone....how not to see?!!! and the thing is.............

i dont think they are in our biz law cohort.

what the hell are u trying to do. spread the love to nbs?! GOSH we dont need it thank you very much.. i should track them down and make them pay additional school fees. well u there's no free lunch in this world right. those bizlaw insights and aircon from the LT dont come free. and secondly we should force them to be liable for any damages (like blindness) to students, as a consequence of their tortious act. hees. well, it's still fun to put law into practical use.

the people sitting behind my row were also actively commenting on them.. hahaha. darius was noticing strange things... sis was laughing.. jason was giving this weird frown and sarcastic remarks like "wah... got so itchy meh". hahaha.

at least its entertainment for us?

a disgusting one tho... people these days. tsktsk. i think the more couples get touchy with each other in public, the more i dont sense the love in them. more like lust, and grossness. zzzz. i predict that they will break up very soon... what do you think? HEHE.

quite awhile back i saw this couple, quite old already (maybe in their 60s/70s?), but were holding hands. haha. i thought they looked pretty sweet. LOL.. dont usually see people of their age holding hands anw..

oh well whatever, why am i blogging about this anw. too stressed up already man... wasted half an hour of my life. shall catch up with lost time and study for fm now. ARGGHHH.. shitz i havent done my part for my proj yet.. hope groupmates wont skin me tmr! :D

wannna go holidayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy with my happy3friends. :)

just dance + pokerface

i know im slow or whatever, i cant stop listening to just dance and pokerface!!!! hahaha. i agree that they're overplayed and all but the tunes are really addictive! keep catching myself humming to 'just dance' randomly throughout the day. too bad someone doesnt like em.. lol.

listen to 'lucky' by jason mraz too. nice song.

shytezzz, am suddenly feeling abit weird. physical weirdness. feeling the feverish kind of nua-ness. ahhh. hopes i dont fall sick man. gotta work tmr too zzz. my dentist is too hardworking alr, coming back to work immediately after returning from his japan trip. hai.. his kids are damn lucky. bet their more well travelled than most adults la.

so whats new this week.. well, am finally done with all my presentations (minus the acc tut the teacher just assigned us zzz). must really do tutorials man, learnt the lesson last week where i totally had no idea what the teacher was talking about cus i didnt do the questions. was sitting in front somemore. spent like half the time praying my tutor wont call on me or smth. i think she's scary. not fierce scary... but i cant stand her stares. HAHA.

i decided that i quite like accounting (as in the module AA101, accountancy still kinda bores me a little haha) afterall, tho im not very good at it. beats financial management any day man... cant really see the point in FM, everything's so.... estimated? spent half my life reading the notes and barely understanding them. guess im still a sciencey person at heart. i miss bio!!!!! :S but no labs for me pls.

espanol is still the best!!!! :D im actually looking forward to studying for the test next wed. haha! dont stare at me in disbelief.. zz.

feels rather weak now... oh yeah there was a rainbow today at yew tee. not sure if it was everywhere, but if so i hope kohhuishiney didnt miss it this time! haha. it was so random, the sky was literally bright red at like 7pm. and if my sister hadnt noticed it, i wouldnt have looked out of the window, and i wouldnt have seen the rainbow. looks like i'll be having some good luck aye. lol.. hopefully ba.

oh my 0335hrs already. okay i'd better sleep now or i'd drop things at the clinic again tmr. lol. nights all..

yawn-ze...

haha, damn sian from all the research and projects, so decided to take a break from it! lol actually im slacking 80% of the time luh. if i really wanted to do serious work i probably should disconnect myself from the internet or something.

so whats new these days.. nothing much except for the not one, but two ntu deaths which i am bursting with opinions about actually, just dont think its very wise to say it online. but it's seriously...... ugh. irritating. ming yu sao di. wth.

alritesss! so aniway, was distracted by the show 'unexpected access' hosted by wong li lin ytd, wah really damn explicit la. surprised that it can actually go on air, at a time where kids might not have gone to sleep yet. i can take the gore tho. hurs. but the episode ytd was really really sad, more than anything else. was about reconstructive surgery on children i think. the little boy of only 4 years old had severe burns all over, caused by some air conditioning unit that fell on his bed and caught fire. and not only that, his hand had to be amputated. sigh.... heart really went out to him when he was crying while getting the gauze changed. can u imagine the life he could have had, the pain he had to suffer. man.. and yet we still have people here leading a good life albeit a tad stressful, and still wanting to kill themselves. ZZZZ. im just saying.

ohwell, it's already passe so let's get over it. im sensing everyone else had already, life's more than normal. hees.

ohhh yeah, went for a jog too on sat after deciding not to end up like a typical tertiary student who doesnt exercise for the whole 3 years. it was freaking tiring la. managed only half a yew tee. so sad... i must continue to get back to those happier, skinnier days! i miss being able to run comfortably.. zzzz..

hmm i think bed's calling. 0223hrs. i should stop living in the time zone of the US! tho someone is there and it's a good day.. hmmmm. uhhhhhh. okok i shall go off then. bye you party animals. hahah.

breaking news!

...... i am on facebook!

HAHAHAHA. ohkay la dont think anyone will care.. and yanling pls dont slam me for betraying our principles. hahaha. dont worry, i will keep to the rest of my promises (like NEVER using the word cui, disgusting disgusting word :S ).. i hope i didnt say i would never sign up for fb tho. hees.

so anw, i have like a pathetic number of friends so please take the step to stay connected! tho i probably would have added everyone reading my blog. hmmm. its damn tiring to add people. LOL.. another reason not to have facebook - you'll be suckered into this 'competition' of who has more friends. heh heh. and its not as fast as i thought.. loading time so long. rahhh.

anw, it's totally not possible to spy on people cus im not friends with them! thats so sad... im indignant....as a consumer (quote from FRIENDS!!!!). not being able to stalk on people is a fundamental breach! LOL ooops too much bizlaw. it's one of the reasons i went to explore fb actually. anything to be distracted from my assignment. so difficult. gahh.

okay anw, helped out for impresario ytd and officially wasted a studying day away yet again. dont think i helped out much but at least i got to watch the competition! and it was really good in my opinion, tho it would probably be better if they had included more english songs. not that i mind chinese songs (with my new found hobby of k-ing), i just thought it would be better if it could cater to the non-chinese. in any case, the contestants are seriously very talented. my gosh. they all have huggge lungs i bet, and the dances.. WOAH.

and i believe i saw terrence toh amidst the crowd... HAHA. shocking. and to the same u-know-who, i saw u-know-who too! HAHA. i was tired of standing so i just so happened to slack in the row in front of him and he spotted me. got another shock.. its difficult to talk in such a loud place. got a headache after that la. haha. hmmms~

shytes its like 4am again.. sigh. so tired. and i havent done my accounting tut which is like tmr. in fact i havent done ANY studying over the week have i already mentioned. zzzz. gotta buck up already. this sucks.

okay off to sleep now. ESPANOL TMR! happy.

i love marley!! :D

recess week....or not.

whew, what a day! and it's 4.30am yet again.. waiting for hair to dry so i shall attempt to wipe some dust off this blog. hmmm.

rahh, i think im living in the wrong time zone man, US timing suits me more. think i only slept normally for one day before reverting back to this kinda timing again, where the birds start chirping and everything... which is freaking noisy i must say, but i think it reminds me of the good ol' uniform days so it's okay. :D

hmm, realised i always end up listening to other people's blogs songs altho i dont really like some of them. no idea why but i have this odd thing about me - i dont like songs to be stopped halfway. must be OCD acting up again.. lol. so i either anticipate and pause before they start or just listen em until they end. most of the time i navigate away so joyce arent u honoured i ALWAYS let 'yellow' play all the way? hehe.. loves the song. anyone wanna go catch coldplay's concert? haha.

aniway, as i was saying, what a day. or rather, what a week. believe it or not, recess week is almost over. it's seriously not a break la, let's see what i have breathing down my neck. 1 individual written assignment, 2 presentations some weeks away, 2 FM reports, 1 accounting report and 1 database IT project which nobody seems to care/wanna do. HMMM. i think it's gonna be a struggle ahead man so i'd better pull up my socks and STUDY this week or else no time to do so anymore.. sigh... drowning. yet im still like slacking away.

today was a totally wasted day, as in studying-wise. cus it was rather fun and high! haha. started off with work in the morning which wasn't so ummm, enjoyable. thankfully i didnt get slaughtered by the patients la cus of my dentist's delay. he came in bout 3hrs late. gosh. im happy i survived it.. earnt 53bucks for today (pay's pretty good HAHA) but sadly it was gone in a flash man after an outing with sis... hai, should probably save up during such bad times! haha.

after a movie i spent more money again (i've transformed from espirit girl to ZARA girl!! haha upgrade) and was supposed to head home actually but ended up going to this chillout place called "the teaparty" with amery and his friends. it was hilarious man, watching them play monopoly. i was the conservative banker who didnt wanna part with the cash. HAHA.

hmmm, the way they play monopoly is really different from how i used to play it! gosh, must be because sis anyhow make up the rules again. she was very fond of doing that last time.. still rmb how she taught us """"""chinese chess"""""". LOL cant emphasize more on how wrong her concept was... heh

aniway amery ended up kicking everyone's ass la. hilarious, there was this whole stretch of dangerous territory that ended up making everyone bankrupt. HAHA. then i, as the banker, kept giving them $200 subsidies everytime they passed one round. freaking hilarious. i was damn gleeful the whole way.

but hai got home so late again.. and tmr gotta be down for impresario finals (yes they finally called us out to help) the whole day!! heng we managed to be stationed in nanyang audi so we can prob watch the competition as well. yay... ahaha. happy. okay so i gotta be up in bout 4 hours time?? man.. gonna be so sleep deprived again. rahh..

okay shall go now. goodnites everyone..

can't cure this missing you. looks like im never gonna be able to let this feeling go.

i will follow you into the dark.

buenos dias.. woah it's 4am again.

quick post. zzz.. plus mom usually likes to creep arnd at this time to ask me to sleep and if not for my strong heart, i would have suffered some serious heartattacks a million times over. haha.

been sleeping at unearthly hours lately and barely getting 4 hours of shuteye each day. but not exactly suffering from sleep deprivation either cus of my long naps. hehe.. feels good to abandon everything and just be....unaware of everything that's around. where u can choose to dream on - exercise ur imagination, or just be in complete oblivion and... a living breathing blob. hahah.

aniway, learnt about the passing of an ajcian bout a week ago, and it still tugs the heart altho i dont know her personally. she seems like a really nice person from the testimony of others. cant imagine how her loved ones, friends and family, must be feeling. not really in the position to say much, but i really hope they'll recover soon.

hmmmmmm.. perhaps i should go now. dont really know what else to say. but anw i hope to earn some money so i can go for self improvement courses. haha.. random. gotta take up driving by year end. cant let people who are 2 years younger get a license before me!!!! haha.

so many other things to learn. at least i have done spanish... hopes to take up something musical (say piano!!!?!), new sports, and i wanna travel! i should just casually ask my uni friends if they wanna go on a trip this holiday then.. mmhmm..

nites, its 4.09am! gosh.. early morn again laterz.

i will follow you into the dark......

contrary to my expectations.....not aching!!

hola amigos. teehees :D

feeling rather happy now after having caught up with my sleep. am so sleep deprived for.. no reason. zzz. and of course, had quite a blast ytd :D

firstly, i climbed 60storeys, on the narrow, viewless, small, (insert all kinds of bad adjectives) flights of stairs. and there was no dramatic rooftop finishing btw. haiyo, where's the incentive?! anw it was rather unglam and diu lian (understatement!), but im glad i have awesome, patient teammates. hahah. you-know-who, u can consider you-know-who u know. HAHA. i think he's very nice. and his friend is quite funny.. too bad i wasnt in the condition to respond to his jokes. LOL. the colour pretty much drained from my face every step i took. :O time for exercise!

but anw, the side games were quite fun. miss national netball player couldnt get a pass thru the hoop while i (the renowned bad passer) did! HEHEHE. dont kick me :) showed off my superb archery skills too with the target so close to the shooting line. haiyo. and we pretty much hogged the bball arcade machine. super fun!! tho my arms were aching. why so unfit?!

after that went for the surprise birthday party for nik and tash planned by nadine...! HAHA. was rather last min but im glad i went. hmmmm.. i was late but still had to wait for the queens to arrive. lol. and cus i went alone while the others were all in their happy groups, i was like omg what should i do... should i read (i had my essential spanish book with me)? hahahah! but i think their church friends're very nice and friendly. and musically inclined.

plus i dressed damn lok kok-ly la. i should request they mosaic my stinky clothes and fbt and photoshop in some glam outfits..

oooooooooooooooooook. gosh. slacked the whole day yet again. somehow i feel like lazing my years away. lol kidding. hmmmmms. suddenly missing everyone.

natasha tay hui if ure reading. let's hang out soon ok! you havent treated me to my meal leh. haha. dont disappear from my life ok. same goes for you, you, you, you, and you.....!

haha K-boxing tmr! woohoo. gotta go rehearse some songs now. lol. oh wait, should preserve voice. hahaha. alright then..

hasta luego!





THANKS lun for being my buddy for almost... everything. new year shopping, feasting, sports.. life's awesome with u arnd!

hope i get pics from the party too. yep... better go study. nah i think i'd prefer sleeping. hmm. goodnites!


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突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

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最怕朋友突然的关心
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i think chinese songs are the most emo of all when it comes to the lyrics. why always lost love?! in any case, i like this song very much (: cheers... cant wait to k later!

UGH

you make my blood BOIL.

i hate u. honestly i do. cant stand the mere sight of you. or ur voice. or whatever that relates to u. i want you GONE.

yet you're still here. why are u still here... piece of crap. big fat effing parasite. i hate u. have i said that already?

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......

dont think anyone's ever irked me so much before.

once again.........noone here needs ur 'help' thank you. dont think that by offering to do things then everything is nice and rosy. everyone here hates u FYI. its so tough pretending not to feel anything..... so i decided to just drop the act and be hostile. dont see why i should be nice aniway. there u are having a time of ur life while practically everyone else is obviously not happy.

get the point u dense head....... or are u just pretending not to so u can take advantage like u always do.. wah lauuuuuuuuuuu i need an aunt agony!!! but then again, it's not something to publicise aniway. gahhh. not trying to sound like a victim or some noble person but i really feel like im sacrificing alot here. there's a limit to a person's tolerance and im about to max out all my patience and kindness.

i asked her why she does not say anything despite being equally unhappy and i was quite disappointed by the answer. so it's just to protect another person huh. wth..... what a lame answer.

in retrospect i should have really stayed in hall or something. i dont like it here.

please. go to hell. and i hope the fire there will burn ur unusually thick skin.

hai.. i feel sad. looks like all the pretence has taken its toll. :(

do u think i should just air my views? i really want to, but there's just so many things to consider. zzz. oh yeah met up with jiaying and shuling for dinner the other day, it was really awesome. had loadsa fun crapping around with them but also at the same time, we talked about the serious stuff, bout.....life? how people change when they as they grow older, for better or for worse. and having to weigh everything that they say. considering the repercussions of our words. like when u were young u didnt care if u lost ur image or hurt someone's feelings by throwing a tantrum, losing ur temper, picking up a fight. u scold someone, u make up with that person in no time. thats just how kids work.

oh well... verbal dirrhoea. just needed someplace to rant. shall go now. early lesson tmr. nites!

vamos!!!!!!

tennis fever. :D

played tennis at least 3 times these past few days... plus i totally sat my butt down for 4+++hrs watchin nadal vs federer, abandoning the mountains of work i have. not good, ended up blanking out for acct tutorial today :( but gosh, its never boring watching a feds-nadal finals. if anything, its THRILLING stuff. lol.. extremely happy that nadal emerged victorious but at the same time, it was really heartwrenching to see federer break down like that. :( i suppose it made everyone wanna cry together with him man... could see how much the title meant to him..

nvm, what nadal said was true anw, feds shouldnt forget that he is still a legend.

ohwell.. so nth much going on these days. just slacking around. actually i shouldnt be blogging now seeing how i still have 3 tasks on my agenda left undone... rahhh. okay anw signed up for vertical marathon! haha. i forsee it'll be quite tough for me seeing how i struggled to even climb 8 stories. LOL. oops. but then again, my sis' friend managed to complete it within 10mins so i guess it shouldnt be that inconceivable.

anw the date coincided with the impresario semi finals.. donkz. sometimes i dont even know whats the purpose being in the subcom.... they dont inform us about anything until the last min. was i of any help thru the planning of the event? hmmmmmmmmmmm besides contributing the measly 20bucks from stanchart i really cant recall what/how ive contributed. ohwelllllll.

espanol rocks! HAHA. random. but the sentence structure and and almost everything is really different from english so im afraid my grammar will deteriorate after the completion of the course. lol.. hopefully we;ll learn more stuff soon cus right now i only know how to introduce myself and nth else... HAHA. oh and numbers... :)

lala~~~~~~~~~~ sigh sometimes i hate being at home. dont even know why i must be subjected to all that nonsense all the time. back to the question of "in what way does all these seem normal to you?". haiya......... some people are just so thick skinned. people give way then u just inch further and further and further like who the fuck do u think u are. zz. everything also use use use use like we're obliged to give. a little bit it's fine la but i think u've really crossed the line. and sometimes i also duno why u cant just use ur authority and have some say in this. as if complaining non stop will help. see la, now wanna turn back also cannot already. qing shen rong yi song shen nan. wtf.

alright i'd better gone back to my beloved project and books. :(

I FEEL LIKE KBOXING!! anyone wanna go wimme? hehe

hasta luego!!!!!! :D