UGH

you make my blood BOIL.

i hate u. honestly i do. cant stand the mere sight of you. or ur voice. or whatever that relates to u. i want you GONE.

yet you're still here. why are u still here... piece of crap. big fat effing parasite. i hate u. have i said that already?

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......

dont think anyone's ever irked me so much before.

once again.........noone here needs ur 'help' thank you. dont think that by offering to do things then everything is nice and rosy. everyone here hates u FYI. its so tough pretending not to feel anything..... so i decided to just drop the act and be hostile. dont see why i should be nice aniway. there u are having a time of ur life while practically everyone else is obviously not happy.

get the point u dense head....... or are u just pretending not to so u can take advantage like u always do.. wah lauuuuuuuuuuu i need an aunt agony!!! but then again, it's not something to publicise aniway. gahhh. not trying to sound like a victim or some noble person but i really feel like im sacrificing alot here. there's a limit to a person's tolerance and im about to max out all my patience and kindness.

i asked her why she does not say anything despite being equally unhappy and i was quite disappointed by the answer. so it's just to protect another person huh. wth..... what a lame answer.

in retrospect i should have really stayed in hall or something. i dont like it here.

please. go to hell. and i hope the fire there will burn ur unusually thick skin.

hai.. i feel sad. looks like all the pretence has taken its toll. :(

do u think i should just air my views? i really want to, but there's just so many things to consider. zzz. oh yeah met up with jiaying and shuling for dinner the other day, it was really awesome. had loadsa fun crapping around with them but also at the same time, we talked about the serious stuff, bout.....life? how people change when they as they grow older, for better or for worse. and having to weigh everything that they say. considering the repercussions of our words. like when u were young u didnt care if u lost ur image or hurt someone's feelings by throwing a tantrum, losing ur temper, picking up a fight. u scold someone, u make up with that person in no time. thats just how kids work.

oh well... verbal dirrhoea. just needed someplace to rant. shall go now. early lesson tmr. nites!