long distance melody

where did i go wrong, i lost a friend.
somewhere along in the bitterness and
i wouldve stayed up, with you all night.
had i known, how to save a life.
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im not sure who's actually reading (by reading i mean getting thru every word however lengthy the post is. not read the first line, tag, and go.) this boring blog of mine, but whoever does, i thank you for hearing what i have to say about.. nothing at all. HAHA. very often i tend to make a mountain out of a molehill, but i dun like to say superficial things so ya.. i mean, recounting daily happenings is not my style unless something outta the ordinary happens, cus it's really dull to me - i'll prolly bore the wits outa myself and then the readers. it takes skill to make such entries lively and entertaining. so i'll leave that to the experts. haha. for me.. i prefer to just speak my mind, verbalise em thoughts. that's how my blog url came about anws.

but of late i cant seem to find anything to say.. my mind's abit disoriented. lol. i guess when one writes with an audience in mind, it's that much harder. in words of ross, "it must be the pressure of entertainment". LOL. but well, i'll try..

i think im officially showing outward signs of favouritism. LOL. i scolded the class of girls today.. and i kinda caught myself by surprise too to say the least. haha, if the boys were there i might not have snapped.. cus i laugh at their sillyness and their booming voices would have drowned my voice anw.

well, i suppose i've yet to master the art of being a good teacher. i mean, i believe i am nice and all... which is why im having such a hard time controlling the class. being a good teacher doesnt mean having the ability to teach very well per se. afterall, whats the use of teaching when noone's listening, the only thing you'll come close to educating is the air, but very sadly not so much either. you gotta be able to win the respect of students and also discipline them at the correct times.. sigh.. it's time for me to unleash the fury.. haha. sounds scary.. but i havent scolded anyone in awhile.. ;p

so thinking back now, i feel quite guilty for being an ass to some of my teachers. i guess i've never really put myself in their positions. but this only goes to show how selfish people are - the first thing you think about is ur own benefits. as a student, you feel outraged that an incompetent teacher might potentially ruin ur studies, you want a better teacher. similarly, as a teacher, you want better students. what a silly cycle. lol.

so anw, last day of work tmr and then i have my 3 week break from tuition. chuckles. i guess it would be kinda nice to slack for awhile, tho things might get pretty dry, and even more boring than now.. zz. faints. i guess i could deal with that.. please go out with me! HAHA.