hot hot heat.

and in the darkest nights, if my memory serves me right.
i'll never turn back time.
forgetting you, but not the times.

seriously i wanna LOL everytime i sign in. the silly password. TSK. joyce!! haha.

buenos dias.. mm. ok fine, not exactly morning but i forgot how to say good evening in spanish. yikes. haha. shucks i am blogging excessively, i'd better not, or it'll seem like i have no life. tho ironically blogging much should mean u have a life cus u have sth fun to talk about. haha. its all about the perspectives..

now what should i blog about.. something that could interest readers!! ahha. must PLAN!! have a good start, interesting body, and good closing. add strong words... bla bla. haha. stupid ace your composition notes, been doing that until my sis complains that we have our daily dose of the irritating music from the cd rom. donkz. mm, nvm, whatever comes to mind shall be penned down.

anws. we had a 1606 gathering ytd at andrew's place, which was much fun!! tho it was really quite short. sigh.. but i think it felt really nice to catch up with the class, despite the fact it seemed as tho the army men could talk all night about well, army. haha. it's serious stuff. its like woah they cant get enough of all the military training!! sometimes we successfully shifted their thoughts away frm army but then before u know it, they start talking passionately bout it again. haha. but i really enjoyed myself last night.. haha. and do you know the rainbow paddlepop comes in TUBS too. haha. just found out ytd. (:

hmm, tmr im off from work... finally. i think i officially dread work now. both tuition and dental. today i went for dental and i got told off soo many times. zzzz. ok fine i know some were really my fault (eg quite slow.. duno where things are, forgotten some procedures...) but others were quite unreasonable! like hello he keeps saying we (me and partner) should have been taught stuff but fact is we werent. as in recently we are down on different days so naturally we progress differently. and i think ive only been officially trained by experienced staff on the inside (meaning preparation of materials and assisting) only twice. so the rest of the time im left on my own ok to figure things out, tho there isnt a wide variety of treatments. and somehow im always on the inside, which is fine with me cus michelle knows more reception work than i do. but inside is where all the source of trouble is. rahhh. i think i am confident only in preparing injections and xrays. aiyo... im that slow meh.. TSK. but aiya, i dun dislike him or anything, he's a nice person la. i guess he's just like what he always describes about people these days, "unwilling to wait".

but ahh thats life aint it. i get to see so many sides of people through all my jobs. like how people behave when they get frustrated, the nice and hostile side of patients. the naive but inquisitive and adorable side of kids.. etc. and altho i dun agree with many of the procedures and policies, i gotta learn to just take things in stride, or i'll seriously go mad with all the grudges. this applies not just to work but for all aspects in our life luh. recently i've just been so mad at everything.. sigh.

mm, i wonder how jessica can forgive and forget so easily. i like working with her. cus she really takes care of me and she is really super nice to talk to tho she's 40plus alr.. she looks younger tho.. haha. ooh and she said im a nice person!! i think her exact words were: "eh ni3 hen2 hao3 hor.. mei2 you3 xin1 ji1." which means that im not scheming. well thats what she thinks. HAHAHA. kidding. but honestly, i didnt before but now i think im too nice for my own good. that's what's gonna get me killed out there next time. i duno.

oops i think ive rattled on quite abit. heh heh. congrats if u've gotten to this para, u've won urself a "PERSERVERENCE AWARD". claim it from me hahah.

mm.. i can try to forget, and im sure i will in time to come. cus right now my memories are turning into pixelated images.. im forgetting the little details. it will prob make things easier, but is that really how i want things to be? i guess nonchalance can make heartaches go away, but not the problem. the haunting will never cease. let it go.. let it go.. let it go.. cus how much u heal depends on how much u let go.