morbid dreams

what is the significance, if one dreams about death? and in such a crude way. still a little shaken up.

i think i had the most morbid dream ever that has somehow been etched in my mind. normally i cant recall any dreams so why cant this be part of that pile? the image of a child jumping off from the ledge is not something i want to remember. and whats more the characters are actually some people i can relate to (meaning they exist and are sort of 2nd degree friends), though ive never met them before. what the hell.. i think im too stressed up these days, with report deadlines literally breathing down my neck. the fact that it's not going so well just adds on the pressure. a little bit like my dream, tried stopping, but cant do it.

i wanna escape.

on a lighter note i think that flash mobs are way cool. haha im sure those who saw the oprah 24th season kickoff party clip would agree - 21000 people synchronising the dance to the beat of "I gotta feelin'" by BEP. i used to hate that song but now it's cool. haha. next time if theres gonna be a flashmob please invite me along, altho i cant seem to find other gimmicks other than people freeze and dancing. :) oh, and my photocard license has finally arrived, after 3 weeks!! looking forward to buying a car..... hahahah.

okay back to companies law. long long long week ahead.

Don't Speak

You and me
We used to be together
Every day together always

I really feel that I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe this could be the end

It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real, Well I don't want to know

Don't speak, I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak, I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

Our memories, They can be inviting
But some are altogether mighty frightening

As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands I sit and cry

It's all ending I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying ... are we?

Familiarity

Note to self: don't fall back into the trap I've worked so hard to get out of. Don't ever. It was silly enough to be in it once. Noone is worth that kind of heartwrenching pain anyway. Your response ytd just served as a reminder and gave me renewed persistence to keep this gap we've formed over the year - the distance i've grown used to. In words of tang xin feng bao, just another friend:) nothing else. don't let me be blinded again please.

huhuahuahua... this is supposed to be an evil laugh

i like driving where there's hardly any traffic. makes lane changing MUCH easier and you can forgo all your safety checks too =)

i've actually set out very strict rules on which conditions to drive... which my sister always laughs at. haha.
1) LIGHT traffic. very important
2) not too fast. expressway is out for now...
3) perfect weather condition
4) preferbly in the day

HAHAHAH. so that leaves me only with yewtee huh. :D and also bukit batok lah since im quite used to it there already. lol. funny story, spent a bomb learning just to drive only at these areas. mmmm.

so anw amery let me drive his car today after our weekly (we try) L4D session with the usuals... at 4 in the morning. haha. first time doing so legally and without an instructor beside me. and speaking of instructors i feel so grossed out by one of them in view of recent revelations from a friend. to think that i had quite a good impression on him. oh well, should have known better that uncles are all like that. YUCKS.

anyway it feels damn different. first of all, mitsubishi lancer instead of honda city which im used to. secondly, extremely heavy steering. thirdly, tinted windows and small mirrrors. HAHA not a good combi. very very difficult to judge the location of approaching vehicles, couldnt make out the body of those cars, only the headlights. but i got amery to check all my blindspots for me :D so basically it was quite easy driving on a straight and empty road (highway) at 100km/h back home muaha. the only real challenge was going up my narrow carpark. bleahhhhhhh

just watched the interview video of miss singapore world 2009, Ris Low. uber funny. its really a challenge trying to follow her train of thoughts, they dont make much sense. haha.

i especially liked the part where the interviewer asks:
"So, what do you wear when you are feeling naughty?"

Ris Low: If I'm naughty, then I will wear something red and loud. Something you know, BOOMS. Something that shouts ME!

?????????? hahahaha what on earth is booms?!! boomer ah? *burps* i got boomed so many times by darren while l4d-ing today man. sigh.........

LOL. at first i thought this whole thing was a joke. apparently not. mmmmm, what an entertaining video. go see go see! i shall sleep now it's already 7am. one more week to recess week! :D

haiya i dont now how to post youtube videos here. why not i provide the link instead.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5F74FZfdSJY

nites all!

really doesnt and probably would never get the uni lingo

i dont know why uni people like to talk weird. i really dont. haha. sometimes, its really super irritating, but i dont say anything much cos some of my friends use them. haha. oops. i hope they will never find their way over here. -chuckles-

i guess i dont hear so many people say cui, it's dying down already. i suppose it really has cui-ed :D good good. keep it up. but now we have tonnes others.

1. UPZ. (as in the opposite of down)
eg. you are already mugging at week 1? upz leh you.

2. ji3 _________ (use hanyu pinyin)
eg. wah this is ji3 lamezzzz. i am ji confused. wow this is ji expensive!

wow. speechless.

okay anw, on to better news... ive finally passed my TP today! HAHA. shytes la i almost failed tho, chalked up so many demerit points but seriously, those 8 points of failure to check safety during BOTH parkings was uncalled for. i did turn and check lo. but whatever the case, i should be contented, and to be honest the tester was pretty okay. aww man im gonna miss things at bbdc, hate it that i would disappear just like that, without saying a proper thank you to my instructors. oh well, i guess i can go and stalk them or something. LOL. just kiddding.

sigh, what an unproductive day. shall go and look at some annual reports then. seeya.

pray it gets better.

this has got to be one of the worst weeks ever. everything doesnt seem to be going too smoothly. bleah

overslept on friday on the day of some graded ethics essay. rushed out of my house and couldnt catch a cab - took the public transport instead. -_- ran for 179, and missed it. got to class, late for half an hour, wrote rubbish for ethics essay. day dreamed the whole damn day. man....

presentation tmr, got into an argument (well sorta) with my groupmate last night. he said he was kidding.. uh ok. feeling pissed at some guy who doesnt contribute at all despite it being his presentation week this time around. seriously, reading the slides we created just before class and presenting it ain't contribution. bleah hope we dont screw it up again man

just my luck. just my luck.

oh and i got scolded today at work too not just once, which seriously sucks. just what i needed to end off this terrible week.....

anw it's just a ranting episode. may every tomorrow be a better day.

errors everywhere.

oh man, i'm seriously experiencing computer troubles lately. i suspect it's windows vi*t*'s problem (to protect myself from slandering).. but whatever it is, just begone!

rahhh, so much to do, yet i'm not picking up the pace. the four hour breaks are seriously killing me. i can't get any proper rest nor can i concentrate in my work. i found out that my optimum time to work (like enzymes) is during the wee hours of the morning. it's cooling, quiet and good to study. SIGH! but now i am just not motivated to do anything.. the way i had been this past 2 weeks.

i don't know why im so half hearted all the time, towards everything. where's that drive?!! sometimes i really hate my attitude, it's a liability man. last lesson of career foundations module made me realise i cant be so reserved all the time. somehow ive been dismissing this issue but i think the sense of awkwardness in me has got to be corrected somehow, someday. anyway there was this girl who did so many things which made me wonder, what have i done in my life exactly? i bet interview questions like "what are your life achievements" would stump me. i've always wanted to do volunteer work too, perhaps it's time to act on it and not just think.

haha my neighbourhood's pretty interesting. i guess i've mentioned about the parade commander and drummer in my estate. now there's this situation where a dog will sometimes bark at around this time (just did so actually), quite cutesy-ly i think it might be a small dog. and anw this pissed off ah lian will always scream "SHUT UP LAH" uber loudly. not sure if she's the owner but if she's not it would be weird. guess this is not a peaceful retreat around here.

ohhhhhhhhhhkay. weekends are drawing near again FINALLY =) which explains why im still slacking around and blogging cos of the false impression of limitless time. but it's not since i have a presentation coming up on monday and test on friday and report due two weeks later. phew... here it goes. i'd bet it'll be over real soon but i feel like playing L4D. again. hahaha. sucks. addiction problems already man. haha but it;s fun, im like the lousiest out of the four but hey, at least im careful =) maybe darren will suggest going again this week muaha. good to have him around to shoot all the zombies and witch!!!