You are the apple of my eye

It's year 2012.

久しぶりなんですよ。。もう２０１２年になりました。早いですね。

Returning back to blogspot a year later gave me a huge shock. Due to the change in the layout, I had to take some time to learn how to navigate through blogspot again. It's also become scarier - you can see how many views you get per entry... and also how many hits per day, from which countries, etc. So stalker-ish!! haha. But well, I concluded that my hits are probably all spams. There can't be anyone (I know, at least) still reading this dead piece of blog.

Anyway, today is a happy day! Or rather, a day filled with strange, yet strong emotions. That's probably why I decided to write again.

I learnt from sensei that today is "Tanabata" day - on 7th July of every year. Something about it being THE DAY that lovers meet on the milky way. I am not sure about the full details of this day celebrated in Japan, but I am definitely convinced that there are strong powers holding this day.

For one, everyone seemed to be holding their weddings on this day. haha. On my facebook, I could see at least three different groups of people attending the weddings of different people. Even I myself have attended the wedding ceremony of a friend today. I think this day holds a special meaning to this couple as well. And if I'm not wrong, it's the date of their anniversary. Well, he's a really good guy - I could tell from the way he supported his wife as he mouthed the words of the wedding vows along with his nervous bride who may have trouble finding the words, or the way he looked lovingly (as instructed by the reverent, nonetheless) at his wife all throughout the ceremony. I could have sworn seeing his eyes fill up with tears of joy as the bride walked down the aisle. I did not expect myself to be that overwhelmed but I am indeed moved. It is afterall, a long time since I attended any wedding ceremonies (that I could care much about), and what more my first time witnessing the marriage of a friend.

If I hadn't expressed it well enough, I really wish them the best in their lives together ahead. :)

And then just now, I had the time to catch the movie "You are the apple of my eye". It was a movie that caused a great hoo-haa in Asia to say the least. I had tried watching it on youtube when it first showed, but I couldn't understand it. I couldn't understand what was so nice about the show. What was the meaning of the show? But in any case, I gave up on it after watching half of the show.

Or so I thought. When I re-watched it again just now, I realized that I couldn't have watched for more than 15minutes, because I could not remember any of the scenes from the 15th minute onwards. That's when I realized I haven't been putting enough effort the first time round.

But well, after the whole movie, I realized it is indeed something that people will like, or could relate too. It's a little bit cliche but not boring, and perhaps touching as well.

Love is a topic that keeps coming up in every part of my social circle these days. I guess it is inevitable since we are growing up, or old. I've had many meaningful conversations about it as well, and heard about the perspectives of many people - the hurt, the bochup, the desperate. haha! It's such a complicated feeling... no wonder attending wedding ceremonies on Tanabata day and watching a love movie could spark off an entry like this that actually doesn't really have any point...

Just stop it seriously...

GE fever taken too far - it's a day later already and everyone is STILL talking about it. Please just stop it man... Get over it.

Just so annoyed at everyone's posts/comments. I have the tendency to be an "opposition" myself so might I say everyone who is blindly voicing out what needs to be done consider the feasibility of your ideas. Firstly, petitioning for a by-election - Persuant to Section 49, Sub Section 70, Paragraph A of the Parliamentary Act, Mr Yam has already declared those elected into the Parliarment. Please just respect that - anyway those were the choices of the people what. Isnt this what democracy is all about? Majority rules. Even if just by a hundred over votes (actually I'm not sure cuz I simply can't be bothered). The people in the ward have decided who they want as representatives of their area, so just let them live with their decision, be it good or bad. What gives everyone else from every other area who are just merely plain pro-opposition the right to join in the fun and do a "petition"?

Come on man.

I know I sound super pro-government, but in fact I'm not. I'm neither. I'm as apathetic as it gets... as previously mentioned. Just that it is impossible to just be in your own world living a blissful ignorant life now when everyone is forcing their opinions into your face.. Maybe I should quit social media.......... Life was much simpler when I adamantly refused to open a facebook account (yanling are you reading this? haha. and what happened to your blog!).

Secondly - TPL issue. Okay seriously why is everyone finding fault in her? I really really don't get it. What's with all the "I don't want TPL in paliarment" sentiments? For this I strongly strongly agree with xiaxue's recent blog post. You don't want her, then who do you want? Discount Nicole - would anyone be able to name the other 4 MPs from NSP? (Other than that dude singled out as the weakest by xiaxue hehe). For sure I won't be able to. I haven't even heard their voices at all the entire time. It was all Nicole talking.

Actually I can't name the people in TPL's team as well hahaha but at least I know there's SM Goh inside, someone who has done his part in shaping our country to what it is today. So you'll rather sacrifice him for another party (with quite frankly low credentials) to be in the GRC? It's not easy leading an entire GRC yeah. One may be superb leading an SMC when you can devote all resources into one area, whereas you're playing a totally different ball game in GRC. I don't know man, to me it seems really childish to just disregard a good team just cause of superficial issues like this. I'm sure TPL has her capabilities too, since she is an auditor (comeon man I GOTTA give credit for that. Aren't auditors good at planning, calculating, and whatnot).

Remember, GE is not a popularity contest - we can always tune in to Singapore Idol for that. We need a country to be well run, and for that to happen we have to get the best people. Sorry but this is just life.

By the by on the side note, God knows what will happen if Singapore moves towards the welfare system direction. Next time you are going to be screaming more when you find out that all your taxes are being channeled towards helping people who don't wanna work cuz of excessive dependence. You wanna get a better life? Work for it man. Like how I'm gonna be working like a dog in 5 month's time for that amount of pay......... :(

And for those who keep saying they wanna replace TPL for GY.. As attractive as it sounds... sadly I don't think that will happen. So please again, stop suggesting that. Otherwise, wouldn't it trivialize the whole GE system? Like you can suka suka do whatever the hell you want.

Don't hate me, you have your own opinions and I have mine. I'm just choosing to take a more logical viewpoint. And I'm so sick of listening to all the angry people's voices (so tired of it!!!) that I have to retreat to this little blog I have to dispel all annoyance. Hopefully nobody I don't know will ever read it, but to those select few who have my blog address, I am quite sure they will agree with what I've said. I'm really so glad that there are still people whom I can identify with. =)

GE 2011 is over, so let's just take a chill pill and be as apathetic as before okay? We'll see what PAP will provide us (I'm sure they would have gotten a strong wake-up call just like in the early 90's) in the coming years, and if we're not happy, we can scream again in the next elections alright?

General Election fever

It's that once every five year period again, but somehow, this year's general elections seems to be the talk of the town. I duno if it's because we've reached the age where such things start to matter to us, or if it's simply propagated by the social media. Every status update is about GE, every post is about GE.

Nobody used to care about such things, but now, you're almost considered backdated if you dont at least talk about it. And so, I shall try and be in the loop just this once. But very frankly, I'm still that politically apathetic person that I was since the beginning of time.

I don;t really wanna air too much of my views on the internet (afterall, it is still very unsafe to do so, say the wrong thing and you are doomed). But I just have a burning question - is everyone just so pro-opposition because they truly feel that they have the capability to lead and change our lives for the better, or is it just a very fashionable thing to do so? I mean, I'm no political follower, I'm no economic expert, but the policies that they propose are simply out of the world. And people just buy it because it SEEMS good in the short run. Note, seems. Risking social problems from immediate gratification is no good. The world is already as screwed as it is, thank you very much.

If these policies are really that good, don't you think the current government had already thought of that, probably debated to hell with it, and decided that it's simply infeasible?? I mean seriously..... Although I would really love for my pay to rise........ But what's the use if inflation is just going to hit us more than ever and offset the benefits of "pay rise".

Next, simply raising issues is not going to make Singapore a better place. Stop telling us what we already know - I know about the MRT squeeze - I feel it everytime I travel during peak hours. What we need is solutions. So far I'm not hearing any yet, other than vague proposals here and there. Don't even get me started on the "solutions" that will simply bring about more problems (see above).

But anyway, I'm so sick of all this. May the 7th be over and done with soon (yippie audit exam on that day too). Remember, your vote is a SECRET so please stop posting your views all over on facebook. haha.

yabai~

This is bad, week 6 is coming and I'm acting as though I'm on holiday. Whenever I'm free I'll start idling around and stream variety shows, and whenever I'm burdened by projects or school work I escape reality like a 7 year old and still idle around and stream variety shows.

Yabai.

And it's not as though my workload is as chill as a normal year 3 sem 2 accountancy student with probably 2 cores and some electives. I'm taking 4 cores and all are not easy. I'm lost in every class and piled up 5 weeks of readings for every module.

Yabai.

hahaha. Oh well, life still goes on. Hopefully I will find enough motivation to properly think of points for my group presentation on Monday. Yawns. I seriously hate HR courses. hate. People ask me, why do I take it or continue with it. My reply has always been standard - since I've already cleared 3 out of 5, I might as well just go on with it and graduate with a second specialization. But lately I have been unable to convince myself with this argument. It would have been more valid if I don't suck at all the HR modules. All they did were to pull my GPA down. If I hadn't taken it in the first place, I seriously think I might manage a first class honours, or at least a high second upper (I;m not bragging, I;m just lamenting) quite comfortably.

Sucks........

And not to mention my ear has been giving me lots of trouble lately. Started off with earwax buildup at the end of last year.... Then midway through it started bleeding... Then it became well after medication and subsequently the doctor flushed out the gooey wax (ew) out. Lately this earblock returned again. And it's now become a full blown ear infection + pus discharge (double ew), which I believe has been there since the time it started bleeding. That led me to think of how much information assymetry a doctor and a patient has, and how helpless we are to have to trust everything a doctor says. After so many trips to the clinic, I believe one or two of them are telling me bullshit. What are the right questions to ask?

Anw, if it doesnt heal up by this week I guess I would probably have to be referred to a hospital. Oh well, on medication now and I hope it will stop bothering me ever again. Keeps fingers crossed!

Everything you might want to know about Malaysian Citizenship Renunciation, or Minor Oath Taking

In my bid to become a kinder and more helpful individual come year 2011, I've decided to document my experience of the loooooong process of Minor Oath taking in gory detail, so as to serve as an info guide to help out anyone at all who happens to be googling desperately just like i did a month ago. Cuz I can understand how it is like to be clueless and unmotivated, help from veterans surely does help.

Anyway, amongst all the lucky Singaporeans, there are people like me - who are Singaporeans by registration. Although I may have been born in Singapore, by law, I had to follow the citizenship of my parents, who were then still Malaysians. It was only when I was about 7 or 8 when my parents decided to renounce their Malaysian citizenships and become full fledge Singaporeans. To cut the story short, although I had already renounced my M'sian citizenship back then together with my parents, being a minor, I guess it wasnt really counted as official. So now, at 21, I had to re-renounce (heh) my Msian citizenship, as well as to confirm my loyalty and pledge my allegiance to Singapore. We have a year to do so btw, and normally I would have done some serious last minute work but because my passport had expired and you couldn't renew your passport without taking the oath, I was forced to do everything up early in order to get it ready to book tickets for my grad trip (YAY).

Disclaimer: Information applicable as at Jan2011. It may change as time goes by....

Step 1: Renouncing your Msian citizenship!!! (i.e. Doing up what they call Borang/Form K)

Documents needed:
(please see http://www.kln.gov.my/c/document_library/get_file?p_l_id=245759&folderId=573173&name=DLFE-6212.htm)

ALL requires original plus 2 photocopies
i. Letter of approval from the Singapore Registrar of Citizens and ICA (i.e. the letter they mailed you to tell you to take the oath)
ii. Malaysian identity card (if any)
iii. Singapore pink/blue identity card
iv. Malaysian Restricted and International passport(including expired & cancelled passports)
v. Malaysia/Singapore birth certificate
vi. Borang W (i.e. Msian citizenship cert if you are holding singapore birth cert)
vii. Two photographs + 10SGD fee
viii. Some renunciation letter you received if you had renounced ur Msian citizenship previously. But somehow I didn't have that letter and I insisted I couldnt produce it. Thankfully the person let me off the hook, phew. Would be good to bring it.

please see the link above for full info. It says that you need photocopies of some of your parent's essential documents as well. But somehow....they didn't ask me for it. So I guess there isn't a real need..... But you'll never know right, so it would be good to have it ready first. Photocopying services there at the embassy rips people off by the way!!! 20cents (or was it 40??) per piece, are you kidding me? Okay, so armed with all your documents, you may stroll down to the Malaysian Embassy located at Jervois Road (you can take bus 32 from the nearest busstop you see when you exit redhill mrt station) to get it all done up! Contrary to some of the older information I had read in the blogs when I was doing research, the efficiency at the embassy is surprisingly good. So good in fact. haha

1) There's no need to schedule appointments at all! Apparently you had to do so last time just to submit your forms but it is really so efficient now you can definitely do so on the same day. I didn't even see the need to go down EXTREMELY early at the opening hour... Just be there early enough in order to fill up and submit all the forms by 11am. Filling up of forms should take you about an hour or so..

2) After submission, you'll pay your 10SGD processing fee, and after which they would issue you a collection slip to tell you to return to the embassy - I think 3 working days later, to collect your renunciation memo, which is basically an application-in-progress letter to let ICA know that you have submitted an application for renunciation, but the process hasnt been completed yet. Cuz the whole process takes about a year, they will only mail you the original Form K in a year's time if I'm not wrong. Anyway, note that collection time is only between 2:30pm and 3:30pm. This memo is very important because you gotta bring it to take your oath. =)

Step 2: Halfway there - Oath taking!!!!!!

The oath taking process is definitely much more straightforward and don't require much explanation. With your renunciation memo at hand you can once again take a leisurely stroll to ICA for oath taking. Bring along your IC, Singapore Citizenship Cert and the oath form as well. Just head up to 6th level and get a queue number for Oath taking. Before you know it, you are already a true blue Singaporean.


Step 3: Renew your passport!!!!!!

After oath taking you can just head down to the ICA lobby area at level one to remake your passport. Submit an application the usual way, just remember to attach a photocopy of your Singaporean citizenship Cert (front and back) to the back of the passport app form, because they will attach some documentary proof of your oath taking on ur citizenship cert. so yeah... patiently await for the passport collection slip to be mailed to you - mine did yesterday and I will be collecting my passport tomorrow! yahooo..

Haha, so as you can see, the whole process seriously doesn't take very long. Getting everything done within 2 weeks is definitely a possibility. Mine took slightly longer - all in about 3 weeks cuz of all the chinese new year fuss and also because I could only go down on wednesdays due to classes... But yea, moral of the story is, DONT PROCRASTINATE!!!!

Don't miss your oath taking because if you don't do so within a year you WILL lose your SG citizenship. No such thing as rescheduling another oath date I can guarantee you that. So don't sit around too long, get it done!

zombie

Hmmmm, am I really the type who can't take criticisms?

I wonder....

I will usually not criticise someone or something if I know that he/she/it is very well liked by my friends, even if i have strong feelings of dislike towards him/her/it. Afterall, you wont die by keeping your mouth shut.

Yet........ this makes me seem a little fake? I wonder.

But recently people have been expressing their ill opinions (which frankly, I don't care) about things or people that I like in my face. I know you are entitled to your opinions however bad they are, but I am as well, so please don't drown mine with yours.

You have the freedom to like whatever you want. You have the freedom to dislike whatever you want. Just don't superimpose them onto mine.

Just thought you should know.

All the petty thoughts aside, happy new year! 2011, yoroshiku onegaishimasu!

yamashita part 2

Remember i ended off last entry with Yamapi, quickly do something interesting? Well, he has!! Showing off skin is definitely the way to go. yummy.

Let me start off with some older pics of him i have:



I think it should be in 2007, during his Pro Dai period. With proper cheeks. :D


















Mid 2008... during Code Blue period. Look at the abs......altho most would divert their eyes to his chest, and call them moobs.














-_-"""

Calling them moobs certainly piss me off really bad. Because from my understanding, I believe it is a term used to describe fat men who have...well, boobies. I remember referring to one particular PE teacher of AJC that (GUESS WHO???? *coughs*ART**R L*M*coughs*) But usually I dont refute to that cuz it seems that fangirls are always gushing about yamapi's "moobs". so I thought. oh okay.

But recently, I'm finding it more and more odd, and am uncomfortable with that. So to satisfy my OCD tendencies, I went to google moobs to settle this internal argument once and for all. Haha. Here's a few hits I got:

"A combination of the words "man" and "boobs." This is what happens when fat gathers in a male's chest area, and gives him the appearance of having breasts. Usually seen in overweight males"
"Male Breasts,large in the cheast area not in the musculatory sense."

So there you go. I've had it with those comments. People should really find out what they're saying before they do... Not just in this sense but in life, in general. If you go around shooting your mouth in front of the wrong crowd, there's gonna be hell to pay. =)

Anyway, and then in beginning 2010 he became so skinny :(



.....Something like this. I was going to petition to force feed him.









But fastforward a few months after Ashita no Joe filming. Now he's sizzzzzzzzling. (With nice hair too) HAHAHA. Still skinny with even more sunken cheeks :( ....but wont you look at his biceps! So toned and tanned. AHHHHH hugs.



Armsarmsarmsarmsarmsarms... From the latest magazine scans. Haha... So this is actually the motive of today's entry.










ENJOY!!!!!! hahahaha. TAKE OFF THE SINGLET!
















Still dare to call him puny, Joyce Winchester???? :P

i really hate it when....

....... people add a question mark to their statement in answer to my question.

Increasingly, this has become one of my pet peeves. Just because i think it makes me sound like I'm dumb or something. I'm not asking a stupid question!!!!

Just a random example conjured out of nowhere (any similarities to real people are purely coincidental and unintended):

Say if you tell me all the work that you have completed is gone now. Out of curiosity i ask "Oh, how come?" and the response you give goes along the line of "Because my computer spoilt??"

........Nabei. How the hell would I know your computer spoilt or the nitty gritty things that go on in your life. I'm sure no one would know that the reason for my sleepiness these days is due to late night drama-ing and insomnia if I dont announce it right?

Dont you think a questioning response like this makes you feel like your level of intelligence is zero, for not knowing something so obvious. I'm sure this may just be a habit to some, and they do not exactly have that kind of malice in mind when they said it. But certainly it is really annoying to people like me who reads alot into things.

Makes me wonder, why can't people just answer to a question the way questions should be answered. Drop the question mark if you are typing (saves ur fingers' effort to try and type it anyway), or drop the questioning tone if you are talking.

So this is the #102919008017091 in my list of pet peeves. Along with curt sms responses if you still remember. Or being late (I HATE waiting)...... Just to name a few.

Guess I'm forever complaining. But with criticism comes improvement!!! <--- Totally made this words of wisdom up myself. HAHAHA.

Now that I have no dramas that I am dying to watch, I'm watching variety shows instead. Truly. The. Best. Thing......EVER!!! hahaha. I am beginning to be so intrigued and impressed by GACKT san, it's an unhealthy obsession. wahahha. He's such a genius. Master of so many languages, musical instruments, with an amazing voice. *fawns over* But really, when I see people always giving their all in the work they do, it makes me quite touched. I guess all Japanese are like that, no?

Quick Yamapi, come out and do something interesting now! *laughs*

shiawase

*melts*

managed to chiong finish "Yamada Taro Monogatari" in a day. seriously one of the best dramas i've caught so far. not only were there some laughs to share, but the entire series was so full of meaning. family, friendship, responsibilities.

basically it was about this princey boy who was admired by everyone in school. he's very kind, intelligent - everyone thought he was rich, but in fact he was very poor. and the show was about how he worked so hard to earn money to support his family of 8, and scrimped and saved for them.

honestly, if u showed me scenes of dying people in dramas, i may be unappreciative. sappy love stories, i may be unmoved. but if u put family and kids (especially) into the picture.... this kind of warmness, i dont think my heart can take it. :") i think almost every scene that involved them doing something sweet to their family got me all teary eyed. muaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

its good to be rich, but we do not necessary need to be so in order to be happy.

i love K!

well.... i love to K and i love K!

let me explain myself. the first K refers to karaoke of course, and the second K is this singer who sang the 1 litre of tears theme song. "Only Human". omg melts. haha. such an old school drama/song i know.. and i didnt know he was korean. sigh melts.

i went to K at cash studios ytd with indah... sang JAP SONGS HAHAHA. super hilarious if u ask me. its probably the only situation where u will not see people staring at the screen while K-ing, but busy looking at their ipods/paper/BB for the lyrics. LOL. abit troublesome everytime ur song comes u'll be like EHHHH WAIT WAIT LET ME FIND THE LYRICS. hahaha. crazy stuff.

and of course my ability was rather limited being relatively new to this japanese stuff i basically mumbled through most of the lyrics like jaychou. so i had to pick out slow songs which were easier to follow, only to be accused of being emo. IM NOT LAH. is because im not pro at jap but have powerful vocals ok.

wah, singing jap songs is much more tiring than chinese songs. and halfway through i was zao-xia-ing like nobody's business. so we sang some english songs and it was freaking hilarious when we sang "When you believe" by whitney houston and mariah carey. hahaah. we totally acted just like them, e.g. doing their hand-actions whenever they try to hit super high notes. so fun.

let's go again! anyone wanna attend my concert can RSVP LOL.

doesnt feel like writing the PA report at all ^_^

sooooooo... my days of leg-shaking have begun! woohoo so exciting right. but not really la. this week is report time! i've lost my ability to write any form of paragraph longer than a blog entry. so it's going to be a sian week i suppose.

but it's workout week!!! or rather, the first week of workout. i plan to go on intensive gymming for the next 3 to 4 weeks. i realise that every single adult around me is telling me how fat i've become. HAHAHA. esp my mum, and my dentist Dr Chia!!! and today, my neighbour joined in the fun. LOL. zzzz.

but the comments they make are really super hilarious. lol. looking at my recent pictures i really got a shock too. so this is how the outside world sees me - frigging round. tmd. soooo.. im totally going to get rid of that O.L phenomenum tummy and all that other excess baggage on me. rahhh.. i think my blood is half blood half oil. dammit

today i did 10mins of running (lol embarrassing i could only sustain 2.5laps on the threadmill), 20mins of rowing, 20mins of elliptical machine (yeah baby that is awesome made me sweat like crazy), 10 mins of stair master. i hope to improve tmr. do more running and more stairs.

JIAYOU!!!! rahhh any ideas on how to lose fatsssss and build up LEAN muscles? LEAN LEAN LEAN muscles only please, i dont like the idea of looking like serena williams. must look around online then. must jog like crazy now.

P90X seems so awesome, but i dont think that's something i will do at home.....too many people watching!!! and i look stupid doing the kenpo routine. tmd why they do the kickboxing exercises until so cool while i believe i look like some uncoordinated person drowning on land. =(

yamashita-kun is my heart!:D

i believe..... that love is the answer

i chanced upon this song "I believe" by Blessed Union of Souls at citysquaremall the other day during our farewell dinner, woahhhh.. memories of AJ kept pouring back. haha. think i listened to it rather excessively last time. =)

but anyway, LONG TIME NO SEE! and woahhhhh blogger can actually customise templates! haha. still exploring which one to pick. for now it's rather erm... bluish? hmmmmmmmm... simple is nice but i dont think it goes with the lips design that joyceeeeeeeeeeeeeeee set out for me. haha. maybe something brighter will be good. but for now that will just have to do. ^_^

okay so for now, internship is over! =) 10 weeks have passed just like that. we;re all happy. not that we hate working there or whatever, but it's just a relief i guess. met some really cool people there, hope we continue to stay in touch. i guess mj will finally have peace now without my random disturbances. LOL.

so whats next? well, i have HK to look forward to! havent planned out the itinerary, should probably start doing so! oh but before that, gotta write my professional attachment report. DAMN SIAN JUST PASS ME CAN ANOT WHY MUST WRITE REPORT.

pretense

oh whats up, so work has started and it's kinda stressful and boring. everyday is a countdown session. haha. but it's alright i guess. time seems to pass by quite fast anyway, it's already nearing the end of 2nd week!

so im constantly tired.

and anyway i feel that im such an evil person to be hoping for something (not entirely good, but frankly actually its all relative cuz it will be THE BEST FOR ME) that i know will happen sooner or later. haha i am just waiting for it to happen.

i am sorry but unlike them, i dont feel any sympathy for you. like i always say, dont take things for granted. personally i dont think you're fit to be with her and isn't it a little too late to shower concern now. used to be so bloody yaya and acting like the ball is in your court with your stupid attitude. shameless. HA. i cant wait for it to explode in your face.

please, stop trying to do nice things for us. some people may be softhearted because of this but i for sure wont. i think it's nothing but a desperate move to retain your position here. i wont buy it, and it just makes me sick to my stomach, if anything. you were never that nice or considerate in the past.

so bugger off. i am loving this. hahahaha. i am evil. ;)

the ugly truth

somehow, i really dont like it when people criticise me. or rather, say things about me that isnt entirely a criticism, but could be considered quite embarrassing.

why do people like to do that to others all the time?

of course, like any other, i say mean things about others too. but i believe that i only do that for people who really deserve it. like say, rissy low. i dont think anyone would disagree that all the unpleasant things targeted at her are as a result of her own actions. directly. i really dont badmouth people alot u know.... haha.

so why are people saying stuff like that about me, and sometimes to me in my face (which by the way, is getting abit fat lately lol)? maybe it is all true.... maybe i am really like that. but so what? what warrants you the right to say such a thing. what have i ever done to you all?

really sick of this shit. okay whatever this may make me seem like im a petty or uptight person who cant take a "joke". but really, why do you wanna shake another person's confidence like that. like take for example, why would u wanna tell an ugly person that you feel that he/she is ugly? it's not like that person had gotten into your way or anything right. it's not like they can help how they look like. so shut up about it already.

and of all people, YOU. what the fuck. who the heck are you to say things like that about me. first of all i already dont like you, which i think is pretty obvious judging from the cold replies i give to you all the time. i detest having to face you every single day. my respect for you is non existent, the lack of shame in you is appalling. who on earth takes advantage of other people's hospitality like that, to this extent? and we cant say anything coz i am very sure it will get ugly.

hai i duno. im not feeling so good today.

its 4am and there's work tomorrow, i mean later.

i dont feel like going to work later....... bleah

so much to do, school is starting soon!!!! in slightly more than a day. im not done with my revision! haha.. see la, there's no discipline. 1 week is more than enough to read, and re-read, and re-read. too bad i spent the time unwisely.

i just realized, i have a very very very very very bad habit of not replying to smses... even to those that obviously require my reply to, say, a question. erm, sorry!! i didnt use to be like that, my reply used to be INSTANT. haha.

but now if im doing something, (or sometimes nothing at all) i will leave the task of replying to later, and eventually forget all about it. sigh, all my friends dont like to reply smses as well, so perhaps that has rubbed off on me too. ^_^

OH YEAHHHH I FINALLY FOUND SE SUPONE BY LUIS FONSI. his songs are the best. k i just realized that i have more spanish and jap songs on my laptop than all my english songs combined. hahaha. =)

so where do you get your motivation?

it's funny that i still type in the wrong password (because usually philly_sixers is associated with another password for my mails and stuff) whenever i try to access my blog. happens without fail everytime. blame it on the naughty password that i have *stares at joyce*. ;-)

alright, so how's everyone? surviving this crazy semester? im doing great! lol. okay i'm not exactly having alot of fun and am massively behind in terms of academic progress, but i find that im relaxing alot! that's good, right?

i'm looking to get my blackberry soon. slurps. haha. although it's probably just a want rather than a need at this point in time..... but things like this still get me excited.

hmmm, lately i'm feeling so zoned out all the time. i don't really know why, is it due to the fact that i'm always tired? it's a sickness man. haha. probably need to exercise more =) but yeah, it's strange. sometimes i'll just get this out-of-the-world feeling all of a sudden. and i'll be like, "hey, i'm alive! how strange.". as if i'm teleported to this world from...nowhere. it's really difficult to explain, but i'm feeling more and more of it these days. are these signs of ageing? disillusionment? am i approaching closer to death?

i remember eons ago during higher chinese lessons where my teacher was going through some liang shan bo stuff (or was it), and he posed a question that what if dreams, were in fact, reality? and what we think of as reality is nothing more than a dream. haha if so, i gotta say, i have a really boring dream. =p

well, that was really random. i think im reading too much of yamashita's diary on facebook thats why. he's really adorable with all that randomness!! it's just his style... his aura =) oh no, am i going to like every single entry from him? i believe so!!! haha. i just liked another one! it's so funny the way he says it..

lol. madness.

hmmm, sometimes i feel, i'm really not driven enough. and i feel quite guilty whenever i hear my dentist tell me about the achievements of his son, being a councillor, topping the cohort/class, participating in and winning school events, etc etc etc. why has he, at a tender age of 16, been able to achieve so much more than me? i guess we can attribute it to the upbringing. but ultimately, it's nothing more than an excuse.

just where do you get your motivation? and how? i'd really want to know - it's something for me and everyone to think about.

ohiyo!

haha, despite the really crazy school week i am having now, im still slacking around!

like now, totally enjoying code blue (and yamapi). haha. i just realized, season 2 is really good. better than season one as of now (ep 3). they're following the footsteps of desperate housewives hehe. with narration and a central theme. that somehow makes it quite artistically well done. so yeah! looking forward to more!

but my heart is still made of stone, didnt find any scene particularly touching.. i mean it is. but just not enough to move me to tears.

anw, am taking a rather interesting elective in school now. basically we go there to watch some movies that are seemingly based on science, and then we discuss about the theories behind it - whether its accurate or total bull. haha.

we watched GATTACCA yesterday (by ethan hawke and jude law). quite an old movie.. it is a really good show. havent watched anything like this in awhile. GO WATCH (esp yanling hehe bio student)! it was quite hilarious really... some people OHHHHHHH-ed until so loud when the teacher gave an interesting insight that the title of the movie is made up of CGTA (the nucleotide bases of our DNA).

man, i really really miss biology. I have forgotten most of the concepts actually. gotta dig out my jc notes omg...! the lecturer goes so fast like a choo choo train. she takes one lecture to finish what we would have done in a month. haha. i'm finding it really difficult to understand MEIOSIS omg. but well, it wasnt easy for me during JC either.. haha

from failblog.org!!!!

credits to failblog.org. haha. i hope i am not violating any copyright law here, but this is funny!

back from hiatus.. you wanna hear about school or... shuai ges?!!! LOL

....of course not shuai ges from school. HAHA

sigh today's the last day of stoning and whatnot. school's gonna begin for real TMR! sucks. i still cant decide what i should drop. can HR stop bombing me with shit like that? bleargh.

oh well, who needs to hear about school? i'm sure we all have our tough times that we have to deal with. ;) with these difficult moments, i have my dramas (!!!) as a form of escape. actually this is an extremely delayed post that ive been procrastinating (but hey, yeekeong taught me the merits of procrastinating) since the holidays, to the point that my favourite boy has sorta, uh, changed. hees. but you see, better late than never, and i bet NONE OF YOU WILL BE INTERESTED ANYWAY. haha. im so sad that everyone's doubting my taste when it comes to hotties. wah lau eh... come on leh:( i shall try to convince YOU (marketing) that they are indeed, HAWT. or cool.

SHOTA MATSUDA

my first favourite. haha. it all started with the drama "Liar Game", which you all should watch btw! it's damnnnnnnnn nice. and quite hilarious too. altho you would have to deal with irritating cast like toda erika, and basically, everyone else. dont worry akiyama-san totally makes up for it!:D

there's a season 2 but i think that it's not that good.. so far im not really impressed with it. but season 1 is AWESOME. i especially loved the minority rule and ressurection game. really, watch it!


Promo poster for the show. okay first off, i really do not understand why on earth did anyone permit that pic to be the promo pic. i mean, look at shota's HAIR!!! wth. he looks positively ghastly here. :S


much better here!!! haha. btw, he acted as soujirou (xi men) in hana yori dango. he looks great over there!!

of course, not everyone agrees with me (in fact noone did =( ) dammit. haha. my sis says that he looks girly. NO HE DOES NOT. and she kept whispering to me while we were watching Avatar that those american guys are manly. -_-"" lol. sigh, the only thing girly about him is perhaps his weight? coz he's just so so so skinny. (my motivation to slim down eh) but then again, all jap guys are like that - its difficult to find meat on them.

and then, yanling said that he looked creepy. i can see why, cos stupid google decided to post THISSSSSS pic as the second found pic.


..........

they really know how to make him look good. dammit. its like a failed passport photo (just like every other passport sized photo of everyone else). why isnt anyone sued for circulating that pic on the net?


ALL TIME FAVOURITE PIC! pls dont say cos cannot see his face. lol. loving it. =) plus i think he has gentle hands. it sounds weird and sick in a way but its true! LOL. FYI i dont particularly enjoy seeing guys (or girls) with ugly bitten nails. its just a personal preference;)

okay so anyway, ive watched almost every single of his more famous(2007 onwards) drama during this short holiday. but then it started to run out so i turned to...

CODE BLUE. another awesome one btw. basically it's a medical show, which is supposedly kinda sad cos it has a life-and-death theme. but guess what my heart is made of stone so i couldnt really detect the touching moments. hmmm. still, its rather addictive. and meaningful.

and of course, along came YAMAPI aka Yamashita Tomohisa

hohoho. he's a more straightforward kind of hotness that people can accept. i think he looks abit like gatsby. lol. you know, mu chun tuo zai? takuya!! haha. cant believe joyce said he's not hot. *raises eyebrows*

altho, i think he went through alot of changes in his looks. from the cutesy teenager to a matured adult really. and im surprised how his personality changed along with his looks.


young days of his nobuta drama(2006?). lol. i guess thats what we call cute.


and at some point, he became HOT. omg. absssss.. totally the fittest jap guy arnd!:D


wooohooooo in code blue!! Aizawa sinsei. haha. i think he looks best like that. if only his style would just stay this way.

but his stylist decided to CHU STUNT (lol uni lingo once more) and give him a lau kok kok look in code blue 2. i tell you, im literally CRUSHED.


..... not a big fan of this come on. WHY CANT THEY LET THE TAKUYA STYLE REMAIN!!

ahems.

haha. okay im such a fangirl. hehs. last week of "holidays" thats why... i might not have the chance to drama anymore starting next week =( sianz.

but anyway the reason why im doing this post is cos people have been asking me what kind of guys i like. LOL. ooooohkay. whats with this rushing to get me attached ah? *raises eyebrows*

well i can give u a list of criteria that i like (not in any particular order):
1) shy - cos this means he doesnt talk TOO MUCH. narssicism is not what im looking for. but he must be able to carry a conversation, because 2 introverts together can be quite boring. haha.
2) mysterious - i think this is attractive LOL. but not act cool PLS
3) humourous - not in a BOOMZ kind of way. i like subtle/witty humour. not ji lame yi xia (shudders)
4) love for nature - HAHAHA ok this is not a criteria but im an environmentalist if you didnt already know.
5) looks? - i'd be lying if i said looks dont matter. but then again, its not the most important. oh and nice hands. hahah =D
6) can sing? or musically inclined so he can teach me.
7) like-mindedness
8) NICE PEARLY TEETH!!! - the only potential bad thing about yamapi is that he doesnt have the nicest teeth. but i can totally live with that!:D

yeah, i can say all i want, but like shota said (he likes girls with dimples btw, I HAVEE!!!! i guess. hahaha), this is just what u think, the actual one who comes along may not be an exact fit, or not even close to it. i can say so coz those guys whom i've liked/am liking are quite the opposite of shy and mysterious. haha.

only shota and yamapi fits the bill now. esp shota! he's really so quiet in interviews - doesnt talk much, but when he does, he always makes everyone laugh. =D haha. yamapi is just COOL lah. sigh...

so what now? im going to fly to japan to just marry them. wait for my good news! LOL.

sian school tmr. i cant believe i spent 2 hours blogging on this? instead of doing internship application (shingz) or readings. :S

professionalism or just plain rude...it's a fine line.

today, i was happily peeping at strangers' smsing on the train again. it's really a joy trust me, especially if they're conversing with their bfs or gfs. :D strange things people say...

anyway, this victim of privacy invasion by me was this guy.... actually i didnt even get a clear look at the msges but im quite sure his friend sent something like "very pek chek (i.e. frustrating)..." there was more but i couldnt read in such a flash. i suppose his friend was complaining about something that he/she could not manage and was most likely looking for some words of encouragement. logically and instinctively, one would just give him/her the satisfaction of some sort of reassurance the person is fishing for. anyway, guess what the guy's reply was?

"Learn to manage." In exact phrasing. i remembered, cos the msg was just this short.

wtf. wtf. -_-"" if i were his friend, i'd beat him into pulp the next time i see him. oooohkay fine it might be a good thing that he's not pretentious or whatever (since i personally do not like people to say things they dont believe in just to make me feel better as well). but at least, have a heart and not be so curt in the delivery.

if there's one thing i cannot stand more, it would be curt replies. thats no doubt one of my biggest pet peeve. seriously, i would rather you have not replied at all. sure beats trying to tolerate your bad moods please. however i know of many many many people who cannot seem to bring over any form of emotion into their texts (wont you agree with me that this happens mostly with guys?), but in real life they're not like that. so its quite strange to me.. haha. so please.... be lively if you ever sms me ok. i will reciprocate i promise!!! seeeeeeeee exclaimation marks! because i've had it with people who acts like i owe them my life or something and i know it doesnt feel great!:D

okay it's raining again.

honestly what is wrong with putting emotions into text messages or emails???? dont you want your smses to shout you? lol. i think i will really struggle to contain my emotions when i try to email at work in the future. haha, i heard from my sis that she stopped trying to be tactful and friendly (she's one of the best people to msg btw) cos noone bothers to do the same. so she hopped on to the "Best Regards" bus and apparently things get done better cos the agenda's set out. sounds bossy, but effective. sighhhh..

what's up with best regards man. why do people even use it. it's the single most pretentious phrase to end off an email with. i could settle for a Thanks!, or cheers... better than this stupid act formal phrase. best regards is literally, a slap to the face. you know what i read when i see that everytime? it practically means heck you can die for all i care.

its just sad that formality is how we judge professionalism to be. come on, its important in the corporate world to establish good relationships and networks. so it's time to introduce some smileys and exclaimations marks and CAPS LOCK if necessary. i will start the trend!:D

ooooh christmas celebration tmr at the finance department. i hope im invited LOL. i wanna win the upapa!!!