oh whats up, so work has started and it's kinda stressful and boring. everyday is a countdown session. haha. but it's alright i guess. time seems to pass by quite fast anyway, it's already nearing the end of 2nd week!
so im constantly tired.
and anyway i feel that im such an evil person to be hoping for something (not entirely good, but frankly actually its all relative cuz it will be THE BEST FOR ME) that i know will happen sooner or later. haha i am just waiting for it to happen.
i am sorry but unlike them, i dont feel any sympathy for you. like i always say, dont take things for granted. personally i dont think you're fit to be with her and isn't it a little too late to shower concern now. used to be so bloody yaya and acting like the ball is in your court with your stupid attitude. shameless. HA. i cant wait for it to explode in your face.
please, stop trying to do nice things for us. some people may be softhearted because of this but i for sure wont. i think it's nothing but a desperate move to retain your position here. i wont buy it, and it just makes me sick to my stomach, if anything. you were never that nice or considerate in the past.
so bugger off. i am loving this. hahahaha. i am evil. ;)
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Thursday, April 1, 2010
the ugly truth
somehow, i really dont like it when people criticise me. or rather, say things about me that isnt entirely a criticism, but could be considered quite embarrassing.
why do people like to do that to others all the time?
of course, like any other, i say mean things about others too. but i believe that i only do that for people who really deserve it. like say, rissy low. i dont think anyone would disagree that all the unpleasant things targeted at her are as a result of her own actions. directly. i really dont badmouth people alot u know.... haha.
so why are people saying stuff like that about me, and sometimes to me in my face (which by the way, is getting abit fat lately lol)? maybe it is all true.... maybe i am really like that. but so what? what warrants you the right to say such a thing. what have i ever done to you all?
really sick of this shit. okay whatever this may make me seem like im a petty or uptight person who cant take a "joke". but really, why do you wanna shake another person's confidence like that. like take for example, why would u wanna tell an ugly person that you feel that he/she is ugly? it's not like that person had gotten into your way or anything right. it's not like they can help how they look like. so shut up about it already.
and of all people, YOU. what the fuck. who the heck are you to say things like that about me. first of all i already dont like you, which i think is pretty obvious judging from the cold replies i give to you all the time. i detest having to face you every single day. my respect for you is non existent, the lack of shame in you is appalling. who on earth takes advantage of other people's hospitality like that, to this extent? and we cant say anything coz i am very sure it will get ugly.
hai i duno. im not feeling so good today.
why do people like to do that to others all the time?
of course, like any other, i say mean things about others too. but i believe that i only do that for people who really deserve it. like say, rissy low. i dont think anyone would disagree that all the unpleasant things targeted at her are as a result of her own actions. directly. i really dont badmouth people alot u know.... haha.
so why are people saying stuff like that about me, and sometimes to me in my face (which by the way, is getting abit fat lately lol)? maybe it is all true.... maybe i am really like that. but so what? what warrants you the right to say such a thing. what have i ever done to you all?
really sick of this shit. okay whatever this may make me seem like im a petty or uptight person who cant take a "joke". but really, why do you wanna shake another person's confidence like that. like take for example, why would u wanna tell an ugly person that you feel that he/she is ugly? it's not like that person had gotten into your way or anything right. it's not like they can help how they look like. so shut up about it already.
and of all people, YOU. what the fuck. who the heck are you to say things like that about me. first of all i already dont like you, which i think is pretty obvious judging from the cold replies i give to you all the time. i detest having to face you every single day. my respect for you is non existent, the lack of shame in you is appalling. who on earth takes advantage of other people's hospitality like that, to this extent? and we cant say anything coz i am very sure it will get ugly.
hai i duno. im not feeling so good today.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
its 4am and there's work tomorrow, i mean later.
i dont feel like going to work later....... bleah
so much to do, school is starting soon!!!! in slightly more than a day. im not done with my revision! haha.. see la, there's no discipline. 1 week is more than enough to read, and re-read, and re-read. too bad i spent the time unwisely.
i just realized, i have a very very very very very bad habit of not replying to smses... even to those that obviously require my reply to, say, a question. erm, sorry!! i didnt use to be like that, my reply used to be INSTANT. haha.
but now if im doing something, (or sometimes nothing at all) i will leave the task of replying to later, and eventually forget all about it. sigh, all my friends dont like to reply smses as well, so perhaps that has rubbed off on me too. ^_^
OH YEAHHHH I FINALLY FOUND SE SUPONE BY LUIS FONSI. his songs are the best. k i just realized that i have more spanish and jap songs on my laptop than all my english songs combined. hahaha. =)
so much to do, school is starting soon!!!! in slightly more than a day. im not done with my revision! haha.. see la, there's no discipline. 1 week is more than enough to read, and re-read, and re-read. too bad i spent the time unwisely.
i just realized, i have a very very very very very bad habit of not replying to smses... even to those that obviously require my reply to, say, a question. erm, sorry!! i didnt use to be like that, my reply used to be INSTANT. haha.
but now if im doing something, (or sometimes nothing at all) i will leave the task of replying to later, and eventually forget all about it. sigh, all my friends dont like to reply smses as well, so perhaps that has rubbed off on me too. ^_^
OH YEAHHHH I FINALLY FOUND SE SUPONE BY LUIS FONSI. his songs are the best. k i just realized that i have more spanish and jap songs on my laptop than all my english songs combined. hahaha. =)
Friday, February 26, 2010
so where do you get your motivation?
it's funny that i still type in the wrong password (because usually philly_sixers is associated with another password for my mails and stuff) whenever i try to access my blog. happens without fail everytime. blame it on the naughty password that i have *stares at joyce*. ;-)
alright, so how's everyone? surviving this crazy semester? im doing great! lol. okay i'm not exactly having alot of fun and am massively behind in terms of academic progress, but i find that im relaxing alot! that's good, right?
i'm looking to get my blackberry soon. slurps. haha. although it's probably just a want rather than a need at this point in time..... but things like this still get me excited.
hmmm, lately i'm feeling so zoned out all the time. i don't really know why, is it due to the fact that i'm always tired? it's a sickness man. haha. probably need to exercise more =) but yeah, it's strange. sometimes i'll just get this out-of-the-world feeling all of a sudden. and i'll be like, "hey, i'm alive! how strange.". as if i'm teleported to this world from...nowhere. it's really difficult to explain, but i'm feeling more and more of it these days. are these signs of ageing? disillusionment? am i approaching closer to death?
i remember eons ago during higher chinese lessons where my teacher was going through some liang shan bo stuff (or was it), and he posed a question that what if dreams, were in fact, reality? and what we think of as reality is nothing more than a dream. haha if so, i gotta say, i have a really boring dream. =p
well, that was really random. i think im reading too much of yamashita's diary on facebook thats why. he's really adorable with all that randomness!! it's just his style... his aura =) oh no, am i going to like every single entry from him? i believe so!!! haha. i just liked another one! it's so funny the way he says it..
lol. madness.
hmmm, sometimes i feel, i'm really not driven enough. and i feel quite guilty whenever i hear my dentist tell me about the achievements of his son, being a councillor, topping the cohort/class, participating in and winning school events, etc etc etc. why has he, at a tender age of 16, been able to achieve so much more than me? i guess we can attribute it to the upbringing. but ultimately, it's nothing more than an excuse.
just where do you get your motivation? and how? i'd really want to know - it's something for me and everyone to think about.
alright, so how's everyone? surviving this crazy semester? im doing great! lol. okay i'm not exactly having alot of fun and am massively behind in terms of academic progress, but i find that im relaxing alot! that's good, right?
i'm looking to get my blackberry soon. slurps. haha. although it's probably just a want rather than a need at this point in time..... but things like this still get me excited.
hmmm, lately i'm feeling so zoned out all the time. i don't really know why, is it due to the fact that i'm always tired? it's a sickness man. haha. probably need to exercise more =) but yeah, it's strange. sometimes i'll just get this out-of-the-world feeling all of a sudden. and i'll be like, "hey, i'm alive! how strange.". as if i'm teleported to this world from...nowhere. it's really difficult to explain, but i'm feeling more and more of it these days. are these signs of ageing? disillusionment? am i approaching closer to death?
i remember eons ago during higher chinese lessons where my teacher was going through some liang shan bo stuff (or was it), and he posed a question that what if dreams, were in fact, reality? and what we think of as reality is nothing more than a dream. haha if so, i gotta say, i have a really boring dream. =p
well, that was really random. i think im reading too much of yamashita's diary on facebook thats why. he's really adorable with all that randomness!! it's just his style... his aura =) oh no, am i going to like every single entry from him? i believe so!!! haha. i just liked another one! it's so funny the way he says it..
lol. madness.
hmmm, sometimes i feel, i'm really not driven enough. and i feel quite guilty whenever i hear my dentist tell me about the achievements of his son, being a councillor, topping the cohort/class, participating in and winning school events, etc etc etc. why has he, at a tender age of 16, been able to achieve so much more than me? i guess we can attribute it to the upbringing. but ultimately, it's nothing more than an excuse.
just where do you get your motivation? and how? i'd really want to know - it's something for me and everyone to think about.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
ohiyo!
haha, despite the really crazy school week i am having now, im still slacking around!
like now, totally enjoying code blue (and yamapi). haha. i just realized, season 2 is really good. better than season one as of now (ep 3). they're following the footsteps of desperate housewives hehe. with narration and a central theme. that somehow makes it quite artistically well done. so yeah! looking forward to more!
but my heart is still made of stone, didnt find any scene particularly touching.. i mean it is. but just not enough to move me to tears.
anw, am taking a rather interesting elective in school now. basically we go there to watch some movies that are seemingly based on science, and then we discuss about the theories behind it - whether its accurate or total bull. haha.
we watched GATTACCA yesterday (by ethan hawke and jude law). quite an old movie.. it is a really good show. havent watched anything like this in awhile. GO WATCH (esp yanling hehe bio student)! it was quite hilarious really... some people OHHHHHHH-ed until so loud when the teacher gave an interesting insight that the title of the movie is made up of CGTA (the nucleotide bases of our DNA).
man, i really really miss biology. I have forgotten most of the concepts actually. gotta dig out my jc notes omg...! the lecturer goes so fast like a choo choo train. she takes one lecture to finish what we would have done in a month. haha. i'm finding it really difficult to understand MEIOSIS omg. but well, it wasnt easy for me during JC either.. haha
like now, totally enjoying code blue (and yamapi). haha. i just realized, season 2 is really good. better than season one as of now (ep 3). they're following the footsteps of desperate housewives hehe. with narration and a central theme. that somehow makes it quite artistically well done. so yeah! looking forward to more!
but my heart is still made of stone, didnt find any scene particularly touching.. i mean it is. but just not enough to move me to tears.
anw, am taking a rather interesting elective in school now. basically we go there to watch some movies that are seemingly based on science, and then we discuss about the theories behind it - whether its accurate or total bull. haha.
we watched GATTACCA yesterday (by ethan hawke and jude law). quite an old movie.. it is a really good show. havent watched anything like this in awhile. GO WATCH (esp yanling hehe bio student)! it was quite hilarious really... some people OHHHHHHH-ed until so loud when the teacher gave an interesting insight that the title of the movie is made up of CGTA (the nucleotide bases of our DNA).
man, i really really miss biology. I have forgotten most of the concepts actually. gotta dig out my jc notes omg...! the lecturer goes so fast like a choo choo train. she takes one lecture to finish what we would have done in a month. haha. i'm finding it really difficult to understand MEIOSIS omg. but well, it wasnt easy for me during JC either.. haha
Monday, January 18, 2010
from failblog.org!!!!
credits to failblog.org. haha. i hope i am not violating any copyright law here, but this is funny!
back from hiatus.. you wanna hear about school or... shuai ges?!!! LOL
....of course not shuai ges from school. HAHA
sigh today's the last day of stoning and whatnot. school's gonna begin for real TMR! sucks. i still cant decide what i should drop. can HR stop bombing me with shit like that? bleargh.
oh well, who needs to hear about school? i'm sure we all have our tough times that we have to deal with. ;) with these difficult moments, i have my dramas (!!!) as a form of escape. actually this is an extremely delayed post that ive been procrastinating (but hey, yeekeong taught me the merits of procrastinating) since the holidays, to the point that my favourite boy has sorta, uh, changed. hees. but you see, better late than never, and i bet NONE OF YOU WILL BE INTERESTED ANYWAY. haha. im so sad that everyone's doubting my taste when it comes to hotties. wah lau eh... come on leh:( i shall try to convince YOU (marketing) that they are indeed, HAWT. or cool.
SHOTA MATSUDA
my first favourite. haha. it all started with the drama "Liar Game", which you all should watch btw! it's damnnnnnnnn nice. and quite hilarious too. altho you would have to deal with irritating cast like toda erika, and basically, everyone else. dont worry akiyama-san totally makes up for it!:D
there's a season 2 but i think that it's not that good.. so far im not really impressed with it. but season 1 is AWESOME. i especially loved the minority rule and ressurection game. really, watch it!
Promo poster for the show. okay first off, i really do not understand why on earth did anyone permit that pic to be the promo pic. i mean, look at shota's HAIR!!! wth. he looks positively ghastly here. :S
much better here!!! haha. btw, he acted as soujirou (xi men) in hana yori dango. he looks great over there!!
of course, not everyone agrees with me (in fact noone did =( ) dammit. haha. my sis says that he looks girly. NO HE DOES NOT. and she kept whispering to me while we were watching Avatar that those american guys are manly. -_-"" lol. sigh, the only thing girly about him is perhaps his weight? coz he's just so so so skinny. (my motivation to slim down eh) but then again, all jap guys are like that - its difficult to find meat on them.
and then, yanling said that he looked creepy. i can see why, cos stupid google decided to post THISSSSSS pic as the second found pic.
..........
they really know how to make him look good. dammit. its like a failed passport photo (just like every other passport sized photo of everyone else). why isnt anyone sued for circulating that pic on the net?
ALL TIME FAVOURITE PIC! pls dont say cos cannot see his face. lol. loving it. =) plus i think he has gentle hands. it sounds weird and sick in a way but its true! LOL. FYI i dont particularly enjoy seeing guys (or girls) with ugly bitten nails. its just a personal preference;)
okay so anyway, ive watched almost every single of his more famous(2007 onwards) drama during this short holiday. but then it started to run out so i turned to...
CODE BLUE. another awesome one btw. basically it's a medical show, which is supposedly kinda sad cos it has a life-and-death theme. but guess what my heart is made of stone so i couldnt really detect the touching moments. hmmm. still, its rather addictive. and meaningful.
and of course, along came YAMAPI aka Yamashita Tomohisa
hohoho. he's a more straightforward kind of hotness that people can accept. i think he looks abit like gatsby. lol. you know, mu chun tuo zai? takuya!! haha. cant believe joyce said he's not hot. *raises eyebrows*
altho, i think he went through alot of changes in his looks. from the cutesy teenager to a matured adult really. and im surprised how his personality changed along with his looks.
young days of his nobuta drama(2006?). lol. i guess thats what we call cute.
and at some point, he became HOT. omg. absssss.. totally the fittest jap guy arnd!:D
wooohooooo in code blue!! Aizawa sinsei. haha. i think he looks best like that. if only his style would just stay this way.
but his stylist decided to CHU STUNT (lol uni lingo once more) and give him a lau kok kok look in code blue 2. i tell you, im literally CRUSHED.
..... not a big fan of this come on. WHY CANT THEY LET THE TAKUYA STYLE REMAIN!!
ahems.
haha. okay im such a fangirl. hehs. last week of "holidays" thats why... i might not have the chance to drama anymore starting next week =( sianz.
but anyway the reason why im doing this post is cos people have been asking me what kind of guys i like. LOL. ooooohkay. whats with this rushing to get me attached ah? *raises eyebrows*
well i can give u a list of criteria that i like (not in any particular order):
1) shy - cos this means he doesnt talk TOO MUCH. narssicism is not what im looking for. but he must be able to carry a conversation, because 2 introverts together can be quite boring. haha.
2) mysterious - i think this is attractive LOL. but not act cool PLS
3) humourous - not in a BOOMZ kind of way. i like subtle/witty humour. not ji lame yi xia (shudders)
4) love for nature - HAHAHA ok this is not a criteria but im an environmentalist if you didnt already know.
5) looks? - i'd be lying if i said looks dont matter. but then again, its not the most important. oh and nice hands. hahah =D
6) can sing? or musically inclined so he can teach me.
7) like-mindedness
8) NICE PEARLY TEETH!!! - the only potential bad thing about yamapi is that he doesnt have the nicest teeth. but i can totally live with that!:D
yeah, i can say all i want, but like shota said (he likes girls with dimples btw, I HAVEE!!!! i guess. hahaha), this is just what u think, the actual one who comes along may not be an exact fit, or not even close to it. i can say so coz those guys whom i've liked/am liking are quite the opposite of shy and mysterious. haha.
only shota and yamapi fits the bill now. esp shota! he's really so quiet in interviews - doesnt talk much, but when he does, he always makes everyone laugh. =D haha. yamapi is just COOL lah. sigh...
so what now? im going to fly to japan to just marry them. wait for my good news! LOL.
sian school tmr. i cant believe i spent 2 hours blogging on this? instead of doing internship application (shingz) or readings. :S
sigh today's the last day of stoning and whatnot. school's gonna begin for real TMR! sucks. i still cant decide what i should drop. can HR stop bombing me with shit like that? bleargh.
oh well, who needs to hear about school? i'm sure we all have our tough times that we have to deal with. ;) with these difficult moments, i have my dramas (!!!) as a form of escape. actually this is an extremely delayed post that ive been procrastinating (but hey, yeekeong taught me the merits of procrastinating) since the holidays, to the point that my favourite boy has sorta, uh, changed. hees. but you see, better late than never, and i bet NONE OF YOU WILL BE INTERESTED ANYWAY. haha. im so sad that everyone's doubting my taste when it comes to hotties. wah lau eh... come on leh:( i shall try to convince YOU (marketing) that they are indeed, HAWT. or cool.
SHOTA MATSUDA
my first favourite. haha. it all started with the drama "Liar Game", which you all should watch btw! it's damnnnnnnnn nice. and quite hilarious too. altho you would have to deal with irritating cast like toda erika, and basically, everyone else. dont worry akiyama-san totally makes up for it!:D
there's a season 2 but i think that it's not that good.. so far im not really impressed with it. but season 1 is AWESOME. i especially loved the minority rule and ressurection game. really, watch it!
Promo poster for the show. okay first off, i really do not understand why on earth did anyone permit that pic to be the promo pic. i mean, look at shota's HAIR!!! wth. he looks positively ghastly here. :S
much better here!!! haha. btw, he acted as soujirou (xi men) in hana yori dango. he looks great over there!!
of course, not everyone agrees with me (in fact noone did =( ) dammit. haha. my sis says that he looks girly. NO HE DOES NOT. and she kept whispering to me while we were watching Avatar that those american guys are manly. -_-"" lol. sigh, the only thing girly about him is perhaps his weight? coz he's just so so so skinny. (my motivation to slim down eh) but then again, all jap guys are like that - its difficult to find meat on them.
and then, yanling said that he looked creepy. i can see why, cos stupid google decided to post THISSSSSS pic as the second found pic.
..........
they really know how to make him look good. dammit. its like a failed passport photo (just like every other passport sized photo of everyone else). why isnt anyone sued for circulating that pic on the net?
ALL TIME FAVOURITE PIC! pls dont say cos cannot see his face. lol. loving it. =) plus i think he has gentle hands. it sounds weird and sick in a way but its true! LOL. FYI i dont particularly enjoy seeing guys (or girls) with ugly bitten nails. its just a personal preference;)
okay so anyway, ive watched almost every single of his more famous(2007 onwards) drama during this short holiday. but then it started to run out so i turned to...
CODE BLUE. another awesome one btw. basically it's a medical show, which is supposedly kinda sad cos it has a life-and-death theme. but guess what my heart is made of stone so i couldnt really detect the touching moments. hmmm. still, its rather addictive. and meaningful.
and of course, along came YAMAPI aka Yamashita Tomohisa
hohoho. he's a more straightforward kind of hotness that people can accept. i think he looks abit like gatsby. lol. you know, mu chun tuo zai? takuya!! haha. cant believe joyce said he's not hot. *raises eyebrows*
altho, i think he went through alot of changes in his looks. from the cutesy teenager to a matured adult really. and im surprised how his personality changed along with his looks.
young days of his nobuta drama(2006?). lol. i guess thats what we call cute.
and at some point, he became HOT. omg. absssss.. totally the fittest jap guy arnd!:D
wooohooooo in code blue!! Aizawa sinsei. haha. i think he looks best like that. if only his style would just stay this way.
but his stylist decided to CHU STUNT (lol uni lingo once more) and give him a lau kok kok look in code blue 2. i tell you, im literally CRUSHED.
..... not a big fan of this come on. WHY CANT THEY LET THE TAKUYA STYLE REMAIN!!
ahems.
haha. okay im such a fangirl. hehs. last week of "holidays" thats why... i might not have the chance to drama anymore starting next week =( sianz.
but anyway the reason why im doing this post is cos people have been asking me what kind of guys i like. LOL. ooooohkay. whats with this rushing to get me attached ah? *raises eyebrows*
well i can give u a list of criteria that i like (not in any particular order):
1) shy - cos this means he doesnt talk TOO MUCH. narssicism is not what im looking for. but he must be able to carry a conversation, because 2 introverts together can be quite boring. haha.
2) mysterious - i think this is attractive LOL. but not act cool PLS
3) humourous - not in a BOOMZ kind of way. i like subtle/witty humour. not ji lame yi xia (shudders)
4) love for nature - HAHAHA ok this is not a criteria but im an environmentalist if you didnt already know.
5) looks? - i'd be lying if i said looks dont matter. but then again, its not the most important. oh and nice hands. hahah =D
6) can sing? or musically inclined so he can teach me.
7) like-mindedness
8) NICE PEARLY TEETH!!! - the only potential bad thing about yamapi is that he doesnt have the nicest teeth. but i can totally live with that!:D
yeah, i can say all i want, but like shota said (he likes girls with dimples btw, I HAVEE!!!! i guess. hahaha), this is just what u think, the actual one who comes along may not be an exact fit, or not even close to it. i can say so coz those guys whom i've liked/am liking are quite the opposite of shy and mysterious. haha.
only shota and yamapi fits the bill now. esp shota! he's really so quiet in interviews - doesnt talk much, but when he does, he always makes everyone laugh. =D haha. yamapi is just COOL lah. sigh...
so what now? im going to fly to japan to just marry them. wait for my good news! LOL.
sian school tmr. i cant believe i spent 2 hours blogging on this? instead of doing internship application (shingz) or readings. :S
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