Friday, February 26, 2010

so where do you get your motivation?

it's funny that i still type in the wrong password (because usually philly_sixers is associated with another password for my mails and stuff) whenever i try to access my blog. happens without fail everytime. blame it on the naughty password that i have *stares at joyce*. ;-)

alright, so how's everyone? surviving this crazy semester? im doing great! lol. okay i'm not exactly having alot of fun and am massively behind in terms of academic progress, but i find that im relaxing alot! that's good, right?

i'm looking to get my blackberry soon. slurps. haha. although it's probably just a want rather than a need at this point in time..... but things like this still get me excited.

hmmm, lately i'm feeling so zoned out all the time. i don't really know why, is it due to the fact that i'm always tired? it's a sickness man. haha. probably need to exercise more =) but yeah, it's strange. sometimes i'll just get this out-of-the-world feeling all of a sudden. and i'll be like, "hey, i'm alive! how strange.". as if i'm teleported to this world from...nowhere. it's really difficult to explain, but i'm feeling more and more of it these days. are these signs of ageing? disillusionment? am i approaching closer to death?

i remember eons ago during higher chinese lessons where my teacher was going through some liang shan bo stuff (or was it), and he posed a question that what if dreams, were in fact, reality? and what we think of as reality is nothing more than a dream. haha if so, i gotta say, i have a really boring dream. =p

well, that was really random. i think im reading too much of yamashita's diary on facebook thats why. he's really adorable with all that randomness!! it's just his style... his aura =) oh no, am i going to like every single entry from him? i believe so!!! haha. i just liked another one! it's so funny the way he says it..

lol. madness.

hmmm, sometimes i feel, i'm really not driven enough. and i feel quite guilty whenever i hear my dentist tell me about the achievements of his son, being a councillor, topping the cohort/class, participating in and winning school events, etc etc etc. why has he, at a tender age of 16, been able to achieve so much more than me? i guess we can attribute it to the upbringing. but ultimately, it's nothing more than an excuse.

just where do you get your motivation? and how? i'd really want to know - it's something for me and everyone to think about.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

ohiyo!

haha, despite the really crazy school week i am having now, im still slacking around!

like now, totally enjoying code blue (and yamapi). haha. i just realized, season 2 is really good. better than season one as of now (ep 3). they're following the footsteps of desperate housewives hehe. with narration and a central theme. that somehow makes it quite artistically well done. so yeah! looking forward to more!

but my heart is still made of stone, didnt find any scene particularly touching.. i mean it is. but just not enough to move me to tears.

anw, am taking a rather interesting elective in school now. basically we go there to watch some movies that are seemingly based on science, and then we discuss about the theories behind it - whether its accurate or total bull. haha.

we watched GATTACCA yesterday (by ethan hawke and jude law). quite an old movie.. it is a really good show. havent watched anything like this in awhile. GO WATCH (esp yanling hehe bio student)! it was quite hilarious really... some people OHHHHHHH-ed until so loud when the teacher gave an interesting insight that the title of the movie is made up of CGTA (the nucleotide bases of our DNA).

man, i really really miss biology. I have forgotten most of the concepts actually. gotta dig out my jc notes omg...! the lecturer goes so fast like a choo choo train. she takes one lecture to finish what we would have done in a month. haha. i'm finding it really difficult to understand MEIOSIS omg. but well, it wasnt easy for me during JC either.. haha

Monday, January 18, 2010

from failblog.org!!!!


credits to failblog.org. haha. i hope i am not violating any copyright law here, but this is funny!

back from hiatus.. you wanna hear about school or... shuai ges?!!! LOL

....of course not shuai ges from school. HAHA

sigh today's the last day of stoning and whatnot. school's gonna begin for real TMR! sucks. i still cant decide what i should drop. can HR stop bombing me with shit like that? bleargh.

oh well, who needs to hear about school? i'm sure we all have our tough times that we have to deal with. ;) with these difficult moments, i have my dramas (!!!) as a form of escape. actually this is an extremely delayed post that ive been procrastinating (but hey, yeekeong taught me the merits of procrastinating) since the holidays, to the point that my favourite boy has sorta, uh, changed. hees. but you see, better late than never, and i bet NONE OF YOU WILL BE INTERESTED ANYWAY. haha. im so sad that everyone's doubting my taste when it comes to hotties. wah lau eh... come on leh:( i shall try to convince YOU (marketing) that they are indeed, HAWT. or cool.

SHOTA MATSUDA

my first favourite. haha. it all started with the drama "Liar Game", which you all should watch btw! it's damnnnnnnnn nice. and quite hilarious too. altho you would have to deal with irritating cast like toda erika, and basically, everyone else. dont worry akiyama-san totally makes up for it!:D

there's a season 2 but i think that it's not that good.. so far im not really impressed with it. but season 1 is AWESOME. i especially loved the minority rule and ressurection game. really, watch it!


Promo poster for the show. okay first off, i really do not understand why on earth did anyone permit that pic to be the promo pic. i mean, look at shota's HAIR!!! wth. he looks positively ghastly here. :S


much better here!!! haha. btw, he acted as soujirou (xi men) in hana yori dango. he looks great over there!!

of course, not everyone agrees with me (in fact noone did =( ) dammit. haha. my sis says that he looks girly. NO HE DOES NOT. and she kept whispering to me while we were watching Avatar that those american guys are manly. -_-"" lol. sigh, the only thing girly about him is perhaps his weight? coz he's just so so so skinny. (my motivation to slim down eh) but then again, all jap guys are like that - its difficult to find meat on them.

and then, yanling said that he looked creepy. i can see why, cos stupid google decided to post THISSSSSS pic as the second found pic.


..........

they really know how to make him look good. dammit. its like a failed passport photo (just like every other passport sized photo of everyone else). why isnt anyone sued for circulating that pic on the net?


ALL TIME FAVOURITE PIC! pls dont say cos cannot see his face. lol. loving it. =) plus i think he has gentle hands. it sounds weird and sick in a way but its true! LOL. FYI i dont particularly enjoy seeing guys (or girls) with ugly bitten nails. its just a personal preference;)

okay so anyway, ive watched almost every single of his more famous(2007 onwards) drama during this short holiday. but then it started to run out so i turned to...

CODE BLUE. another awesome one btw. basically it's a medical show, which is supposedly kinda sad cos it has a life-and-death theme. but guess what my heart is made of stone so i couldnt really detect the touching moments. hmmm. still, its rather addictive. and meaningful.

and of course, along came YAMAPI aka Yamashita Tomohisa

hohoho. he's a more straightforward kind of hotness that people can accept. i think he looks abit like gatsby. lol. you know, mu chun tuo zai? takuya!! haha. cant believe joyce said he's not hot. *raises eyebrows*

altho, i think he went through alot of changes in his looks. from the cutesy teenager to a matured adult really. and im surprised how his personality changed along with his looks.


young days of his nobuta drama(2006?). lol. i guess thats what we call cute.


and at some point, he became HOT. omg. absssss.. totally the fittest jap guy arnd!:D


wooohooooo in code blue!! Aizawa sinsei. haha. i think he looks best like that. if only his style would just stay this way.

but his stylist decided to CHU STUNT (lol uni lingo once more) and give him a lau kok kok look in code blue 2. i tell you, im literally CRUSHED.


..... not a big fan of this come on. WHY CANT THEY LET THE TAKUYA STYLE REMAIN!!

ahems.

haha. okay im such a fangirl. hehs. last week of "holidays" thats why... i might not have the chance to drama anymore starting next week =( sianz.

but anyway the reason why im doing this post is cos people have been asking me what kind of guys i like. LOL. ooooohkay. whats with this rushing to get me attached ah? *raises eyebrows*

well i can give u a list of criteria that i like (not in any particular order):
1) shy - cos this means he doesnt talk TOO MUCH. narssicism is not what im looking for. but he must be able to carry a conversation, because 2 introverts together can be quite boring. haha.
2) mysterious - i think this is attractive LOL. but not act cool PLS
3) humourous - not in a BOOMZ kind of way. i like subtle/witty humour. not ji lame yi xia (shudders)
4) love for nature - HAHAHA ok this is not a criteria but im an environmentalist if you didnt already know.
5) looks? - i'd be lying if i said looks dont matter. but then again, its not the most important. oh and nice hands. hahah =D
6) can sing? or musically inclined so he can teach me.
7) like-mindedness
8) NICE PEARLY TEETH!!! - the only potential bad thing about yamapi is that he doesnt have the nicest teeth. but i can totally live with that!:D

yeah, i can say all i want, but like shota said (he likes girls with dimples btw, I HAVEE!!!! i guess. hahaha), this is just what u think, the actual one who comes along may not be an exact fit, or not even close to it. i can say so coz those guys whom i've liked/am liking are quite the opposite of shy and mysterious. haha.

only shota and yamapi fits the bill now. esp shota! he's really so quiet in interviews - doesnt talk much, but when he does, he always makes everyone laugh. =D haha. yamapi is just COOL lah. sigh...

so what now? im going to fly to japan to just marry them. wait for my good news! LOL.

sian school tmr. i cant believe i spent 2 hours blogging on this? instead of doing internship application (shingz) or readings. :S

Monday, December 21, 2009

professionalism or just plain rude...it's a fine line.

today, i was happily peeping at strangers' smsing on the train again. it's really a joy trust me, especially if they're conversing with their bfs or gfs. :D strange things people say...

anyway, this victim of privacy invasion by me was this guy.... actually i didnt even get a clear look at the msges but im quite sure his friend sent something like "very pek chek (i.e. frustrating)..." there was more but i couldnt read in such a flash. i suppose his friend was complaining about something that he/she could not manage and was most likely looking for some words of encouragement. logically and instinctively, one would just give him/her the satisfaction of some sort of reassurance the person is fishing for. anyway, guess what the guy's reply was?

"Learn to manage." In exact phrasing. i remembered, cos the msg was just this short.

wtf. wtf. -_-"" if i were his friend, i'd beat him into pulp the next time i see him. oooohkay fine it might be a good thing that he's not pretentious or whatever (since i personally do not like people to say things they dont believe in just to make me feel better as well). but at least, have a heart and not be so curt in the delivery.

if there's one thing i cannot stand more, it would be curt replies. thats no doubt one of my biggest pet peeve. seriously, i would rather you have not replied at all. sure beats trying to tolerate your bad moods please. however i know of many many many people who cannot seem to bring over any form of emotion into their texts (wont you agree with me that this happens mostly with guys?), but in real life they're not like that. so its quite strange to me.. haha. so please.... be lively if you ever sms me ok. i will reciprocate i promise!!! seeeeeeeee exclaimation marks! because i've had it with people who acts like i owe them my life or something and i know it doesnt feel great!:D

okay it's raining again.

honestly what is wrong with putting emotions into text messages or emails???? dont you want your smses to shout you? lol. i think i will really struggle to contain my emotions when i try to email at work in the future. haha, i heard from my sis that she stopped trying to be tactful and friendly (she's one of the best people to msg btw) cos noone bothers to do the same. so she hopped on to the "Best Regards" bus and apparently things get done better cos the agenda's set out. sounds bossy, but effective. sighhhh..

what's up with best regards man. why do people even use it. it's the single most pretentious phrase to end off an email with. i could settle for a Thanks!, or cheers... better than this stupid act formal phrase. best regards is literally, a slap to the face. you know what i read when i see that everytime? it practically means heck you can die for all i care.

its just sad that formality is how we judge professionalism to be. come on, its important in the corporate world to establish good relationships and networks. so it's time to introduce some smileys and exclaimations marks and CAPS LOCK if necessary. i will start the trend!:D

ooooh christmas celebration tmr at the finance department. i hope im invited LOL. i wanna win the upapa!!!

Saturday, December 5, 2009

random thoughts from work

in case you guys dont know that im back in the working world.. well, i am. haha. back to the data entry days and the nostalgic feeling of dreading every work day, not wanting to go to bed cos you know when u wake up its time for work again.

oh well, everything is a new learning experience. a good exposure. 4 days in, here are some random stuff to share, in point form so as to be abit more light hearted and not too lengthy

1. i reaaaaally dont wanna lose my eyes to the computer

2. i might develop an accent soon.... with prolonged exposure to all the expats in the firm. would be better if i could talk to them... but i dont. lol

3. it's impossible for HR to be strategic... at least not right now. what was BH226 about again?

4. why are old ladies in a particular department especially (guess which one!!) grumpy?

5. i eavesdrop on every conversation that reaches my ears, big and small. they entertain me.

6. it feels weird typing on my nice keyboard after using the laupok compaq laptop for a week

7. it sucks to be part of the morning rush. AND evening peak hour period.

8. i've renewed, actually no... more like intensified my hobby of peeping at strangers smsing on the train. especially appreciative of sony ericsson phone users. *likes* not much to do on the train....

9. i have a favourite toilet in the office. there are only 2 cubicles, but somehow i always have to go to that particular cubicle because the other one is occupied. i guess it likes me too :)

10. some office people are really quite pretentious.

11. they speak to measley employees (i dont mean myself cos im just too harmless) in the tone that will kill, but a totally opposite behaviour towards the boss or other expats. they are like puppies. tsktsk. barks.

shit im feeling so bitchy/gossippy today. spent over an hour talking bad about celebrities :( thanks to mr shawn ng HF. tsktsk. he's a gossip boy (who watches gossip girls) lah seriously. and YAY i found a potential buddy at work! woohoo. so happie.

hopefully tomorrow iluma wont be packed! altho most likely yes according to mervin. session tomorrow with him muaha. omg turning into a gaming addict or some sort. haiyo.

Friday, November 27, 2009

And the good thing about exam is.....

A simple 'jiayou for your exams' turned fun and hilarious outing. I like...:D one of the best days in recent hair pulling extravaganza. Looking forward to more of such spontaneous sessions! It's good talking to you again:) haha. But anyway it's back to reality. HR exams on monday, seriously what is there to learn? Ugh I miss Spanish lessons, at least they were actually useful. And fun. Oh well, certificate speaks. Back to my books. Does anyone know how to press enter on iPod touch rah!!!

Hmmm. You know right, some 'friends' are really damn thick skin. Always coming to you when they need help and leaving you to die when they have better things going on in their lives is not cool man. I tell myself, let's not be too calculative here. But it's just too sick. Strangely enough, they are aplenty. I hope I'm not like that. Am I?

The other day I saw how he takes such good care of his bros, and I saw his younger brother holding the youngest brother hand. Omg that scene is simply heartwarming. Good thing my sis treats me well too! Haha :)