Don't like it? Beat it!

Just stop it seriously...

2011-05-09T02:28:00.004+08:00

GE fever taken too far - it's a day later already and everyone is STILL talking about it. Please just stop it man... Get over it.

Just so annoyed at everyone's posts/comments. I have the tendency to be an "opposition" myself so might I say everyone who is blindly voicing out what needs to be done consider the feasibility of your ideas. Firstly, petitioning for a by-election - Persuant to Section 49, Sub Section 70, Paragraph A of the Parliamentary Act, Mr Yam has already declared those elected into the Parliarment. Please just respect that - anyway those were the choices of the people what. Isnt this what democracy is all about? Majority rules. Even if just by a hundred over votes (actually I'm not sure cuz I simply can't be bothered). The people in the ward have decided who they want as representatives of their area, so just let them live with their decision, be it good or bad. What gives everyone else from every other area who are just merely plain pro-opposition the right to join in the fun and do a "petition"?

Come on man.

I know I sound super pro-government, but in fact I'm not. I'm neither. I'm as apathetic as it gets... as previously mentioned. Just that it is impossible to just be in your own world living a blissful ignorant life now when everyone is forcing their opinions into your face.. Maybe I should quit social media.......... Life was much simpler when I adamantly refused to open a facebook account (yanling are you reading this? haha. and what happened to your blog!).

Secondly - TPL issue. Okay seriously why is everyone finding fault in her? I really really don't get it. What's with all the "I don't want TPL in paliarment" sentiments? For this I strongly strongly agree with xiaxue's recent blog post. You don't want her, then who do you want? Discount Nicole - would anyone be able to name the other 4 MPs from NSP? (Other than that dude singled out as the weakest by xiaxue hehe). For sure I won't be able to. I haven't even heard their voices at all the entire time. It was all Nicole talking.

Actually I can't name the people in TPL's team as well hahaha but at least I know there's SM Goh inside, someone who has done his part in shaping our country to what it is today. So you'll rather sacrifice him for another party (with quite frankly low credentials) to be in the GRC? It's not easy leading an entire GRC yeah. One may be superb leading an SMC when you can devote all resources into one area, whereas you're playing a totally different ball game in GRC. I don't know man, to me it seems really childish to just disregard a good team just cause of superficial issues like this. I'm sure TPL has her capabilities too, since she is an auditor (comeon man I GOTTA give credit for that. Aren't auditors good at planning, calculating, and whatnot).

Remember, GE is not a popularity contest - we can always tune in to Singapore Idol for that. We need a country to be well run, and for that to happen we have to get the best people. Sorry but this is just life.

By the by on the side note, God knows what will happen if Singapore moves towards the welfare system direction. Next time you are going to be screaming more when you find out that all your taxes are being channeled towards helping people who don't wanna work cuz of excessive dependence. You wanna get a better life? Work for it man. Like how I'm gonna be working like a dog in 5 month's time for that amount of pay......... :(

And for those who keep saying they wanna replace TPL for GY.. As attractive as it sounds... sadly I don't think that will happen. So please again, stop suggesting that. Otherwise, wouldn't it trivialize the whole GE system? Like you can suka suka do whatever the hell you want.

Don't hate me, you have your own opinions and I have mine. I'm just choosing to take a more logical viewpoint. And I'm so sick of listening to all the angry people's voices (so tired of it!!!) that I have to retreat to this little blog I have to dispel all annoyance. Hopefully nobody I don't know will ever read it, but to those select few who have my blog address, I am quite sure they will agree with what I've said. I'm really so glad that there are still people whom I can identify with. =)

GE 2011 is over, so let's just take a chill pill and be as apathetic as before okay? We'll see what PAP will provide us (I'm sure they would have gotten a strong wake-up call just like in the early 90's) in the coming years, and if we're not happy, we can scream again in the next elections alright?

General Election fever

2011-04-30T21:05:00.003+08:00

It's that once every five year period again, but somehow, this year's general elections seems to be the talk of the town. I duno if it's because we've reached the age where such things start to matter to us, or if it's simply propagated by the social media. Every status update is about GE, every post is about GE.

Nobody used to care about such things, but now, you're almost considered backdated if you dont at least talk about it. And so, I shall try and be in the loop just this once. But very frankly, I'm still that politically apathetic person that I was since the beginning of time.

I don;t really wanna air too much of my views on the internet (afterall, it is still very unsafe to do so, say the wrong thing and you are doomed). But I just have a burning question - is everyone just so pro-opposition because they truly feel that they have the capability to lead and change our lives for the better, or is it just a very fashionable thing to do so? I mean, I'm no political follower, I'm no economic expert, but the policies that they propose are simply out of the world. And people just buy it because it SEEMS good in the short run. Note, seems. Risking social problems from immediate gratification is no good. The world is already as screwed as it is, thank you very much.

If these policies are really that good, don't you think the current government had already thought of that, probably debated to hell with it, and decided that it's simply infeasible?? I mean seriously..... Although I would really love for my pay to rise........ But what's the use if inflation is just going to hit us more than ever and offset the benefits of "pay rise".

Next, simply raising issues is not going to make Singapore a better place. Stop telling us what we already know - I know about the MRT squeeze - I feel it everytime I travel during peak hours. What we need is solutions. So far I'm not hearing any yet, other than vague proposals here and there. Don't even get me started on the "solutions" that will simply bring about more problems (see above).

But anyway, I'm so sick of all this. May the 7th be over and done with soon (yippie audit exam on that day too). Remember, your vote is a SECRET so please stop posting your views all over on facebook. haha.

yabai~

2011-02-26T12:26:00.003+08:00

This is bad, week 6 is coming and I'm acting as though I'm on holiday. Whenever I'm free I'll start idling around and stream variety shows, and whenever I'm burdened by projects or school work I escape reality like a 7 year old and still idle around and stream variety shows.

Yabai.

And it's not as though my workload is as chill as a normal year 3 sem 2 accountancy student with probably 2 cores and some electives. I'm taking 4 cores and all are not easy. I'm lost in every class and piled up 5 weeks of readings for every module.

Yabai.

hahaha. Oh well, life still goes on. Hopefully I will find enough motivation to properly think of points for my group presentation on Monday. Yawns. I seriously hate HR courses. hate. People ask me, why do I take it or continue with it. My reply has always been standard - since I've already cleared 3 out of 5, I might as well just go on with it and graduate with a second specialization. But lately I have been unable to convince myself with this argument. It would have been more valid if I don't suck at all the HR modules. All they did were to pull my GPA down. If I hadn't taken it in the first place, I seriously think I might manage a first class honours, or at least a high second upper (I;m not bragging, I;m just lamenting) quite comfortably.

Sucks........

And not to mention my ear has been giving me lots of trouble lately. Started off with earwax buildup at the end of last year.... Then midway through it started bleeding... Then it became well after medication and subsequently the doctor flushed out the gooey wax (ew) out. Lately this earblock returned again. And it's now become a full blown ear infection + pus discharge (double ew), which I believe has been there since the time it started bleeding. That led me to think of how much information assymetry a doctor and a patient has, and how helpless we are to have to trust everything a doctor says. After so many trips to the clinic, I believe one or two of them are telling me bullshit. What are the right questions to ask?

Anw, if it doesnt heal up by this week I guess I would probably have to be referred to a hospital. Oh well, on medication now and I hope it will stop bothering me ever again. Keeps fingers crossed!

Everything you might want to know about Malaysian Citizenship Renunciation, or Minor Oath Taking

2011-02-15T23:13:00.009+08:00

In my bid to become a kinder and more helpful individual come year 2011, I've decided to document my experience of the loooooong process of Minor Oath taking in gory detail, so as to serve as an info guide to help out anyone at all who happens to be googling desperately just like i did a month ago. Cuz I can understand how it is like to be clueless and unmotivated, help from veterans surely does help.

Anyway, amongst all the lucky Singaporeans, there are people like me - who are Singaporeans by registration. Although I may have been born in Singapore, by law, I had to follow the citizenship of my parents, who were then still Malaysians. It was only when I was about 7 or 8 when my parents decided to renounce their Malaysian citizenships and become full fledge Singaporeans. To cut the story short, although I had already renounced my M'sian citizenship back then together with my parents, being a minor, I guess it wasnt really counted as official. So now, at 21, I had to re-renounce (heh) my Msian citizenship, as well as to confirm my loyalty and pledge my allegiance to Singapore. We have a year to do so btw, and normally I would have done some serious last minute work but because my passport had expired and you couldn't renew your passport without taking the oath, I was forced to do everything up early in order to get it ready to book tickets for my grad trip (YAY).

Disclaimer: Information applicable as at Jan2011. It may change as time goes by....

Step 1: Renouncing your Msian citizenship!!! (i.e. Doing up what they call Borang/Form K)

Documents needed:
(please see http://www.kln.gov.my/c/document_library/get_file?p_l_id=245759&folderId=573173&name=DLFE-6212.htm)

ALL requires original plus 2 photocopies
i. Letter of approval from the Singapore Registrar of Citizens and ICA (i.e. the letter they mailed you to tell you to take the oath)
ii. Malaysian identity card (if any)
iii. Singapore pink/blue identity card
iv. Malaysian Restricted and International passport(including expired & cancelled passports)
v. Malaysia/Singapore birth certificate
vi. Borang W (i.e. Msian citizenship cert if you are holding singapore birth cert)
vii. Two photographs + 10SGD fee
viii. Some renunciation letter you received if you had renounced ur Msian citizenship previously. But somehow I didn't have that letter and I insisted I couldnt produce it. Thankfully the person let me off the hook, phew. Would be good to bring it.

please see the link above for full info. It says that you need photocopies of some of your parent's essential documents as well. But somehow....they didn't ask me for it. So I guess there isn't a real need..... But you'll never know right, so it would be good to have it ready first. Photocopying services there at the embassy rips people off by the way!!! 20cents (or was it 40??) per piece, are you kidding me? Okay, so armed with all your documents, you may stroll down to the Malaysian Embassy located at Jervois Road (you can take bus 32 from the nearest busstop you see when you exit redhill mrt station) to get it all done up! Contrary to some of the older information I had read in the blogs when I was doing research, the efficiency at the embassy is surprisingly good. So good in fact. haha

1) There's no need to schedule appointments at all! Apparently you had to do so last time just to submit your forms but it is really so efficient now you can definitely do so on the same day. I didn't even see the need to go down EXTREMELY early at the opening hour... Just be there early enough in order to fill up and submit all the forms by 11am. Filling up of forms should take you about an hour or so..

2) After submission, you'll pay your 10SGD processing fee, and after which they would issue you a collection slip to tell you to return to the embassy - I think 3 working days later, to collect your renunciation memo, which is basically an application-in-progress letter to let ICA know that you have submitted an application for renunciation, but the process hasnt been completed yet. Cuz the whole process takes about a year, they will only mail you the original Form K in a year's time if I'm not wrong. Anyway, note that collection time is only between 2:30pm and 3:30pm. This memo is very important because you gotta bring it to take your oath. =)

Step 2: Halfway there - Oath taking!!!!!!

The oath taking process is definitely much more straightforward and don't require much explanation. With your renunciation memo at hand you can once again take a leisurely stroll to ICA for oath taking. Bring along your IC, Singapore Citizenship Cert and the oath form as well. Just head up to 6th level and get a queue number for Oath taking. Before you know it, you are already a true blue Singaporean.

Step 3: Renew your passport!!!!!!

After oath taking you can just head down to the ICA lobby area at level one to remake your passport. Submit an application the usual way, just remember to attach a photocopy of your Singaporean citizenship Cert (front and back) to the back of the passport app form, because they will attach some documentary proof of your oath taking on ur citizenship cert. so yeah... patiently await for the passport collection slip to be mailed to you - mine did yesterday and I will be collecting my passport tomorrow! yahooo..

Haha, so as you can see, the whole process seriously doesn't take very long. Getting everything done within 2 weeks is definitely a possibility. Mine took slightly longer - all in about 3 weeks cuz of all the chinese new year fuss and also because I could only go down on wednesdays due to classes... But yea, moral of the story is, DONT PROCRASTINATE!!!!

Don't miss your oath taking because if you don't do so within a year you WILL lose your SG citizenship. No such thing as rescheduling another oath date I can guarantee you that. So don't sit around too long, get it done!

zombie

2011-01-04T20:50:00.003+08:00

Hmmmm, am I really the type who can't take criticisms?

I wonder....

I will usually not criticise someone or something if I know that he/she/it is very well liked by my friends, even if i have strong feelings of dislike towards him/her/it. Afterall, you wont die by keeping your mouth shut.

Yet........ this makes me seem a little fake? I wonder.

But recently people have been expressing their ill opinions (which frankly, I don't care) about things or people that I like in my face. I know you are entitled to your opinions however bad they are, but I am as well, so please don't drown mine with yours.

You have the freedom to like whatever you want. You have the freedom to dislike whatever you want. Just don't superimpose them onto mine.

Just thought you should know.

All the petty thoughts aside, happy new year! 2011, yoroshiku onegaishimasu!

yamashita part 2

2010-08-09T20:09:00.012+08:00

Remember i ended off last entry with Yamapi, quickly do something interesting? Well, he has!! Showing off skin is definitely the way to go. yummy.

Let me start off with some older pics of him i have:

I think it should be in 2007, during his Pro Dai period. With proper cheeks. :D

Mid 2008... during Code Blue period. Look at the abs......altho most would divert their eyes to his chest, and call them moobs.

-_-"""

Calling them moobs certainly piss me off really bad. Because from my understanding, I believe it is a term used to describe fat men who have...well, boobies. I remember referring to one particular PE teacher of AJC that (GUESS WHO???? *coughs*ART**R L*M*coughs*) But usually I dont refute to that cuz it seems that fangirls are always gushing about yamapi's "moobs". so I thought. oh okay.

But recently, I'm finding it more and more odd, and am uncomfortable with that. So to satisfy my OCD tendencies, I went to google moobs to settle this internal argument once and for all. Haha. Here's a few hits I got:

"A combination of the words "man" and "boobs." This is what happens when fat gathers in a male's chest area, and gives him the appearance of having breasts. Usually seen in overweight males"
"Male Breasts,large in the cheast area not in the musculatory sense."

So there you go. I've had it with those comments. People should really find out what they're saying before they do... Not just in this sense but in life, in general. If you go around shooting your mouth in front of the wrong crowd, there's gonna be hell to pay. =)

Anyway, and then in beginning 2010 he became so skinny :(

.....Something like this. I was going to petition to force feed him.

But fastforward a few months after Ashita no Joe filming. Now he's sizzzzzzzzling. (With nice hair too) HAHAHA. Still skinny with even more sunken cheeks :( ....but wont you look at his biceps! So toned and tanned. AHHHHH hugs.

Armsarmsarmsarmsarmsarms... From the latest magazine scans. Haha... So this is actually the motive of today's entry.

ENJOY!!!!!! hahahaha. TAKE OFF THE SINGLET!

Still dare to call him puny, Joyce Winchester???? :P

i really hate it when....

2010-08-06T15:35:00.006+08:00

....... people add a question mark to their statement in answer to my question.

Increasingly, this has become one of my pet peeves. Just because i think it makes me sound like I'm dumb or something. I'm not asking a stupid question!!!!

Just a random example conjured out of nowhere (any similarities to real people are purely coincidental and unintended):

Say if you tell me all the work that you have completed is gone now. Out of curiosity i ask "Oh, how come?" and the response you give goes along the line of "Because my computer spoilt??"

........Nabei. How the hell would I know your computer spoilt or the nitty gritty things that go on in your life. I'm sure no one would know that the reason for my sleepiness these days is due to late night drama-ing and insomnia if I dont announce it right?

Dont you think a questioning response like this makes you feel like your level of intelligence is zero, for not knowing something so obvious. I'm sure this may just be a habit to some, and they do not exactly have that kind of malice in mind when they said it. But certainly it is really annoying to people like me who reads alot into things.

Makes me wonder, why can't people just answer to a question the way questions should be answered. Drop the question mark if you are typing (saves ur fingers' effort to try and type it anyway), or drop the questioning tone if you are talking.

So this is the #102919008017091 in my list of pet peeves. Along with curt sms responses if you still remember. Or being late (I HATE waiting)...... Just to name a few.

Guess I'm forever complaining. But with criticism comes improvement!!! <--- Totally made this words of wisdom up myself. HAHAHA.

Now that I have no dramas that I am dying to watch, I'm watching variety shows instead. Truly. The. Best. Thing......EVER!!! hahaha. I am beginning to be so intrigued and impressed by GACKT san, it's an unhealthy obsession. wahahha. He's such a genius. Master of so many languages, musical instruments, with an amazing voice. *fawns over* But really, when I see people always giving their all in the work they do, it makes me quite touched. I guess all Japanese are like that, no?

Quick Yamapi, come out and do something interesting now! *laughs*

shiawase

2010-07-28T21:13:00.004+08:00

*melts*

managed to chiong finish "Yamada Taro Monogatari" in a day. seriously one of the best dramas i've caught so far. not only were there some laughs to share, but the entire series was so full of meaning. family, friendship, responsibilities.

basically it was about this princey boy who was admired by everyone in school. he's very kind, intelligent - everyone thought he was rich, but in fact he was very poor. and the show was about how he worked so hard to earn money to support his family of 8, and scrimped and saved for them.

honestly, if u showed me scenes of dying people in dramas, i may be unappreciative. sappy love stories, i may be unmoved. but if u put family and kids (especially) into the picture.... this kind of warmness, i dont think my heart can take it. :") i think almost every scene that involved them doing something sweet to their family got me all teary eyed. muaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

its good to be rich, but we do not necessary need to be so in order to be happy.

i love K!

2010-07-24T12:39:00.009+08:00

well.... i love to K and i love K!

let me explain myself. the first K refers to karaoke of course, and the second K is this singer who sang the 1 litre of tears theme song. "Only Human". omg melts. haha. such an old school drama/song i know.. and i didnt know he was korean. sigh melts.

i went to K at cash studios ytd with indah... sang JAP SONGS HAHAHA. super hilarious if u ask me. its probably the only situation where u will not see people staring at the screen while K-ing, but busy looking at their ipods/paper/BB for the lyrics. LOL. abit troublesome everytime ur song comes u'll be like EHHHH WAIT WAIT LET ME FIND THE LYRICS. hahaha. crazy stuff.

and of course my ability was rather limited being relatively new to this japanese stuff i basically mumbled through most of the lyrics like jaychou. so i had to pick out slow songs which were easier to follow, only to be accused of being emo. IM NOT LAH. is because im not pro at jap but have powerful vocals ok.

wah, singing jap songs is much more tiring than chinese songs. and halfway through i was zao-xia-ing like nobody's business. so we sang some english songs and it was freaking hilarious when we sang "When you believe" by whitney houston and mariah carey. hahaah. we totally acted just like them, e.g. doing their hand-actions whenever they try to hit super high notes. so fun.

let's go again! anyone wanna attend my concert can RSVP LOL.

doesnt feel like writing the PA report at all ^_^

2010-07-19T20:15:00.003+08:00

sooooooo... my days of leg-shaking have begun! woohoo so exciting right. but not really la. this week is report time! i've lost my ability to write any form of paragraph longer than a blog entry. so it's going to be a sian week i suppose.

but it's workout week!!! or rather, the first week of workout. i plan to go on intensive gymming for the next 3 to 4 weeks. i realise that every single adult around me is telling me how fat i've become. HAHAHA. esp my mum, and my dentist Dr Chia!!! and today, my neighbour joined in the fun. LOL. zzzz.

but the comments they make are really super hilarious. lol. looking at my recent pictures i really got a shock too. so this is how the outside world sees me - frigging round. tmd. soooo.. im totally going to get rid of that O.L phenomenum tummy and all that other excess baggage on me. rahhh.. i think my blood is half blood half oil. dammit

today i did 10mins of running (lol embarrassing i could only sustain 2.5laps on the threadmill), 20mins of rowing, 20mins of elliptical machine (yeah baby that is awesome made me sweat like crazy), 10 mins of stair master. i hope to improve tmr. do more running and more stairs.

JIAYOU!!!! rahhh any ideas on how to lose fatsssss and build up LEAN muscles? LEAN LEAN LEAN muscles only please, i dont like the idea of looking like serena williams. must look around online then. must jog like crazy now.

P90X seems so awesome, but i dont think that's something i will do at home.....too many people watching!!! and i look stupid doing the kenpo routine. tmd why they do the kickboxing exercises until so cool while i believe i look like some uncoordinated person drowning on land. =(

yamashita-kun is my heart!:D

i believe..... that love is the answer

2010-07-17T12:13:00.003+08:00

i chanced upon this song "I believe" by Blessed Union of Souls at citysquaremall the other day during our farewell dinner, woahhhh.. memories of AJ kept pouring back. haha. think i listened to it rather excessively last time. =)

but anyway, LONG TIME NO SEE! and woahhhhh blogger can actually customise templates! haha. still exploring which one to pick. for now it's rather erm... bluish? hmmmmmmmm... simple is nice but i dont think it goes with the lips design that joyceeeeeeeeeeeeeeee set out for me. haha. maybe something brighter will be good. but for now that will just have to do. ^_^

okay so for now, internship is over! =) 10 weeks have passed just like that. we;re all happy. not that we hate working there or whatever, but it's just a relief i guess. met some really cool people there, hope we continue to stay in touch. i guess mj will finally have peace now without my random disturbances. LOL.

so whats next? well, i have HK to look forward to! havent planned out the itinerary, should probably start doing so! oh but before that, gotta write my professional attachment report. DAMN SIAN JUST PASS ME CAN ANOT WHY MUST WRITE REPORT.

pretense

2010-05-19T22:07:00.003+08:00

oh whats up, so work has started and it's kinda stressful and boring. everyday is a countdown session. haha. but it's alright i guess. time seems to pass by quite fast anyway, it's already nearing the end of 2nd week!

so im constantly tired.

and anyway i feel that im such an evil person to be hoping for something (not entirely good, but frankly actually its all relative cuz it will be THE BEST FOR ME) that i know will happen sooner or later. haha i am just waiting for it to happen.

i am sorry but unlike them, i dont feel any sympathy for you. like i always say, dont take things for granted. personally i dont think you're fit to be with her and isn't it a little too late to shower concern now. used to be so bloody yaya and acting like the ball is in your court with your stupid attitude. shameless. HA. i cant wait for it to explode in your face.

please, stop trying to do nice things for us. some people may be softhearted because of this but i for sure wont. i think it's nothing but a desperate move to retain your position here. i wont buy it, and it just makes me sick to my stomach, if anything. you were never that nice or considerate in the past.

so bugger off. i am loving this. hahahaha. i am evil. ;)

the ugly truth

2010-04-01T21:06:00.004+08:00

somehow, i really dont like it when people criticise me. or rather, say things about me that isnt entirely a criticism, but could be considered quite embarrassing.

why do people like to do that to others all the time?

of course, like any other, i say mean things about others too. but i believe that i only do that for people who really deserve it. like say, rissy low. i dont think anyone would disagree that all the unpleasant things targeted at her are as a result of her own actions. directly. i really dont badmouth people alot u know.... haha.

so why are people saying stuff like that about me, and sometimes to me in my face (which by the way, is getting abit fat lately lol)? maybe it is all true.... maybe i am really like that. but so what? what warrants you the right to say such a thing. what have i ever done to you all?

really sick of this shit. okay whatever this may make me seem like im a petty or uptight person who cant take a "joke". but really, why do you wanna shake another person's confidence like that. like take for example, why would u wanna tell an ugly person that you feel that he/she is ugly? it's not like that person had gotten into your way or anything right. it's not like they can help how they look like. so shut up about it already.

and of all people, YOU. what the fuck. who the heck are you to say things like that about me. first of all i already dont like you, which i think is pretty obvious judging from the cold replies i give to you all the time. i detest having to face you every single day. my respect for you is non existent, the lack of shame in you is appalling. who on earth takes advantage of other people's hospitality like that, to this extent? and we cant say anything coz i am very sure it will get ugly.

hai i duno. im not feeling so good today.

its 4am and there's work tomorrow, i mean later.

2010-03-07T03:58:00.004+08:00

i dont feel like going to work later....... bleah

so much to do, school is starting soon!!!! in slightly more than a day. im not done with my revision! haha.. see la, there's no discipline. 1 week is more than enough to read, and re-read, and re-read. too bad i spent the time unwisely.

i just realized, i have a very very very very very bad habit of not replying to smses... even to those that obviously require my reply to, say, a question. erm, sorry!! i didnt use to be like that, my reply used to be INSTANT. haha.

but now if im doing something, (or sometimes nothing at all) i will leave the task of replying to later, and eventually forget all about it. sigh, all my friends dont like to reply smses as well, so perhaps that has rubbed off on me too. ^_^

OH YEAHHHH I FINALLY FOUND SE SUPONE BY LUIS FONSI. his songs are the best. k i just realized that i have more spanish and jap songs on my laptop than all my english songs combined. hahaha. =)

so where do you get your motivation?

2010-02-26T01:34:00.006+08:00

it's funny that i still type in the wrong password (because usually philly_sixers is associated with another password for my mails and stuff) whenever i try to access my blog. happens without fail everytime. blame it on the naughty password that i have *stares at joyce*. ;-)

alright, so how's everyone? surviving this crazy semester? im doing great! lol. okay i'm not exactly having alot of fun and am massively behind in terms of academic progress, but i find that im relaxing alot! that's good, right?

i'm looking to get my blackberry soon. slurps. haha. although it's probably just a want rather than a need at this point in time..... but things like this still get me excited.

hmmm, lately i'm feeling so zoned out all the time. i don't really know why, is it due to the fact that i'm always tired? it's a sickness man. haha. probably need to exercise more =) but yeah, it's strange. sometimes i'll just get this out-of-the-world feeling all of a sudden. and i'll be like, "hey, i'm alive! how strange.". as if i'm teleported to this world from...nowhere. it's really difficult to explain, but i'm feeling more and more of it these days. are these signs of ageing? disillusionment? am i approaching closer to death?

i remember eons ago during higher chinese lessons where my teacher was going through some liang shan bo stuff (or was it), and he posed a question that what if dreams, were in fact, reality? and what we think of as reality is nothing more than a dream. haha if so, i gotta say, i have a really boring dream. =p

well, that was really random. i think im reading too much of yamashita's diary on facebook thats why. he's really adorable with all that randomness!! it's just his style... his aura =) oh no, am i going to like every single entry from him? i believe so!!! haha. i just liked another one! it's so funny the way he says it..

lol. madness.

hmmm, sometimes i feel, i'm really not driven enough. and i feel quite guilty whenever i hear my dentist tell me about the achievements of his son, being a councillor, topping the cohort/class, participating in and winning school events, etc etc etc. why has he, at a tender age of 16, been able to achieve so much more than me? i guess we can attribute it to the upbringing. but ultimately, it's nothing more than an excuse.

just where do you get your motivation? and how? i'd really want to know - it's something for me and everyone to think about.

ohiyo!

2010-02-04T15:30:00.004+08:00

haha, despite the really crazy school week i am having now, im still slacking around!

like now, totally enjoying code blue (and yamapi). haha. i just realized, season 2 is really good. better than season one as of now (ep 3). they're following the footsteps of desperate housewives hehe. with narration and a central theme. that somehow makes it quite artistically well done. so yeah! looking forward to more!

but my heart is still made of stone, didnt find any scene particularly touching.. i mean it is. but just not enough to move me to tears.

anw, am taking a rather interesting elective in school now. basically we go there to watch some movies that are seemingly based on science, and then we discuss about the theories behind it - whether its accurate or total bull. haha.

we watched GATTACCA yesterday (by ethan hawke and jude law). quite an old movie.. it is a really good show. havent watched anything like this in awhile. GO WATCH (esp yanling hehe bio student)! it was quite hilarious really... some people OHHHHHHH-ed until so loud when the teacher gave an interesting insight that the title of the movie is made up of CGTA (the nucleotide bases of our DNA).

man, i really really miss biology. I have forgotten most of the concepts actually. gotta dig out my jc notes omg...! the lecturer goes so fast like a choo choo train. she takes one lecture to finish what we would have done in a month. haha. i'm finding it really difficult to understand MEIOSIS omg. but well, it wasnt easy for me during JC either.. haha

from failblog.org!!!!

2010-01-18T02:16:00.002+08:00

credits to failblog.org. haha. i hope i am not violating any copyright law here, but this is funny!

back from hiatus.. you wanna hear about school or... shuai ges?!!! LOL

2010-01-18T00:15:00.018+08:00

....of course not shuai ges from school. HAHA

sigh today's the last day of stoning and whatnot. school's gonna begin for real TMR! sucks. i still cant decide what i should drop. can HR stop bombing me with shit like that? bleargh.

oh well, who needs to hear about school? i'm sure we all have our tough times that we have to deal with. ;) with these difficult moments, i have my dramas (!!!) as a form of escape. actually this is an extremely delayed post that ive been procrastinating (but hey, yeekeong taught me the merits of procrastinating) since the holidays, to the point that my favourite boy has sorta, uh, changed. hees. but you see, better late than never, and i bet NONE OF YOU WILL BE INTERESTED ANYWAY. haha. im so sad that everyone's doubting my taste when it comes to hotties. wah lau eh... come on leh:( i shall try to convince YOU (marketing) that they are indeed, HAWT. or cool.

SHOTA MATSUDA

my first favourite. haha. it all started with the drama "Liar Game", which you all should watch btw! it's damnnnnnnnn nice. and quite hilarious too. altho you would have to deal with irritating cast like toda erika, and basically, everyone else. dont worry akiyama-san totally makes up for it!:D

there's a season 2 but i think that it's not that good.. so far im not really impressed with it. but season 1 is AWESOME. i especially loved the minority rule and ressurection game. really, watch it!

Promo poster for the show. okay first off, i really do not understand why on earth did anyone permit that pic to be the promo pic. i mean, look at shota's HAIR!!! wth. he looks positively ghastly here. :S

much better here!!! haha. btw, he acted as soujirou (xi men) in hana yori dango. he looks great over there!!

of course, not everyone agrees with me (in fact noone did =( ) dammit. haha. my sis says that he looks girly. NO HE DOES NOT. and she kept whispering to me while we were watching Avatar that those american guys are manly. -_-"" lol. sigh, the only thing girly about him is perhaps his weight? coz he's just so so so skinny. (my motivation to slim down eh) but then again, all jap guys are like that - its difficult to find meat on them.

and then, yanling said that he looked creepy. i can see why, cos stupid google decided to post THISSSSSS pic as the second found pic.

..........

they really know how to make him look good. dammit. its like a failed passport photo (just like every other passport sized photo of everyone else). why isnt anyone sued for circulating that pic on the net?

ALL TIME FAVOURITE PIC! pls dont say cos cannot see his face. lol. loving it. =) plus i think he has gentle hands. it sounds weird and sick in a way but its true! LOL. FYI i dont particularly enjoy seeing guys (or girls) with ugly bitten nails. its just a personal preference;)

okay so anyway, ive watched almost every single of his more famous(2007 onwards) drama during this short holiday. but then it started to run out so i turned to...

CODE BLUE. another awesome one btw. basically it's a medical show, which is supposedly kinda sad cos it has a life-and-death theme. but guess what my heart is made of stone so i couldnt really detect the touching moments. hmmm. still, its rather addictive. and meaningful.

and of course, along came YAMAPI aka Yamashita Tomohisa

hohoho. he's a more straightforward kind of hotness that people can accept. i think he looks abit like gatsby. lol. you know, mu chun tuo zai? takuya!! haha. cant believe joyce said he's not hot. *raises eyebrows*

altho, i think he went through alot of changes in his looks. from the cutesy teenager to a matured adult really. and im surprised how his personality changed along with his looks.

young days of his nobuta drama(2006?). lol. i guess thats what we call cute.

and at some point, he became HOT. omg. absssss.. totally the fittest jap guy arnd!:D

wooohooooo in code blue!! Aizawa sinsei. haha. i think he looks best like that. if only his style would just stay this way.

but his stylist decided to CHU STUNT (lol uni lingo once more) and give him a lau kok kok look in code blue 2. i tell you, im literally CRUSHED.

..... not a big fan of this come on. WHY CANT THEY LET THE TAKUYA STYLE REMAIN!!

ahems.

haha. okay im such a fangirl. hehs. last week of "holidays" thats why... i might not have the chance to drama anymore starting next week =( sianz.

but anyway the reason why im doing this post is cos people have been asking me what kind of guys i like. LOL. ooooohkay. whats with this rushing to get me attached ah? *raises eyebrows*

well i can give u a list of criteria that i like (not in any particular order):
1) shy - cos this means he doesnt talk TOO MUCH. narssicism is not what im looking for. but he must be able to carry a conversation, because 2 introverts together can be quite boring. haha.
2) mysterious - i think this is attractive LOL. but not act cool PLS
3) humourous - not in a BOOMZ kind of way. i like subtle/witty humour. not ji lame yi xia (shudders)
4) love for nature - HAHAHA ok this is not a criteria but im an environmentalist if you didnt already know.
5) looks? - i'd be lying if i said looks dont matter. but then again, its not the most important. oh and nice hands. hahah =D
6) can sing? or musically inclined so he can teach me.
7) like-mindedness
8) NICE PEARLY TEETH!!! - the only potential bad thing about yamapi is that he doesnt have the nicest teeth. but i can totally live with that!:D

yeah, i can say all i want, but like shota said (he likes girls with dimples btw, I HAVEE!!!! i guess. hahaha), this is just what u think, the actual one who comes along may not be an exact fit, or not even close to it. i can say so coz those guys whom i've liked/am liking are quite the opposite of shy and mysterious. haha.

only shota and yamapi fits the bill now. esp shota! he's really so quiet in interviews - doesnt talk much, but when he does, he always makes everyone laugh. =D haha. yamapi is just COOL lah. sigh...

so what now? im going to fly to japan to just marry them. wait for my good news! LOL.

sian school tmr. i cant believe i spent 2 hours blogging on this? instead of doing internship application (shingz) or readings. :S

professionalism or just plain rude...it's a fine line.

2009-12-21T22:40:00.004+08:00

today, i was happily peeping at strangers' smsing on the train again. it's really a joy trust me, especially if they're conversing with their bfs or gfs. :D strange things people say...

anyway, this victim of privacy invasion by me was this guy.... actually i didnt even get a clear look at the msges but im quite sure his friend sent something like "very pek chek (i.e. frustrating)..." there was more but i couldnt read in such a flash. i suppose his friend was complaining about something that he/she could not manage and was most likely looking for some words of encouragement. logically and instinctively, one would just give him/her the satisfaction of some sort of reassurance the person is fishing for. anyway, guess what the guy's reply was?

"Learn to manage." In exact phrasing. i remembered, cos the msg was just this short.

wtf. wtf. -_-"" if i were his friend, i'd beat him into pulp the next time i see him. oooohkay fine it might be a good thing that he's not pretentious or whatever (since i personally do not like people to say things they dont believe in just to make me feel better as well). but at least, have a heart and not be so curt in the delivery.

if there's one thing i cannot stand more, it would be curt replies. thats no doubt one of my biggest pet peeve. seriously, i would rather you have not replied at all. sure beats trying to tolerate your bad moods please. however i know of many many many people who cannot seem to bring over any form of emotion into their texts (wont you agree with me that this happens mostly with guys?), but in real life they're not like that. so its quite strange to me.. haha. so please.... be lively if you ever sms me ok. i will reciprocate i promise!!! seeeeeeeee exclaimation marks! because i've had it with people who acts like i owe them my life or something and i know it doesnt feel great!:D

okay it's raining again.

honestly what is wrong with putting emotions into text messages or emails???? dont you want your smses to shout you? lol. i think i will really struggle to contain my emotions when i try to email at work in the future. haha, i heard from my sis that she stopped trying to be tactful and friendly (she's one of the best people to msg btw) cos noone bothers to do the same. so she hopped on to the "Best Regards" bus and apparently things get done better cos the agenda's set out. sounds bossy, but effective. sighhhh..

what's up with best regards man. why do people even use it. it's the single most pretentious phrase to end off an email with. i could settle for a Thanks!, or cheers... better than this stupid act formal phrase. best regards is literally, a slap to the face. you know what i read when i see that everytime? it practically means heck you can die for all i care.

its just sad that formality is how we judge professionalism to be. come on, its important in the corporate world to establish good relationships and networks. so it's time to introduce some smileys and exclaimations marks and CAPS LOCK if necessary. i will start the trend!:D

ooooh christmas celebration tmr at the finance department. i hope im invited LOL. i wanna win the upapa!!!

random thoughts from work

2009-12-05T00:04:00.004+08:00

in case you guys dont know that im back in the working world.. well, i am. haha. back to the data entry days and the nostalgic feeling of dreading every work day, not wanting to go to bed cos you know when u wake up its time for work again.

oh well, everything is a new learning experience. a good exposure. 4 days in, here are some random stuff to share, in point form so as to be abit more light hearted and not too lengthy

1. i reaaaaally dont wanna lose my eyes to the computer

2. i might develop an accent soon.... with prolonged exposure to all the expats in the firm. would be better if i could talk to them... but i dont. lol

3. it's impossible for HR to be strategic... at least not right now. what was BH226 about again?

4. why are old ladies in a particular department especially (guess which one!!) grumpy?

5. i eavesdrop on every conversation that reaches my ears, big and small. they entertain me.

6. it feels weird typing on my nice keyboard after using the laupok compaq laptop for a week

7. it sucks to be part of the morning rush. AND evening peak hour period.

8. i've renewed, actually no... more like intensified my hobby of peeping at strangers smsing on the train. especially appreciative of sony ericsson phone users. *likes* not much to do on the train....

9. i have a favourite toilet in the office. there are only 2 cubicles, but somehow i always have to go to that particular cubicle because the other one is occupied. i guess it likes me too :)

10. some office people are really quite pretentious.

11. they speak to measley employees (i dont mean myself cos im just too harmless) in the tone that will kill, but a totally opposite behaviour towards the boss or other expats. they are like puppies. tsktsk. barks.

shit im feeling so bitchy/gossippy today. spent over an hour talking bad about celebrities :( thanks to mr shawn ng HF. tsktsk. he's a gossip boy (who watches gossip girls) lah seriously. and YAY i found a potential buddy at work! woohoo. so happie.

hopefully tomorrow iluma wont be packed! altho most likely yes according to mervin. session tomorrow with him muaha. omg turning into a gaming addict or some sort. haiyo.

And the good thing about exam is.....

2009-11-27T14:43:00.004+08:00

A simple 'jiayou for your exams' turned fun and hilarious outing. I like...:D one of the best days in recent hair pulling extravaganza. Looking forward to more of such spontaneous sessions! It's good talking to you again:) haha. But anyway it's back to reality. HR exams on monday, seriously what is there to learn? Ugh I miss Spanish lessons, at least they were actually useful. And fun. Oh well, certificate speaks. Back to my books. Does anyone know how to press enter on iPod touch rah!!!

Hmmm. You know right, some 'friends' are really damn thick skin. Always coming to you when they need help and leaving you to die when they have better things going on in their lives is not cool man. I tell myself, let's not be too calculative here. But it's just too sick. Strangely enough, they are aplenty. I hope I'm not like that. Am I?

The other day I saw how he takes such good care of his bros, and I saw his younger brother holding the youngest brother hand. Omg that scene is simply heartwarming. Good thing my sis treats me well too! Haha :)

split split split. you get fucking shit work.

2009-10-25T19:06:00.004+08:00

i am ready to die for my report already.

fucking hell.

i said we needed to meet and discuss at least a little bit but everyone just wanted to leave and whatnot. as if i didnt have better things to do than this stupid subject. as if i wasnt as busy (or as hungry -snorts-) as you all were.

right now i just hope that everything will link. if not who's gonna clear the mess again? who;s gonna do the compiling? who's gonna make it right?

seeing red.

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sigh.... sometimes its not so good to have references. limits your thinking. what's with all the lifting man..... whats more quite frankly, its not a good job. bleah. cant wait for wednesday to be over.

grumpy

2009-10-22T21:27:00.002+08:00

I just can't bring myself to treat you as family. Altho maybe i should. But seeing how you have no sense of shame at all justifies all my rage. Stupid negative feelings. Can't wait for my work to be done.

funny videos are distracting :S

2009-10-22T03:50:00.002+08:00

good morning, its 4am. im tired again after my 4 hr nap. cant stop slacking!!! tho i have mountains of work to do. oh wells.. i seem so distracted this sem i have no idea why.

mirroring shine's blogpost, i think that nbs is really trying to test our limits. projects stretching all the way to the end of the semester, (mine till week 14 mind you) WITHOUT study breaks at all and booms (hehe) it's exams.... thats crazy. dont they know that projects and studies are actually mutually exclusive? you do one, you dont do the other, as simple as that.

i'd be happy even if there's only 1 week of study break like everywhere else... heck they dont even wanna give us a proper recess week, the profs really think that time stands still during recess week or something, happily drowning us with assignments and reports like theres no tomorrow. and as a consolation prize, quizzes right after that!!!! how to study i ask you. not our fault that we screw up in our quizzes (stupid aa202)

but anw i still think if i didnt slack so much i could actually manage this kind of workload. but i get tired very easily... i think it's the lack of running = lack of adrenaline. sigh im getting fat. everytime i chance upon my JC photos i feel damn sad. the golden times are over man. muscles replaced by fats, topping off with additional flabs all around. i need to exercise but im tired...... vicious cycle

okay what a boring entry. i shall get back to my project/attempt my case study report (really sian diao) or just go to sleep. :D

morbid dreams

2009-10-03T14:51:00.004+08:00

what is the significance, if one dreams about death? and in such a crude way. still a little shaken up.

i think i had the most morbid dream ever that has somehow been etched in my mind. normally i cant recall any dreams so why cant this be part of that pile? the image of a child jumping off from the ledge is not something i want to remember. and whats more the characters are actually some people i can relate to (meaning they exist and are sort of 2nd degree friends), though ive never met them before. what the hell.. i think im too stressed up these days, with report deadlines literally breathing down my neck. the fact that it's not going so well just adds on the pressure. a little bit like my dream, tried stopping, but cant do it.

i wanna escape.

on a lighter note i think that flash mobs are way cool. haha im sure those who saw the oprah 24th season kickoff party clip would agree - 21000 people synchronising the dance to the beat of "I gotta feelin'" by BEP. i used to hate that song but now it's cool. haha. next time if theres gonna be a flashmob please invite me along, altho i cant seem to find other gimmicks other than people freeze and dancing. :) oh, and my photocard license has finally arrived, after 3 weeks!! looking forward to buying a car..... hahahah.

okay back to companies law. long long long week ahead.

Don't Speak

2009-09-29T02:11:00.001+08:00

You and me
We used to be together
Every day together always

I really feel that I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe this could be the end

It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real, Well I don't want to know

Don't speak, I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak, I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

Our memories, They can be inviting
But some are altogether mighty frightening

As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands I sit and cry

It's all ending I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying ... are we?

Familiarity

2009-09-20T20:21:00.003+08:00

Note to self: don't fall back into the trap I've worked so hard to get out of. Don't ever. It was silly enough to be in it once. Noone is worth that kind of heartwrenching pain anyway. Your response ytd just served as a reminder and gave me renewed persistence to keep this gap we've formed over the year - the distance i've grown used to. In words of tang xin feng bao, just another friend:) nothing else. don't let me be blinded again please.

huhuahuahua... this is supposed to be an evil laugh

2009-09-19T06:09:00.004+08:00

i like driving where there's hardly any traffic. makes lane changing MUCH easier and you can forgo all your safety checks too =)

i've actually set out very strict rules on which conditions to drive... which my sister always laughs at. haha.
1) LIGHT traffic. very important
2) not too fast. expressway is out for now...
3) perfect weather condition
4) preferbly in the day

HAHAHAH. so that leaves me only with yewtee huh. :D and also bukit batok lah since im quite used to it there already. lol. funny story, spent a bomb learning just to drive only at these areas. mmmm.

so anw amery let me drive his car today after our weekly (we try) L4D session with the usuals... at 4 in the morning. haha. first time doing so legally and without an instructor beside me. and speaking of instructors i feel so grossed out by one of them in view of recent revelations from a friend. to think that i had quite a good impression on him. oh well, should have known better that uncles are all like that. YUCKS.

anyway it feels damn different. first of all, mitsubishi lancer instead of honda city which im used to. secondly, extremely heavy steering. thirdly, tinted windows and small mirrrors. HAHA not a good combi. very very difficult to judge the location of approaching vehicles, couldnt make out the body of those cars, only the headlights. but i got amery to check all my blindspots for me :D so basically it was quite easy driving on a straight and empty road (highway) at 100km/h back home muaha. the only real challenge was going up my narrow carpark. bleahhhhhhh

just watched the interview video of miss singapore world 2009, Ris Low. uber funny. its really a challenge trying to follow her train of thoughts, they dont make much sense. haha.

i especially liked the part where the interviewer asks:
"So, what do you wear when you are feeling naughty?"

Ris Low: If I'm naughty, then I will wear something red and loud. Something you know, BOOMS. Something that shouts ME!

?????????? hahahaha what on earth is booms?!! boomer ah? *burps* i got boomed so many times by darren while l4d-ing today man. sigh.........

LOL. at first i thought this whole thing was a joke. apparently not. mmmmm, what an entertaining video. go see go see! i shall sleep now it's already 7am. one more week to recess week! :D

haiya i dont now how to post youtube videos here. why not i provide the link instead.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5F74FZfdSJY

nites all!

really doesnt and probably would never get the uni lingo

2009-09-11T23:26:00.002+08:00

i dont know why uni people like to talk weird. i really dont. haha. sometimes, its really super irritating, but i dont say anything much cos some of my friends use them. haha. oops. i hope they will never find their way over here. -chuckles-

i guess i dont hear so many people say cui, it's dying down already. i suppose it really has cui-ed :D good good. keep it up. but now we have tonnes others.

1. UPZ. (as in the opposite of down)
eg. you are already mugging at week 1? upz leh you.

2. ji3 _________ (use hanyu pinyin)
eg. wah this is ji3 lamezzzz. i am ji confused. wow this is ji expensive!

wow. speechless.

okay anw, on to better news... ive finally passed my TP today! HAHA. shytes la i almost failed tho, chalked up so many demerit points but seriously, those 8 points of failure to check safety during BOTH parkings was uncalled for. i did turn and check lo. but whatever the case, i should be contented, and to be honest the tester was pretty okay. aww man im gonna miss things at bbdc, hate it that i would disappear just like that, without saying a proper thank you to my instructors. oh well, i guess i can go and stalk them or something. LOL. just kiddding.

sigh, what an unproductive day. shall go and look at some annual reports then. seeya.

pray it gets better.

2009-09-06T15:14:00.001+08:00

this has got to be one of the worst weeks ever. everything doesnt seem to be going too smoothly. bleah

overslept on friday on the day of some graded ethics essay. rushed out of my house and couldnt catch a cab - took the public transport instead. -_- ran for 179, and missed it. got to class, late for half an hour, wrote rubbish for ethics essay. day dreamed the whole damn day. man....

presentation tmr, got into an argument (well sorta) with my groupmate last night. he said he was kidding.. uh ok. feeling pissed at some guy who doesnt contribute at all despite it being his presentation week this time around. seriously, reading the slides we created just before class and presenting it ain't contribution. bleah hope we dont screw it up again man

just my luck. just my luck.

oh and i got scolded today at work too not just once, which seriously sucks. just what i needed to end off this terrible week.....

anw it's just a ranting episode. may every tomorrow be a better day.

errors everywhere.

2009-08-28T23:09:00.000+08:00

oh man, i'm seriously experiencing computer troubles lately. i suspect it's windows vi*t*'s problem (to protect myself from slandering).. but whatever it is, just begone!

rahhh, so much to do, yet i'm not picking up the pace. the four hour breaks are seriously killing me. i can't get any proper rest nor can i concentrate in my work. i found out that my optimum time to work (like enzymes) is during the wee hours of the morning. it's cooling, quiet and good to study. SIGH! but now i am just not motivated to do anything.. the way i had been this past 2 weeks.

i don't know why im so half hearted all the time, towards everything. where's that drive?!! sometimes i really hate my attitude, it's a liability man. last lesson of career foundations module made me realise i cant be so reserved all the time. somehow ive been dismissing this issue but i think the sense of awkwardness in me has got to be corrected somehow, someday. anyway there was this girl who did so many things which made me wonder, what have i done in my life exactly? i bet interview questions like "what are your life achievements" would stump me. i've always wanted to do volunteer work too, perhaps it's time to act on it and not just think.

haha my neighbourhood's pretty interesting. i guess i've mentioned about the parade commander and drummer in my estate. now there's this situation where a dog will sometimes bark at around this time (just did so actually), quite cutesy-ly i think it might be a small dog. and anw this pissed off ah lian will always scream "SHUT UP LAH" uber loudly. not sure if she's the owner but if she's not it would be weird. guess this is not a peaceful retreat around here.

ohhhhhhhhhhkay. weekends are drawing near again FINALLY =) which explains why im still slacking around and blogging cos of the false impression of limitless time. but it's not since i have a presentation coming up on monday and test on friday and report due two weeks later. phew... here it goes. i'd bet it'll be over real soon but i feel like playing L4D. again. hahaha. sucks. addiction problems already man. haha but it;s fun, im like the lousiest out of the four but hey, at least im careful =) maybe darren will suggest going again this week muaha. good to have him around to shoot all the zombies and witch!!!

shag ahhh...

2009-08-22T01:55:00.003+08:00

2 weeks in.. shag ah..

oh and stressful too. had so much to think about, what to drop, what not to drop. and till now i still have no conclusion! gahhhh. i really have this overpowering urge to drop my double major cos it just seems so xiong. it feels impossible to clear all modules in 3 freaking years without crushing under the workload each and every semester (20 or more AUs every sem ok). im already dying right now when there are only lectures and tutorials (can u imagine the hell it would raise when the 5 written assignments/projects kicks in??)

looking back i really wish i werent offered this choice, so i wont feel obliged to accept. now i just have to live with it. and decide.. if its better to kill myself with AUs in 2nd year or 3rd year? people say it's better to keep cool and maintain gpa in 2nd year so as to secure a good internship which may end up being ur job.. but i dont wanna feel stressed during the 3rd. options options options.

i realised im finding it very hard to write my resume OHMAN no ccasssssssssssssssssss so howwwwww.

rahhhhhh pardon me for the boring bits. haha. verbal dirrhoea (physical dirrhoea too these days ahhaha). duno why too but im very prone to LS-ing as known by my JC friends. haha. i wonder why we were so unglam last time? totally unlike my extremely glam *ahems* personality now. lol.

sigh i remember i have tonnes of things to blog about, but i duno why everytime i do it's almost always inevitably about boring school. perhaps i procrastinate too much that i forget about stuff. or perhaps this is what life is all about. hahaha sounds miserable.

OMG. jing bao things never fail to shock me.. and in some ways make me feel abit depressed. hahaha. aiya i will get over it lah. it had never been anything anyway. =)

man i am tired. shall go on to decide what to drop again. yawns.

FOC fever 2

2009-08-01T00:17:00.005+08:00

back from CAC camp with unimaginable soreness on the back from all that sitting and lack of sleep. not to mention i have a new tone of tan emerging on my skin. wahhhh.. torture.

but it's still not bad lah i guess. not much for me to do most of the time but whats most important is that the freshies have fun! i think they did... they seem more enthu and creative than our batch, judging from their cheers. but some of them did pull out on one of the most important segments of the whole camp, which is just plain weird.

oh well.. anw, this year's intake for the guys are from the dragon year. so naturally we seem to have tonnes of guys around, and some are quite outstanding i would say. perhaps shan and lun would be interested to know this: one of them seriously. looks. like. elvin ng. im not kidding. hahah.

and dont tell anybody, but im massively charmed by one of them. HAHA. he's not one whom you'll refer to as super hot or shuai on the first impression, but he just has this good vibes. lol. plus he seems quite gentlemanly when i overheard his conversation (actually more like eavesdropped, but in my defence all the programmers were crowding around the blindfolded couples) with his SP during initiation night. he played at my station YAY so i got to talk to him somemore..... hahaha. and in zouk i noticed (by chance ok) that he can dance super well. awww man! hahah

gosh i sound like some stalker. nvm... i think next year if i do go back i'll def join as GL or SA. hmph. i wanna be in charge of welfare cos seriously, seeing the freshies going through the initiation night exhausted, wet and cold from the sea breeze and all the tekaning by us really made me super heartpain for them lah.

oh man damn tired i am in need of SERIOUS back therapy. i think my spine is gonna break soon. sigh anw speaking of pain im actually quite upset that my dad did not go to the dental clinic despite having pain. and i cant believe my mum asked him not to go cos "it would be weird". like wth!

he doesnt have to go to where i work right. i guess deep down his fear for dental treatment trumps my ominous warnings to have him so easily swayed. ugh ive heard and seen so much of such pain-resulting-in-minor-operations for extractions to know that immediate treatment is still the best practice. sometimes i really dont get why the older generation behaves this way. bleah major irritations.

FOC fever.

2009-07-28T22:17:00.002+08:00

oh my gosh, sometimes i really think my sis sorta knows about.......to randomly drop me updates on u know. LOL had i been obvious? but well maybe im just too paranoid since he is our mutual friend anyway so it's normal to do that? hmmmm.

anyway, it's day 2 of CAC FOC right now as we speak and im at home slacking away! haha. okay first of all it's only for today. and since im actually rather superstitious (just found out about that), i should be excused for opting outta fright night. i dont think im scared of what i'll see at the cemetry. but who knows what'll happen after that right, u know what i mean? hmm. anw, will be down all the way till friday so i hope i dont miss my bed too much. but it's cool cos i've gotten to know quite alot of funny people =)

being a programmer is definitely alota hardwork man. besides the fact that u really dont get much time with the freshies. ytd's RPG game saw many of us rotting away for 8hrs waiting for the OGs to come. gosh.. but i loved my character Toto-Chan and the literal costume stuck on with the toto paper thingy. LOL. in short its sorta a makeup station over here and we had fun watching the blindfolded girls putting on makeup for the guys. and guess what some of the freshies remembered me!!! ableit as toto-chan haha. :D:D:D so happy...

next time if i do join back i'll make sure i'll come as SA. or GL. hahah... sorta regretting not joining jieyu's OG for nbs foc, looks fun from all the pics im seeing.

OOOOOOOKAY. so whats up lately. nothing actually besides the kobe bryant asia tour which i suppose i had over publicised on such that shine thinks i'll update on it. actually it was really not much for me cos i totally could not see him well from THAT kinda distance. but it's still cool and i shall renew my vow to catch a real live nba game someday. and guess what i saw JIAOLIAN just as i was leaving the stadium. coincidence? :)

what else what else. even more way back was sixteen oh six gathering #2. i dont even know how to describe it other than it being awwwwesome. the absence of the 'clique-y' feeling was great, and it's the first time everyone present sat together to talk since the first week of JAE days. hope we'll have more of these in time to come! and even more surprising we have a table for the homecoming thingy! HAHA. pls come pls come altho the price is indeed a little steep :S

alrights... i'd better take my midnight bath now (oops), it's gonna be an early and long day tomorrow. cant wait for initiation night!! hopes it'll get dirty ahhahaha.

the obvious lack of brain utility

2009-07-16T00:11:00.002+08:00

hola que tal?

hmmm, after 2+ months of not doing anything slightly academic, i feel like my brain is rusting away at a shocking rate. for example i find it extremely difficult to understand long paragraphs of words without reading it more than once. so most of the time i just give up and form my own summary without bothering to decipher them.

and it is especially trying when it comes to reading forums. singapore forums. omg it's hell for the brain man i swear... some punks would literally type in a whole new language unknown to people but themselves. im not anal about this actually since we all should have our freedom of expression (like how im totally bitching away right now). and it doesnt have to be perfect english but at least, comprehensible! im sure all of us have gone through some level of education to be able to write in correctly structured sentences.

im sure i can rattle on about this all day but i shall not. school is starting in less than a month *deep breaths people*. and im gonna book my TP soon.. hopefully i'll pass man and may i be consistent! the erratic skills im having is seriously driving me up the wall. low speed control sucks. but i think i found my favourite instructor the other day.. he's super friendly and nice which made driving a little less stressful. =) too bad i cant seem to book his slots... mmm.

lastly... picked up L4D recently under the influence of my sister. HAHA. tried it only once so im understandably bad at it. maybe interested parties can have a session together.. haha.

may money fall from the sky..

2009-06-27T22:56:00.005+08:00

for awhile now, my parents' solution to everything... resolution to buy anything, would be that if they had won the lottery.

feels like getting a car.. okay after getting 1st price. wanna buy a new tv to replace the dying one (which goes mute when it feels like it).. okay after striking 4d. wanna replace all the old stuff that doesnt work quite as well anymore.. air con, washing machine etc etc.. 4d 4d 4d 4d 4d 4d.

hmmm, they've been saying for a long time now, and never have i wished in such desperation that it would really happen soon man. HAHA. okay although, who doesnt right. was just doing a mental checklist of what i wanna do from now until graduation, and even after graduation... im overwhelmed!!! it just works out to so much... granted, alot of them are considered non-necessities, or in other words, luxury. bleahhhhh to that. just cos i dont actually need them doesnt mean i cant go for them right...

for example the international exchange programme. it can be counted as a once in a lifetime experience that, i too, wanna enjoy in my short university life. i know im not making full use of the seriously numerous opportunities from the school. so now im thinking, i dont wanna just let 3 years go by and graduate with a question mark in my head, wondering how exactly have i spent that 3years. already im not participating in any of the hostel activities, i dont want my uni life to simply be of projects, exams, and more exams.

so if given a chance (and the cash), i'd really be keen in going for the exchange programme. will be fun to break out of the monotony of singapore education system im so used to. and the plus point would also be to make some international friends too!

also, i believe that im an enthusiastic learner, albeit not exactly skewed towards the academics. there are tonnes of skills that i wanna pick up: rollerblading, swimming ---> sea sports, musical instruments like piano, guitar, drums.... languages.. and things i cant even begin to say off the top of my head. but yeah u get the drift.

lastly, grad trip (and any other forms of travelling) is also in my agenda! sigh i've said this so many times already so i shall not drone on and on about it. just wish that money god can bestow some luck upon my family and my friends!!

maybe i should try buying 4d and toto. they say beginners are often blessed with more luck anyway.

one six zero six and more.

2009-06-25T02:48:00.003+08:00

okay updates.. hmmm...

to start off, i was quite disappointed with ytd's episode of 国记交意所 due to the presence of guest celebrities in the show. i mean come on, if i wanted to listen to them talk, i would have watched other variety shows. and horrors of horrors they invited irritating chatty people like li3 teng2 and pornsak (im sorry but i dont like them one bit). cant stand the way pornsak speaks, can he BE any squeakier?! and they totally snatched all the tv time from mr cutie justin!!!!!!

man am i pissed. i am really not interested in their stories which arent funny at all. somemore their mandarin is like superb so i bet the international students have no idea what they are talking about. where is the fun in that?!!!!!! sighhhhh... oh well, no more american guy and fabio, but still looking forward to the next episode! hurhur :)

okay with those grievances out of the way, i shall comment that prisonbreak 4 rocks. haha. michael scofield is sizzling.

oh yah last but not least 1606 had a gathering last sunday. only one description for it: LOL. haha, was real fun playing the legendary mrt-thigh-slapping game thingy. violent joyce decided to give me blue-blacks as souvenir on my thighs. can u imagine how bad it would be if i had not been wearing jeans?

below is my favourite picture out of the lot. i really like it cos there are no ugly gaps and everyone looks so nice!

give me my time back!

2009-06-17T14:45:00.008+08:00

found out yesterday that (for school members at least) you dont have to pass your BTT to start practical lessons. !!!!!! cos you will be able to start driving on the circuit. whereas for private students, you would most likely want to start on the public roads (that means btt, then pdl) rather than wasting money on circuit training on the get go.

so i felt so sian diao learning about the fact yesterday. that means i've WASTED one whole month rotting away during the wait for my BTT date and now it's so damn difficult to get continuous slots (as in maybe at least twice a week) which is important for beginning stages, no? any more technical issues i should know of before i get surprised like that again...

okay that aside, lessons are going slow and steady. spent my second lesson going round and round the circuit (which i could have done while waiting for btt UGHHH) for the whole 100mins, im having fun but i feel bored for the instructor. HAHA. although i think he's quite zai in teaching. thumbs up! am at 2nd gear now hopefully soon i can get out of the circuit and start terrorizing people on the roads!!!

hmmmm oh yeah last week i tried rollerblading for the first time in my life! HAHA. looks like i have affinity with wheels these days. well it was damn scary and i believe ive made a spectacle outta myself - falling on my butt on my very first step, in front of quite a no. of people. LOL. and the rest was just whoaaaaaaaaa-ing all the way. what a sight. but at least i can blade without assistance!!! although it's really unpredictable. one moment im actually gliding effortlessly and the next im on the grass patch with my butt facing everyone. haha. at least i tried!

and mom's carrying out my dieting plans very seriously. not that im actually trying to go on a diet cus thats just not my style.. why stop urself from enjoying the one of the best luxuries in life!!! but it just so happens that im waking up abit later these days, eating abit less and exercising abit more. so mom totally plan her cooking so that i will skip a meal a day. like go for brunch instead of having breakfast and lunch.. combine lunch and dinner (just when i thought my dunching days are over) if we could help it.. sigh..... i want food you know!!!!

anyway the channel 8 variety show 国记交意所 is seriously drop dead funny. you guys should catch it if u are free.. 8pm every tuesday. ROCKS. plus the scottish guy (actually i like everyone) is really cute hurhurhurh.

ain't he the cutest!!!!! :D

US guy and korean girl!

ang mo kio in chinese became cat hair!

xiao an an..

hahaha oh no i might seem too free doing this so i shall stop! happy happy

someone commented he looks like david archuleta.. abit! but cuter.. LOL. fabio on the background is my sis's fav btw. :D

passion vs practicality - which would you choose?

2009-06-15T23:39:00.007+08:00

when it comes to education in singapore (maybe not just in singapore but i wouldnt know), competitiveness beats everything hands down. that's why im in the course im in now anyway: just pick the one that would get you the furthest. nevermind that you aren't interested in it, the remuneration in the future will remind you that all the sacrifices are worth it.

not that im strongly against this method of decision, afterall i am suckered into this sad way of life myself, although im pretty sure ive made the correct choice. but still.... wouldnt it be great to be pursue the Bachelor of Travelling? ok fine aside from the fact that it does not exist. if given a real choice, i would have stopped schooling years ago and be on my way to becoming a tour guide or something. or you would see me being a mascot in some theme parks. LOL. i wanna be a travel host!!! but yeah, who doesnt right.

that's why i honestly respect those who followed their hearts all the way and chose the path unchartered. sure, it may be a tough road and probably a less mainstream one, but it will get you where you want, cos the determination is already there. knowing me, i'll never be able to have the courage to do this..

19june09, 0018hrs:

so second major results just in.. i didnt get b&f which is a bummer and quite a shock to say the least. not that i think im too zai or whatever but i guess im too used to getting satisfactory responses in my uni life thus far. technically speaking, not getting my first choice should make me more adamant in following my heart (for frigging once) and just reject the stupid 2nd spec and go ahead with my plans in conquering at least 2 languages with my UEs.

but well well easier said than done. it is still more conventional and hence better to have an edge over other accountancy students right? esp for people like me, can be counted as having no CCA, not much leadership testimonies... results arent that outstanding... no job experience.. you jolly well accept this rare opportunity!

but who is to say that mastering languages wont give you the same competitive edge, if not more? what if the job im after next time will require me to converse with all the important foreign partners (although i reaaaaaaally doubt so unless they send me overseas WHEEEE)? and as proven, passion really makes the grades come so much easier, and vice versa. not being able to SU my electives upon acceptance of the possibly boring specialisation will definitely pose a great liability to the ever important GPA.

hai so how? i also duno... maybe it's time for me to step up and go with my interest, for once in my life.. but if i dont please understand that society has pushed me into making that ill decision.

dont get all anti-nadal and i wont hate you

2009-06-09T01:56:00.005+08:00

congrats federer for his win in frenchie. :) personally i think he's a legend in this sport and i love popping by his facebook page cus he always updates!! haha. well, he's one of the most graceful players ever, so im tilting my tennis style towards his.. and so far im successful HAHAHA. seriously, if i knew how to serve properly i would be a national player already :P

no doubt i would rather nadal win the crown instead - actually the only other reason keeping me from supporting fed all the way after nadal's loss was in part due to his annoying fans who wont shut up when it comes to criticising nadal. strangely its always his fans doing this kinda things, granted i may be over-generalising. and poor nadal has to bear the brunt of all kinds of trashtalk just cos he's a major rival of fed, like wth?? so it is with increasing displeasure that im even bothering to bring this up.

you can be your diehard federer fan all you want, but you dont have to go around dissing other players who may be better than your idol right? i know for sure i dont do this, the most i would just announce that i dont like so-and-so (for eg soderling) and he can go to hell. hehe. i wont like conjure things out of nowhere and criticise the player. so i find comments that doubt the ability of nadal especially irritating and contradicting - if he doesnt have any talent whatsoever then how did he beat fed in so many situations? not only on clay, but grass as well?!

okay wimbledon is coming up real soon, hopefully nadal will retain his title and silence those fans. but of course im sure they'll come up with illogical issues to talk about again. like if there's nothing to say really, nadal will become a steroid eating guy out of the blue.

.................seriously??? thats the best you got? jealous of his muscles is it? sigh, this is getting so old, have better comebacks leh!!! critique on useful things man.

okay lah disclaimer: i know not all his fans are like that :) so please dont hound me if u happen to be one giant federer fan, in which case this entry has got nothing to do with you lah!!! i still love you all as long as you dont get all anti-nadal on me.

moral of the story? be a humble fan like i am. HAHAHAHA. vamosssssss!

i miss learning spanish :(

marley and me the book and random LONG thoughts

2009-05-30T20:09:00.014+08:00

a miracle. 3 entries in 4 days. hahah.. so as u can see my life has been extremely meaningful this past couple of weeks.

but anyway i have an extremely important question that i need ur reponses to. anyone reading (including secretive people) plsplspls activate my tagboard on this cos i need some opinions and erm, assurance (wth i almost typed assurement gosh!) i guess? LOL here goes...

should i get me an ipod touch!

hahaha. okay it isnt really important but i have been very tempted since uh, ytd, when i played with the iphone. but of course i dont want an iphone since

1. i have a functioning phone
2. rumour has it iphone is not all that great anw and
3 (prob the most impt reason). i think it's a blood sucking investment - not on the phone, but on the freaking data plan. i'd rather stick to my trusty STARHUB plan thanks so yeah.. haha.

anw the only thing that's holding me back from just going straight and buying the touch is of course the cost issue. i mean i dont print money and apparently i dont earn alot from my job too, so this is definitely an act of extravagance, a big no-no in such daunting economic times (HAHA). i just checked, 8GB costs $388 now. $388 is abit too much for a (pretty) desk decoration if i chuck aside yet another impulse buy, is it not? but realistically, i dont think it'll be left unused cos sis can help share the goodies too.

another thing is that im pretty much going mainly for the internet and apps function. i dont care about the phone functions, i dont care about the camera (nothing beats the real camera, period). of course ipod = music DUH. but i dont know what im gonna do with the songs part cos i dont usually download and i'm not about to become a full time pirate (although i dont mind being the leech off my sis' songs) if i get the touch. well, i really cant be bothered to do all the downloading but nt a willing paying customer of cds either. so it'll be essentially wasting the functions of the touch! as phoebe wonderfully puts it: i'll be ruining its christmas destiny HAHAH.

sigh so how. all odds are against buying. hmmm maybe if i do get the ntu bursary it'll be a different story. you all will know where it's gonna be spent on...very productively. hehe. shhhhhh dont tell them. no lah, will definitely spend it on education and self improvement courses! HAHAHA. ahems.

alright, guess that was an earful. here comes more! HAHA but u dont have to read it la actually, it's just for my sake. seldom have flow like this. anw i realised for my entire blog, i have been criticising and never praising. well mostly cos as singaporeans, we complain. and after reading stomp i believed it even more so.

sure, the topics ARE juvenile, but they're entertaining in a warped way. i especially enjoyed the ah beng styled comments about the post itself, questioning the people why they are complaining at something so trivial. i hardly see any posts that arent slammed by the ahbengs, even tho the people have all the right to be unhappy. if the complaint is on inconsiderate uncles/aunties/wadever giving their bags a seat on a crowded bus even tho humans probably tire out more than bags, the ahbengs will scoff mercilessly at the stomper and say "wa ur mouth got gold is it. so unhappy then open ur golden mouth and ask for the seat la. dont dare to ask then come to stomp and complain."

and dont ever end ur post saying: "i hope that the relevant authorities will....." or "i hope the students will not....", even though it sounds reasonable, somehow or other they still get slammed by comments that went roughly like "eh u want to get things done go straight to the person lah. u post on stomp and hope here hope there (exact phrasing) also no use". that threw me off the seat. HAHA couldnt stop laughing. but that leads me to wonder if they are so annoyed by the complaints by fellow stompers then what on earth are they doing even reading it, and horrors, even having a stomp account.

oh wow super off track. but i just completed reading marley and me the novel and i absolutely loved it! i finished it within a day so u can imagine how focused i was. to put things in perspective, i started reading the very thin child-like magician's nephew two years ago and im still barely halfway through.

anyhooos, i knew i'd love the book, i fell in love with the story when i caught the movie last time - it was one of the few movies i actually bothered to wait for the release on vcd/dvd. people say the book's better than the movie, actually most often so hands down. but i think this is different, cos both book and movie (by the way they follow slightly different storylines) have their own special points which can be appreciated.

so if u thought the movie was a tearjerker, wait till u get to the book. im sure it will be kinda a tough read for dog owners who have had their beloved canines passed on, but when you get to the end you know you'll have to move on. forgetting them in the mind but not in the heart. it's still very sweet anyway. go borrow it!!! :)

so those who read till this point, well done and i really appreciate it! hope i didnt bore you in the process tho. alright i shall just share with you all one of my favourite quotes from the book(tonnes more in the book):

"A dog has no use for fancy cars or big homes or designer clothes. Status symbol means nothing to him. A waterlogged stick will do just fine. A dog judges others not by their color or creed or class but by who they are inside. A dog doesn't care if you are rich or poor, educated or illiterate, clever or dull. Give him your heart and he will give you his. It was really quite simple, and yet we humans, so much wiser and more sophisticated, have always had trouble figuring out what really counts and what does not. As I wrote that farewell column to Marley, I realized it was all right there in front of us, if only we opened our eyes. Sometimes it took a dog with bad breath, worse manners, and pure intentions to help us see." — John Grogan

a bonus.

2009-05-28T01:48:00.004+08:00

erhems entries on consecutive days.. that almost never happens. lol. but it feels like a good day to blog so i shall!

was looking thru the cursed ntu email yet again and i found that important mails are still getting stuffed to the last page. uhh is it trying to test my hide and seek skill? grr. anyone knows how to fix that? anw, that mail came with the notification of double major choices. im wondering if i should sign up for it, and if so, what? somemore that means more AUs for me too, which sucks cos im still worried bout nt being able to clear my electives in time!

nothing interests me seriously... like b&f is seriously want me to die? i struggled all the way throughout the sem with hellish FM, altho the examination was quite easy (not trying to be a smartass, i didnt ace it anw) in my opinion. marketing.... nahh, i dont think marketing is a learned subject, it's more of a talent kinda thing - either you have those creative juices or not. econs? or IT (HAHAHA omg shine are u laughing at this.)?? my toes are laughing too. IT... bleah. i think maybe HR ba. either HR or b&f.

ohwell i shall busy myself thinking bout this while leading my oh-so-meaningful holiday then. lol.

anw, my sis is looking to sign up for a gym membership at california fitness! lol. nt sure if she's come to a decision yet, afterall u gotta commit 12mths which is only for those as free as i am! and those fees albeit reasonable in my opinion, isnt exactly cheap. but im also very interested, not so much in california fitness per se.... i just wanna sign up for any kind of effective gym classes that would help shape things up a lil. anything to work those love handles away! somehow it's just very difficult to be determined and exercise regularly without someone breathing down my neck. hmmm.

the laziness in me is probably building up due to excessive tv-watching. haha. have been equipping myself with new knowledge everyday from discovery chn and of course, virtual travelling with discovery travel and living! ahhh.. its practically urging me to go visit europe. too bad i have no financial backing and the H1N1 virus is still going strong. stupid. pls leave singapore out of the loop but too bad we have our first infection already.

so apparently used vegetable oil can be used (what a pun) to run ur diesel vehicle with about the same fuel efficiency, altho u would need some converter. cool eh! and think of the fuel we can save! most people do not know but im a very pro-environmentalism person and i get very irked when i see wastages among the people. admittedly im guilty of many of those acts but i'm trying to change too. so the point im trying to drive across is for us to save the earth!

it's not like we can go shopping somewhere else.

hmmm.

2009-05-27T00:12:00.005+08:00

dont really have any motivation to put anything down into words these days, hence the lack of entries! whatever i typed literally gets erased so i feel like ive wasted one hour not accomplishing anything at all.

anw, today a bird flew into my house (cus i sorta lured it in lol) and scared the wits out of me and sis. the scene of two giants (relative to the bird) freaking out and running away from a little cutesy animal is just damn hilarious. what a sight man.. haha and not to mention sis totally delegated the mission of luring it away entirely to me by hiding in the toilet. like wow, thanks for the help! lol.

its seriously damn scary when its lunging towards you. it's like a giant bug lah, only much cuter. but EQUALLY SCARY. plus it's bright green in colour! hahah. i seriously think its damn smart and crafty. but i feel kinda bad for trying to get it out of my house when it's being so uh, friendly! haha. was so sweaty and tired after fighting it off with my only source of shield - the sofa cushion! lol. my gosh, words dont do justice to how adrenaline filled this encounter was.

HAHA. and coincidentally i was trying to watch Man vs Wild 3 on discovery channel (but missed half of it due to this uninvited guest). its a very nice show btw, u guys should catch it if u have the chance..

okay one last thing. im starting to get increasingly annoyed by ur attitude.. it is seriously damn irritating trying to initiate something with the majesties or whatsoever. you really think u're the heavenly god ah. good grief.

and for the last time, if you treat what's golden as dirt, i will not do anything anymore and wash my hands off everything. may you live in regret then, thanks.

why there good morning

2009-05-15T03:54:00.012+08:00

buenos dias. its close to 4am and im still awake. gotta turn that clock (or the globe) around soon right.

okay so i have been getting complaints that i do not update often or that i write too much or that my blog is pictureless(i'm with you on that!)..... haha well what can i say, many entries with few words against few entries with many words, i'll pick the latter. let my thoughts accumulate! makes me seem a little more deep.

but not very intellectual huh if im watching youtube videos for what, 4 straight hours? but check out jeff dunham the velintriliquist(however you spell it!). seriously, search his videos on youtube - he's AWESOMELY funny. hahaha. those that involve walter are the best! it's downright hilarious, and darkly witty LOL. love it when walter complains about his wife and well, almost everything in his "shut the hell up" voice.

some of my favourites:

jeff: well they say women ages like fine wine
walter: she (his wife) ages like milk.

jeff: how long have you been married?
walter: so whats it now.... 46 years
jeff: ah so what is the happiest moment of your life?
walter: 47 years ago

walter: remember when you said till death do us part?
jeff: yeah
walter: later you realise that youre actually setting a goal.

jeff: youre not too old, i do know that i have grandparents well over their 80s who are still havin fun.
walter: they're 80? good god.. what kinda sex is that?
"was it good for you?"
"ohh i cant remember"
"WE JUST FINISHED"
"who are you...?!!"

HAHHAAHAHA, grumpy old men are funny.... tho i'll hate to meet them. and so now im watching russell peters and his racial jokes too. man it does not get old..

haha whoops 12 hrs have passed since the above paragraph and i shall continue on this entry. hmmm actually nothing interesting for me to update on. unless you wanna hear about the fact that results are coming out next fri CHEERS. lol. exciting isnt it. and i cant wait for me to pass my BTT (yep finally im attempting to learn driving) so i can start being a hazard on the road once again. decided to just enrol as a school member rather than private since im so lazy to source for an instructor that isnt from ubi(my goodness its so far...). if i dont do it now i probably never will. SO yeah.. but that just means money out of my pocket which sucks.

kinda excited bout my pulau ubin trip tmr. LOL.. the only trouble is waking up early and all that travelling. zzz. i suppose next week will be fun too. tentative meetup plans with so many long-lost friends i havent heard from literally, in YEARS. hopefully no awkward silences haha. plus i just talked to my sem2 classmate and found out that he's doing relief teaching too. seems like a very popular job amongst many but it's such a no-no for me after that stint in my tuition centre last year. wow time really flies man that was more than a year ago, cant believe i survived work!sometimes i still feel like im living in 2007 where life was still nice and rosy and nothing seems to matter. budden as with all good things, they just stop living.

and i think i am really okay with it but i really have the habit of reminiscing. and i hate the way things are left between us. sometimes i cant help but being pissed thinking about it but then i realise, ive honestly done all i can and if thats the way its gonna be, so be it la. i really have no intention of wasting any of my braincells further. a new life without all that crap is what i aspire to achieve =D

alrights. time for more videos. shall sign off with some pics, do i hear a resounding FINALLY. yeh they're on facebook but so what, i wana liven my blog. goodbye for now

darius multitasking driving and phototaking. hahaha. (IM KIDDING!)

jieyu pangseh!!!!

i am forever number one but why on earth is my trophy the ntu water bottle from goodie bags. and not to mention the podium is beside some vending machine.

OH YES i just realised the little nyonya shit at the indoor stadium is tomorrow and that means no more of that ABSOLUTE NONSENSE CRAP SONG on advert anymore. yay to that!!

stupid people i encounter at work.

2009-05-04T23:51:00.005+08:00

whining alert:

i can finally relate to michelle's comment bout patients driving her blood pressure high. i managed to encounter a whole bunch of self righteous people, all in one day.

first of all, i cant stand those who complain and complain bout the long wait and pulling a long face at me, and when they come in for their treatment and the doctor asks them if they had been waiting long (sometimes apologizing), they give a very noble reply of "aiya no la..(sometimes in all smiles)". stupid. probably cus they know the nurses cant do a thing to them while the doctor can decide to charge them more or smth.

and today... someone by the name of "Mrs Lee (she refused to tell me her full name - like ohhhhkay im sooooo gonna perform some black magic using her magical name -_-)" actually faked-british-accent me!!! OMG i wanted to slap her. if only i could staple her mouth and knock sense into her over the telephone. i guess she's those kinda well educated person who had to downgrade herself due to the current economic crisis. my god. cant stand these forced-to-downgrade people. to think they can still remain snobbish and think the world is under their control. not anymore my dears!

im usually very very nice...or at least i try to be when i talk to people at work (haha not self praise), which is probably why some assholes will try to walk all over me. ohwell i can be mean if i wanted to... i was this close to faking a british accent back just to make fun of her, but confrontations are just not my style..... and doc would not appreciate me wasting precious time on her. hahaha. =) anw i took the opportunity to hang up on her, that felt kinda shiok. hehe.

good thing i didnt request for full time at the clinic... dont feel like facing people like these everyday. altho i guess, we shouldnt be so picky when the economy is so bad.. budden, it seems that people arent that desperate for jobs anw considering how many people came and went in my clinic (most of whom i didnt even get to see).

i agree with what my dentist says, people are all working for the sake of money. passion... i dont know man. unless u're working in a really fun and exciting job (eg. those related to travelling!!! or the best job in the world which currently people are competing for), i believe that it'll die off eventually. so the only motivation that keeps u going would be the remuneration. so yeah i dont deny im working for the money too, in a way im also glad i chose accountancy since the remuneration factor should be not so bad? hopefully it would be so when i go out to work next time.

anw on another (equally bad) note, this swine flu thingy is really a big buster to many of our plans huh. so troublesome to travel because of it and of course theres the issue of fear yada yada. hopes it blows off soon before our 3 mth break ends so i can at least get to enjoy for awhile. gahhh.

so anw, been eating alot these days, for example last week where me jo and darius' dinner plans became one whole night of eating.. we were still munching away the stingray and lala at 1plus am luh.. how not to get fat? but it was a good night of chilling and chatting, i think D is full of insights about life and all.. LOL. so hmm until now i havent found the time to exercise since im so tired by evening.

maybe i should take up some self improvement courses. always eager to learn new things =) any recommendations?

aiyo. am i the only one who thinks that confessions of a shopaholic is so lame. especially the part where all the financial people seems to embrace rebecca's work and honesty. for real...

cheated all this while!

2009-04-30T01:23:00.006+08:00

WTH!!!! irritated! i just spent..no, wasted probably one hour of my life trying to clear my ntu email. lol i swear..... its a job i wouldnt wanna repeat man. i shall uhm, delete after i read and not let it collate next time. altho, i guess thats what any normal person would do right.. sigh.

should have noticed something wrong already. my unread mail number is increasing everyday, yet i dont see any new mails. and being me, of course i didnt bother to check right. haha.. and to think i still kept commenting bout how its the exam period and they didnt wanna bother us with any emails.

how wrong was i. turns out all my new mails had been directed to god-knows-where...the freaking 2nd last page of my inbox. which is crazy.. who will browse to the 2nd last page?!! and guess what they had been sending me?

countless mails every other day that my mailbox is closed because the size had been exceeded. omg.. they could have saved the little remaining space i have on real emails right.. gahhh. check these out man:

okay no idea why im droning on and on about this email fuss when i had just spent the past hr trying to clear it. haha. ok shall stop whining.

anw tis the season to be jolly because it's time for MEETUPS. gosh... so happy. had so many impromptu lunches this week luh.. and dinner tmr with my happy3friends.. still have not decided where to eat. hopefully wont really go back to ntu to eat macs. LOL. oh yay and another lunch on fri too. so as u can see i probably wont be starting on my exercise plan anytime soon. technically im already behind schedule by 1week. another week wont kill la hor. i need a trainer......

oh yeah, been using so much com these days, seriously pray that i wont go blind! eyes are getting blur-ier and more tired by the day. CANNOT, especially when i keep thrashtalking others about how i have perfect eyesight. heees. okay better sleep earlier tonight.

hmmms. actually a part of me doesnt want the day to come although its really what i'd been hoping for. cus i know, it'll probably be the last time, or at least, for the time being. i guess it just feels better eagerly waiting for the day to come - knowing it eventually will and theres still something to look forward to, rather than it having passed. i really have to learn how to deal with departures man..

so cute!

2009-04-25T01:22:00.010+08:00

i have renewed my love for my nadal!!!! HAHAHA

was (and still am) checking out his interviews and i realised he's incredibly funny. omg.... charming!

he does not merely look good and all. he has a wonderful heart too (and i would know because.....). it really shows in the videos: how he treated everyone, especially kids (DAMN SWEET). omg omg melts. i am in my own world now lol

i wanna be mrs nadal. but we all know how it'll turn out right. haiya his gf is so lucky. ZZZZ. LOL but still, no harm dreaming. :D

and on another note it is really HOT IN HERE. literally burning. and its so stuffy!!! sigh, damn the weird freakish weather. make me sweat after i had taken a bath. seriously this spells trouble man, earth is dying! save the environment leh...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HYjjnfBg-LM ----> this is the best. it's freaking hilarious :D i bet i'd dream of nadal tonight. hahaha sigh i also wanna get hit by the tennis ball if thats what it takes to take a photo with him! RAH random ahahha.

bored

2009-04-23T10:31:00.004+08:00

latest:

muahahhahaha just one word: celebramos!!!!! :D:D:D:D es una fiesta!

oh my.. tres meses de vacacciones. okay la actually the excitement sorta died down already la. now its just 3 months of dunno doing what.

and its just so weird. i dont think that im ever gonna feel the same with you anymore. ohwell.

gonna go learn my spanish song liao. hmmmm suddenly duno what to do with my free time. HAHA.

--

i thought i would really enjoy 1000000% studying for spanish.....

but i guess i was wrong. it's so difficult to stay still and plant ur butt on the chair to study with full concentration when u know there are so many other more interesting things for u to do... it being the last paper doesnt help elevate its importance much either!! really cant stand the dull motion of studying. zz.

NO i cant just relax... cant cant cant especially if every single subject makes a difference to my gpa now. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

plus i have 3 months of break after today.

yeah i should keep cool and go study. go study go study go study!!!!

AAAAAHHHHHHH :D

do you feel the heat?

2009-04-11T02:24:00.007+08:00

wahhhh no time no time no time. i can chant this forever and it still wouldnt change. maybe i shouldnt be blogging then. HAHA.

gosh.. i regret slacking last week away. :( plus i study at the speed of snail probably. think i studied for about than 10 hrs and yet ive only done like 2 lectures. OMG. die. at least im done with financial acct.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh this sucks.

-edits-

haha lazy to start another entry. gahhhh.. cant stop slacking. gotta really pick the pace up already seeing how tough the week is ahead of me. two of my feared papers almost squeezed together. still damn irritated with the schedule.

and as crazy as it sounds, i do miss my lessons man. mainly due to the fact that i managed to get rather interesting profs this sem that really make classes fun. especially so for bizlaw. prof valerie is the best! shes really super (x100000) nice and funny despite being so zai. and altho she's the associate dean of nbs, she displays no airs at all. hopes our class will do well with her insights! :D and marc low for IT. haha. never fails to make us laugh.. profesora cristina too. HAHA :D

so ya whats new... well, accounting let me down..i guess i will have to depend on bizlaw and fm and espanol already... jiu ming ah.

anw the weirdest thing me and sis talk about:
the scene begins with my heartfelt declaration of love for acct when i was still busy mugging for it.

me: i love mr accounting..... but does accounting love me? (but we all know how it turned out)
sis: -_-. eh how you know aa101 is a guy?
me: dont know leh, just feels like it lor.
me: but i think Biz law is a lady.
sis: AHAHA. then OB leh?
me: OB is definitely a man. =D
sis: i think you're too stressed.

you dont agree meh?! hahah.. some non living things just appears masculine or feminine. no wonder they came up with this concept for espanol and french etc anw... haha.

anw to add on to yanling's point about how much we both (high 5) hate the word 'cui'. for full effect pls read her entry (eh are u gonna pay me for advertising ahah), its hilarious!

anw what is the true meaning of cui?!! i really dont know esp when its used in every single context u can possibly find. i think it roughly means like "to be in a pathetic state" or smth to this effect right. but now no more. anything can be and will be cui. its meaning is reduced to a mere "any negative situation". overheard a conv today and the guy kept using it like its the only word in his vocab bank. i wonder why cus he looks quite english educated aniway.

him: yeah the cab fare frm ______ to _______ is about $____ (blanks cus i forgot the details)
him: cui!

..............

in what sense is it cui? it is simply EXPENSIVE. not to slam anyone who likes to use this word, i dont mind it every now and then but it definitely irks me if it is used for every single frigging thing. like ur com is cui, the light is cui, the air is cui, the ceiling is cui, ur imaginery friend is cui, everything under the sun, on top of the sun, things not in existence, they are all cui!!!!

omg hurhur. what an emotional entry.. must be the stress.

was talking to Z this morning. =D gahhhh, anw one thing to do before i die: go watch a live NBA game!!! hai so many things that i wanna do man.. and makes me think about going for exchange to experience all these too.... shall psycho people again to apply with me

phew what a long entry. ok no time to waste, bizlaw and dreadful FM here i come!

so do you think you are very funny?

2009-04-05T15:34:00.003+08:00

strong personalities are damn hard to take, even harder to swallow.

please learn the proper etiquette of being around humans. stop edging the line because if you cross it, there's gonna be some hell to pay.

reminds me of friends: "u're so far past the line, you cant even see the line, the line is like a dot to you." LOL. random. that was a good line.. hahah pun.

exam fever man.. gotta stop slacking. cant wait for it to be over... tho it prob will before i even know it. 2 weeks is just too rush man. how to study when the following tuesday after our last tutorial week is exams. ok i can deal with the fact that there's no study break...but every paper being packed like sardines is just too irritating. cant even understand why ntu wanna chase us away so fast aniway.

oh ya f1 2009 has started.. previously sucky teams are now rising to the top, and ferrari is like scoring zero points? bummer.. i believe it's actually very interesting if not for the fact that my whole family supports raikonnen. ahha. looks like another tough season for him. and hamilton still sucks!!!!!! i really dont know how he can feel good winning points by lying.. glory is not forever boy!

anti-PDA

2009-03-27T01:16:00.005+08:00

have mountains of work to do (including a test tmr GASP) and yet im doing the least productive of all - blogging. lol.. this is too boring already man. facebook fails to entertain me also. but what's with the personality tests or the gazillion quizzes (which f4 star are u... when will you die.. which greek goddess are u..) that everyone is doing on fb these days? i wanna try it too but i'm too lazy to...

so anw, just wanted to share my 1000 bu shuangs on some increasing trend in schools these days, PDA. it's seriously..............gross. i used to be of the opinion that well, if a couple is gorgeous and they have something to flaunt about (maybe their equally hot significant other) then i guess their lovey dovey actions wouldnt be so irritating. but im seeing too many of all these shit in lectures so im against this!!! ahhhhhh.. and worse if the couple is gross (actually they account for like 99% of all the PDAs i see.. seriously no idea how they can be that oblivious..) today my eyes almost bled to death seeing this weird guy trying to take advantage of his gf while his gf seemingly enjoyed it.. my god... YUCKS. ahha..

seriously, if you're gross and u know it, pls dont do shit like this to make people even more grossed out! and what more in lecture where people's learning could be impeded (LOL). i mean people are minding their own business and there you are, in the view of everyone....how not to see?!!! and the thing is.............

i dont think they are in our biz law cohort.

what the hell are u trying to do. spread the love to nbs?! GOSH we dont need it thank you very much.. i should track them down and make them pay additional school fees. well u there's no free lunch in this world right. those bizlaw insights and aircon from the LT dont come free. and secondly we should force them to be liable for any damages (like blindness) to students, as a consequence of their tortious act. hees. well, it's still fun to put law into practical use.

the people sitting behind my row were also actively commenting on them.. hahaha. darius was noticing strange things... sis was laughing.. jason was giving this weird frown and sarcastic remarks like "wah... got so itchy meh". hahaha.

at least its entertainment for us?

a disgusting one tho... people these days. tsktsk. i think the more couples get touchy with each other in public, the more i dont sense the love in them. more like lust, and grossness. zzzz. i predict that they will break up very soon... what do you think? HEHE.

quite awhile back i saw this couple, quite old already (maybe in their 60s/70s?), but were holding hands. haha. i thought they looked pretty sweet. LOL.. dont usually see people of their age holding hands anw..

oh well whatever, why am i blogging about this anw. too stressed up already man... wasted half an hour of my life. shall catch up with lost time and study for fm now. ARGGHHH.. shitz i havent done my part for my proj yet.. hope groupmates wont skin me tmr! :D

wannna go holidayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy with my happy3friends. :)

just dance + pokerface

2009-03-22T03:14:00.003+08:00

i know im slow or whatever, i cant stop listening to just dance and pokerface!!!! hahaha. i agree that they're overplayed and all but the tunes are really addictive! keep catching myself humming to 'just dance' randomly throughout the day. too bad someone doesnt like em.. lol.

listen to 'lucky' by jason mraz too. nice song.

shytezzz, am suddenly feeling abit weird. physical weirdness. feeling the feverish kind of nua-ness. ahhh. hopes i dont fall sick man. gotta work tmr too zzz. my dentist is too hardworking alr, coming back to work immediately after returning from his japan trip. hai.. his kids are damn lucky. bet their more well travelled than most adults la.

so whats new this week.. well, am finally done with all my presentations (minus the acc tut the teacher just assigned us zzz). must really do tutorials man, learnt the lesson last week where i totally had no idea what the teacher was talking about cus i didnt do the questions. was sitting in front somemore. spent like half the time praying my tutor wont call on me or smth. i think she's scary. not fierce scary... but i cant stand her stares. HAHA.

i decided that i quite like accounting (as in the module AA101, accountancy still kinda bores me a little haha) afterall, tho im not very good at it. beats financial management any day man... cant really see the point in FM, everything's so.... estimated? spent half my life reading the notes and barely understanding them. guess im still a sciencey person at heart. i miss bio!!!!! :S but no labs for me pls.

espanol is still the best!!!! :D im actually looking forward to studying for the test next wed. haha! dont stare at me in disbelief.. zz.

feels rather weak now... oh yeah there was a rainbow today at yew tee. not sure if it was everywhere, but if so i hope kohhuishiney didnt miss it this time! haha. it was so random, the sky was literally bright red at like 7pm. and if my sister hadnt noticed it, i wouldnt have looked out of the window, and i wouldnt have seen the rainbow. looks like i'll be having some good luck aye. lol.. hopefully ba.

oh my 0335hrs already. okay i'd better sleep now or i'd drop things at the clinic again tmr. lol. nights all..

yawn-ze...

2009-03-10T01:53:00.003+08:00

haha, damn sian from all the research and projects, so decided to take a break from it! lol actually im slacking 80% of the time luh. if i really wanted to do serious work i probably should disconnect myself from the internet or something.

so whats new these days.. nothing much except for the not one, but two ntu deaths which i am bursting with opinions about actually, just dont think its very wise to say it online. but it's seriously...... ugh. irritating. ming yu sao di. wth.

alritesss! so aniway, was distracted by the show 'unexpected access' hosted by wong li lin ytd, wah really damn explicit la. surprised that it can actually go on air, at a time where kids might not have gone to sleep yet. i can take the gore tho. hurs. but the episode ytd was really really sad, more than anything else. was about reconstructive surgery on children i think. the little boy of only 4 years old had severe burns all over, caused by some air conditioning unit that fell on his bed and caught fire. and not only that, his hand had to be amputated. sigh.... heart really went out to him when he was crying while getting the gauze changed. can u imagine the life he could have had, the pain he had to suffer. man.. and yet we still have people here leading a good life albeit a tad stressful, and still wanting to kill themselves. ZZZZ. im just saying.

ohwell, it's already passe so let's get over it. im sensing everyone else had already, life's more than normal. hees.

ohhh yeah, went for a jog too on sat after deciding not to end up like a typical tertiary student who doesnt exercise for the whole 3 years. it was freaking tiring la. managed only half a yew tee. so sad... i must continue to get back to those happier, skinnier days! i miss being able to run comfortably.. zzzz..

hmm i think bed's calling. 0223hrs. i should stop living in the time zone of the US! tho someone is there and it's a good day.. hmmmm. uhhhhhh. okok i shall go off then. bye you party animals. hahah.

breaking news!

2009-03-02T03:19:00.003+08:00

...... i am on facebook!

HAHAHAHA. ohkay la dont think anyone will care.. and yanling pls dont slam me for betraying our principles. hahaha. dont worry, i will keep to the rest of my promises (like NEVER using the word cui, disgusting disgusting word :S ).. i hope i didnt say i would never sign up for fb tho. hees.

so anw, i have like a pathetic number of friends so please take the step to stay connected! tho i probably would have added everyone reading my blog. hmmm. its damn tiring to add people. LOL.. another reason not to have facebook - you'll be suckered into this 'competition' of who has more friends. heh heh. and its not as fast as i thought.. loading time so long. rahhh.

anw, it's totally not possible to spy on people cus im not friends with them! thats so sad... im indignant....as a consumer (quote from FRIENDS!!!!). not being able to stalk on people is a fundamental breach! LOL ooops too much bizlaw. it's one of the reasons i went to explore fb actually. anything to be distracted from my assignment. so difficult. gahh.

okay anw, helped out for impresario ytd and officially wasted a studying day away yet again. dont think i helped out much but at least i got to watch the competition! and it was really good in my opinion, tho it would probably be better if they had included more english songs. not that i mind chinese songs (with my new found hobby of k-ing), i just thought it would be better if it could cater to the non-chinese. in any case, the contestants are seriously very talented. my gosh. they all have huggge lungs i bet, and the dances.. WOAH.

and i believe i saw terrence toh amidst the crowd... HAHA. shocking. and to the same u-know-who, i saw u-know-who too! HAHA. i was tired of standing so i just so happened to slack in the row in front of him and he spotted me. got another shock.. its difficult to talk in such a loud place. got a headache after that la. haha. hmmms~

shytes its like 4am again.. sigh. so tired. and i havent done my accounting tut which is like tmr. in fact i havent done ANY studying over the week have i already mentioned. zzzz. gotta buck up already. this sucks.

okay off to sleep now. ESPANOL TMR! happy.

i love marley!! :D

recess week....or not.

2009-02-28T04:26:00.004+08:00

whew, what a day! and it's 4.30am yet again.. waiting for hair to dry so i shall attempt to wipe some dust off this blog. hmmm.

rahh, i think im living in the wrong time zone man, US timing suits me more. think i only slept normally for one day before reverting back to this kinda timing again, where the birds start chirping and everything... which is freaking noisy i must say, but i think it reminds me of the good ol' uniform days so it's okay. :D

hmm, realised i always end up listening to other people's blogs songs altho i dont really like some of them. no idea why but i have this odd thing about me - i dont like songs to be stopped halfway. must be OCD acting up again.. lol. so i either anticipate and pause before they start or just listen em until they end. most of the time i navigate away so joyce arent u honoured i ALWAYS let 'yellow' play all the way? hehe.. loves the song. anyone wanna go catch coldplay's concert? haha.

aniway, as i was saying, what a day. or rather, what a week. believe it or not, recess week is almost over. it's seriously not a break la, let's see what i have breathing down my neck. 1 individual written assignment, 2 presentations some weeks away, 2 FM reports, 1 accounting report and 1 database IT project which nobody seems to care/wanna do. HMMM. i think it's gonna be a struggle ahead man so i'd better pull up my socks and STUDY this week or else no time to do so anymore.. sigh... drowning. yet im still like slacking away.

today was a totally wasted day, as in studying-wise. cus it was rather fun and high! haha. started off with work in the morning which wasn't so ummm, enjoyable. thankfully i didnt get slaughtered by the patients la cus of my dentist's delay. he came in bout 3hrs late. gosh. im happy i survived it.. earnt 53bucks for today (pay's pretty good HAHA) but sadly it was gone in a flash man after an outing with sis... hai, should probably save up during such bad times! haha.

after a movie i spent more money again (i've transformed from espirit girl to ZARA girl!! haha upgrade) and was supposed to head home actually but ended up going to this chillout place called "the teaparty" with amery and his friends. it was hilarious man, watching them play monopoly. i was the conservative banker who didnt wanna part with the cash. HAHA.

hmmm, the way they play monopoly is really different from how i used to play it! gosh, must be because sis anyhow make up the rules again. she was very fond of doing that last time.. still rmb how she taught us """"""chinese chess"""""". LOL cant emphasize more on how wrong her concept was... heh

aniway amery ended up kicking everyone's ass la. hilarious, there was this whole stretch of dangerous territory that ended up making everyone bankrupt. HAHA. then i, as the banker, kept giving them $200 subsidies everytime they passed one round. freaking hilarious. i was damn gleeful the whole way.

but hai got home so late again.. and tmr gotta be down for impresario finals (yes they finally called us out to help) the whole day!! heng we managed to be stationed in nanyang audi so we can prob watch the competition as well. yay... ahaha. happy. okay so i gotta be up in bout 4 hours time?? man.. gonna be so sleep deprived again. rahh..

okay shall go now. goodnites everyone..

can't cure this missing you. looks like im never gonna be able to let this feeling go.

i will follow you into the dark.

2009-02-16T03:46:00.003+08:00

buenos dias.. woah it's 4am again.

quick post. zzz.. plus mom usually likes to creep arnd at this time to ask me to sleep and if not for my strong heart, i would have suffered some serious heartattacks a million times over. haha.

been sleeping at unearthly hours lately and barely getting 4 hours of shuteye each day. but not exactly suffering from sleep deprivation either cus of my long naps. hehe.. feels good to abandon everything and just be....unaware of everything that's around. where u can choose to dream on - exercise ur imagination, or just be in complete oblivion and... a living breathing blob. hahah.

aniway, learnt about the passing of an ajcian bout a week ago, and it still tugs the heart altho i dont know her personally. she seems like a really nice person from the testimony of others. cant imagine how her loved ones, friends and family, must be feeling. not really in the position to say much, but i really hope they'll recover soon.

hmmmmmm.. perhaps i should go now. dont really know what else to say. but anw i hope to earn some money so i can go for self improvement courses. haha.. random. gotta take up driving by year end. cant let people who are 2 years younger get a license before me!!!! haha.

so many other things to learn. at least i have done spanish... hopes to take up something musical (say piano!!!?!), new sports, and i wanna travel! i should just casually ask my uni friends if they wanna go on a trip this holiday then.. mmhmm..

nites, its 4.09am! gosh.. early morn again laterz.

i will follow you into the dark......

contrary to my expectations.....not aching!!

2009-02-09T22:23:00.007+08:00

hola amigos. teehees :D

feeling rather happy now after having caught up with my sleep. am so sleep deprived for.. no reason. zzz. and of course, had quite a blast ytd :D

firstly, i climbed 60storeys, on the narrow, viewless, small, (insert all kinds of bad adjectives) flights of stairs. and there was no dramatic rooftop finishing btw. haiyo, where's the incentive?! anw it was rather unglam and diu lian (understatement!), but im glad i have awesome, patient teammates. hahah. you-know-who, u can consider you-know-who u know. HAHA. i think he's very nice. and his friend is quite funny.. too bad i wasnt in the condition to respond to his jokes. LOL. the colour pretty much drained from my face every step i took. :O time for exercise!

but anw, the side games were quite fun. miss national netball player couldnt get a pass thru the hoop while i (the renowned bad passer) did! HEHEHE. dont kick me :) showed off my superb archery skills too with the target so close to the shooting line. haiyo. and we pretty much hogged the bball arcade machine. super fun!! tho my arms were aching. why so unfit?!

after that went for the surprise birthday party for nik and tash planned by nadine...! HAHA. was rather last min but im glad i went. hmmmm.. i was late but still had to wait for the queens to arrive. lol. and cus i went alone while the others were all in their happy groups, i was like omg what should i do... should i read (i had my essential spanish book with me)? hahahah! but i think their church friends're very nice and friendly. and musically inclined.

plus i dressed damn lok kok-ly la. i should request they mosaic my stinky clothes and fbt and photoshop in some glam outfits..

oooooooooooooooooook. gosh. slacked the whole day yet again. somehow i feel like lazing my years away. lol kidding. hmmmmms. suddenly missing everyone.

natasha tay hui if ure reading. let's hang out soon ok! you havent treated me to my meal leh. haha. dont disappear from my life ok. same goes for you, you, you, you, and you.....!

haha K-boxing tmr! woohoo. gotta go rehearse some songs now. lol. oh wait, should preserve voice. hahaha. alright then..

hasta luego!

THANKS lun for being my buddy for almost... everything. new year shopping, feasting, sports.. life's awesome with u arnd!

hope i get pics from the party too. yep... better go study. nah i think i'd prefer sleeping. hmm. goodnites!

edit:

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你
带我走过最难忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的纪念品

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息

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i think chinese songs are the most emo of all when it comes to the lyrics. why always lost love?! in any case, i like this song very much (: cheers... cant wait to k later!

UGH

2009-02-05T22:10:00.006+08:00

you make my blood BOIL.

i hate u. honestly i do. cant stand the mere sight of you. or ur voice. or whatever that relates to u. i want you GONE.

yet you're still here. why are u still here... piece of crap. big fat effing parasite. i hate u. have i said that already?

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......

dont think anyone's ever irked me so much before.

once again.........noone here needs ur 'help' thank you. dont think that by offering to do things then everything is nice and rosy. everyone here hates u FYI. its so tough pretending not to feel anything..... so i decided to just drop the act and be hostile. dont see why i should be nice aniway. there u are having a time of ur life while practically everyone else is obviously not happy.

get the point u dense head....... or are u just pretending not to so u can take advantage like u always do.. wah lauuuuuuuuuuu i need an aunt agony!!! but then again, it's not something to publicise aniway. gahhh. not trying to sound like a victim or some noble person but i really feel like im sacrificing alot here. there's a limit to a person's tolerance and im about to max out all my patience and kindness.

i asked her why she does not say anything despite being equally unhappy and i was quite disappointed by the answer. so it's just to protect another person huh. wth..... what a lame answer.

in retrospect i should have really stayed in hall or something. i dont like it here.

please. go to hell. and i hope the fire there will burn ur unusually thick skin.

hai.. i feel sad. looks like all the pretence has taken its toll. :(

do u think i should just air my views? i really want to, but there's just so many things to consider. zzz. oh yeah met up with jiaying and shuling for dinner the other day, it was really awesome. had loadsa fun crapping around with them but also at the same time, we talked about the serious stuff, bout.....life? how people change when they as they grow older, for better or for worse. and having to weigh everything that they say. considering the repercussions of our words. like when u were young u didnt care if u lost ur image or hurt someone's feelings by throwing a tantrum, losing ur temper, picking up a fight. u scold someone, u make up with that person in no time. thats just how kids work.

oh well... verbal dirrhoea. just needed someplace to rant. shall go now. early lesson tmr. nites!

vamos!!!!!!

2009-02-03T00:33:00.003+08:00

tennis fever. :D

played tennis at least 3 times these past few days... plus i totally sat my butt down for 4+++hrs watchin nadal vs federer, abandoning the mountains of work i have. not good, ended up blanking out for acct tutorial today :( but gosh, its never boring watching a feds-nadal finals. if anything, its THRILLING stuff. lol.. extremely happy that nadal emerged victorious but at the same time, it was really heartwrenching to see federer break down like that. :( i suppose it made everyone wanna cry together with him man... could see how much the title meant to him..

nvm, what nadal said was true anw, feds shouldnt forget that he is still a legend.

ohwell.. so nth much going on these days. just slacking around. actually i shouldnt be blogging now seeing how i still have 3 tasks on my agenda left undone... rahhh. okay anw signed up for vertical marathon! haha. i forsee it'll be quite tough for me seeing how i struggled to even climb 8 stories. LOL. oops. but then again, my sis' friend managed to complete it within 10mins so i guess it shouldnt be that inconceivable.

anw the date coincided with the impresario semi finals.. donkz. sometimes i dont even know whats the purpose being in the subcom.... they dont inform us about anything until the last min. was i of any help thru the planning of the event? hmmmmmmmmmmm besides contributing the measly 20bucks from stanchart i really cant recall what/how ive contributed. ohwelllllll.

espanol rocks! HAHA. random. but the sentence structure and and almost everything is really different from english so im afraid my grammar will deteriorate after the completion of the course. lol.. hopefully we;ll learn more stuff soon cus right now i only know how to introduce myself and nth else... HAHA. oh and numbers... :)

lala~~~~~~~~~~ sigh sometimes i hate being at home. dont even know why i must be subjected to all that nonsense all the time. back to the question of "in what way does all these seem normal to you?". haiya......... some people are just so thick skinned. people give way then u just inch further and further and further like who the fuck do u think u are. zz. everything also use use use use like we're obliged to give. a little bit it's fine la but i think u've really crossed the line. and sometimes i also duno why u cant just use ur authority and have some say in this. as if complaining non stop will help. see la, now wanna turn back also cannot already. qing shen rong yi song shen nan. wtf.

alright i'd better gone back to my beloved project and books. :(

I FEEL LIKE KBOXING!! anyone wanna go wimme? hehe

hasta luego!!!!!! :D

come home..

2009-01-23T17:24:00.002+08:00

Come home, Come home
Cause I`ve been waiting for you
For so long, For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I`ve ever known
So come home
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lol, current obsession with this song - come home by one republic. man, it must have been the saddest song ive heard in a very long time. cant stop listening to it. lol. all sis' fault. lol. of all things go and be obsessed with gossipgirls. HAHA. is the show really that nice? didnt really bother trying to watch since she sort of powered thru the dvd damn fast. hmmm, only one guy cute what.. nateeeeeeeee! :D

anw... finally a well-deserved CNY break! other than the holidays part im really feeling quite neutral bout it. it feels just like any other day, whats e difference? other than people dressing nicer, being noisier, cooking more, eating more, spending/receiving (depends how old u are lol) more money etc. haha. my dentist and marc low said the exact same thing. it's the season for comparing yet again. us humans(or is it just singaporeans???) seriously spend our whole life comparing... grades, apparel, hp, playstation, career, then kid's grades, then kid's careers, then grandkid's grades....... i dont see an end to it man.

lol all the blogging spirit seemed to have departed from me. cant even think of anything to say, tho quite alot of things happened lately. yawns... i should really start exercising more too. muscles were actually aching solely from running. mind you it wasnt intensive or anything.. zz

blah... bored and no inspiration. shall go watch FRIENDSSSS!!! :D haha. till the day im blessed with more creativity, i shant blog so much.

happy new year!

of school.

2009-01-07T00:47:00.008+08:00

(080109 0052hrs)

omg im addicted to blogging. lol super no life. ohwells. what a tiring day today again!!! dont really feel like blogging bout the ecp orientation thingy. went there to bake myself in the sun and subject my legs to more uhhh, weathering. LOL. dead beat from all the standing and walking today. good exercise tho.

anw. xiao niang re had a really sucky ending. WTH. it's worse than a happy happy happy ending. wasted 2 hours of my life watching that piece of crap. actually i already sensed that it's going downhill but its still a rude shock. haha.. now the 9pm show is... no comments. but i know if someone doesnt kick that irritating yaya little girl i am going to. =p

oh and K-ing is damn fun! hahah. and i actually picked more chinese songs compared to english one can u believe it. prob cus the eng MVs are so ugly that it's such a turnoff.. aniways i went the other day and i realised how sucky my microphone voice is. okay fine maybe not JUST on the mike. haha. im suddenly an ardent fan of jay chou, realised i could sing most of his slow songs! and i totally paiseh-ed myself cos i could only sing the chorus part for some other songs. damn funny. so while zh was singing so nicely i was busy zhao xia-ing and wrecking the song at the side. gahhh.. i thought i was better than this but apparently i was wrong... haha. luckily there weren't many people or i also dont know where to bury my face.

i wanna learn to play the piano!!
--

(070109)
bahhh. am supposed to be sleeping right now.. need as much rest as i can cus of some event i've stupidly involved myself in early morning tmr (actually technically today, gah!), hopefully it'll be really fun or what, if not i can just shoot myself in the head. ohwells despite that im still online and blogging because my hair isnt drying.. haha, the woes of long (straight) hair. =p

oh yeah everyone's been commenting on my hair lately when they see me real life or online. haha.. i cant help but beam with pride tho i know that someday the mane will still come back to haunt me. LOL. ohwell, shall enjoy the smooth straight hair while it lasts... and thanks for the compliments!!! haha self praise....

zz, hotmail really sucks through and through. wonders why it doesnt seem to wanna load even after refreshing countless times. maybe i should just switch to gmail or something. speaking of which i believe im probably the only soul who doesnt own either a facebook or gmail account. HAHA. people keep asking me to set up fb.. but aiya, it's principles vs uhhhh social norm. we'll see how it goes, keep tempting me, maybe i'll cave.

lala, first day back in school today....refreshing! it was nice seeing everyone again esp OB people and having our own picnic session during the lecture as usual. and darius dropping ever random comments that make us go -_-... the accounting lecturer was saying something bout assets and liabilities for the balance sheet and he went, "friends are assets too..." LOL madness.

oh well, i only went for a 2hr lecture and that's how tuesdays are gonna be for me. now i know why im having a whooping 5 day week... 2 of my days are absolutely fei4. one lesson per day is seriously......... a waste of day. LOL. pissed off at my timetable but i doubt i can shift it or do the e-swop thingy since noone would wanna take my fri 830am slot aniway. ass..

on the 5th i specially went to school to celebrate my sis's bday with her friends at ntu's sakae. haha they tricked her into carrying her tennis stuff all day but there were so many hiccups. including me smartly leaving the rackets at home :X hurhur too bad sis was slow to catch on our very flawed scam... was quite funny when she verbally pieced all our strange behaviour together finally.. and especially where she picked the numbers for toto. LOL.. classic.

yawnnns. 0115 hrs. i guess i'd better go off to bed now or i'll just faint tmr. gotta reach ecp at 7am.. that means waking up at 5!!!! omigod, duno why i always accept canvassing projects that make me sacrifice my beauty sleep. complexion is already as ugly as it is. zzz.. oh well, goodnights everyone! blog more soon.

hmmm.. and to you...all....... all the best in army!

you'll be safe here

2009-01-01T01:27:00.005+08:00

happy 2009! *cheers*

this feels like a good year despite me feeling damn bored now with nothing to do. watched the countdown on tv just now..... no idea why the mediacorp people always like to fake enthusiasm when it comes to this kinda stuff.. ohwell! im only convinced by the reactions, or rather, the lack of it, from rui en. haha. she's super cool! qi yuwu too! chen xi.. haha.

the channel 8 party at vivo was much more enjoyable than its channel 5 counterpart at the floating platform. i know all the celebs lipsynced but the chn 5 people were being too obvious and it was so hard not to have goosebumps from their awkwardness. at least fake abit right... or maybe they did, that's why it was so fake. hmmm, i only enjoyed the live (truly) performance by rivermaya which happens to be the first song i hear in 2009 - you'll be safe here! stopped listening to it cus someone didnt like it but now it's different! haha.

hrmmmss! the last few days of 2008 was spent rather nicely for me.. haha. went for bbqs, cycling at ecp which almost ruined my butt and knees. but someday i'd want to cycle that long stretch of road to changi!! tho i'll probably be in great pain after accomplishing that. haha. not sure whats wrong with my knee joints but if they dont improve i might have to see a doctor bout it.. boo.

also met up with long lost friends but sadly i havent received the pics! gosh, i should save up and visit people who are studying abroad! it'll be awesome man, if only airfares werent so steep. blah. can't wait to go travelling..

anw sis just got back from phuket and she's become so tanned. HAHA. hilarious. and today amery sang while cooking pasta, supposedly to imitate the high class chefs and make the food nicer. not sure if the singing contributed to its taste but i think he has a nice voice! abit like a choiristor! nice.. haha. and eragon is a stupid sucky movie so dont watch. but if u do pls let me be there so i can watch ur expression. HAHA.

alritess enough of all the random stuff. im going to sleep soon... hmmmm hopes to take up driving this year! haha.. okok happy new year once again!

nites world.

merrrrrryyyy little christmas!

2008-12-26T03:18:00.007+08:00

our wishes for 09!

oh wow.. im actually blogging again. 3rd time this week i think, what a miracle. probably people are gonna strike 4d liao..

0319hrs. am rather awake still despite walking arnd the whole day and not napping! today was quite a good day spent with jy and sl... haha. was supposed to showoff our superb voices to the world at some ktv place in chinatown, but the rooms are fully booked till jan 5th can you believe it. tho it's not really surprising la since school kids (assuming they form the majority of ktv people) are back to their very own hellhole once more so they'll empty up the place abit.

anw, town was flooded with people as expected. no idea why we chose to go there in the first place, maybe squeezing with people was fun or sth. but we left orchard after awhile anw.

hmmm, dont really celebrate christmas, but i feel this year has been pretty quiet. quiet CNY, quiet holidays, quiet birthday, quiet christmas, quiet new year most probably. quiet not as in boring, just.... ______ (blank). probably the lack of big groups of people celebrating ba. last year there was 1606, ajnb... pity my marketing group didnt organise anything. hmm. and come to think of it i've never gotten the chance to go around and bai4 nian2 like everyone else cus most of the relatives are in msia. seeing how things are now it might never happen. oh well, this year's been abit disappointing if you ask me, really hated 2008. zzz. haha. nvm, it will end in a matter of days..!

so yeah, was walking around with two 'bai2 ka1's the whole day at marina square but i still dragged them all around without any mercy. hehe. they were pretty amazed that my legs werent aching like theirs were. endurance training owing to my dental job..! shopped, crapped, ate, arcade-ed....simply catching up. it's nice. =D and the pics are nice too... gotta steal them from shuling's blog!

and the stupid flu was really irritating throughout the day. blew my nose like nobody's business and im sure thats why my head's hurting now.. haha. maybe the brain will explode from the huge pressure. kinda sounds like grey's anatomy with the blown artery case. was suddenly watching it again on starworld cus the medical cases are always quite interesting tho exaggerating. kinda makes up for the fact that meredith is just oh-so-annoying being her whiny self.

sian, its 0400 already. heard some strange noises again just now so i switched on my fan so that it wont be so quiet. am paranoid that once i turn arnd i would see things.. lol. zzz that reminded me of the nightmare i had the other day. i can still remember that sound. freaking creepy. exactly like that of..... oh no better stop thinking.. scared stiff. shall go now!

nites world... congrats for getting thru the entry, hence some pics for ya!

ill

2008-12-23T01:54:00.004+08:00

zzz. im ill AGAIN, suffering from running nose and i think i need a breathing aid or sth. come to think of it i believe i've fallen sick at least 10 times this year. guess im getting weaker by the day. haha.. sian, im seeing the effects of ageing. bahh.

anw, went over to my aunt's house (without sis... AGAIN) for dinner ytd. had so much to eat..! and man was it crowded. it's like a mini gathering for my mom's side relatives. i thought i would die of boredom being the only teenager there but it turned out quite alright ba. altho there was not much for me to do except to play with the dog or my baby cousin. hahah. she's hilarious.. amused by everything, and screaming at everything. chasing the dog around (if i were a dog i'll be scared of her), squealing with joy when she sees the MRT. haha..

blissful childhood moments. i didnt understand most of her words though.. LOL. i suppose shes talking in her own baby lingo.... while her p6 bro is busy slanging away while playing his psp. haha. cute! and im not good at bomberman... rahhh.

anw, they started discussing the issue again, like what to do about the whole thing. dont think they came to a conclusion since the problems have become more serious now. didnt really need to eavesdrop cus they were talking so loudly, and i had to translate all that cantonese on my own.. heh. i understood okay.. ohwell..... just pray that everything will be fine!

hrmss. i feel like watching YESman. sometimes i think i should say yes a little more to liven up my life. probably the biggest regret is to keep hiding and backing away and watching my life pass me by. zzz. courage is what we all need.

alright it's getting late, mom cant wait for me to go to sleep so i can start saving electricity by switching off the laptop and lights. what to do, times are getting real hard, must save this, save that. electricity, water, everything. zzz. nowadays im also walking around without any cash on me... haha.

nights!

and yet, im still wondering...

tyra banks should stop making a fool outta herself

2008-12-17T22:33:00.005+08:00

the title speaks for itself... i wanted to watch antm just now but i forgot how irritating tyra banks was and almost got a shock of my life when i saw her doing downright stupid things... and then i remembered, oh ya thats just tyra.

i think she should keep her sanity in check. why did she become flabby and uncool?!! and i cant stand the way the contestants cheered at every single thing she says, or just at the sight of her. i mean, what is there to cheer about?!!! it sorta reminds me of this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xgZKjJt-TkU

MadTv rocks my socks!! i love their parodies of popular tv series and reality shows.. go browse thru if ya'll have the time, its just pure entertainment.

anyhoos, check this out too.....drumline! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a-ONW4hUpMs

really, go watch!! gosh, it's awesome, makes me wanna learn the snares. and maybe teach the aspiring drummer in my estate to start learning RHYTHM. my god, u guys should come stay at my house and observe all the weird people.. :S we have drummers, parade commanders (yeah, weirdd huh) and loud sneezers, coughers... etc.

zzz. hmm anw, my boring blog, i didnt know if people were reading, so i was like, heck it, maybe if i left it alone to rot, new entries might magically appear. i was gonna make it more interesting by putting up a new blogskin, but well... the process is just so tedious and daunting. and the new blogskins.com isnt exactly very user friendly, i prefer the old one. so anw, i got bored after looking at the first ten skins. then i decided that designing stuff (or rather, cutting and pasting html) just wasnt my forte and i went to watch tv instead.

anybody with strong interest in blogskins wanna help me out? =D

so anw, turns out im not going overseas at all this holiday. not as if visiting relatives without sis (she's going phuket!!!) was gonna be real fun or what, but at least it would be.....something. ohwell.

hmmm, long story short, apparently something happened back home in msia. so yeah... sigh. we may not be real close but it still tugs my heart to hear of such happenings. things i thought would never, ever happen to us eventually did, blowing way outta proportion. zzz.

anw, woke up with not only a scratchy sore throat, but also sore ABS and TRICEPS. whahaha.yeah, back to gymming ytd, and boy was it crowded. i forgot its the freaking school holidays and probably everyone's rushing to build up their body for the upcoming christmas and new year. as usual people hogged the abs machine again.. rahh.

okay last event. haha. i found out something really jing4 bao4 ytd and i do think i make a great spy. haha.. i duno why but i am feeling all wooozy and sian-ed by it. is it cus it's him..?

ohwells!!!

december the seven

2008-12-08T22:01:00.004+08:00

december the seventh. one word for it.... SHAGGED.

the main gist is that i really appreciated the runners who thanked us for trying our best to meet their drinking demands.. its really quite pressurizing for us as well when the drinks depleted and the never ending flow of runners kept crowding around the drinks table. for a very very long time, all i could see were hands.

as for the runners (and very sadly, mostly singaporeans) who scoffed at us when we were furiously scooping the 100plus from the tub using the cups instead of pouring it from the jugs.. SHAME ON YOU. i cant believe a physically drained person could actually utter comments like "ehhhhh your hands clean or not?!" when he is in need of some energy source. are they freaking kidding me... honestly we would be better off if they had gone ahead and continue another few kilometres in their thirst. maybe we could then be more hygenic without the unappreciative people.

seriously, people who dont appreciate really IRKS me.

and therefore i am still hoping you wont be one of them, but you are.. no different. does the one who loves more really inevitably suffer more? forgeddit, i just hoped you had chosen to leave things differently. and u could start off by not giving me the impression that u find it a freaking chore to talk to me.

haiyaaaaaaaa whatever.... on another note, should i ask?!!!!! hahaha. i think the idea of doing so would be quite weird and uh, desperate? but if i dont then i doubt i'll be seeing him anytime soon... haha. zzzzz. damn you exchange prog! LOL..

alright. shall go. maybe things will turn out okay.

overrrrrrrr

2008-12-02T21:36:00.002+08:00

exams over wooohooo. finally man.

was hoping that i could finally spend some time with several groups of people... welll... all i can say is, hopefully so.

5 more days. i seriously pray and wish that maybe, just maybe, something will happen. whatever else, i guess it's just gonna be disappointing.

oh welllllll!

and oh my, sunday is marathon day! tho im not participating, im equally important for the event ok! imagine if the runners have noone to give them drinks.. how to sustain 42km! lol... i dont think i can ever manage 40 over km. maybe human race la. 10km is more realistic for me.

rashes are finally clearing. not as itchy anymore. thank god man. please be gone completely before sunday!!! so that i wont die under the sun. just in time for sentosa outing on the 9th too! hmmm gonna be meeting so many new people. scares me a little (HAHA) but i believe it'll be fun :D cheers to a more interesting uni life!

random thoughts.

2008-11-23T01:17:00.006+08:00

its so weird that while my brain's saturated with all the stats and econs knowledge, i can still afford to have other thoughts.

about people. about injustice.

like how everyone else is celebrating the end of their exams without me... haha.. kidding, that, i can understand.

but what i dont get is how on earth can one be THAT thick skinned.

pretentious.. whatever.

i mean if youre indebted to us then the least you could do is to be subtle and try to spare a thought for everyone right..... im sure anyone else would have felt so weird and uneasy by this time already, but nooooo. you just take advantage of the situation. strutting around, using stuff that is not yours, for a longggggg time, not thinking about how we have everything to lose and nothing to gain.. like WTHHH i must say. WTH. i've never seen anyone with such.... a thick skin. maybe you have extra protection i guess..

although u do help us out at times.. seriously, its something we can all live without. so yeah....

and you know how everytime you exclaim "wahhhh this person damn buay paiseh..." and i laugh, its not cus its funny. well maybe it is, i duno. but its probably only cus what i picture in my head is this HUGEEE thought bubble with the words "LOOK WHO'S TALKING"

everytime some bigshot people says in their knowledgeable voice that theres no free lunch in this world, i'm thinking, really? cus if so then why do i feel like some of us are all year round santa clause.

and whyyyyy are you allowing everything to happen. i think youre the only one who's enjoying it. whatever happened to utilitarianism?!!!! i'm so sick of giving things up, especially if theres nothing in it for me. it seems like all people ever do is to take others for granted. human nature..?

oh wellllll just ranting, i'll get over it. or forced to anw.

haha.. im probably as neutral as i can be... besides i shouldnt be feeling anything but panicky for my exams. how come the exam questions are so different from the tutorial....!

sucks and im like having rashes (my friend reckons im allergic to studying LOL) and my foot's hurting. whyyyyy! oh and meow meow has been meowing two days straight... i dont think it's just hungry, if you know what i mean. hahaha.

omg pls bless me with lots of statistical abilities come wed, cus i'll be needing it.. for now, i shall go to bed. work tmr. siannnnn.

intense dieting and working out needed

2008-11-16T23:54:00.002+08:00

looking at the pictures from a year and a half ago, i realised that i've not only become fairer (tho im not a dark person to begin with), but way way way way way FATTER.

i should do something about it.... yet i'm lazy.

tell me what i should do to get back in shape? go for jiaolian's training and complete all physical activities with as much intensity as the juniors... HAHAHA. i think that takes courage and sheer determination man...

ok fine i shall figure it out. i need an exercising buddy.

sleep deprived

2008-11-12T13:24:00.004+08:00

greetings...! haha. blogging seems so foreign to me now, i've been interacting only with books lately so technology is abit of a no-no for me now. yawns.. damn tired!

had OB exam today, finally cleared one information heavy module (more to go) so im here to de-stress. anw, first exam in NTU.... had quite a sucky seat if you ask me, it's no.10! zz.. its too much to the side man! i prefer the feeling of being surrounded. HAHA and the stupid person pasted the seating arrangement upside down so i headed to the wrong direction and got laughed at by my friend.. hurrss..

anw, i seriously think im losing quite alot of my hair. it seems as tho the area around my study area is permanantly filled with hair.. i feel like a cleaner everyday having to pick em up.. zzz. im intending to have a HAIR MAKEOVER after exams!! hahaha. not sure if i should dye/highlight, but considering!! and and... watch out you stupid curly roots (yes they are making their presence felt yet again)..

BURP. back from lunch at macs. seriously theres nothing to eat in yew tee. all inedible overpriced junk. damn sad, now i feel super fat. shall run tonight!

and yes yes, something i have always wanted to rant when it comes to jogging.. have u ever felt like youre damn exhausted from your run and yet there's an excessive ringing from a bicycle? i swear its the most annoying experience ever. cyclists should not use the walkways... they are called sideWALKS for a reason. seriously, they have no right to ring their stupid bells at us (and worse, rudely and excessively) to get out of the way. if anything, they should be the ones doing so.

and they shouldnt go onto roads either, cus it's just dangerous. basically unless the cyclist is like some super zai tour de france winner they are considered traffic hazards, therefore they should only appear in parks or sth, and go gather their jingly pals (i think its their culture) and STAY OFF MY BACK.

they'd better not ring at me later.. or i might just give them a push when they pass me.

oh and since we're on the ranting mood, i cant stand stupid drivers with no empathy!!! seriously, especially on rainy days when u have no umbrella and you wanna cross the stupid road (mostly jay walk) and there u have this ANNOYING driver taking his own sweet time to move out of the way. what the hell right. he's already in a frigging car... why cant he be abit nicer and let poor people like us cross first. or even if they cant stand jaywalkers they can at least have the decency to move abit faster right.. sigh.

tsk. lol.. that was some verbal dirrhoea. now i feel sleepy. havent been sleeping at proper hours lately. many more sleepless nights to go tho.... zzzz. ohwell.

anw, anyone reading who's yet to finish your exams, GO STUDY!!!! no time no time.. and all the best yar, very soon we can partay. haha.. weird. i hope december will be packed with fun and games. i feel like travelling.

ok i am going abit mad (quoted from sis) so i should go sleep.. hopes i'll wake up in time for my jog.

team POPEYE with PICTURESSS :D

2008-10-22T23:07:00.003+08:00

hey all. i just happened to trespass some rather heartwarming blogs about people declaring their love for their bunch of people so i decided i wanna do the same too! LOL. sigh, all that just reminded me of how much i miss AJ, the teachers, 1606 and the team. school just isnt the same without them being an integral part of my life.

i swear, the other time on the train, the air smelt like the container classroom's aircon. those from aj would know that it's a....unique smell that's abit musty. haha. so i was like woahhhh.

okay anw! it's nearing the end of semester, with all the projects clearing one by one. so i think it's apt to show some appreciation for my groupmates too, especially my favourite group from OB&D... popeye! haha. i know it's a lame name but we were assigned the name so it wasnt our fault.

we just had our final presentation on monday, and that was the last group component we had for the module. im sure we all felt quite relieved to some extent after that (some of them have no more presentations left!!!!! *fumes* haha), but it just felt so empty. the few weeks of hardwork had paid off, but it transpired only to the 30 minutes we had.

awwww. so much more to prove.

i'm really glad to have been part of this wonderful team, having fun at the same time working hard. all that slogging is worth it, and also the weight i put on because we kept eating!!! haha. we sure can eat! looking forward to our post-exams celebrations man.

and i'll certainly miss laughing at the econs lecturer or rather, any of the lecturers, with darius. haha. hilarious. wasnt sitting with him today but then when the econs lecturer started going on with her wonderful pronounciation (basically adding an 's' behind everyword and replacing 'l's with 'r's and 'v's with 'w's), i just smsed him:

"so unemployment is inwwwwersely related to inflation?"

his reply almost made me laugh out loud. "no la! is unemploymentsss is inwwwersely related to inflationssss". HAHA.

cheers. enjoy our OB pics. once again, it's us darius, jieyu, jocelyn, homer and kit. :D

without you

2008-10-13T01:13:00.004+08:00

morning glory! haha. shucks i REALLY shouldnt be blogging now cus i have tonnes of work waiting to be done.but im so bored. blah.

been drowning in work lately, yet i dont seem to have accomplished anything productive. most of my time was spent on doing silly projects or reports, leaving me no time to study properly. ahha tho i must say, i did manage to slack alot every now and then. like now... i feel like sleeping already.

ANW, i've been trying to follow the Wall Street news these couple of weeks and i must say it's really interesting stuff. it's really complicated but somehow i just want to find out more about subprime and all. and strangely, it was my dentist who got me interested in all these. i think i'll become quite a knowledgeable person with time, cus he's always feeding us with general knowledge.

and i swear he's the best story teller ever. HAHA. i think his life is super dramatic, probably cus he is the type of person who doesnt take nonsense from nobody and isnt afraid to lose his image in public. i wont wanna cross him man...

so, life's been pretty empty these days, hence the lack of entries. the only highlights recently were the f1 qualifying which i went for, and the near completion of my OB project. haha. can u believe it, after presenting soooooo many times, only 2 of them are graded? i still have 4 more to go.. blah. wish me luck.

but before that, i should go back to stats. or should i sleep. dilemma. hahaha. cant wait for nov 27 when exams end. gosh thats 1.5 more months!! so long. but in another perspective, theres only this amount of time i can cram all the info into my brain. i seriously dont get why they wanna have such complicated theories to explain things that are actually so common sensical. sigh.

okok thats 30mins of my life wasted. toodles all.

im here without you baby, but youre still on my lonely mind.
i think about you baby, and i dream about you all the time.

heartache

2008-09-25T05:04:00.002+08:00

0504hrs. good morning.

my mom has already woken up and i have yet to go to bed. man.. tired, from all that slogging. i'm barely 50% done with my OB report as of now, after 3 days and nights of slogging. so slow...! haha. oh well. i smell fried fillet now. in the wee hours of the morning.

man...... i should stop listening to secondhand serenade. it keeps taking me back to the past. not good for my plans of moving forward! i thought im okay already from what im feeling these days - indifference - but i guess the heart pangs a lil when i start thinking. how to forget...

sigh. damn sian.

hmmm wonders when u'll return from ur trip. haha. i'd bet it's damn fun huh.. ((:

sleepy. shall go off i guess. feeling way bored. nights.. or morning.

song from a secret garden

2008-09-22T00:28:00.004+08:00

omg, i'm sweating and sweating cus of the really bad weather. it's so weird that i only sweat at times i dun want to. i just bathed not long ago!! it's so annoying.. daaaaaamn hot. *melts like butter*

been listening to emo songs all night. haha.. i dun feel anything tho some songs did bring back tonnes of memories. hmmm, ohwell, it's over anw. and and. someone introduced me to secret garden and i have officially found my favourite instrumental piece. i must have heard it somewhere before cus it sounds really familiar. i wanna learn how to play piano! LOL...

anw. class outing ytd was kinda cool tho at any one time there are less than 10 people. haha. but it was fun seeing em again and chilling out at balcony. haha.. i bought this super old school card game "happy family" at only 50cents!! bought it to get rid of my coins, haiya, should have gotten snap and old maid also. hilarious. and can u believe it, the six of us just started playing that in the bar. lol.. it was quite amusing but i had fun. actually its quite a tactical game okay.

stayed till around 1130pm just in time to catch the last train back and there was some drama on the train. actually not really, just that some china man (i think he's drunk) left his puke on the train floor. zzz. gross. should force him to clean up the mess, maybe eat it back. HAHAHA kidding. hmmmm. ohwell. anws, so much gossip going on uh. makes me feel so sad bout my boring life. hehe.

0046hrs. should probably go sleep soon. tmr onwards i shall start to chiong all my assignments. hopefully. man, they're all graded so i have no choice but to care. zz. haha. im hungry but im fat. rahhh random. goodnight.

aimless

2008-09-15T00:42:00.003+08:00

good morning all.

0043hrs. i should probably get to work soon. i'm supposed to have done some catching up over the weekends but obviously i havent been doing conscientious revision. lol. been working/playing/sleeping, basically wasting my life away. HAHA. gosh... but it's been fun.

tennis-ed with sis and her friends on fri. i felt rather dumb walking all the way to the stadium TWICE to book the courts. long story. haha. it was rather expensive... 13bucks for 2 hrs. partly because of the peak hr rate from 6 to 7pm. ahhhh. but it's ok, we all absorbed the cost. hahaha.

it was uber fun, i "won" in the little "match" we had! haha. notice the excessive use of inverted commas. ohwell, thats cus i seriously think shouwen let me win. lol. hilarious. he's from aj too!!! cool huh, and he's a friend of yeeyan's bro! its always nice to meet aj people in school. we are good at tennis :P HAHA, my sis got suaned like mad but i couldnt help laugh a lil too.. at her unique style.

so yeah that was the highlight of my week i guess, so u can imagine the boring life i lead now. zzz. had work on sat and then went over to zihui's house to watch meteor garden omg. i noticed the bad acting skills of F4... HAHA. and i realised my hair is kinda long.. feel like layering it more and highlight it!! but im too lazy to do so.. gahhhh. lol.

hmm, anw i just signed up for the standard chartered marathon..... as a volunteer. haha. woulda prefered to be a participant instead, but the impresario com decided that the programmers both subcom and maincom should sign up for canvassing (widely used word) purposes. well its alright with me, am prepared to have a blast alr, considering its on such an important day.... 7th dec. im under the impression that everyone will be celebrating the birth of a super important person. LOL. but anws, got free tshirt somemore!! *beams* realised im highly receptive towards free shirts, no idea why. haha. i'll be down from 1am to 2pm+++ i think, good...! can skip work. hahah.

ok anw i should better get going. i wasted another 1hr of my life typing this entry when i should be studying marketing or sth. stupid.. i hate marketing proj!!!!! altho it's supposedly the most interesting module i am taking but I HATE IT. :S

pics time!!!!

dont u find it very intimidating to have sooooo many GLS/seniors eavesdropping on you while u are having a nice chat with your sp? HAHA. i personally think the smack butt pic is damn hilarious.. ((: and not forgetting our group's muscle man.. notice how im not in most pics. hahaha. shall put em up when i feel like it (to attract readers to stay tuned... is lun going to laugh at this again?), im not about to spoil my image yet.. haha..

nights all. long week ahead!!!

somehow, i just need you to be here. but i guess youre not.

it's been awhile

2008-09-05T10:14:00.005+08:00

hola.. back to weekends. im loving it. lol

this past week's been really boring with all the presentations going on, at least they're over now. but more to come. ugh. i think i really suck at presenting. im so unbelievably boring i dun feel like looking at the audience. lol. what if i catch them snoozing? zzz, maybe i'll throw something at em. *chuckles*

anw, ive managed to spread the love for squash among the netballers! the latest victim is lowyilun, who is pretty good at it i must say! strong hits and all. good!! ((: next up: tennis!! hmmm and apeaking of which, ive gotten myself a tennis racket. haha. only 43 bucks! quite a bargain for a babolat racket. tho sadly it isnt the same model as what nadal's using. lol. donkz, that one will prolly cost a bomb. hmm nvm, maybe if i strike lottery i'll get that. then again, there are so many things i wanna buy.

oh oh anw ive also caught wall E last week and ive been recommeding it to everyone. hees. it's awesome! very very cute and rather sweet, tho the main dialogues actually consist of "wall EEEE and evaaaaaaaa". hahah. go catch it! i had fun watching it. =D

hmm anw rather lazy to blog. i shall leave u all with some OVERDUED pics from my cac camp. not all. i'll just post some in every post then, to keep readers coming in hahah.

SP night pics another day!! bye all.

i missssssss......U! (:

when ure gone

2008-08-31T19:44:00.002+08:00

if, for one day, i choose to give up and get the hell outta your life, it is through no fault of mine.

seriously, appreciate. before it's too late.

on totally different note.... i hope something good will come outta this! ((: hehe. lalala!

ok gotta go prepare somemore for my presentation tmr. hopes we'll do well.

one six zero six

2008-08-29T13:57:00.004+08:00

one six zero six. )):

morning. just returned home after visiting aj and the teachers, so im feelin abit complicated now. a mixture of nostalgia and i duno what. haha. everyone looks and sounds the same, but the sad thing is noone i asked could make it back to aj! AHHH.. stupid school and army. maybe i should organise an outing.. i think im the only class leader who hasnt done so.

anw i almost couldnt find anyone to go back with me, so i almost didnt go back. but good thing yuanting could come along! yay.. although, she's super drained from clubbing. hahha. and oh yes, thankfully i woke up in time. still cant fathom why my phone mysteriously ran out of batt tho i charged it last night!!! omg. and to think i was about to boast to mr zhuang bout my phone's good batt life. seriously, i have no idea why it went flat. maybe its time for a new phone. ((:

uhhh so anw, bought ferrero rocher for ms ma. HAHA. wanted to get her merci but cheers was too... ahem. lol. almost didnt get anything, but i think that would be quite donkz. she's still the same. super hilarious. brought us to the staffroom and i found out she received MANY chocolates. haha! then i told her not to zhuan3 song4 the gift to others cus yt commented bout the choc wrappers in her bin and she said it wasnt her who ate it. hees. should have told her not to share as well. oops. oh oh and then very randomly, she fished out our class photo!! haha, she seems so happy tho. and my hair in j1 was really............ haha. i think tash would be laughing again.

and then we met mr toh and mr lau. haha. think ive exchanged more words with toh today compared to my entire year in jc luh. i miss his class, esp when he just starts chatting with us. but i still feel quite bad stoning in his lessons all the time tho. hees. and mr lau.. still the same. he thought we were from the 04 batch. LOL. but he says he still rmb us. yay..

hmmm so after that went for lunch with yt. so fun!! its been really long since i had a chat with anyone from sixteen. so yup. we had a feast. haha. was supposed to eat something healthy but ended up eating oily stuff like prata. and the ovatine godzilla thing is damn cheat money. rahhh. yupyup. so i caught up with her busy and happening life and i realised that everyone is leading such fun filled lives except for me! hmph. nvm... slow and steady. heh.

yawns.. omg i think this entry sounds so grammatically wrong. but im too tired to edit or think of better sounding phrases. another time ba. sleep deprived. thinks i shall go take a nap or sth. hopes to meet up with more people soon.. oh yeah i got the pics for the cac camp alr. quite awhile back actually. but really lazy to post those pics. hang in there ya, i'll find the energy to put life back to my blog someday..

nigghttts all. i miss aj!

olympics 08

2008-08-24T00:29:00.005+08:00

haha. omg i survived the hectic week! gosh, actually it wasnt so bad in the end. expected to just die flat due to overwhelming workload and seemingly unprogressive projects, but everything just fell into place somehow. am really thankful for that. cant believe i managed to slack quite alot. so right now im feeling kinda happy. but really sleepy on the other hand. PSASD at work. hahaha.

worked on my ob&d proj early in the mornin at ps today.. hahha. im really really impressed! ive never gotten so much done within 2h before luh, kudos to my teammates. hees. very very glad. mm, and found out that its the fireworks festival ytd and today. didnt manage to go somehow.

anw, been enjoying the final few events of olympics these few days. super entertaining!! had a supposed study session ytd but halfway thru zk suggested watching olympics. hahaha, guess he's been studying real hard these days, prelims is next week. haha. pretty confident about gp aye?? jiayou all! tsktsk, i seriously think he is easily distracted by the tv. maybe next time we should go back to macs or sth to study. hmm.

but anw, we ended up camping in front of the tv for about 3hrs watching the track and field events and basketball. it was super hilarious cus the athlete's name was seriously unbelieveable. we were watching this guy called hooker (omg, heng he's not a girl, but it's still quite unfortunate..) jumping the pole vault thingy. he was really good, but i supported the other guy who lost, so sad. zk supported hooker.. not surprisingly. haha! and we watched usain bolt being such an arrogant guy once again. zzz. but he's super fast. and tall.

today there was another guy with a rather debate-able name - Jesus Espana from spain. hee. he even has his country incoporated into his name. too bad his name did not give him any god-ly powers cus he ended up 2nd last. lol.. tmr i should watch again. tho it's the last day alr.. sad. damn jealous of jiao lian who went to watch the olympics!! gahh.. i shall aspire to earn enough to catch london 2012. (:

okok i'd better sleep soon, gotta work in the morn again. zz. nights.

hehe. hopes to keep the sms-es going. interesting!! ((:

blogging from toshiba

2008-08-18T23:31:00.003+08:00

hola all.. finally had the time to visit this blog of mine. hmm, ok actually im not as busy as i sound but yeah, it's been quite a hectic week. realised its so difficult to juggle work and school. so im giving up my weekday p2 class. abit sad cus of the income loss and all, but well, opportunity costs! yawns..

oh oh, almost forgot, well im sure ive boasted to many people alr, but.... *drumrolls* i got me a new laptop! hahah.. well the design's awesome and it's my first time owning one, so it's quite exciting. yeah, so sua ku, but haiya, it feels darn nice to work with a functional computer. my desktop is really CMI luh. slowly on its way to hell alr. *kicks it repeatedly* hmm, i shall shower love to this new laptop here tho i forsee it wouldnt last.. hahaha. it'd better not give me probs man, considering it's close to 2000bucks.

so anw, just popping by to announce that im still alive (maybe to some's disappointment lol). dun really have any exciting stuff to say cus i havent gotten any opportunities to go out except that one fri afternoon with zk. uhh, actually more like studied out. haha. so sad i can no longer solve jc math qsns ): watched money no enough which i found quite exaggerating, but still rather intriguing. esp the part where they had to choose between mother and daughter. how can anyone bring themselves to make this kinda decision..

hmm, thinks i'll have to get back to work soon. tutorials and projects are really piling up, and it doesnt help that i dun understand a single concept covered in lectures. gahhh, gotta waste time reading the stupid notes which are so brief.. ugh. uni is such a chore.. hmm anw my purpose of blogging today is truly to say that i reaaaaally miss my pw group. we may not be the best group ability wise but i would think that we are arguably the group with the best teamwork. still rmb how we tried our best to help one another in order to produce top quality results. hees. sound so proud. but i certainly learnt alot from them, dun think i would have managed my presentation if not for their patience and feedbacks. ahhhh... how i wish uni pw groupmates are like that too, but i guess its quite alot to ask for...

okay shall go back to stats now, i have no idea what the textbook is saying. this week's gonna be quite packed again! with last min studying and tutorial doing as well as interviews to go for.. gahhh. monday blues. nights all

breathing

2008-08-07T21:44:00.005+08:00

I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be
--

shoulder's still aching a little despite me going to the chi medicine place for treatment today. tho i'd have to say the massage made it abit better.. hmm, what i need is a good shoulder rub. but well, guess we'll just have to wait and see how the medicine holds up.

well, anw, this week has been quite bad, the only cheerful thing that's happened is probably the fact that i've finally had the opportunity to chat with sis. albeit mostly on the topic of school. it's been so long since i've exchanged so many words with her. it's part of growing up i suppose, as we age, our time will inevitably be devoted to different people. but in any case, am still really glad to have spoken with her.

sigh so bored. im beginning to question why on earth i started this post. okay shall go soon. tmr's ayden's gathering! hopes it'll be fun.. tho ktv-ing isnt really my cup of tea. lol, i think i'll just go "huh" and start stoning while everyone else sings the latest chi songs. what a surprise kit doesnt listen to chi songs... or any songs that are recent for that matter. i can only manage oldies.. guess zk is right when he said im auntie. lol. cant imagine myself singing in front of people either. heh! what to do, such a nice voice like mine (ahem) is only meant for my ears, and perhaps the things in the bathroom. ok we shall see how it goes tmr.. for all you know i might get high. haha..

yawns, i know im not producing the most interesting blog entries of late but heaven isnt helping me, what to do.. school is a total bore. i lost count on the number of times i drifted off to my own little world during the lectures. especially econs and stats. it's so.. challenging to stay focused with them droning on in such monotonous voices. kinda sad that the only time the econs lecturer managed to get any attention was when she made stupid comments about the microphone. haha but the seats are quite comfy.. (:

anw, just wanted to say that i miss all of my jc friends whom i cant seem to meet up with. netballers, 1606 (and my pw group!!!)... everyone. mm, and also not forgetting the lil ones who are still preparing for their As. zk and of coursee TASH! haha. anw, not sure if u'll be reading.. hmmm.. do tag if u are k. aaand take care of urself yea! gosh, saying these out loud makes me miss em all even more.): and oops, realised i dont really know many juniors. tsktsk. bet someone will think im hostile again..

ohwell, reminisce another day. shall go now. nights all.

last day of vacation

2008-08-03T18:33:00.011+08:00

(edited)

i have no idea why im feelin so terrible now. mood's going down exponentially. shouldnt have worked so much today i guess... come to think of it i worked 9 to 5 today. came home feelin so damn grouchy. so sorry to anyone who msged me today and got curt replies. i really am not feeling the best.

welllllllll 've had better days.

if only i could pour everything out like i am so tempted to. but knowing that you might chance upon this makes it so difficult to do so. i wish i dun have to always feel like i'm the only one who cares, and being so desperate to make things right.

i need reassurance. because now, it just feels like everything ended the moment this year started. call me sensitive or needy if you must........... but thats how it seems to me. and whats so hurtful is that it almost seems as though you prioritise everything and everyone else way before me. considering everything i've done, putting myself on the line like that and then feeling like a fool. i duno, it's not the best feeling yeah?

sometimes, i'd need you to listen. and to care. cus a lil bit of concern once in awhile wont take too much outta ya, would it?

tiger lily.

2008-07-31T01:35:00.003+08:00

why dont we hit restart, and pause it at our favourite parts.
we'll skip the goodbyes.
--

good morning, it's 0136 hrs and im still up. not very energetic tho. am supposed to be sleeping but due to last min cancellation on the welcome ceremony i just thought i'd stay up abit longer. i have no idea why i chose staying up over sleeping tho, afterall i really am quite tired.

haha oh yes i ran the whole of yew tee today. ok maybe not everything but the basic outline of yewtee. lol, so happy. it must have taken me about 45mins or so. not a bad achievement. i miss exercising.

hmmm, anw, had a self-scaring session with shan just now, in which we explored our ntu accounts like edventure and all.. LOL gosh we have to print our own notes now. and trust me when i say it's ALOT. that's so sad. flashes of jc memories (with the ivle thingy) are coming back now, but it is much simpler last time i think. ivle to me, is not something i'd explore very often. haha. i really dun look forward to the studying part in uni. if only it's all play and no work. that's every lil kid's dream, no? but then again... that's if only.

sigh.. i realise it's so hard to keep this blog going, i find myself typing and then backspacing my thoughts repeatedly and it's back to square one. it's so personal i cant bring myself to say it out loud. maybe someone should blog on my behalf. lol. my password's still the same...for those who know. *winks*. lol. self amusement. perhaps i should just do daily recounts or something. less work on the brain, considering how boring my days are.

random random, but im missing so many people right now. tho im starting to get used to a solitary life (HAHA omg, i really shouldnt... time to socialise), i still wish there were someone to go crazy with.. hopefully i'll find someone soon. ok that sounded quite desperate. hehs. goodnight all.

castovia 08.

2008-07-28T23:13:00.004+08:00

hola. am finally back from ntu cac foc. haha, what a mouthful. whoa, what can i say, it's been a long and tiring event-filled 5.5 days and yet at the same time, fun and memorable too. im glad i joined the camp. the seniors were really cool and funny.. very sporting!!

well... its good to let loose once in awhile. and do things that i normally would not for fear of being unglam. esp that SP night where we played dirty games. i'd bet the seniors had fun watching us humiliate ourselves.. haha! cant really rmb what we did, but there were lots of singing. lol. thank god we were blindfolded.

and ya i think i am super zai to have been spared from all that forfeits during 5.5 days of games. HAHA. i rock at those games. :D

but now it still feels a tad weird that orientation's over. no more late night queues to use the bathroom, nor are there any games to play in the wee hours of the morning. no more rah rah people cheering while my group's slacking around. it's just.... weird. haha. ohwells, my group ayden is the best and the most relaxed group around i must say. and yet we win all the time. HAHAHA. oops. i guess it really is true that slow and steady wins the game. it's fun to see others rushing like mad during the amazing race while we are slowly taking pictures and sightseeing, and still not get last. HAHA. plus we won the skit without any proper rehearsals. hilarious.. ((:

ok fine i sounded so proud. lallaala. cant wait for an ayden outing! loves.

mmms, one more week till school starts. im quite excited over it actually. i welcome some changes in my life. sigh.. i think it will help me get my mind off certain things quite effectively. hopefully it does yea?

zzzz i cant seem to download sweet child o' mine by guns n roses. heard it in the club the other night and i just felt like listening to it over again. it's really a classic man, awesome. if anyone has it please send it to me!

i still feel quite exhausted. i think i need a break. from everything.

away.

2008-07-20T01:08:00.002+08:00

and in this crazy life, and through this crazy times.
it's you, it's you, you make me sing
youre every line, youre every word, youre everything.
--

morning. 0111hrs and im wide awake. dun think i'll be able to fall asleep anytime soon cus of my stupid afternoon nap. knew it was a big mistake to sleep and a bigger one to forgo my evening jog cus i was too lazy. rahhh.. i suppose it'll be back to haunt me. i should be more motivated to shed some of this annoying holiday weight.

and there's work tmr. hopefully i'll be able to get off abit earlier so i wont have to rush to boon lay. sigh.. gonna be a long week ahead. just finished packing for the camp. it definitely feels like im moving house or sth. there's so many things to bring!!! i prolly overpacked but in the words of mythbusters, if its something worth doing, it's worth overdoing.

my shoulder is killing me la... not just the burns from the blazing sun the other day at sentosa (which i realised i din really mention).. but yeah, the normal aches. i hate it.

ok shall go will be back in a week's time.

bored

2008-07-14T01:08:00.007+08:00

hola~ am so bored now ive decided to come back to the com. lol. i really hope i wont lose my eyes tho.. been drama-ing all week, i'd say it certainly spells abit of trouble for my eyesight? so sad

mmm.. finished up with liar game. it's a good show.. very smart. in fact i find it so complicated i had to go great lengths to understanding their strategies. maybe it's just me.. i duno. haha. but in any case, i didnt really like the ending cus it seemed so politically correct to me. and seriously, the honest/very nice lead girl annoys me to no end. WHY SO SILLY?!! yes it is good to be honest but i dont think anyone is THAT noble. i want to strangle her and scream "WHY SO SILLY" in her face everytime she makes a dumb move.

haha.. but it's just a show so i shant get too serious. just enjoy the show and trust me, i was really impressed by the guy's intelligence!!!! SO SMART and way cool. ((: omg.. we have same personalities. HAHA. dun faint please.

lala.. anws, tmr's the nbs camp alr.. rahhh alllllmost managed to get in luh. but too bad, luck was not on my side again. was damn elated upon receiving the call ytd frm whom i'll now call, mr zhuang. hahaha. hilarious guy. he totally entertained me with his accent. but after all that hassle it was still not meant to be. haiya, nvm luh, would have ranted a lil bout the protocol the management chose to follow but what good does it do? shant dwell on it anymore, hopes that the campers will have fun! and that the rest of us (more than 50% of the nbs students) will get to make friends in time to come/enjoy in our own way! on the bright side, at least i wont have to go for back to back camps now. heh..

and oh anw i earned a lunch from the ogl.. lol, i think he felt and sounded really guilty that he couldnt get me that place that was literally within our grasp and staring in my face. but honestly, i dun see why he should feel bad, considering how he tried to help me and it wasnt his fault anw to begin with.. hees. hmmm, tho they would never chance upon this, i'd REALLY wanna thank him and esssssppeccccially mr zhuang (lol he still cracks me up) for everything. i look forward to my lunch when school starts!!

yawnss.. am so bored. ah yea.. wanted to say im really not feeling all that great bout my tuition job now. sigh. for now, i'll just have to decide if i should be an irresponsible person to leave my boss at this time where the centre is quite short-handed as it is, or continue to be an irresponsible teacher who can't provide the best for the students. either way, i'll be in the bad light. i need help. rahhh..

wish i could talk to you bout this. or for that matter, somebody.. anybody. but i dun really like to do so cus it's either i'd just get reassuring answers that is not what i need, or i'd get none at all. where's my pillar of support!

feeling artistic again

2008-07-10T23:26:00.008+08:00

lol. haha, yes, back to piano-ing again, whats new huh.. lol. i am currently trying to learn the final fantasy song on my lousy keyboard (as usual, not enough keys) but it's kinda choppy. cant play it continuously cus i have to keep adjusting, it's annoying really. anw my progress isnt too bad i must say! prolly cus i havent reached the ultra-coordination-madness part yet. zz. ok that sounded weird, i think my standard of english is deteriorating HELP!

but anws i realised that i havent been really focused in the stuff i do. since young i guess, it's a really bad habit. i dun like to do repetitive things so that's why i dun like to practise in things that i'm learning, or whatever. more often that not, i'll be very enthusiastic for the first few days and then abandon the whole idea altogether after awhile cus im so sick of it.

haha, that explains the increasingly evident lack of entries in my blog eh? lol.. ok fine, it's partly cus of my extraordinarily boring life i lead... nvm. hmm, i know it's a little early (or late) to say this, but for my new year resolution, i aim to have SUSTAINABLE interest. lol.. tho i must say, "it (the thought) comes and goes i wouldnt trust it", as quoted from joey. HAHA. loves friends still!!!

okay so im kinda happy today, not very sure why. probably cus things havent been too well for me these couple of weeks but i can feel that it has taken a turn for the better. hopefully i wont jinx myself by saying it out loud tho. or maybe it's cus i did something nice today! helped an old lady (ok actually not very old, but she had difficulties walking i guess) off the bus! tho at first i was quite annoyed cus i was in abit of a rush and she was directly in front of me , blocking the whole door while trying very hard to get off the bus. yeah i know, so mean right. i should be kinder ):

but anws she finally gave up and let me get off first and so i did. woulda walked off alr but i decided i should help. i just asked if she needed help and extended my arm to help support her. she kept thanking me (: yeah i know it's just a small gesture but still it felt kinda nice, havent done any good deeds in awhile.

and oh ya something i've been meaning to say for quite a long time after watching this show about religion awhile back. the stuff they say is kinda different to what im gonna say because if i were to state my opinion on it, i'd probably get sued or sth. it is afterall, a very sensitive issue. mmm, but back to the point, i was thinking on the train today about how i dun really believe i have a religion although i declare that im a buddhist. well, i've never come off as a religious person and i dun think i'll ever be one.

but despite that, i think i finally understand why there are people who devote their lives to religion. i finally believe in the points that i had written for my gp essays (LOL) that it does provide comfort and solace to people in trying times. cus when there's nth much u can do to improve the situation, pray, cus there's nothing to lose in doing so. sigh i duno la, it's really complex... i do pray sometimes and it helped... but at the end of the day, it's kinda all in the mind, no?

okay not sure why i droned on bout the topic.. was kinda random. hmmm. what else, oh ya anw there was this super donkz promoter at guardian who tried to promote this facial cleanser stuff to me. being nice, i just listened to her while trying to find an appropriate time to stop her. but she didnt... for quite awhile. when she stopped talking finally she helped me pick a bunch of stuff which would very likely come up to at least 100 bucks. she wanted me to buy, but i was like "no.. another day la probably, i dun have enough cash". haha. so mean again.

but what i didnt like was her comment: "huh... u dunwanna buy ah, then i shouldnt have said so much". like WTH. first of all, it's really not professional for this kinda statement to come out of a promoter's mouth. and secondly, i didnt go looking for her, i was at this corner wayyyyy outta her section looking for some other stuff and she pulled me away to look at her products. so really... did she really expect i was gonna buy em on the spot without knowing if it's a trustworthy product. crazy. and she sorta kept forcing me to buy cus she found out i was meeting someone. "ask ur friend to lend you some money first la...", she said. -_-

seriously, if the products were as effective and fast-selling as she described then why the desperate attempt at getting me to buy? stupid woman, really.

woahhh, this looks like a long entry. havent had so much to say in a long time. and i havent done recounting entries in so long.. ohwell, it's all good. hmmmm anw school's starting reaaaally soon and i've yet to accomplish some stuff i had intended to. hopefully i will in time. and oh, will be going for the cac camp.. haha. kinda bummed that i didnt make it to the NBS one but i heard that it was really maxed out, even my sis's friend couldnt help me (almost did tho). but i really appreciate his help. ((: in any case, hopes it'll be fun!

yawns.. think i shall stop here for now and maybe watch "liar game" as recommended by joyce. lol. seeya'll in abit.

sleeping child

2008-07-03T00:23:00.008+08:00

Oh my sleeping child, the world's so wild
But you've build your own paradise
That's one reason why I'll cover you sleeping child
--

listening to this song brought back quite abit of memories from primary school. i can still remember how my vice principal taught us this song during morning assembly, and going through the lyrics, which i found really meaningful. i especially liked the part where it says, "if all the people around the world, they had a mind like yours. there'd be no fighting, and no wars, there'll be lasting peace on earth." so true eh, there's no innocence like that of a child's.

anw, im feeling abit better and at peace at this moment so i am aiming for a longer, and hopefully livelier post. but still, i think i'll be needing more squash sessions to take out my frustrations. tho seriously, im aching all over now. and quite bruised. let's count the number of blue-blacks i incurred during the past 2 days : 1 big one on left thigh, 2 on the left knee, 1 on shin, 1 on hip, 1 on the back of my left hand (coupled with a few scratches). haha. all thanks to my very powerful racket and bad aiming, with the exception of the hip injury which was caused by a knock against the stupid doorknob. RAH.

yawns.. kinda tired. been watchin dramas today. finally managed to catch up on episodes of absolute boyfriend. HAHA. interesting. and caught some random hk drama too. a lil weird but i like hk dramas alot. and it turns out that im not very good at cantonese actually, cus i had to rely heavily on the subtitles. well... maybe i should brush up on my language then.

man my shoulder is really killing me. i need to get it fixed pronto. looks like the trusty sinseh din help the other time.. gahhh. so uncomfortable. ok i just found out actually i had nothing much to say. should get going soon. tired... been losing quite a fair bit of sleep lately. rahhhhh. tas~.

(edit 7.22pm 3/7)

am here to take a breather after drama-ing for almost 6hours. haha, it seems that it's a very popular activity for quite a number of us these days. only difference is that im indulging in jap dramas instead of taiwanese. in a few minutes time i would have completed "absolute boyfriend". a very cute show, somewhat draggy in the middle... BUT nothing a hottie cant cure. hees. interesting.

tho i'd have to say im a lil overwhelmed with unexplanable sadness towards the end. LOL. weird. ohwells.. shall just go on to complete it now then. and think of new ones to watch. ciaos..

the difference in you and i

2008-07-01T22:14:00.002+08:00

i need reassurance. i guess i'd need a long chat with you, i really do.

been playing squash for 2 consecutive days and im starting to ache. am not very good at it currently cus i kept getting thrashed.. RAHH. needs to work on my drives and strokes. basically hitting the spots i intend.

ok, finally a break from work (again). school's gonna start soon. am i getting the pre-school jitters again? i duno... but i really hope it's gonna be fun. should i stay in hostel???? i guess i shouldnt miss this opportunity but it's kinda troublesome. in any case, i gotta come up with a decision soon cus application's closing.

okay, gonna be taking over the p2s and sec4s soon. wish me luck! but i think they're quite likeable and not-so-havoc. hopes i wont mess things up.

im not really sure what to say now. i just need time to think.

tired of...?

2008-06-26T00:56:00.004+08:00

is it just me... or is talking to you such an impossible task now.

if you are really that bent on snubbing people, i'll just let you be. let you be.

they say that absence make the heart grow fonder. i really wanna believe in that make-believe crap statement but honestly it is hard to do so. i am starting to be convinced that the only thing it does is to make the heart forget. live and let live i shall. what lingers will dissipate in time, albeit slowly.

yawns

2008-06-25T18:01:00.005+08:00

everyone loves this car. everyone wants to take photo with this car. everyone looks at this car in awe. but none of them had bought this car.

pretty much sums up my promoters job. boring.. and really, some of the guys, err nope, UNCLES, are just so..... zzzz! nothing to say. like pls, take a look in the mirror luh. act ur age, it aint getting younger just cus you try to be. ((:

seriously~ but i think its a scary world out there. lol. i dun think i'll ever enjoy working. :X and somehow i think we're still wrapped up in our own little world although most of us had been exposed to the working environment since the long vacation started. sure... u may have witnessed all the politics. but it isnt as good as it gets, there is always more. haha. oh no i dun make sense. must be all the sleep i've lost these days.... rahh, im so tiredddddd. zzz.

abit lazy to blog. just wrote this crappy one out of boredom and well, to announce that im still alive. shall get going soon..

hmm oh ya i wanted to comment tht my boss is really nice! HAHA. he gave me his limited edition ghost deck (playing cards) which i had intended to buy from him. LOL. it's really cool. hehs. okok shall watch some tv for now. zz. ciaos~

free ad.

2008-06-17T16:18:00.005+08:00

ok not exactly the latest renault f1 car design but i prefer the old version. which is not only better aesthetically but in all aspects.

hola. mmm, it's been awhile. feelin pretty sleepy now and there's tuition later. ultra zzz. but ohwells, least it'll just be for 2 hrs. hurray to that.

oh right, this week's gonna be pretty packed with work for me. just got a promotor's job for renault roadshow at vivo startin thurs, with big thanks to amery for recommending me. ((: was supposed to be a five day job but i can only make it for three. am kinda surprised they still want me.. considering i couldnt go during weekends. rahh maybe i should skip my tuition job on sat.. HAHA. tho that'll be wrong... good, but wrong.. haha.

but it sounds like quite a saigang job actually :X from what they're saying i am in charge of blowing balloons (HAHA), distributing stuff.. making sure brochures are enough.. selling merchandises occasionally. hmm but but.. im in charge of THE KEY. the keys of all keys one might say. ok lame. tho i really wonder why they would trust me with that. but yea hopefully it'll be fun.. and it'll be awesome if the balloon pumps are helium filled so i can bring back some to play!

lala. bored.. lookin forward to the event filled week (hopefully) ahead. oh yea drop by vivo if u are free! i'll be there on the 19th, 20th, 23rd june. ok maybe not for me but for the cars. haha. donkz. gonna catch some shuteye for now. tmr's pretty hectic too i think. dental in the morning, followed by a trip to renault showroom to get some stuff... maybe even teaching in the evening (tho i sincerely hope not) rahh nvm. yawnns.

and oh i really need to stop eating. faaaaaaaat.

friends

2008-06-12T14:08:00.012+08:00

i'll be there for you, when the rain starts to fall
i'll be there for you, like ive been there before.
i'll be there for you, cus youre there for me too..
--

g'day mate. hmm, i just watched the final episode of friends (again) on youtube.. rahh, it never fails to make me feel so bittersweet, especially at the last scene where each of them handed their keys to the apartment back. it's almost like a perfect closure.

hmm.. i think that the scriptwriters are geniuses, from how they manage to link everything so well together... like there's meaning to every detail and every joke they put in. its really the best sitcom ever - witty and funny, unlike many of the comedies which are just downright lame.

the way they weave all the storylines together, it just paints a big picture of how strong the friendship was between the six of em... and how friendships should be like. i mean in the show, they are always covering for one another (tho unwillingly sometimes), no matter how embarrassing the situation is. haha. sometimes i wonder, would there be anyone willing to risk their reputation to help out a friend. somehow i dun really think so... but yeah... it's just a show huh?

yeah i know people come and go - they would have different priorities set out for them at some point in their lives and thus no matter how close you are or had been, things are bound to change sooner or later.

ok i'd better stop myself from saying things i might probably regret, let's leave it as that. i dun deny having my fair share of disappointments but at the end of the day, if it doesnt matter to you, it doesnt matter to me. take it one day at a time.

ok on to other matters... hmmm, played tennis ytd!! HAHA. hilarioussss. i think i looked pretty stupid next to my dad's colleagues, whom contrary to my initial impressions, are all young and sporty! oh my.. haha. 3 of them should be around 20+, malaysians... the other one maybe early 30s? haha. dad was the most senior there. but honestly i think he's still young at heart. (:

anw, two of them were really good at tennis and were teaching dad how to play and all. haha. i think dad's not bad seriously, at least he seems to have good control of his hits. unlike me. i looked so stupid initially cus the ball flew everywhere. zz i hadn't played in a long while. but thankfully after awhile it got better. but it was so tiring.. i chased practically every ball in attempt to SWEAT... and i did! haha.. happy. yeah so just imagine me sprinting from side to side trying to get to the ball before it bounced twice.. it's good training.

soooo.. anyone up for tennis wimme sometime? i dun mind squash also. but i wanna work on my strokes for tennis. yeah i can get it across the net but it's almost always floaty and uh, without power. even when i hit it with more strength, there is still no speed. it just flies out of court. it looks stupid. i did not intend for it to be a lob that's gone haywire. lol. i need the uuhhhmp. haha.

ho wells.. really hopes to learn more things within this two months. arms are aching slightly now. haha. i feel fat still.

rahhhh. oh anw, mom's gone to batam alr and im like home alone now. so sad. hmmm.. lun's going overseas too to sydney. hope they both have fun!

just found this pic randomly on my com. taken at a "studying session" during the pre-A levels period. or was it prelims. so unglam... and look at the drawings on my wrist. it's supposed to be a "tattoo" drawn by tash. haha. crazy woman. cant wait to catch up with her again tho (:

music for the soul.

2008-06-10T12:32:00.012+08:00

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
you ought to know by now how much I love you
one thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
--

lol, such a mushy song with mushy lyrics. hmmm. just suddenly thought of this oldie by air supply. very sweet.

ok anw im bored typing my science worksheets, but i gotta admit some questions really kinda cracked me up a lil, and let's face it, the setter doesnt possess the best linguistic ability. haha.. let me show you what they ask.

Q1: Susan finds the hairs in her nose very ugly and decided to remove them. Is her action advisable?

lol.. i duno why im tickled by this question, but.. it's kinda bimbotic i feel. LOL. but that aside, i actually remember the concept of this question! hurss.. god i miss bio. rahhhh. i prefer jc bio tho.. hmm..

oh right, and in another question, one of the options was : A person picking up an ice with an ice THONG. omg.. hahaha. no wonder kids these days are getting more and more dirty minded.. donkz.

;P hmmm, anw. im pretty excited bout wed, cus im gonna play tennis with dad and his colleagues! HEHE. ok im prolly gonna be so extra there and i'll most likely look so amateur but i dun really care, cus i miss playing it so much. it's been soooooo long. rahh, rmb setting up this "tennis club" with some of em class guys. wonders if they can still recall not. LOL. arhh i miss em. ho wells.. hope they're doing great in army. cant wait for a gathering man.. oh ya, so tennis. hopes i can do reasonably well and at least get it across the net and hit the desired spot if not it'll be so paiseh. *beams* oh btw, federer speaks sexy french. HEHE. yuan, if ure reading, im sure gwen too right? haha. he's cute.

ok what else. oh... still tryin to do some "at-home-self-improvement-courses". i.e. learnin some songs on my stupid keyboard and so far it's been frustrating. i wanna get a piano man.. haha.. or at least a proper keyboard with MORE KEYS. donkz.. and im getting better at my card tricks.
LOL. actually i think i just need a gullible/not-observant audience luh. HAHA. yay!

ok i'd better get back to typing my worksheets. been bout 45 mins and i only typed 5 questions! oh no...

i miss you i miss you i miss you.. i could go on forever.

(edit. 5.27pm)
i've been listening to old songs for the entire afternoon, and i guess i am still a rock fan afterall. i miss hearing all those songs that are so much better than today's songs but are sadly forgotten. hmm, well... the memory lives on.

i think im starting to fall in love with the oldies!! HAHA. air supply is AWESOME. hooked on songs by michael bolton, richard marx, elton john, ben e king.. etc! oh no.. i think all these point to the obvious fact that i am an aunty. LOL.

oh ya i initially wanted to post some random pics but blogger was being an ass as usual when it comes to uploading images - the allignment goes all cuckoo. zz. much hate. and i wonder why my blog is so.. pic-less. rahhh nvm. next time maybe. i wanna play tennis or squash right now!!

2008-06-06T11:36:00.005+08:00

a couple of things have been weighing on my mind recently, and i realised it revolves around the fact that people lack initiative. at least these particular people im referring to fall into this category.

i duno if i have owed people alot of stuff in my past life, that i have to be repaying them now, but i really feel that it is so unjust for me. i mean, i am sacrificing so much for one whom quite frankly, i really dun care about. and doing so much for another who wont care about me. just what on earth have i done them wrong to deserve this.

i mean, wont you feel embarrassed freeloading off another person AT ALL? i cant stand the way u strut here thinking its perfectly alright to be staying and that you belong. well i have news for you, YOU DONT. ahhhhhhhh. im so irritated. do u have any initiative to leave at all.. we dont owe u, and i damn sure dun want you here all the time. so bugger offfffff! its so disrespectful that u even changed ur address... like hello.

i dun think i can say this without revealing all the details so im not gonna. i just needed to rant.

ahhh i duno, my mind is so clouded now, cant really think. zzzzz. 've read two entries that say they dunwanna be burdened by technology (i.e handphones and such), and i think i might wanna join the list. for totally different reasons tho. at this point having a handphone sucks.

i feel so stupid. i wish i can take both of them outta my life right now, which will feel a tad weird but definitely, better.

i think i should go for more runs, tho it doesnt really burn any steam off cus i dun sweat. lol. hmm. which reminds me bout the night run with yilun round yishun. hehe.. was nice, cus i managed to sustain for 35-40 mins tho my lungs were hurting and leg was cramping. but yes, still no sweat. *burns the sweat glands alive* haha, good day spent.

rahhh i think its time for mythbusters. oh yes im going back to work on sat. siannnnnnn. dun really feel like teaching but i guess i'll have to go if i want my may pay. haha. rhymes...

ok shall go now. bbye.

i guess u'll never hear me when i say i miss u. u dun listen anymore.

i am cheerful!!!

2008-06-01T18:30:00.006+08:00

Lying close to you, feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever
--

ahhhh. best song from aerosmith yet. and i dun think david cook's version is impressive at all. honestly. haha. noone can match up to steven tyler's amazing vocals luh..

lala, this past week's been great. met up with people (joyce, liting (!!!), shirong... and hung out with tash and nic briefly today). oh ya, and for the first time ever, i movie-marathoned!! liting are you reading.. can u hear me when i hum the indiana jones tune?! LOL. haha. ooh ohh, just wanna say that i love being a student luh (or at least looking like one), can enjoy so many concession rates!!! it sucks being an adult really. haha.

but anyhoos, my dentist said that im a very cheerful person! LOL. are you guys shocked? hilarious, because for people who know me, or rather, those who dont, will observe that i hardly speak. or that i like to appear calm and aloof. or that i am pure autistic, or whatever. i think he's the first one to continuously insist that im cheerful. *laughs in satisfaction*

heh heh, yeah sure i can come up with lotsa nonsense and be totally relaxed when im with people im comfortable with, but who doesnt? the true test comes when one is with people they have never met, and i know that i will be awkward and most probably mute when i hang out with strangers, as proven all to many times. haha. no kidding, deep down im extremely introverted. HAHAHAH. but its kinda nice to know that i can still appear friendly when need be. (:

so i think the word to use is not cheerful, but nice, or polite, or whatever. lol. can u see that im still beaming? =p but yeh, i think i've grown through all this working experience. and im glad to have made a decision to at least try and be nice to everyone instead of putting on a glum face like how many of the people in the service industry do. so everyone, forget about the emo-trend, be like me, a CHEERFUL dental assistant. HAHAHA. hilarious.

i feel so good these days. like the weight thats been on my shoulders for so long has been lifted. im glad ive finally decided to let the bitterness go. it still feels abit complicated but i am better!! ((:
--

(edit)

i hope ur conscience will prick and preferbly eat you alive. oh wait, what am i saying.. do you even have one to begin with. sheeshhh...

im tired.. i lost sleep for nothing. and the worst thing is i cant get back to sleep.

always be my baby

2008-05-28T15:11:00.002+08:00

We were as one, babe for a moment in time.
And it seemed everlasting, that you would always be mine.
Now you want to be free, so I'll let you fly,
'cause I know in my heart, babe, our love will never die.

You'll always be a part of me, I'm part of you indefinitely.
Boy, don't you know you can't escape me.
Ooh darling, cause you'll always be my baby.
And we'll linger on, time can't erase a feeling this strong.
No way you're ever gonna shake me.
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby.
--

ok i know im like slow or sth. but i cant believe that david cook's always be my baby is actually his rendition of mariah carey's. oh man. i feel so embarrassed. but in my defence, they sound NOTHING alike ok. i mean really, from a popppp-ish cheery song to a soothing, slow rock song... geez.

ok you guys compare: http://youtube.com/watch?v=_Js9mQw5nQ4 and http://youtube.com/watch?v=3QapwJpAe7w. would u have noticed!! ok maybe ardent fans of mariah carey will luh... hahah. hilarious. wouldnt say which is better, cus both of em have their own beautiful styles.

but anws.. din really catch all the episodes of american idol 7 but i can safely say it's one of the best since the first one, and mayyyybe the second season with clay aiken. but yeah.. he's got no news alr lol. but back to the point, i dun think david cook will disappear in the face of the music scene anytime soon like the rest of the idols did. yeah he won ai7, but like how some people say (kinda harsh tho), that he didnt really have to win the competition cus with his superb skills in music arrangement, tonnes of companies would wanna sign him on.. lol.. personally i feel....... they can say whatever they want, fact is david cook's the winner.

but that said, i think that archuleta should have won based on the performance in the finals. cook's choice of songs were not very good i think.. plus all he sings are rock songs! haha... but ohwell. archuleta's made a name for himself too, and he;s still so young. it's almost definite that he'll do just as well in the future if he keeps this passion going.

ok ok am blogging about reality shows AGAIN. a very delayed one somemore. haha. cant help it, there's not much to do around here. lalas~ been watching some gaming competition on starsports ytd and today. i wonder why cybergaming is considered a sport. lol. anw, it's managed to keep me entertained for awhile. quite thrilling too. HAHA. donkz..

rah. so bored. shall watch somemore vids then. till my boring life transforms into an exciting one, take care.. LOL

the end is near

2008-05-27T00:26:00.004+08:00

I never thought that i had any more to give
Pushing me so far here i am without you
Drink to all that we have lost, mistakes that we have made
Everything will change, love remains the same
--

been doing lotsa self-learnin stuff these days.. aint excelling at it but well, beats knowing nth huh. can play some pathetic tunes on my kiddy keyboard (hehe). but sad to say i wont be a pianist anytime soon.. haha. i need some coordination!! spent like 2 whole days trying to get a stupid intro correct.

zz. oh and i learnt a few card tricks too.. bout 4 of em. not very good at em either but hey, i managed to wow mom and sis with at least one of the tricks.. lol. tho inevitably they busted some of my acts also la. so observant for what!!! haha.. donkz. but who knows, maybe i can perform next time when im up to standard. it'll be fun. haha. but for now.. practise practise practise..!

hmm, approx 1 more week till work starts again. dun really look forward to it. am kinda enjoying all these time to myself. tho i'd prefer something more thrilling and all.. but ya. anything beats work. oh ya, was so bored that i went to check the calendar just now. realised my birthday's on a sunday. that means i gotta work. HAHA. donkz.. ): nvm, it means cash.. haha

mmmm. i think i am not practising things that i preach. now i finally know why i get shit thrown at me all the time. cus i do the same to others. im sorry. i know exactly how it feels. i will be a better person.

ohwell.. back to learning! HAHA. hilarious. do humour me if i suck at "magic" tricks ok.. but as quoted from someone, "there's no magic, only logic". VERY true.

i really wanna not get mad but i dun think ur behaviour is justifiable. just when things are starting to feel alright shit happens.

(edited) stand by me. AJC.

2008-05-23T01:12:00.007+08:00

When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we'll see
No, I won't be afraid
No, I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand, Stand by me
--

greetings. it's friday already. i hate it that days are zooming by so quickly and yet seconds tick by slowly. how is that even remotely possible? i duno, it's just amazing that may 08 is coming to an end real soon but i feel that ive accomplished nothing. god i wasted 5 months of my life. and i dont like this feeling.

anw, i dropped by the sports hall to support AJ bballers in their finals in the afternoon. although they didnt win, i must say that it was really some good effort displayed and what can i say... some really entertaining stunts had been showcased as well. LOL. would have been awesome if aj had won and avenged their 2006 loss but i guess not everything will go our way. it was just a pity that they didnt hang on long enough to stay close. in the end the gap just widened and there was nothing we could do to bridge that.

yawns. so boreddddddddddddddddddddddd. i cant think of anything to say. zz hate my boring entries. i think this is more of a 'typing for the sake of it' sorta entry. *pouts* and i got bored of watching PS i love you. hahah. im sure it was a good movie, but either the low quality online vid compromised everything or it's just not my type of movie. mmm. i think i'll appreciate the book more. who knows.

ok i think i wanna go. am tired of waiting. and oh yes before that. LOWYILUN pls get well soon!! it's so worrying luh. wish you speedy recovery! ((:

phone calls are love :D

edit`2.22am sat 24/5

adding words again. blue fonts to attract attention, and also to remind myself of AJC (blue font, yellow background in case it isnt apparent enough). :D

nth much but i am just way bored so i decided to pop by and rant a lil. was looking at some piano pieces on youtube and i decided (or rather discovered) that i really really really wanna learn the piano, or at least something instrumental. i forsee alot of problems (think: very uncoordinated fingers and ignorance of anything that is remotely related to music), but i guess it will be kinda cool to master some art. zz, am too old for all these arent i?

sometimes i dun like it when i tell people that i duno how to play any musical instruments, they stare at me in disbelief, or make stupid comments like "HUH!!!!". spoilt brats, really. i mean come on la, not every parent has the financial capabilities to send their children for music lessons on top of everything else they have to support right. maybe now it's still not too bad. but back in those days, you have extra money you pay for food, not for pleasure. so yeah. it was just too bad my family wasnt that well off, and the only thing i had the opportunity to learn was the recorder.

weird, wonders how watching a simple video can escalate to such annoyance. haha. ohwell.. sian. oh geez i just realised i havent replied a mail. dangss.. will do so soon then. haha. wish there was more content for me to work on tho. nah, nvm.. ((:

mika's song is stuck in my head.. grace kelly. go listen!! haha. so nice and cheery. *laughs* i wanna sing so badly but it is most unfortunate that his voice is so damn high it's reaching ultrasound. nvm.. let it remain my earworm.. *goes crazy in my head* oh and secondhand serenade too.. zzzz. somehow i keep remembering his songs although i dun really want to. his voice reminds me of so much. and with the tune a whirlwind of emotions tag along. unexplainable. rahh. nvm.

okok. guess ive said enough. shall go. nightssss.

cant wait to talk again. ((:

il divo.

2008-05-21T00:05:00.006+08:00

Follow your heart
Let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe in you

Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you can not do
I believe, I believe, I believe in you.
--

il divo and celine dion - i believe in you. can't stop listenin to it, it's really beautiful. sigh.. you know how some songs can bring tears to your eyes. this is one of em. not in an emo uncool way, but.. it's just so touching. beyond what words can describe. ((:

haha, awesome. mmm. thinks i'm currently experiencing a change in music preference, not that i no longer like my depressing ballads or soft rock songs (because they are really good for the ears hehe), but i guess it doesnt hurt to explore other genres of songs. and well, so far it's been good - i'm liking what i hear. i really enjoy songs that are uplifting and motivating. one that will push you on to achieve something better. something that one can only dream of. it's nice.

been tuning in to the radio stations too recently, am trying to catch up with the times.. HAHA. well, the only complaint i have is that they keep repeating the songs! which is kinda annoying really.. ohwell. and i must say, shan wee has improved in his dj-ing skills, quite a far cry from his previously awkward monologues.

so anw, my hands are shaking from my squash session today. rahh.. weak arms. i really hope i wont end up having parkinson's disease when im old. (choy.. touch wood tho) lol. tho i joke about it sometimes but it is still quite worrying, no? ohwells. shake shake shake it off.

so anw, i wanted to complain bout the rudeness of singaporean foodstall vendors, ESP aunties. and maybe uncles. sometimes, i wanna take a knife and just stab them mercilessly. i really dun understand why it is so difficult for them to practise some form of courtesy. why, is menopause weighing them down, along with their smiles?!!! honestly..

i think if you wanna be in a profession that includes interaction with people, you gotta at least have the decency to be a little bit friendly right? dun have to be over the top and engage in small talks all the time, but a simple smile or 'thank you's would be nice. zz. nvm. talk about being top notch in the service industry? we still have a long way to go. hopefully the young ones that are taking over will have some sophistication. this isnt ageism... it's just the sad truth.

lala~ so tired. yet awake at the same time. zz. 1.5 week of my break had passed. tho im kinda suffering from the boredom, i dun wanna go back to work. hahas. i wanna do something meaningful. perhaps some volunteer work! (: i should.. to rid myself of all that bad karma.. LOL. tsk, kidding. it's not for selfish reasons luh.

i wonder why my posts always look so much wordier than others. i think there's a problem with my paragraphing. ohwells.. will typing in point form will make the content less heavy? i duno. it does seem to work on some blogs.

gah.. so bored. maybe i should get back to watching PS i love you. heard it'll leave one sobbing like crazy. we'll see. haha. ciaos~

tho you'll not see this, every part of the song is for you. take care